Fears as The Blocks that Dumb Us Down…Facing, Processing, Mastering

Fears As The Blocks that Dumb Us Down…Facing, Processing, Mastering.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

Why face fear with our intention?

When I look away, and stay in denial I am withholding something as a form of awareness that is mine to own and to be transformed. When I ignore those feelings that are telling me that something is not right, I remain in ignorance. When I refuse to see all before me and inside of me with clarity and honesty my spectrum of choices become very limited.

For me to make the most informed choices and decisions about anything I need to have all the facts that are pertinent and without facing fear this is just not possible. Facing fear by way of what holds me back, no matter how vague or undefined it may be, brings up details that widen and deepen my capacity to be informed.

This information is significant in that what we are afraid of or what holds us back about anything, may contain valuable knowledge for personal and planetary growth.

Much knowledge is withheld from our waking consciousness through the walls of fear.

The Walls of Fear based thinking.

I can look around the planet and watch how so many people are emotionally investing themselves in these barriers. Walls of fear that we cycle around and around not really getting through them into the core of the issues. The dominance of fear based manipulation by people on this planet is wide-spread and used to control and prevent progress. My own  unseen fear, my own refusal, or denial to see within myself resonates outward. This resonate frequency within my vibration attracts those fear based scenarios to me. This is how we get hooked in to other people’s fear based programming. By side tracking our own issues.

Progress which transcends the dynamic nature of conflicts, and those of forces of polarization that keep people in massive states of disharmony. This disharmony that side tracks more individuals and perpetrates cycles of more dysfunction all through the human species. This is the “why” we question, and the “why” situations arise that are uncomfortable and have their roots in some form of unconscious fear. This is also how we can observe that we are socialized in fear based paradigms of belief. Unspoken social agreements lived out by passively participating without internal questioning results in the “”sheeple effect. (“Sheeple” = masses of people blinding following!)

Heart openings

When we drop into our hearts we activate our natural capacity to be caring. This energizes all our other potentials to be responsible, accountable and to seek, find, and orchestrate the larger pictures in our lives. We do this by refusing to engage in the smaller picture and moving into the larger one that holds the possibility, the solution for harmony. Harmony born of conflict. New ideas, revelations, and directions open up. Those things that had been held outside our awareness in the closed heart positioning common in the “sheeple effect”. When we clear our opposing positions and polarizing conflicts through deeper more meaningful information our possibilities for solving huge problems becomes substantially improved. Without it, or rather by staying in our own little states of vague, cloudy, confusing fear we perpetrate and prolong all manner of suffering. This is not too smart. This does not express wisdom. Our problems appear to not go away. When actually we are feeding the problems with our own unconscious choices.

Horror movies, murder and so on…

The urge to look at fear is spread all through society, perpetrated in our television and movie industry, written about on blogs, and books and focused on by every major news organization on earth. It is filled with both fearful real and artificial scenarios. Though these things are not all real, they act as attention grabbers where we can remain at a distance from our real, deeper unexplored subconscious fear. When we unconsciously participate in any forms of this we become controlled by fear in ways that prevent us from going beyond it… into our most precious pure awareness of knowing who and what we truly are.

Feelings of fear

We all have fears, however what we are afraid of may not be that.

We allow ourselves to be motivated by fear and this costs each of us some price on some level of our lives. There is that time in our personal growth where the maturity of self seeks to understand feelings of fear rather than continue in the repression, and falsity, limitation, and dumbing down that this incurs. We choose to be accountable. The price I have learned that I pay when I allow real internal unprocessed fear to exist without self-reflection and discernment is staggering. Limiting, and takes away energy that could be used in more productive life pursuits.

Calling upon inner strengths, and willingness to hold the idea that I can move myself past it.

I have found countless times that in passing through the dismantling of whatever is  built into my own subconscious mind, I learn that what I thought I was afraid was not actually something for me to stay fearful about, the feelings of fear were real, the object of my fear was not and so I learned that fear is not my endgame. It never is!

Facing fear has been a part of the awakening of my consciousness… leading me to discover there are plenty of other fields of knowledge still to be learned. Continuing the game of dumbing down has become so uncomfortable that the courage and strength inside me has risen up. This is a crucial turning point for anyone as this is when inner forces gather to generate power, more personal power with which to conquer the fear based emotions. This kind of inner power, is connected to the indwelling spiritual self and as such has long-lasting and profound effects on the development and the direction of our lives.

The paradigm shift towards inner power and self-generated authentic spirituality

The discovery of our more meaningful spiritual nature is exhilarating, sometimes surprising, and always re-balancing.

The increase of the spiritual self has the capacity to shift our physiology, adjust our mindsets , heal our emotional hurts, and much more. These adjustments to our human expression are the aspects of our species evolutionary impulses and not merely our individual growth. This process occurs universally regardless of the particular station in life any human being may hold. Growth is always potentially rich, and ever-present to be expressed. The collective awakening of our beliefs, our actions, and our reactions, our history, and the directions this is all taking is now in full throttle on a mass level.

Choosing growth instead of suffering. Choosing growth thru our suffering!

We are facing down our ridiculous, immature, and small-minded fear. That we live in a polarized world means that we may learn in two basic ways here. Positive or negative. At some point as we clear away what it is we have inherited by way of our birth it becomes unnecessary to have to learn in the same negative ways. We choose our growth, and our choice to be open to learn positively lessens and shortens the negative sting of our shortsightedness.

Getting Real

I find myself feeling less than the ideal picture of myself whenever I malinger in my fears without inquiry. This less than ideal within drives me in a negative way and does not let up until I move into and through those things that scare me or that which holds me back and limit me. The negativity messages move around in my body detracting from my happy places until I act upon them to discover, process, and release the hold this puts on me.

There is real intention that rises up from the deeper places inside me driving me to pay attention to my own limiting fear based ideas, beliefs, and past experiences. The urge or deeper intention within me to face these things leads me to places where I have discovered that i felt  controlled beyond my own desire to be controlled. This deeper urge is a positive message and generates whole new possibilities that negative reactions do not.

And controlled by outside influences, whether they be societal, religious, moral, political, violent, and oppressive to name a few. The idea that an idea or belief that is not intrinsically from me, or is actually a part of me having a control factor over me or within me is very uncomfortable and I find even abhorrent. The nature of a less than spiritual congruence, undermining of deep strength, and loss of energy that arise from fears that have taken hold in the psyche is unacceptable to me. And so it is I find myself in a life long quest to discover, dismantle, disengage, and release myself over and over and over again. This requires an intentional follow through in my thoughts, deeds, actions to come to some inner peace within myself about anything that has fed a conscious or unconscious scared fearful feeling.

Physical fear held in the body and how it is depleting us.

Underneath the chattering mind and its negative  reasons for how things are the way they are those unchecked levels of fear that undermine the authenticity of self. Loss of drive, loss of energy, and the aches and pains, repetitive self-injury in the physical body can all signal unresolved feelings that I have held based on my beliefs about myself, beliefs about reality that are fear based and  held outside normal waking consciousness, rather there is a split inside us called the subconscious.

As a remedial massage therapist trained in practicing therapeutic bodywork with clients who present symptoms all the time I have learned to have a vigilant eye on how fears might be behind physical symptoms that repeat. As a transpersonal hypnotherapist I have seen how injuries that repeat, and frustrations about the body that arise from these pains, and loss of energy is a common symptom that alerts me to unconsciously held fear. The remarkable thing about this subject is the split we humans have in our consciousness…inside  our subconscious. We are learning to know more of ourselves in this current time line. Our subconscious is becoming conscious. And our vague unknowing is being replaced with real knowledge.

That our inner awareness can be running programs of fear simultaneously while we are loving, living, and engaging in all other aspects of our lives naturally is quite a paradox. This is very easy to see as an observer. This is an indication of how we split. (our disconnects )

Listening with clients I have found myself being prompted many times to open up dialogues that express fears. In this way providing outlets for the trapped energy to be released out of the body in some small way. Sometimes there comes the AHAA, and we recognize some aspects of a limiting thought or feelings that is actually based in fear and h holding a person back. These dialogues open up the withheld dynamics that are signaling inside as pain, and release to our awareness valuable new pieces of info that propel us forward. We learn to add to our self-knowledge like how a child puts together a puzzle. For this reason each step we take, each new data point adds to our overall return to wholeness. This is how sharing our stories and listening to one another will diffuse the momentum inside and cause us to hear ourselves.

The value of physical incarnation and the brilliance of how our physical bodies are designed.

I honestly see the physical body as a translator for the spiritual being within it. Translating all manner of mental, emotional, spiritual content.

When fears are anchored into the subconscious minds, they live in the body physical and exert their influences by way of pains, injuries and limitations. Patterns of self-injury, sabotage, and malingering unresolved maladies. The withheld potential that is inherent in a life situation remains unexpressed and dormant as an actual energy in the body. Without processing completely what it is we are learning on these various levels of our consciousness we experience all kinds of messages that go nowhere, circulating inside our tissues,organs and physiology. Shifting our capacity to experience our physical potentials.

I have found it fascinating to observe in the reality TV shows where people are losing weight just how this comes up for every person. At some point in their process there are emotional, attitudinal issues that arise usually from unresolved past histories. The intensive work out programs and deepening into physicality eventually reveal what is stored inside the body. Everyone has a story of some kind that they have been living, some pain that has held them back. They learn to come face to face with these issues in the body and transcend their previously held ideas. Not until they pass through the breakdown of the psychic walls inside them, and feel out all their feelings do they get to the deeper truth that is within them. This is a universal theme! Our stories are not finished because we stopped in fear sometime, somewhere, someway. Our stories do go on. And we learn how to rewrite them in new and better ways.

I cannot even count the number of times I have shared in dialogue with a client over the past 35 years of my practice when I recognized these kinds of disconnects in their faces. It is all too common that as I point out how what we think and feel within us is directly translating through us and put this into context with a particular issue a client is presenting to me with their physical body that I get blank stares, moments of disconnection, confusion, and rapid fire changing of the subject.

Our recent human histories.

We have been very out of touch with what we hold subconsciously inside ourselves and this is dramatically shifting as we learn to open and remember what was once held outside our waking awareness. Unaware of the fact that everything is connected inside us on different levels, and how it is with our minds that we separate it all. We can always choose to nurture our experience of connected-ness by choosing to drop into our hearts to find answers that are outside the intellectual mind!

Our sport, and medical models are so externally based that the connection to interior places in our feelings and thoughts contributing to how our physical bodies are functioning are typically minimized…  and minimally associated to the symptoms our bodies are expressing. Perhaps thousands of times in this lifetime I have asked a client in the intake segment of our session after they have expressed to me what is wrong, their symptoms, the places in their body where there is a problem, “what do you think is the cause of this?” I get blank stares, immediate lines like “I don’t know”, and I recognize an immediate disconnect with the person and their physical body.

Steps to take towards personal enlightenment

On a personal level when I experience these same kind of vague, unknown symptoms in my body I go within.

I quiet myself and ask my body directly what it is saying to me.

What are the feelings I am having that I have yet to identify?

I allow myself to go deeper into what the symptoms feel like and I stay within those feelings until I find answers.

I wait for words and pictures to tell me about what it is that is arising inside me that I am totally disconnected from but are expressing physically.

This is an amazing process that often leads to uncovering deeper fears in the human psyche that are running my life without my conscious knowledge. In this way my awareness serves my body, and my body expresses the deeper parts of myself with which I am about to integrate and learn all about. The resulting outcomes are a wider spectrum of emotions, feelings, thoughts, and beliefs and ideas. All of which add to my self-knowledge. And ultimately freeing me to be more independent and self-sovereign.

Our physical bodies are actually vehicles, vehicles to translate reality.

Our physical bodies are not what we were taught they are…. Translators of energy! Our brains are not the origins of our thoughts, the mental realm… pure thought is!

I know this as I have traveled outside my body many times in this life and I did not have a brain when I did so, yet I had mental thoughts. Our brains translate the thoughts we hold inside the energy body which is the real self this is within our mental field. Our feelings do not originate only in our physical body, they are coming from our emotional field.

Very interesting in my work I have often encountered feelings that have no substance whatsoever in the present day events, yet they present in the body. Memories are such that there is not any real physical thing now happening, yet all the feelings are there coming out of the emotional field of our spiritual substance and being expressed in the physical body!

Paradigm flips.

Once I realized that my body was translating material my entire paradigm shifted and I began the path of awareness that leads me to knowing myself not just as a body, but as a spiritual being having a human experience living within a physical form! Whenever we uncover a new paradigm we start all over from a new perspective. This new way of seeing things places all the components of our questions into a new order and whole new pictures start to evolve. This is how what is called the “higher mind” aspect of ourselves begins to integrate. This takes time and often will result in needed rest, naps, and or longer periods in solitude and reflection. a much more sophisticated mental awareness develops!

Our bodies carry information that is passed to us from our ancestors via genetic coding.

Our choices in the present moment about this information can switch on and off the different components of our DNA, and we can activate whole new genetic pieces of information this way.

I found it fascinating that in recent genetic studies with identical twins born with the same exact genes, checked 20 years later those exact genes were different. They no longer carried the same genetic messages as they did when they were born. This was attributed to the differing choices that each twin made and these choices switched on or off certain genetic messages.

The Soul

I have also discovered how the soul choice for a physical body creates our experiences. In that the levels our soul needs to learn choose the DNA starts and potentials in the family of origin we are born into. This assures a particular focus for the incarnation and protects the soul intentions to learn specific things, and express in certain ways. the choices we make with what we have is more important than the actual content, once we get going with each life time. Those choices determine what DNA switches on and off through out our lives! The question becomes for me “what more can I switch on inside my genetic code through my choices?”

Fear as a defining character trait…do we really want this?

Whether you know it or not your fear becomes a defining character trait. As horrible a wake up call can be I truly learned how true this is.

In my discussions with clients and friends over the years, and my own personal inner reflections, I have observed how it is we actually defend our fears when exposed, or confronted. This defense is part of an inner dynamic within us that we use to logically suspend ourselves because of our resistance to change. And that resistance to change is actually our resistance to process because of our discomfort.

Our resistance to process our fears has an element of  terror and as such holds us back from our purest selves… the core spirituality that is us on the deepest levels of our being. These postures are held in check by the smaller parts of ourselves…. our ego’s!

As humans we live in so many agreements that have been put into place when we are in our earlier egoic developments. We grow up unaware that we do not see the greater value in a more mature self honesty. A self-honesty that pierces through the illusions, logical fears, and limiting beliefs we have learned to be complacent to or comfortable within ourselves. Thus we become shaped by these fears as people. As groups, and as nations and finally as a species!

Whenever I catch myself defending my fear… I say good. It is a really good thing to notice. Because there is unconscious thinking inside those defenses. I want to get to those things. In my past when I stayed in denial, my relationships would point out the hidden things inside my defenses and I would become even more defensive, distant, and combative. This is a common occurrence with loved ones, family members and people who know us. They see what we do not about ourselves. I have learned to observe and listen to myself better. This cut down on many outer problems my own unconsciousness was causing.

Our many masks. Why the masks we wear need defining.

These fear based character developments masquerade in our lives as all kinds of things they really are not.

They become entrenched in our sense of personal self, our ego structures and lead to what I call… ego take overs. ( see previous writing on the topic of Ego Takeovers)

Ego take overs take over many of the other components of our character and dominate our personalities. Thus we have all the power issues in the world manifesting now. Clashes of power,

power take overs,

stealing of power,

power mongering,

power plays.

Loss of power…

The political, social climates of our world are virtually filled with these situations. We can learn to observe the many faces in the world society of these ego driven forces and learn to refocus on our own sovereignty by learning to do what is called “inner work” . This inner work acts as a buffer and stops the resonate field of attraction which generates more of the same. We have the choice to detoxify our selves. Much of what is arising now is very toxic. Providing a perfect setting for clearing and much-needed healing. Learning to face the masks we all wear and discover the greater self underneath!

It is interesting to me how this happens so naturally in humans. When we are invested in fear, we masquerade it as something else. This is so common in my experience that I have learned to tread lightly in the therapeutic setting with clients. (And I have found myself doing the exact same things) I find myself gob smacked whenever I encounter myself in a masquerade, as I usually did not even realize I was acting out some kind of role, instead of expressing myself authentically.

Social agreements that support fear

Simply watching what is reported as news each day reveals to me the tremendous amount of social agreements we invest into that support fear and how easily people will believe the masks so many wear.

Fear that we actually create and perpetrate by socially allowing ourselves to emotionally invest into these dramas. I watch as politics are used to sway people and hold them in fear. I watch as religion leaders use fear to sway people and hold them in fear.

I watch as scientists group together and promote their versions of reality and this sways people and holds them in fear, disconnected from the broader real reality of the cosmos.

I watch as business such as pharmacology perpetrate fear that hold people outside the greater truth of their bodies and our inner capacity to heal ourselves.

Sport

While sport has many valuable sides to it like personal development, learning about the human body, camaraderie, goal setting along with achievement on an individual level.

I question some of the elements of organized sports and look into the darker side of what we have created on a social basis.

I watch as sport enthusiasts use sports to drive their own egotistical agendas, make money, and promote the use of sport as a well-meaning, healthy human character trait. Yet I ask myself how healthy is it when someone always must lose?  ( perpetrating “either/or ” binary style of thinking.) The perpetration that competition is always healthy  can and does become over emphasized and dominates our societal agreements leading us into many habitual forms of behavior and becomes a lingering subconscious strategy to maintain  masses of people in mindsets of subjugation and conflict .

Subjugation as in agreements that support  human values of superiority, dominance, win/lose strategies, control, over powering, and so on… all in good fun? Yea right! Not actually, these strategies, these habits hold humans in forms of thinking of limitation outside the grander spectrum of human capability and cause patterns of repeating over and over again.. I find it crazy. These styles of thinking overlap into other areas of life with much consequence to our relationships.

The themes of dominance, over powering, and profiting that flow over into business, personal relationships, and basic human living do not embrace the large spectrum of universal spiritual values necessary to generate a world where everyone, and everything is evenly distributed. The huge imbalance of human resources, time, energy, and planetary goods remains constant. As a species we do not always see how our very thoughts and feelings overlap to each other, and across the world. Our thinking is what charges these situations with energy and so this is where it goes.

Group fear and petty tyrants, ego take overs, and control maniacs

Whole nations, global religious organizations, large segments of populations all over the world are living in group fears of all kinds. Loss of services  and resources, proliferation of war, lack of food, political oppression, political control agendas, domination, stifling of creativity. It is obvious to me that this is greatly out of balance, is not working, has not worked for generations. I refuse to invest my own personal energy into any forms of ego based policies, take overs, or agendas being fed to us under the many masks of good will. The un-balancing of human resources alone, the perpetual states of conflict, and the sheer levels of human poverty do not express the real values of spiritual wellness.

Petty tyrants that run banks, run businesses, run local governments, run their military all exert influences that seek control of some kind at us. The proportion of our world society that is held in some form of bondage, or subjugation and control is overwhelming. The few that exert dominance, conflict and control on the many is staggering. Money alone as a system on this planet serves the few while making workers out of the many. The levels of corruption, lies, deceit, and misuse that are coming to light now reveal the larger aspect of how money has been used for centuries to exert a “worker-force” of humans to supply the few. It is abhorrent to me how we have learned to accept this as normal. As a spiritual being I find myself pulling out of and away from any and all of the societal agreements we have around the value of money in this way. My personal value in life has nothing to do with how much or how little I have. This situation has undermined the basic spiritual value of an entire species of spiritual beings on this planet for thousands of years. I wonder how long it will continue! This is simply pure distortion!

Our group consensus to perpetrate fear under the guise of heroism, good will, with overt and covert tyrannical systems is like a virus in our human species. One for example is warring. That our government has perpetrated some form of war for 200 hundred years shows me that someone is adamant about making money, having control, dominating others, thwarting resources and really doesn’t care very much about the common man and woman, and child.

The amount of resources used in perpetrating war machinery  overrides every other aspect of our social and group well-being. At the expense of all of us, this planet, and the animals! Those behind the scenes of this are what I call control maniacs.

They represent themselves as just the opposite and want us to believe it. I do not. I refuse to accept that war, dominance, and submission are character traits that I want to live by. I refuse to buy into the many political agendas that perpetrate war, rather  I look at the real causes of oppression, suppression, and the unbalanced proportion of goods all over the world. Power issues are only the tip of the iceberg.

People need basic materials to have a happy, enriched environment with which to create life. How these factions of war mongering continue to fracture, break up, and pit one people against another is truly an ego maniac dream come true, filled with psychopathic leaders and their ego take over completely selfish agendas!

When oppressive societies rise up and individuals begin to feel their sense of true sovereignty.

I find it fascinating how forces of government, political leaders, religious leaders and teachers will exert power over whole groups of people anytime they attempt to exert real personal choice, personal sovereignty! I am not so certain that all the people who participate in carrying out these things actually realize what they are doing. Their own unconsciousness is often something they do not realize, as they would not truly do to other humans what they are doing to them? Would they if they were not brain washed, and driven by their own subconscious programming?

I mean, what the heck are those guys up in the sky thinking when they fill the sky with chem-trails? They are not, they are not thinking. There is a disconnect!

There is tremendous unconsciousness here, and yet this is a good example of how people are controlled through fear and do not even know they are! How many people just want to keep the bread on the table?  My sense is the majority of people perpetrating these actions would not do it were they connected, and self realized as spiritual beings having this human experience. There is a huge degree of human brainwashing and hypnosis in all this negative behavior.

Real fear as a warning, discernment about all our fears. Know the difference!

When fear is a signal of distress, danger, and there is a need for real action to address this, fear is a discernment we all must learn to make. We have to and must pay attention!There is real fear and there is false fear!

Fears that are self-generated, or inherited, or educated into us without real basis are some of the kinds of discernment up for re deciding. Safety and harmony are maintained when we take care of the dangerous aspects of life. I am in no way thinking that we must eliminate, ignore, or disengage with fear. Simply put I want to define it and reveal the actual causes of it in myself and then make appropriate choices. How real is what I am fearful, though my feelings are real, it is a discernment to realize. So much of what we think we need to be afraid of is not that at all.

Family fear and how we perpetrate these fears. Our starting points in life.

Unconscious programming is passed thru us via our behaviors and experiences within our families. Each family has a different perspective it is living out with themes, patterns, and directions. Our soul choice to incarnate into the particular family we are born into has much to do with these things. Frequently we come into these families as starting points for our need to learn as spiritual beings, and then we will transcend those conditions. By willingly going along with family patterns of fear based beliefs we perpetrate them to the next generations. My own experience of this is dramatic. There was a time when I pulled away from my birth family as the most loving thing I could possibly do for myself and there were those who insisted I was doing the exact opposite. It took years for some of them to realize the loving choices I made to disengage from family dynamics that I felt were toxic.

Family carries stories. Our stories carry our family based fears and we pass these along to our children and they pass them on to theirs whenever we allow ourselves to submit and perpetrate these histories. We do this as a kind of family character trait and act as if it is all normal. I choose to catch myself doing this as much as I can and to regroup, reevaluate, and re-decide at any time I need to. And our genes hold these stories and bring up inside us all the emotional patterns of our birth families. By way of conscious knowledge and better choices once we realize what our emotional patterning is we may, we can change this. This will switch on and off different genetic messages within us. Redirecting our future possibilities. We all have observed family members sharing the same emotional genetic patterning choosing differently and then having different outcomes because of how they choose to deal with these patterns.

Fear mongering

Fear mongering is the deliberate act of causing, exaggerating and repeating harm using fear based tactics to achieve control. Using fear to persuade people through their vulnerabilities and cause splits, divisions and chaos. This fear mongering engages us the more we are out of touch with our own inner sense of self. Otherwise this will distract. Fear mongering as a distraction tactic is widely used to actively engage in covert activities all over the world. Much of the contents of our daily news is filled with this kind of fear tactic. Driving the attention of billions of people away from their inner sense of authentic attention to what is real and focusing them on danger. It is a basic, primal feeling that has all of us to paying attention to danger and not going inside to our hearts for solutions. Fear mongering using this innate sense to manipulate and control while redirecting our attention to what may actually be happening. This is an effective method to use in order to dissuade real connection and inner self-awareness in humans. Many individuals are participants in this method and do not realize it. Not only are there serious political activities like this there are marketing ones too. The use of fear mongering in religious doctrines alone control billions of people without them having a clue.

Fear hidden in religious doctrines, dogmas, and how we learn to submit

Threats about the after life that cause harm and submission! If you do this then you will go to hell. If you do that you will go into a bottomless pit for eternity, if you express yourself in any way not keeping with the dogmas and doctrines of many religious teachings you are told you will have to suffer and burn in hell.

This is a distortion of the truth.

I know because I have visited the hell’s associated with this world with my spiritual guides in my own out-of-body experiences. I learned how we ourselves create hell. God does not do this to us. Nor was there a hell created for this purpose. The hell and damnation taught by religious doctrines and dogmas has been perpetrated as a fear mongering method to control people. This is a twisted version of the actual reality.

What I learned was that there is a natural law of the cosmos called action and reaction. This action/reaction causes us to experience the effects of our own negative actions as a means of learning something. Thus it is true that what we put out comes back. We are the source, on some level of whatever we experience. Everything returns to source and that includes source within each one of us!

The hell’s I visited developed out of the accumulations of millions of thoughts of people stuck in negative scenarios after they left their bodies at the moments of death. This caused a widening in the field of this planet that is called the astral realm. I saw, felt, and witnessed the horrible and very sad states of individuals in these places. Places that feel just as real as here once you are in them. But one very valuable aspect of this experience that I observed many times was how the consciousness of the person shifted in these hell’s. Once there became an opening out of the despondent hopeless nature, and self punishing, twisted sense of self, release happened.

This release would manifest according to the belief system of the person in the hellish bondage. If they were Christian… then an angel, or Jesus would extend a holy light to them and pull them out. If their belief system was directly connected to their core spiritual nature, their own inner light would pull them out. We call this redemption. It is a kind of resurrection of the individual. I watched as they rose out of the planes of suffering into more planes of harmonious light. As I watched this I could feel the nature of the darkened planes as those of self-created miseries. It was an obvious thing to see there. I also experienced my own aspect deep within a hell of this kind and the awful state of despair and powerlessness. I also experienced the uplifting release and transformation of that aspect of me. It is an experience never to be forgotten, as the return to true spiritual self is beyond words in description…. it is ecstatic and joyful!

The same experiences hold true for us on this plane. Not as extreme here on Earth, as when you leave your body and completely immerse yourself in a hell. But the dynamics of the miseries, the suffering, the pain that we unconsciously generate stay with us until we learn to shift. And shift into a better state. Probably just about every human alive has at one time or another descended into their own living hell on earth. And then rose out of it. Coming out of our own hell’s, when we finally make it out we bring with us tremendous new awareness’s. We integrate new compassion’s, new love, new understandings. It is an amazing experience. We have our descents and our ascents through our fears. We need to notice how this works and direct ourselves appropriately with understanding about how nature really functions. I have replaced my old beliefs in religious doctrines and dogmas of hell and damnation, pain and suffering with my experiences of how it really works.

Love is the dominant, prevailing, and omnipresent force not damnation and hell.

Most of the people who perpetrate these doctrines do so out of their belief in them, not their personal soul experience. If they were truly connected to the indwelling soul self they would not subject others to this method what so ever. Loving accountability, action and reaction and truthful telling of how the spiritual nature of the cosmos would be the teaching. Many pure little children have been subjected to these teachings at times when they themselves were at their purest and most vulnerable places in life. These teachings go deep into the psyche and then go underground into the subconscious mind as adults.

I worked with this particular issue of religious programming as a therapist. Working with people who had chronic sickness. Working with people who had deep complicated issues that traditional therapy was not reaching. In my hypnotherapy practice I studied and practiced religious deprogramming techniques designed specifically to address the issues I mentioned above. I was astonished to observe in clients the highly charged, emotionally based fear doctrines taught to them as children. Internalized so completely as a result of continuous repetition by well-meaning care givers. Internalized so deeply that these teachings replaced the actual inner voice of the adult. The result was an inability to authentically express their deeper unsettling emotions. The locks inside the psyche that went into place that prevented these adults from access to their genuine anger, sadness, fear and intrinsic inner truth along with  countless other emotions was riveting.

Pointing out the falseness of these teaching while accessing the authentic emotions underneath them accessed much-needed inner power and resolve to tackle the real problems associated with chronic sickness and debilitating mental and emotional states. The unresolved emotional landscapes underneath the physical symptoms.  I watched as client after client went into remission or passed beyond the horrendous difficulty in their therapeutic process. The transformations were miraculous. Once a person regains authentic inner connection to real feelings, and develops the awareness of discernment and learns to articulate and express genuine feelings the entire physical body responds in kind.The mental landscape of the individual clears out ! And a whole new level of homeostasis develops. A completely empowered and authentic spiritual nature moves in to replace the false, toxic belief system and the person is restored!This is a sight to see with your own eyes as the transformation is magnificent, truly magnificent!

Submitting and suppressing our most precious pure selves. The loss of true identity!

What we lose sight of by investing into fear based thinking is our most precious pure self. That is that in us that is below the surface of everything in the core. The core self. When we allow fear to guide our actions we lose the natural effectiveness of our precious pure self and that fear based thinking reshape all our actions and shifts the outcomes and directions of our lives.

To return to our most pure self is a beautiful and powerful experience where we become congruent inside us. We stop splitting ourselves up and conflicts become resolved more effectively, more naturally, more rapidly.

Loss of spiritual integrity, soul integrity, and connection with all of life

When we lose our inner connections in these ways we allow ourselves to make choices out of fear alone we lose sight of the natural spiritual integrity inherent in any situation. The fear masks many details of authentic  spirituality and as such twists and distorts authentic experiences of that which is spiritual. Our soul integrity is held at a distance while our ego based thinking engaged in fear directs our lives.

This cuts up the true interconnection we all have with one another and with life. And for this reason we prevent ourselves from seeing the larger picture. There is some fear controlling a person whenever there is a loss of connection to this large aspect of life. Distance from soul self generates feelings of powerlessness, loss, loneliness, and separation. Anxiety takes the place of our true loving spiritual presence. Repeating levels of anxiety of this kind can signal the need to question what it is we are afraid of and why. Tensions that do not resolve themselves take the place of authentic inner calm.

How fear limits attention, limits awareness, and takes away from creativity

Unconscious fears limit our capacity to pay attention to deeper more significant information that is available to any of us. Fear limits our awareness by dumbing down our awareness and limiting it . Differences are difficult to accept and this undermines our creativity. Without creativity we are doomed to repeat and repeat our life situations generating cycles of frustration and powerlessness. For this reason intentionally facing what holds us back is very important. We have the capacity to unlock all of our conundrums through the choices we make to step out of our fears and work towards dismantling their limiting effects.

We hide from fear, fear notions are designed to hide from us
We avoid fear…. no… we actually hide from it. And likewise our fears seem to hide from us. It is a great cat and mouse game humans play. This hiding from our fears cause set backs and repeating situations to occur over and over again. Cycles of repetition become the norm. A powerful spiritual message surfacing in the masses today is STOP HIDING! It is not necessary to hide your true self, your real emotions, and your deepest longings. Reveal to yourself! Let yourself come undone, or be undone. It is your choice how painful this will be. Whenever I notice a part of myself hiding I bring in love. Fear parts of ourselves cower in darkness, and misunderstanding. Inner conflicts are the results as these parts hold back the natural creative depth of our true inner selves. Loving oneself at this point is a mandatory step. Millions of people are now learning all over again how to love themselves and each other. We are learning to let love in, to let love guide, to let love have its way with us. This is a truly transformational thing to realize. Going through it feels miraculous and amazing. Where it is leading is unknown.

How in charge can you be when you are submitting to fear?

Not too much, though it may appear like it temporarily. Petty tyrants are the best example of this one. I have had my share of them. And I always learn to much. The thing is petty tyrants remain in the conditional states of their own fear based agendas, while those who finally get away, or out from them actually move forward in the life. Without the fear! This has been a liberating experience for me to observe and grateful I have been many times after releasing myself from these controls.

How loving can you be when you are submitting to fear?

Not to your full potential that is for sure. Love has a powerful way in life. Love, real love will usually teach us, lift us, release us from the limiting conditions of our previously self-created fear and transforms. How life looks to you may signal the real truth of your love. I always check this with myself. Am I free? If not I know that I have a way to go in the love departments. Without true inner freedoms my love is still conditional and controlled.

Splitting the human into pieces and how this detracts from our greater experience of  truth

Loaded subconscious thoughts and feelings that overtake our lives is what this looks like. The more unconscious material I can make conscious the better. There is a timing to this which protects the personality so that we do not become completely over taken by the subconscious. However much of our lives is still being governed by it. These splits are manifested outwardly in the splits we see around us in our humanity. The splitting, division of our species now undermines our collective experience of having truth as a whole planetary body. Imagine how it will be when the entire species has reached that quantum level. How differently the whole world would be. For this reason I do my part, with myself. I cannot do yours. We each have our own part in this unfolding process of life.

Committing to healing our fear consciously by choosing not to let it suppress you

The result of facing fear in myself has developed a commitment. A commitment to not suppress. This shifted all my relationships and was at that turning point a huge pivoting of my life expression. Choosing not to suppress myself required a whole new set of boundaries in all my relationships. These new boundaries moved people around in my life. Move me around as I found myself attracted to or repelled in new ways. I learned to take in much consideration to those closest to me so as to not be offensive. And to allow more time and space for them to process how it is I was choosing to be. The most significant thing though has been how many new people came into my life. These new people had different expectations, different boundaries, and were focused in more mutuality.

The breaking of hypnosis in the human collective

The dismantling of the false layers of self, the false beliefs, the false social agreements, the false ideas associated with so many aspects of our humanity are revelatory. I am less of a follower of others. Yet I am in good company. With more people following their inner soul voices, there is a remarkable stability among-st the chaos. There is a bonding, and understanding. There is a mutual recognition, and willingness.

The returning to Source

All returns to source. This is life. This is reality. This is how the cosmos runs. This is in effect here on this planet. What returns to source can be transformed, transcended, and completely transmuted. We simply need to remember that each person here is a point in Source! And that everything in everyone is returning to that source point, the source we share. The great paradox to get over is: we are one, we are many. Source within each of us is having this experience.

The direct experience of Source is Unmistakable. I could write a chapter on this alone. i have had the experiences of Source within me and i have traveled so far beyond the known universe into the the great cosmic sun,  the source for our own galaxy, our own universe. The love that this source has is beyond description, beyond words, beyond even holding so great a love it is! It fuels whole universes that to my observation was beyond comprehension.  For now I will say that the best experience of facing what holds me back, the fears is the experiences of the source-field, the amazing brilliant intelligence and love that is source. Within and outwardly, this is truly an amazing experience of living life as a spiritual being having a human experience. The fulfillment of all things, knowledge restored, and connection enhanced. The full circle moments, and the endless opportunities to get it right. It is all worth it. Every single bit!

Core Spirituality, my personal journey

Turning Points, What are they? And Why?, Core Spirituality, my personal journey

Turning Points, What are they? And Why?, Core Spirituality, my personal journey

Turning points are the accumulations of experiences we have which gain momentum and propel us into new information. Our thoughts and feelings drive us toward action. These thoughts and feelings have substance, and as such they have momentum. The growing momentum in our thoughts and feelings develop fullness. This fullness carries power. The power of our momentum drives us forward or backward as each experience unfolds. When we develop a sense of complete fullness we pass through turning points.

This occurs whether this is totally private and inward and moves us seemingly without outer consequence, yet it is the very weight of our internal choices, dwellings upon, that will cause events in our externalized life to become triggered. Externally we can easily see how actions we take bring forth outcomes that cause us to turn.

Turning points as crisis

crisis is the turning point in our lives. As the nature of crisis being upsetting to the existing conditions and the facing off of opposing or highly charged differing points of view. I have learned to embrace crisis for the real significance it carries…. we have arrived at a turning point. Whenever we allow ourselves to be frozen, overwhelmed, over taken, and upset by the drama within the crisis we undergo a kind of metamorphosis. Things begin to change shape. To become stuck in this aspect of the dynamic of a turning point can prolong suffering, and hold off the changes about to occur. I watch as people stay stuck in dramas of all kinds without moving on and thus with hold the power of meeting up to their turning points in life and the upcoming new possibilities yet to show themselves. This is particularly true in our relationships. Work dynamics, and states of personal evolution. Thus to take on the notion that crisis is actually a turning point for our own development is a wise choice to make. And then to open to learn what this all means as it unfolds.

Humanity is within such a time as a species and as individuals. Huge groupings of people are sharing in the experiences of great turning points in life, without realizing this all that is left is the drama, and drama alone is not enough to stabilize the conditions that arise in these crisis’. Darker forces of unloving unconscious people hook in and can take advantage of these very vulnerable zones. When we see how unconsciousness plays a part in suffering in this way we can take back our selves by learning to let the drama of crisis move us forward and see where it leads. Refusing to be taken advantage of at this time is crucial. Yet it continues on the world stage. We need to wake up! Stop investing into the dramas and utilize the momentum of these turning points to develop ourselves, develop awareness, and to put an end to victimization. The experience of crisis is enough on its own for anyone. We can and are healing much of what it means to be human through taking care of our crisis points, our turning points!

Turning points as realizations

the dynamic turn of events in turning points redirect our attention so that we open up to new realizations. These realizations have meaning for each of us. Whether we are an observer or we are dead smack in the middle of a great turning point. Realizations charge our attention with new thoughts and feelings that need to be processed so that important decisions will be made. These decisions that we make are what will catalyze the outer world into the transformation awaiting each of us. Paying attention to our realizations can have tremendous power for each of us as we live out each day. Truthful sharing and recognition of what it is we are realizing is how we as a group, as a species, move all of us along. We are many yet one in this case and what any one of us decides at these turning points affects the group in some way.

Confusions and chaos may signal a new turning point

I like to re frame my notion of confusion and chaos as new information arriving. Not just confusion as we typically have been programmed to hold it. Confusion and chaos is a signal that differing forces are arriving to our awareness that need attention. When confusions hold a lot of charge to them this can be the signal that we have arrived at some kind of turning point. A larger perspective, a bigger turn of events may be about to arrive. Thus holding confusion with diligent awareness to details, and possibility for learning is potent. Often we will discover something new that has escaped our attention, and needs to be addressed. I use my own confusion to untangle, unravel, or decode some elements of thinking, or perception that are not quite in line with a larger picture or truth that is up for me to realize. In this way there is only minimal victimization and maximum awareness.

The wisdom of observing self

The closer we become to developing independent self observations the more capable we are of understanding our turning points. One important component of self observation is learning how to see our mind. See our thoughts, feel our feelings and to step back, disengage from the intensity of merging our entire being into our minds. The intellectual mind is limited. Getting out of your mind can be the healthiest thing to do in many situations. The thinking mind wants to think it is in total control of everything, when reality is… it is not. Self observation acts as a buffer to this overwhelming experience of being over taken by ones thoughts. And provides levity to the overall awareness within us. Self observation can be cultivated passively through various practices of meditation, prayer, and actively while we are going through our day. In this way we can learn to use the mind as a translator for deeper thoughts inside us, deeper realizations that have yet to fit into our outer awareness or thinking. Yet ripe to be developed.

The knowledge that is real inside you

Knowledge that is inside each of us is real. This is a big realization as we shift from the habits of leaning on others to know things. Converting our externally based leaning into internal ones shows us how we are actually receiving knowledge from within. That there have been forces active on this planet for generations now seeking to sway us from this is quite a wake up call. Familial, religious, social, educational, political forces…. to name a few have actively been engaging people to seek knowledge in memorization, rote learning, submission to rules and regulations, doctrines, and dogmas in an attempt to gain power over people. Yet what truly matters and ultimately makes the difference is the realization that knowledge is within.

The power of living off your own energy

The shift in energy we get when we live off of our own interior is dramatic. There is an unlimited source of spiritual power that will charge an individual with energy whenever we make the shift off of depending on, leaning into others for our knowledge. It can be quite draining to follow rules that don’t really feel authentic. It can feel powerless to believe all the knowledge is outside of you, and not within. Thus to begin the process of learning how to live off of your own interior, authentic power will activate new sources of energy that will be very surprising to many. This is a marvelous realization I have come to understand, and often I thought in my mind things are impossible and really they are NOT!

Accessing the power of turning points

The momentum we personally achieve by way of shifting our awareness inward and learning to access our own interior sources of energy and power can fuel turning points. Joining these two forces, inner energy with outer turning points provides the larger more necessary fuel needed to make a break-through. Turning points draw lots of energy as the swirling of all the different forces contained in the conditions require huge strength to pass beyond. When we learn how to access turning points as positive energetic shifts we propel ourselves into much more capability. Capability in ways we are Developing for ourselves and adding to our spiritual knowledge.

maintaining equilibrium through chang

My favorite imagery for maintaining equilibrium through change is a tornado. At an earlier time in my life the course of events that were either in crisis, or in big time swirling around me was so huge my little self did everything just to hold on. Turning points can have huge impact on the personal levels of ourselves and really challenge us, challenge our sanity, and just about every aspect of being human. Thus as I was in a time such as this I found the image of a tornado came to me repeatedly. And I learned to see myself in that tornado. I leaned to see myself moving within it, in the still quiet of the center as it moved all around. I adopted the idea of being still on a moving point. This allowed me to continue in the process of changes occurring while maintaining an internal sense of balance. In time this became a very comfortable place for me.

Allowing what is arising as a choice for personal growth

By allowing I am implying that whatever arises I choose growth as the purpose for it all. Allowing is the act of submitting to the deepest part of myself. The deepest part of myself that holds the knowledge of my true spiritual direction and the unfolding wisdom in the events around me. To allow the deepest part of self to be the secure place to place my attention. In this way I have learned that no matter what… no matter what circumstances I must face, the ultimate outcome is a return to self, a return to greater realization and the deepening of my own authentic spiritual nature. And I have had to face tremendous negative elements in my lifetime… from dark demonic to ultimate betrayal to name a few of those circumstances. Allowing the deep in self to an energetic, interior source of resting, security, and ultimately power. This shifts dynamics all around and literally there has not been one issue with which I have not been able to face and come to a spiritual place with it. The interior choice to hold circumstances as opportunities for personal growth has catapulted the meaning and significance of everyday life into such amazing purpose.

Spiritual development and growth are the why

Spiritual growth is the “why?” we go through what we do. Plain and simple. Whenever I need an answer to a why question regarding my life and I have not received a specific response, I always get the answer is ….for my spiritual growth. This one shift in attitude has completely opened up my awareness into every aspect of human life. Without spiritual growth as the underlying purpose life conditions appear meaningless and in congruent. With it the possibilities are infinite.

Core spirituality within our turning points

Bringing core spirituality to my turning points in life has shown me how I fit into the larger picture unfolding. It has brought significant intuitive understanding, opened me when I was contracting and shutting down, connected seemingly separate situations and shown me how there is a larger picture to my life.

Life without meaning

The obvious alternative is life without meaning. And I have found myself in that place many times. Whenever I have made the choice to stay unconscious. Whether that choice was one I realized I was making or whether I had made it when I was unaware. Life without meaning is boring, frustrating, unhappy, broken and chopped up, and without joy. I have learned that whenever I experience these kinds of things I have looked away from being aware. It is a negative form of learning something very positive. In time I am learning to choose awareness, and this invites meaning.

The significance of learning to recognize the bigger pictures

While staying in an awareness of ego positioning, opposing points of view, conflicts, misunderstandings, prejudices, fixed bias’s keep a person in a little picture, a tiny box of awareness. Where pain and suffering grow. Where manipulations and power struggles are endless. The alternative is to learn to embrace, learn the significance of recognizing the bigger picture in any one situation.

Why we exist without remembering

We exist without remembering all these things as a self made set up… that is looking at it from a spiritual perspective. We temporarily undergo a kind of spiritual amnesia when we are born. We do this because we want to infuse our life circumstances with the absolute greatest possibilities for awakening. Our unconsciousness is only a starting point in any one situation. In reality this unconscious starting point is leading us to all our conscious turning points. Turning points where we do remember what we have forgotten as spiritual beings having a human experience. We remember our innate capabilities through the exploration of human conditions that ignite further knowledge and awareness. There really is such purpose in all things.

Leaving your turning points behind

Once we have encountered our turning points, been swirled around, turned upside down, inside out, and challenged beyond anything we emerge! We learn to leave behind so much human garbage, so much unnecessary drama, so much ridiculous thinking. We leave behind unproductive relationships, we release ourselves from toxic people, toxic life conditions. And we become free to re-create, re-direct, re-explore our lives with an authentic inner awareness of how much more meaningful it has all really been. And we cycle through these zones again and again coming up to new ones through out our entire life journey. This is the journey of soul into human form. This is the core spirituality experience of my life, and yours.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

The Challenges of the Soul Within the Physical Body… core spirituality, my personal journey

The Challenges of the Soul Within the Physical Body… core spirituality, my personal journey

The challenge of the soul inside the human body

The soul is actually the life force within the physical body.
The immensity and higher vibratory rate of the soul integrating into the physical form is one of the many challenges spirit has with the physical environment. The greater intensity of the soul is such that it can easily overload, burn out, and even destroy the physical form when there is too much soul substance present and there is not sufficient grounding in the body. I have felt the energetic increases of soul presence many times as I have graduated through the earth school. My own experience here shows me that as I learn to process, pass through, and transcend the limiting aspects of physical embodiment by facing the hardships and challenges my integral person drops those aspects for greater ones. These realizations are energetic increases to my self. Patterns of behavior, thinking, belief, along with family histories stored inside the body undergo transformations as the knowledge from experiences is translated creating new pathways inside the various systems in the body. The new experiences will eventually replace the older ones as each new realization takes place. Switching on and off DNA messages that rewrite the biological interior scripts inside our physical forms. Rewiring neural pathways and reeducating our cells.

The loss of illusion and false teachings

With the development of the many aspects of ourselves we learn from experiences to express truthfully what it is that is our particular focus through each embodiment. Significant to the process is the experiences of loss and specifically the loss of our belief and attachments to illusions and false teachings that we inherit, learn or adopt along the way. This may have a feeling of deflation along with feelings of losing ground, loss of direction, confusion, and misunderstanding. As one set of ideas makes its way out of us, the other moves in and for a time this can be unnerving. However that may be the release of the energy behind intentions that were grounded in illusions and false teachings then becomes free for redirection and requires new forms of self management. Whenever we discover through personal experience the living truthfulness of life and dismantle the falsity of life, we shift the entire paradigm for all human beings on this planet, and we make it possible for the greater expressions of our spiritual selves. In this way our embodiments take on the significance of spirituality that is connected to a larger, more complex universal system and the metaphorical doorways of life open in surprising new ways. Though the passing through times of realization and the release of illusion are not comfortable times, they are replaced with these new possibilities and it all becomes worthwhile. There is always more to go, further to travel, and still yet in the larger potentiality of life still to be discovered.

The human potential is actually the soul expression as human

Recognizing the vast capability of soulful expression is what human potential truly is becomes a vibrant discovery as the wider expressions of spirit come forth into being and how this is all interconnected in ways that confound the intellectual mindset. The soulful expressions of who we are when brought into this world weave and add the integrating and interconnecting purpose of life and this is discovered as we go. When we begin to experience the wisdom of something so much greater than ourselves directing, and integrating our lives the experience of living shifts dramatically. All of our senses become infused with more capability and our perceptions develop beyond our previous states. We become aware of what was hidden to us. The potentials become actual realities and the circumstances of our lives swing out into far reaching new directions. As the human potential develops with each of us so too does the collective human potential as no one person is truly alone, disconnected, or separate from the larger background and people of our lives. Everything and everyone is connected in some way, and we get to live this with real understanding and personal experiences.

The work needed to make room for my soul has been…

My inner work has been much about developing emotional awareness, intuitive realness and letting go. Each new learning along with each new letting go has made a space inside me that has created room for more soul expression and development. This is why and how it is so very important to do the emotional healing, emotional release, of feelings and cultivate the intuitive feelings.

The soul aspect as that which is the pure expression of source

The most pure aspect of what we are is the expression of soul as source. The undiluted, clear streaming, spontaneous expression of our hearts and mind and spirit blended together in the unique way in which our singularity is given permission to be. ( by permission I am implying our own consent as individuals to allow ourselves to grow to this point)

I find that we each hold a different perspective on this yet we are universal in the essence of the meaning. This differentiation is how source as ONE expressed in many forms gathers experience which adds to ITSELF as each of us.

The undoing of the self in human terms is often very scary, can be sad, and filled with unknowns until we allow the undoing to have its complete exercise within. The undoing of the tied up, oppressed, suppressed, limited, often false notions of which we have all participated. Results in a renewed purity. At one point in my undoing I became so completely empty and silent and still inside myself I hardly knew what to do. The immediate sense of nothing became so overwhelming I could hardly imagine what I was going to do next in my life. Until this state integrated more fully I was in a stupor of sorts seeing everything as if it was brand new. The simplest of sounds, the variations of sunlight, the spaces between objects all became imbued with a new tingling effervescent quality which then translated through me as peace, harmony, and intelligence in all things. I noticed how nothing is truly separate, everything is interconnected. From this new awareness I realized over and over again a pure expression of source within me. I know I was completely renewed. I actually felt and looked younger, and the entire trajectory of my life transformed. All my relationships changed, where I lived changed, and what I was doing in my life took on new meaning. The pure states of source within us, when untainted provide a context for everyone and everything that reveals how its all together, and reveals the deeper meaning. This translation took on many years of development as I learned to navigate my life in this new perspective. I eventually learned how to navigate with this increase of sensory input in my life, and I learned how to use it correctly for the good.

The massive frequency of spiritual being as soul in human form

The true intensity of the spiritual nature of each of us as spiritual beings is magnificent and far greater than ordinary awareness shows us as human beings. Holding on to the old way of seeing myself as a human being, and trading this for seeing myself as a spiritual being having a human experience gained a momentum that continues to this day. This momentum has revealed to me the larger aspect of us many times, personally and in my work. With this larger perspective of seeing us as spiritual beings first, and human as second the entire game of life here looks much differently. Particularly the strong emphasis we normally put on each other as humans in our relationships. From the spiritual seeing this took on for me a more gentler more understanding coexistence in my day to day interactions. Which changed much of the dynamics of my previous earlier lifestyle. When the immensity of soul is revealed to me I am always in awe. In awe at how much light, how large the soul actually is in a person, and how the person is really only a role, or a smaller expression of something much greater. This has shown me how to live in paradox when relating to people. Being able to see the soul, and the person/form simultaneously. Learning to see others as spiritual beings, as souls, instead of the roles, or persons they actually see themselves! Often I have urged, or stayed silent because of that which I have seen.

Integrating psychic skills, transcendent forms of communication with life in many forms

Living as a soul incarnate can call into a person psychic skills. These skills aid the person and everyone around them. Both in ways of taking action, and when not to take actions which are more appropriate for the actual soulful unfolding that is happening. These are the same senses and some more that we have as humans in a physical body, only now they become unlimited to the existing physicality as we know it. Seeing, hearing, smelling, sensing, all take on a larger role far beyond the limitations of physical sensory capability we are all trained to believe we have.

Highly developed psychic skills reveal many components of the soul including but not limited to past lives, spiritual relatives not existing on this plane in the same way we do, histories and past experiences which have led to a present moment, motivations hidden from the conscious mind, amazing information for me is how what we think and feel becomes translated into the cellular body. Showing me how a person’s thoughts, feelings, and past experiences both in this life and other lives are acting out in the body and manifesting certain ailments, challenges, or impulses today.

The awareness of the soul of babies and who they really are as souls, what their intentions are, and how to telepathically communicate with them is fascinating.

There are many powerful meridians on this planet, these are often places where temples have been built, I find these energetic spots in my travels and have felt the tremendous connection they provide as they move through this planet.

The intuitive feelings to start new adventures, take on new relationships, and to release old ones is valuable as this psychic information far exceeds the intellectual mind process.

There are many many components of psychic skills we all have within us to bring forward, and its my experience that we are undergoing a collective shift within our species now as there are so many turned on souls here living from their genuine soul consciousness in every walk of life. Truly amazing.

Communications with many forms of life take on value as we learn to understand pets, I love how this works as I have seen how the minds work in pictures and feelings and how dogs and cats have their own agendas in our lives, their own needs, and wants. I find it very interesting to interact with animals with this awareness as there is such a fuller, richer exchange. Also there is a lot of natural joy in animals that we miss when we do not see them in totality as spiritual being themselves, living with us.

Animals in nature, plants, even the rocks, hills, mountains, streams and oceans, sky all have their own beautiful expressions as forms of spirit. I have enjoyed traveling all over the world by sea for 7 years where I experienced the land and nature and people in these ways.

The earth is vitally alive, intricately designed, communicating constantly through all her expressions. I must add my experiences of damage and wounding to the earth via war, destruction, and horrible human behaviors is ghastly. My first experience visiting Pearl Harbor in Oahu was a nightmare for me. Though everyone in my group was having a brilliant time riding on the water over to the sunk ships below the surface, I was smelling the smoke, hearing the cries, seeing the destruction of the bombing. I was overwhelmed at one point when my daughter looked over at me wondering what was up? I was experiencing the imprinting of history precisely where we were.

This has happened to me many times on the east coast while hiking in the country where there were horrific battles involving Indians, civil war warriors etc.. All over the world there are coastal sites that have had battles, destruction, death, and so on. These imprints exist everywhere due to our past human behavior and many of them still hold there emotional imprints and act as magnets for those spirits caught in the emotions of the hardships of their ages. Many times I have encountered these spirit beings on my walks and have spoken with them, done healing, and assisted them to move on or to understand something.

And then there are the other forms of life not in the physical now…. saints, holy people, beings from other worlds, angelics, devas, and many more. Learning how to discern these presences…. both in their positive states and those still held in darkness but tricking us is another level of the learning of high sensory learning. These are the components to living in a multi-dimensional awareness as part of every day life for me and many others waking up to this larger paradigm.

The challenges to existing paradigms

Live in the world, yet be aware of more. I have to do this regularly as I have learned how the consensus realities of which so many humans participate are not really all that exists here. The paradigms of perception, the beliefs about reality, and the nature of ourselves is vast on this planet. There is a tremendous challenge to living with all this in a way that does not hurt, or wound another because of differences. The amazing aspect of soul full presence is the increase of love that we are capable of exercising and doing this on a daily basis with all the opposing, differing, points of view. I find great refuge in the heart. The heart awareness, the heart mind, the heart eyes, all see and instruct so as to make a cohesive blending of the differences we express here. The overwhelming expanded states of pure love that we are actually capable is beyond description in words. I know that I have continuously found myself entering into and passing through massive states of love. Really massive states of love not just with people, but with places, situations, and so on. These energetic experiences of expanded states of love hold tremendous healing, and smoothing out of difficulties. I am called into my heart space on a regular basis, as I encounter my limiting emotions, and beliefs about any person, place or situation. When this love comes over me I am immediately infused, and neutralized while being filled with another form of knowing. I have learned to give myself permission at any time to back off, change my mind, retract a statement, or humbly ask for forgiveness as a result of this amazing love. I have watched doors open, closed minds open, darkness recede, and the list goes on and on.

There is no ascension, moving to the 5^th dimension or many other ideas perpetrated in the new age

Many people are talking about how we are moving into a 5^th dimenson of living. This may be true, yet my experience is we are moving into even greater dimensions as we realize that we ourselves contain all these and many more, perhaps 50 dimensions inside ourselves as souls. As we develop our own selves by integrating our soul dimensional aspects while the earth is also transitioning into her other states as well. The many dimensions of the soul far exceed simply moving to the next dimension.

The reality of the here and now living as a soul incarnate versus leaving the planet

Our greatest challenge is the here and now where we choose not to leave the planet to make it better but to stay and raise ourselves up with the planet. There are many scenarios that imply we are to leave this place for a better one. ( the amount of suffering and the voices seeking release now is massive on this planet). I am resistant to this right now as I know that it is difficult here and yet I brought myself here for this challenging time specifically. I know this, I remember the soul decision I made, I have seen the previous lives which led to this one. I certainly could not be the only human on earth like this, there are millions, perhaps billions like this here now. Not until we fully connect in with how it is we are creating the reality we live in will we actually free ourselves of our pains. However as we learn the true nature of who and what we are, as spiritual beings having a human experience and the actuality of universal structure and what this world is actually made of … then we have accomplished our task.

Bringing soul to the earth and all this implies has tremendous significance to our daily lives and what it is we are passing through right now. There is such great meaning in meeting our circumstances and transforming them from our soul viewpoints.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self exploration

My Forgotten parts, Recollecting aspects of my soul, core spirituality… my personal journey

My Forgotten parts, Recollecting aspects of my soul,core spirituality… my personal journey

When undergoing the experiences of recollecting parts of our selves that have become out of reach and apart from the potential within us amounts to taking back aspects of our selves involving the heart and all that it has refused to express share and give forth in the world. My heart is designed for loving.

Taking back aspects of our selves involves the mind and all it has refused to admit, to see, to embrace, and to understand, all of which was held outside self. My mind is both fixed and fluid and I need to discover more of it.

The realization that we are much larger, more capable and intrinsically more dimensional than the dumb-ed down versions we have been fed all our lives, the capacity to find answers to mysteries, and the possibility to hold more of our selves inside our physical body is far greater than anyone thought. We are going through this process collectively now.

Where does the power come from?

The soul is more capable as it contains super energies of many many kinds. We are made of that which is of the soul and that being an expression of our source. Our socialization, our educations, our family dynamics, all contain elements of limiting brain washing that stifle the authentic expression of our most real internal selves, or some aspects of our totality. Thus to transcend these limits we need only empty out that which we cling, to become open human beings that can hold a greater vibratory rate of existence. I learned I needed to engage a continual life style of letting go and re-identification as I took on new material. I came to an experience of source both within myself and outside myself that paradoxically revealed to me how tremendous, really the power of soul is.

The common dynamic in the dilemma of physical embodiment is sometimes that we are not expressing all of our true potential. We can live an entire lifetime learning how to fully express ourselves as fully adult human beings. And we can live an entire lifetime controlled by thoughts, emotions, and scripts that are not intrinsically expressing our most genuine self. I saw this in my own past lifetimes as I had many revealed to me so to educate me in this lifetime to the significance of all that I was learnging.

Our physical bodies are over loaded, jammed up with so much mental/emotional baggage that is not genuinely ours and this impedes the inflow of soul qualities. Redefining our minds, releasing emotions, and letting go of histories that are by nature suppressed, oppressive, dominating, over loading, inaccurate, twisted, half truths, and so on all make space inside the light body, and the physical body in such a way so as to make the truly meaningful progress happen inside us. The transformations are basically an inside job for each of us. They do not require external forms of authority to give us permission to achieve nor will they happen by way of external means. This direction is one which naturally arises from within. I realized I was holding the ball so to speak with just about every aspect of myself. I learned that my body contained a history and that I had to relearn what that was and then make new and different choices as to how I would live. Our unconscious histories ( our DNA) is overpowering and defining and until we awaken our inner knowledge of self we are subject to that history. Once I woke up to this I began to shift my entire perspective on choice.

We have lost aspects of our authentic nature which are deep inside the hearts of our souls awaiting our activation’s. These are at first felt as distant longings, and urges for which we have no references. And we have completely unknown aspects beyond that still held in potentials until the time we reach into and past our longings.

When we take on the beliefs of others without our own genuine investigation we overlay into our physicality energetics that influence our biology. We actually direct the switching on and off of different DNA contents by way of our choices. Be they consciously or unconsciously chosen. This is easy to see with identical twins who as they age their DNA changes, although when they started out it was identical. Science has shown this.

Without the personal reflection along with internal investigation we disconnect ourselves from the deeply meaningful and authentic nature of our spiritual being. Our human self can be filled with man-made deductions, dogmas, scientific beliefs, religious dogmas, mental notions, and the resulting emotions not even based on genuine reality, yet agreed by common consent as truth. Wise to remember that common agreement is not necessarily in agreement with universal truth. As we align with these forces we disengage from many important aspects of our true nature that express this universal quality. To the degree that we see and believe ourselves separate, to the degree that one sees they are better than, to the degree that there is exclusiveness in place of inclusive there are elements of our hearts and minds that become shut down or even off.

Soul aspects that we regain through our recollections

Soul aspect that we regain through recollecting our different aspects are the understanding of a much broader perspective, clear thinking, ego deflation that results in the re-positioning of self-identity, intuition, psychic knowledge, interconnection and the ability to communicate with many forms of life. Awareness of how manifestation happens and steps that lead to consequence. Larger memory of our spiritual path, including our previous experiences…. earlier in life, or in other lifetimes. Lives in other dimensions, and on other worlds. We regain the knowledge of our real life history including yet beyond this lifetime. This is quite natural as a result of releasing outdated beliefs, letting go of negative programming, facing and transcending our fears, and releasing feelings that control and inhibit our self expressions. I had to learn to drop many dogmas, and teachings I had picked up in my youth. Those ideas no longer expressed my own internal experiences.

The songs of our hearts, our people’s and our lands

We have within us each a unique song of life, one which has its particular tones, colors, and expressions. We share this song with others and the land we live. We feel good when we experience these songs, this life music. When we choose harmony in our actions and when we face the disharmony to understand and learn we join in with a larger aspect of creation. A larger symphony of interactions takes place that infuses life with joy, understanding, synchronicity. Life itself in its vast expressions literally sings itself outwards.

The joys hidden in our lost selves act as the food for soul which bring spiritual sustenance. Sustaining us in miraculous ways.

Our retrieved joys are a form of spiritual sustenance normal in the soul level dimensions, yet that is also true in this one. We need the sustenance of joy to add to the experiences of being human as this shapes and forms the outcomes and realities we live through. Bringing new tremendous meaning and uplifting qualities that actually will support us in transforming the negative scenarios we must face, pass through and process. Our daily lives are filled with many opportunities with which to test this out. This joy replaces all the negativity when we finally move past our personal challenges with enough force that we comprehend what was not understood, when we release that which is our personal dross, and we upgrade our thinking and belief in alignments with authentic spiritual presence. Joy comes when we empty out, it is the original state and becomes reinstated as the natural state.

How love in any situation helps us to bear the pains we are needing to release.

Most all humans have issues with which we grapple and that need tending, these issues are actually our personal steps unique to each of us that provide our growing directions. Learning to accept these challenges can mean that we encounter painful situations. Bringing love into ourselves can help the entire situation. That love is analgesic is true. Without love … there will be intense pain and difficult suffering that appears not to have meaning or purpose. Bring love in and that all changes. Love as an analgesic always lifts, releases, and transcends us as we make our way thru the difficulties. Loving ourselves and one another through the painful circumstances we bear brings significant depth of purpose that could be lost without it. Love acts as an analgesic with actual pain we feel in our bodies. Scientists have now uncovered how love actually lessens the pains felt in the body. I find this amazing.

Lost meaning in everyday life and the recollection of those meanings

When we live a robotic life in any area of ourselves that area is subject to drab meaninglessness. Living on autopilot we do not access feelings, challenge thoughts, or take actions that are in best interest. Living in a script of how we think things should be, living a script in our minds when we are the only one reading that script (an awful realization I have had to accept about myself at different times in my life), living a script for us that someone made for us… a parent, the family, the church, our society are all places within that we can learn to collect back into ourselves. I have found this adjusts the levels of emotion and outcome significantly in positive ways. Prepare to see the scripts we think we must live, and then prepare to throw them out. I have had been through this many times.

Wisdom reaches us… we do not have to reach for it, the action of recollection will bring forward the perfect environment for wisdom to be born in each of us.

When I choose wisdom as my guide in how to collect back into myself that which is of meaning that intention for making wise choices brings to me new possibilities that were blocked before. The intention to find wisdom brings it. What a revelation! Not taking action unless the criteria for wisdom has been met prevents me from repeating patterns, making mistakes again, and assures my own more deeply satisfying outcomes. There are many signals along the way with which we must learn to discern and understand. There are many kinds of wisdom…. happy wisdom, sad wisdom, crazy wisdom, brilliant wisdom, intuitive wisdom to name a few. Not having these kinds of wisdom show up may be a signal that one is blocking it in some way. Stuck in belief systems that are out of alignment with my true inner nature always blocked me from accessing deep wisdom. The script always took over. And well that is a lesson in itself, I examine my scripts on a regular basis.

Asking for signs, signals, and validation in our lives

I always found comfort in the native American way, and many other indigenous people s and biographies of the saints. When listening to their ideas on learning to observe, ask for, and respond to signs, signals, and how these validate us when we are on the edges of knowing and learning as we move in to our own dark mysteries and unknowing. Signs and signals began to occur for me in remarkable ways literally shocking my system into the new directions. In my experience I thought initially that these things were happening to me, for me, and what a miracle. Eventually I came to recognize all of life is communicating with itself. Signs and signals are a natural ongoing aspect of creation, now I have joined in, instead of holding myself outside of this wondrous component of living. There is not really anything special about me, it is however unique to me and my own participation to life on a larger level. Signs and signals are actually an ongoing aspect of creation. Once I realized that one I made certain to change the old scripts I had been living.

Synchronicity and its meaning as we build our authentic self expressions

Meaningful coincidence where random or even opposing forces join together that speak something that connects internally with us is just so wonderful a way to live life. The more I have dropped my false notions and let go of self-limiting definitions I have felt myself to become more and more authentic. The more authentic the more synchronicity shows up and this encourages more of the same.

Wonder and the ignition of spiritual sight

When we return to wonder in our lives we ignite the spiritual sight inside us. Capable of seeing beyond the surface, and into the essence of meaning in situations we are able to stay connected to the larger picture seeking to unfold. Spiritual sight is not dependent in any way on religious dogma, but more so arises naturally as we learn to be present and just see what is. This take practice to exercise our minds beyond limiting ideas. And to open our wider expression of many feelings and emotions.

Release of obstacles…

Letting go, conquering our fear, releasing judgmental thoughts, throwing away outdated life scripts, and finding humility like never before all lead into and through the release of our personal obstacles. Our egos are highly invested in tremendous amounts of these things and I have learned how the ego aspect of me has had to learn to take a different seat, or perspective when it comes to the finality of the release of obstacles. The joy is transformational. The realization I had about learning has become my turning point in any obstacle as there always appears something for me to learn, without the learning the obstacles persist. What a realization!

Recovery and becoming whole is a journey that is infinite in its true nature

When I write infinite I mean it. I experience the infinite nature of life and the process of becoming whole as I learn. This basically obliterates many life scripts as I have learned how power life really is and that nothing is lost, every effort counts, and the letting go is all worth it.

Reclaiming authentic truth as a way of life

What a theme…. to live in authentic truth, honesty with self, and daily willingness to be open and to learn.

Developing quantum interior resilience and strength that acts as the best bullshit detector on earth.

There is no more powerful truth detector than the cleared out self, connected soul based person. This becomes a powerfully resilient attribute necessary to pass through all the difficult zones with which we must get through. Making an automatic bull shit detector that goes off anytime we need it. Truly amazing.

The idea that living a human life is all about your soul is the reason we investigate the unknown. We live so as to experience and learn. We recollect ourselves while in the physical body. I have learned what body and soul together really feels like, and it is only just beginning.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self reflection

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If …YOU …”think” You Cannot Handle the Truth, Think Again…. My Reality Checks are coming in!

core spirituality, my personal journey

The path of awakening for each of us has significant differences yet many universal similarities. In my experiences I do come up on the thought that I cannot handle something, or I hear this from others. This writing describes the inner process within me. The thinking intellect, my emotions… and my inner voice or deep self in dialogue. So I know we all have conversations inside us as this is not so uncommon. In order to really get what my process is on this subject I wanted to put it into writing.

Reality selection is a choice for us all…

Our thinking is filled with programming

I call it programming, this is not what the mainstream calls it.

In the process of conditioning,socialization and education that is prevalent in our societies today. Telling us what to think, how to think, placing limits on thinking, emotional side tracking, emotional suppression along with oppression of many covert forms. Schools, churches, universities, groups of many varieties all teach children from an early age how to view reality in specific ways. This will override the natural instinctive capacities and innate points of view children are born with making certain that each child fits into the specific format of the group they belong to.

Hidden inside reading and math, science and history lessons are infinite variations of subtle programming that inhibit the spiritual nature. This becomes real and evident after one goes through the process of self-reflection, deep inner questioning and discovery, and the release of the effects of our memories, and limiting emotional situations we carry inside us.

These emotionally charged memories are very much like boxes of thought that limit and suppress the innate knowing within a child. As adults we have the greater free will and possibility to discover our true nature through the choices we make that push us beyond our original experiences and unveil the innate spirituality of a human being.

In my journey of self-reflection the most significant redefinition I arrived within myself was that I was not a human being having a spiritual experience as I had been programmed to believe, rather I discovered I am  actually a spiritual being having a human one.

The opposite of all the years of teachings I had received in my development as a person. The paradigm shift inherent in this is remarkable in that everything takes on a completely different and significant meaning or purpose. And I had to drop whatever did not fit into that category of meaningful purpose. In other words most of the reality boxes I had been raised to believe were not based in truth. Letting go of these older versions of reality resulted in my development of having a larger capacity to perceive reality from “outside the box” so to speak.

Or in other words outside the limitations of programming I had been subliminally indoctrinated.

Repeaters

While I realized that well meaning adults were passing information along to me, I recognized the action of repeating in their words. People who learn to repeat information as they were taught. Most often these individuals were shown to be the best at their subjects, and always receive high marks, and accolades. To my astonishment I was at an early age, able to discern true learning vs. repeating, and to feel the significance in authentic discovery outside the patterns of thinking inherent in repeaters. I would say this began to occur to me in my early 20’s!

For example a paradigm shift I learned when I moved to Hawaii was how the oceans really connect all the land masses. Making it possible to travel and connect. Where as in my youth I learned how the oceans separated the world. It is a subtle shift in thinking yet powerful. Separation consciousness versus connection. I have found many such ways of perceiving the world that I learned all based in separation consciousness that are not even true, I have found connection in every aspect of life since getting out of that box of thinking. Shifting my awareness and myself in ways that brought great connection to life. Our experiences, our choices when understood as all connected with meaning take on a completely different reality with this in mind.

Learn to do my reality checks

Reality checks can be cashed in any time! They pay off really well and add to our sense of life in ways that carry us through time in amazing new ways. For much of this world is not really what it is represented to be. We are still a young species at the lower rungs of the universe. Our ideas are filled with inaccuracies and misunderstandings about how life is actually governed, manifested, and is lived. So doing reality checks will most often occur whenever there is a feeling of discomfort about something. Especially when there are no words to match the feeling, yet it still exists in the gut. I have this experience often. My first reaction is to question reality, question the voice of authority that is either speaking to me outwardly or the inner voice in my mind that “thinks” it is THE authority on any idea or subject. I cultivate an open mind, and I question until I find an answer that fits and replaces my discomfort with a sense of good, or right feeling. This is perfect for those times when we think we cannot handle something. For the truth is we can though there will be some shift to do so. Shift in our version or belief in what the reality presenting itself really is.

Questions you might ask yourself

Secrets and the nature of controls

That our present day is filled with astounding and horrific revelations of secrets held by mankind for generations is startling and sobering to say the least. Many dark secrets are getting released about every aspect of our lives through the internet, the media. Within us we are also finding revelation on a mass collective level in people from all walks of life, no matter the education, social standing, religious belief, upbringing, or culture. Revelations are everywhere in all sciences, history, math, physics, and so on. One need only pursue truth beyond the limits of media, and university education to find new thought being taught by people outside the box of accepted thinking. These individuals are stepping forward with deep, complex and riveting new approaches to understanding reality.

The revelations of abuse of power on this planet that are being revealed through the banksters, the military of the world, politicians, scientists, and historians are gob smacking. The degree of covert control, covert agendas, covert operations, covert policies, covert behaviors in these people now getting out will surely shift our world paradigm in fascinating new ways.

As now we are beginning to realize how we have been lead to believe so many things that are not actually honest or true and to give away our sovereignty along the way will shatter much of what has existed for generations on this planet.

Revelations are natural

the natural state of all beings is revelation. Revelation arises as a consequence of learning beyond the moment in any situation. We have been programmed so completely we have forgotten what a natural process this is in a healthy well lived lifetime. Robotic, habit-ized, and submissive the human will has been subverted away from the delights of revelation. So deeply valuable is this to our experience even after centuries of generational programming individuals are breaking through the dogmas of every sector of our known reality at this time. Making those in power and control very nervous and more afraid. Yet we cannot stop this because revelation is natural to who and what we are as spiritual beings having a human experience.

The dark truth, the light truth of your life

when I can’t handle it anymore I am up against the dark truth of my life. The dark truth is the awareness of all that which is reversed, or opposite the light truth. The revealing to ourselves of dark truth requires a powerful will to see beyond these illusions we have been so deeply emotionally invested. To accept how something so intrinsic to us is not true takes courage to process. It is a signal of our growth and maturation as spiritual beings when we can allow the deconstruction of our beliefs, notions and ideas of reality once shown not to be valid.

In my experience whenever this happens the light truth moves in and replaces the dark.

This is quite amazing as the feelings that arise in the discovery of greater truth energize and redirect our attention in completely fascinating new ways. Opening possibilities that were totally blocked while I was under the limiting beliefs of the previous dark programming. I feel a sense of internal accountability with myself to push my way through my own fears that I cannot handle the truth in any situation.

So we move back and forth on the game board of life discovering both our dark truths and our light truths finding new resources for powering up our previous states of victimization, powering up our defeated powerless selves. The deflation of ego states that goes along with this process can feel even depressing, and sad, and awful. Yet the light truth that we are then more capable to hold because we let go those limiting ego states of consciousness eventually lifts us up and frees us from the process that is so uncomfortable.

Each of us has a turning point from which there is no return

Whenever we begin to move past our “i cant handle it” moments there arises significant places of no return that require a deeper acceptance. As our consciousness adjusts to changing perceptions and feelings we do find that we can no longer go back. This happens in such a profound way that with each new discovery we transform.

Our transformations lead us to transcendent new places that take us into whole new arenas of living. I experienced this on all levels. Eating and diet, emotional states of profound suffering have lifted, immense unhappiness is replaced with a ridiculous kind of amazing joy, beliefs I once held no longer feel right and drop. People, events, and situations that once triggered powerful negative emotions are gone. What I choose to focus in life shifted from survival to thrive, from disharmony to harmony, from lack to abundance, from not getting my needs met on a daily basis to meeting my needs abundantly so that I overflow for others. This is how the process of moving through and beyond our “i cant handle it” states of being in paralysis and withholding just turn all the way around.

The transformation of the human condition in each of us

Our personal transformations are the human condition for which all these life experiences unfold and have meaning. We embody physicality and take on each lifetime in our efforts to transform and transcend ourselves while discovering the unlimited nature of existence. Every event that each of us tackles adds to the larger context of our humanity. And eventually we reach quantum levels of transformation that make it easier for those yet to make it go forward successfully. We improve our reality by way of these actions.

The planetary transformation of life as we know it

As the numbers of people transforming their life situations grows we begin to see massive new levels of behavior and activity that redefine life as we have known it, and believed it to be. This is what is happening now all over the world. Dark forces are revealed and breaking down, light forces are coming forward to heal and redesign our life stories.

Reclaiming your self as a sovereign being

To realize new states of sovereignty is how we liberate our humanity. One person at a time, one group at a time, one nation at a time, one world at a time.

Noticing when we are submitting to thoughts of self oppression, sabotage, and the diminishing of our potential are the start of this liberation as we notice the dark truths we have subscribed our lives. This being merely the early stage of awakening and the start of whole new possibilities.

Connecting in with the larger paradigms emerging today we learn to take in accountability and responsibility for our human lives, charting new directions and learning to be happier, healthier, and deeply spiritual.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self reflections

Permission to let go… core spirituality, my personal journey

Permission to let go… core spirituality, my personal journey

Moving on, progress, release, freedom … all arise from a simply action of permission.

Permission to let go does not have to come from outside us. This is an inner choice and the momentum this creates runs the spectrum from crazy to liberating. Fears jump into our minds as we approach the boarders inside our minds of permission in ways that will stagger the decision, giving us clear possibility to deeply consider our next steps. Other times we must make rapid decisions on the fly which propel us into the unknowns. Practicing the art of giving myself permission to let go becomes an act of creative selection and evolving experience. We get better at self permission the more we access our choices and release ourselves from the grips of our own thinking, our own emotions, our own tired out beliefs. Times arise when the momentum that sets us up for change start arriving in our lives and we become increasingly more uncomfortable with the way things are. Situations arise that once invited us in and now propel us away. People become uninteresting and we no longer want to associate. Out stomachs turn and we must go the distance and make way for the new in our lives.

Know enough about self to make the meaningful decisions that will enact letting go

When we commit to knowing ourselves by paying attention to our thoughts,feelings, emotions, body messages, signs, sychronicities, and patterns we can foresee how meaningful letting go will take us beyond our current situations and propel us into unknowns for which everything up to this point have prepared us. The better we know self, the less guessing and the more concrete our choices develop into accessing new information which lead us through our mysterious questions.

How taking care of our personal interiors open the possibilities

Self care is the base line for all possibility to arise. Nurturing self acceptance and physical habits of healthy well-being generate equilibrium while the other aspects of our personalities undergo the stronger deconstruction, redirection, and new momentum that take shape from permission to let go. Always the good baseline for change is self-love, self-care, and the integrity of our attention inwardly to the process that is unfolding. Appearing as selfishness, at this time of letting go we must take those steps only we can take. Thus to those around us we may appear selfish, and this may be true. It is a time to take one’s self into deeper reflection and meaning and allow this self-absorption, or selfishness to occur. In our single-ness of decision-making we learn to sustain our choices through our own means and we liberate that which needs be.
What we choose to invest our emotional energies into and how this shapes our reality

Though it is rarely taught, it is a realization returning to many now on our planet. What we choose to invest our emotional energies into shapes our reality. We are not simply victims of circumstance, we are experiencing the results of our unique personal investments in our thoughts, feelings, etc. as we believe ourselves to be. The realization that we, I, not someone else is responsible for my life is both unnerving and liberating. The liberation of self through responsible emotional self acceptance is paramount to our moving forward through any difficult situation. Things do not change, people do. For my world to change I must make that change from within. We stop looking outside ourselves for people who can make us feel better, save us, give us what we want, and we do this for our self. This is a paradigm change that has very large consequence in the moment, and for the unfolding future of the next decisions we will make. To be able to untangle our minds from the seriously crazy programming of socialization, and outer authority to an interior place is at first mind-blowing. However so that may be as we see reality transform all around us in our personal lives it is strengthened and multiplied and anchored. Every day is a new day. Anything new could occur. Lets just see what happens as we engage self-knowledge. Self permission and self-responsibility. All three of the anchors to assure changes in appropriate ways. Because this is a learning we do make mistakes along the way, yet we learn to make corrections and navigate through the mistakes and take them as jewels of learning that bring to us knowledge and add to our experience of life.

Giving ourselves permission to move forward and let go while accepting those who do not

one of the most agonizing aspects of giving myself permission to let go and move on has always been not everyone comes with me. So I have learned not only to accept my need and impetus to move on, I also have to accept that those I love or care for cannot or will not join me. Lovingly accepting this for others will make everything more easy for everyone. Often much later down the path, these people have rejoined me when they themselves have caught up to the momentum that was inherent in the changes. Then sometimes they do not and they become more distant, either way acceptance is mandatory.

The paradox of healing ourselves and the amazing outcomes this bring to our life choices

That we make painful decisions that heal our lives is a paradox. The healing is needed yet is painfully reached. Our life choices develop in such a way that we learn to accept pain in this way as a friend going along with us on the ride. It cannot be avoided. The pain is crucial to the whole process as old ways break down, old relationships fall away, and we are left to our own new life choices. In time these painful choices drive us to our meaningful life outcomes which amaze and astound us. In our previous mental habits, beliefs, we could not hold for a minute what now arises. The unending nature of life is astounding as the possibilities unfold and we engage totally new energetics into the circumstances of our lives. It all becomes worth it and the purpose of paradox becomes understood.

Painful memories, grudges, emotional wounds, misunderstandings and why we need to let go

All such negativity tie us to history without freeing us from the now moments of our lives. The negative history we each inherit must be lived through and surpassed as a vehicle of our own self-development. We become strengthened and aware as we face, process and resolve our own side of any negative situation we carry within our self. The loaded physical form, our physical body is overwhelmed with the energetics of the negatives and our alive-ness is compromised when we carry around negative scenarios inside us. Not only that but the energy it takes to hold it in, suppress it, and maintain it is staggeringly unbalancing. The more we hold on, the worse it gets. Sometimes resulting in sickness and even death of the physical. Many of us die ourselves out of this world because we would not let go, would not release ourselves from our own negativity. The amount of this I have personally experienced with people in my practice of massage and bodywork for over 3 decades is truly staggering. I know this to be the case for many individuals.

Shifting the forces of our lives, breaking habits that no longer serve us, or serve our world.

The pain, discomfort, and disharmony signals all point us to our own personal shift, which is also our planetary shift, which is also our species shift. Now underway and gaining momentum in the collective experience of our humanity. Everywhere we look, listen, and arrive to we can find this shift unfolding before our very eyes and ears. The patterns that I will call habits have been in our DNA for generations. Our families are filled with this stuff, and a lot of us are increasingly more uncomfortable with it all. I myself have chosen to do the work, and learn to understand what these forces are that need my attention. Through therapy, emotional release, bodywork, exercise, re-education and a personal commitment to give myself permission to let go I continue to align myself with the greater unfolding now which is wreaking havoc all over the world. Letting old habits die that no longer serve me, or this world.

The world changes when we change

The world changes when we change could not be truer. Until one has tested this one the depth of this will pass you over. And then when you realize that for your world to change you must make the change and you permit yourself to go through with the things you need to do. Reality does shift. It shifts the more we permit ourselves to let go. If my world is not changing enough, I take a cue. I keep deepening into my ability to let go and make that change.

Losing what is meaningful, and rebuilding new directions

Yes we do lose what has been meaningful to each of us when we let go. We lose relationships, finances, and all manner of life circumstances. As we continue we learn we rebuild new meaningful relationships, new ways to finance ourselves, and many other new circumstances develop. We do also carry within us the valuable essences of all our experiences even though we no longer experience them. I know this from my practice of hypnotherapy, my own soul retrieval experiences. Nothing… I mean nothing is ever truly lost that has been our experience. Everything… every single second of life is inside us as us contributing to our personal journey. All of our personal experiences actually go into a larger collective which is Source. Source as itself, in us, is discovering itself through every one of us. The entire nature of existence is growing everywhere through us, around us, and beyond us. Truly amazing to see, feel, and recognize this universal truth about life. Nothing ever is truly lost. Ever!

Grace and the healing of our human history

Grace has many definitions depending on your particular belief. In this case I will refer to the transcendent nature of non ordinary reality. A place of connection much larger than a single human mind can contain, a place with such knowledge and wisdom. This wisdom is also beyond the human mind as it unfolds through synchronicity and the direction of meaning in our lives. This grace is enacted as we meet our most powerfully difficult, and painful life scenarios. I have experienced this many times in my life and have felt a sense of pure divinity, lightness of being, and transcendent personal space beyond words. It is definitely non ordinary reality. It is real, and it is unending. I bring this up now because we are reaching the quantum moments of our human history where the themes of many generations of humans is coming to a point of pure no return. We are on the precipice of life experiences that transcend generations of our ancestors. We are beginning to experience the horrific and startling new consciousness of regaining our spiritual sovereignty. New powerful souls are incarnating with astounding capabilities…. we can and we are truly surpassing all our known knowledge heading into the great mysteries of life. We are starting to connect physicality with spirituality in the most authentic forms of expression and much healing is coming in to us now

The challenges of resistance and how this is meaningful

Resistance is one of my specialties as a therapist, I love this quality. I have the inherent perspective that resistance is simply permission to process. It is a way we are slowed down when we are getting too high off the changes we are experiencing. Resistance staggers the time line, staggers our minds so that we can more fully engage our senses in ways that bring to us the information we need to make the shift possible. Without set backs, and our own personal resistance to change we might endanger ourselves or others. Make unnecessary mistakes, and complicate the situation.

Respect resistance is my motto and learn to see what it is all about. Our resistance carries tremendous info just under the surface of our awareness that needs to be addressed in order to successfully move forward. Resistance in others needs to be honored. We do not all move forward simultaneously as we wish we could. We all move according to some amazing timing unique to each of us. Read that last sentence again, it is truly a jewel to hold.

Staying engaged, cultivating connection, and forging the new directions and letting self sleep.

When learning to let go it is paramount to stay engaged and not lose it all. Staying engaged within and around us is how we stay grounded through immense changes. Sleep occurs as a way to allow the body physical, and the energetic bodies to re-calibrate new points of grounded-ness inside us, and around us in the environment. The actual work of the soul that takes place inside a human is likened to the metamorphosis in a butterfly. There are many new arrangements, new connections to make, new coordinates to be put into place that all take time in this dimension. Staying engaged either by cultivating connection and forging new directions as well as sleep time is paramount to the entire process.

Commitment to self

The redevelopment of new and different ways in which we commit to self is a direct outcome of letting go. Not losing self. Not abandoning our self. Not denying our self, not ignoring our self. But true deeper more meaningful redefining of self is what happens. This can be quite striking to those who have known us up to this point, so letting go of what others think of us at this point is helpful. No one can actually embrace the process of self commitment that happens like each one of us can with ourselves, this commitment grows from within. In time others learn. Patience here is truly a virtue.

Realizations that arise as we heal

When we let go we heal components of our human self inside us. This healing provides new frameworks on many different levels of our personality. As the new energetics of healing engage we will find that new realizations start to happen. The realizations that occur do so because in the healing we make room for that which we withheld in our previous states of consciousness. Our minds are opened in new ways on new levels. We become more capable of translating our individual soul messages, signs, and possibilities. Our perceptions take on wholeness. Whole minded awareness can process huge amounts of new information from design levels. When we start to get the “designs” our souls are offering us we will experience new realizations which not only become solutions for us, they also contribute to our joyful nature as never before. Learning to write down, or draw, or share our realizations is fascinating and fun. Engaging us beyond conflict and returning us to new levels of personal and universal harmony. When we recognize the designs unfolding in us, all around us and begin to see and feel how we are a dynamic part of the cosmos our lives take on such wonderful new meaning.

Joining the mass human family in taking care of business

Letting go by using one’s conscious choice instead of being forced by way of painful circumstance because we have learned the wisdom of it is significant. While many upon within the human family struggle in agonizing ways as these changes come through our planet we can simply choose to join in. this makes our process a bit less uncomfortable and even joyful. As we cry out our tears, and say our good bye’s to our old ways we can laugh right on down the road of life. We recognize how and why we are here. We are uplifting the entire species. One by one. We are engaged in a historical event of such proportion that even the animals are anticipating what comes next. When we take care of what bothers us, what pains us, we are taking care of our human business.

Make a list

I like to make regular lists of changes so I do not forget those moments of clarity as I go about my busy days. I want to stay on track. I want to feed my need for changes. I want to stay engaged. I need to remember what I forget. I make my lists.

Find new interior resources

When we embrace connection and stay engaged we automatically find new resources. It is amazing to me how the universe works. Not only do we find new resources but they find us. You know you are on the right path when this happens because it is so completely astounding. I have looked back at my life and thought how could I have ever stayed so disconnected? This is so much more fun. I absolutely love, love, love how the universal intelligence works all through our lives informing us with new information and possibility.

Discover new aspects of who we are

Only after we let go do we get the new answers. All to often I have lingered before I made a change wanting myself to know before I actually did my work. Wishing for new solutions, new answers to appear and they did not. Finally out of frustration and endless suffering did I finally let go. And not until then did the new info arrive. We must do our individual work on change. And once we do we get the prize… we discover the new aspects of our souls. New talents, new identities and new directions that bring to us experiences that genuinely fulfill us.

The final thoughts on letting go.

My final thought to myself here on letting go is … go for it.

I choose to gain the wisdom awaiting me as I let go my hardened clutches of reality and join the mysterious unknowns of taking new steps. Core spirituality is the expression of our unique and personal truth as each of us. Unique and universal and right in the middle of paradox. Core spirituality is not limited by religious dogma, nor is it directed by politicians, bankers, or any outside authority. I accept my own personal experience as validating and I learn to engage my experiences as my own spiritual path. Just one tiny human amongst billions.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

The Momentum Behind Collective Thought…core spirituality, my personal journey

Portrait of humaity an image taken in Hawaii

 

The Momentum Behind Collective Thought… Directions of humanity…. core spirituality,my personal journey

The momentum behind human collective thought is you and me.

Each singular expression of each person generating their own thoughts is the momentum behind our larger landscape of existence.

What collective thought is

Collective thought is my thoughts and yours and all other people’s thoughts arising together moment by moment in the field of the human reality. Added all together our thoughts join, clash, or move around in a massive field of subtle electrical energy shaping our day-to-day existence.

One human thought multiplied by all other thoughts in resonant harmony or similarity cause tremendous activity which creates a shared reality that we see and experience all around us, resulting in positive or negative outcomes depending on ideas we infuse with our emotions, our minds, and our actions.

These collective agreements and disagreements fill the planetary field of human activity, the environment, and the surrounding space in and around our solar system. This is all reflected back to us when we look into the electronic / technological group mind we share through our internet and media outlets. In case you were not seeing this clearly it does show us what we are all thinking about.

That we are creating reality individually and as group resulting in the world scenarios we witness around us is staggering to embrace, however true it is. This is how powerful our thoughts can become. We do not even know this on a mass level… yet.

We have many singular thoughts ( ideas) that are developing and growing ever stronger each day in size and changing the world in which we live. For example let us look into our notions about the issues of abuse.

Our thoughts on abuse are transforming everyday through out our lives.

For example all the awareness of abuse in human relationships that has existed for thousands of years is now being named, understood, and processed in-depth now and this is shifting the moral climate of humanity as new programs for further developing awareness and assisting victims of abuse and neglect are being created all around us. As well as forming new agreements for which we are now holding ourselves accountable through new and different legislation all over the world. New laws are made and this shifts and reforms our global society.

The climate of abuse while still horrific, is very different now, say from the 1950’s when we had much less conscious thinking about the effects of abuse we are perpetrating upon one another.  This has a significant  and dramatic effect on future generations as each new wave of collective realization redirects the outcomes of abusive human activity. Making, for example, it no longer morally or socially acceptable to perpetrate abuse in any way. All manner of local, national, and global society is reshaped toward more meaningful interaction with clarity regarding the painful outcomes of our abuses perpetrated upon each other.

This has directly affected children, women, people of color, people who are different from the larger groups ( gay, lesbian, transgendered, whole nations, entire populations for example) and protection for these individuals manifests where it did not exist not so long ago. This is the power of a thought multiplied on a collective level  reaching into the live of billions of human beings.

The decisions we make eventually  join together… discernment

The decisions we make based on our thinking join together to create powerful realities that may or may not be in accord with the larger spiritual reality of life. Mankind has held certain notions of the larger reality of existence for many generations and these ideas are being challenged with the growing new ideas being born in us as a result of our experiences. That our ideas actually are in accord with the larger spectrum of universal spirituality is still a reality we have much to learn. We do not always hold this larger perspective in our thinking. However that may be we learn from these thoughts and make corrections as we go and for this reason what you think is meaningful, and important.

The electronic mind, technologies, medias and the internet.

The electronic mind is filled with messages that seek to shape reality, versions of it that not always align with the greater good of everyone. This is why and how media and internet is used today to promote thought amongst our species. So that certain outcomes are developed and shaped so that specific actions will take place. People in “power”… those with money, religious influences, political agendas. military might.   This is a multi trillion dollar industry that is influencing the electric mind, or media/technological aspect of life through the internet, television etc..by filling it with ideas for their specific purposes and design.

Discernment at this point is an absolute quality with which to act upon as we learn the source and purpose of those thoughts that are being repeated incessantly and that are perpetrated as truth, as reality all around us. ( we have to live in fear… the world is totally dangerous, we have to fight everything to succeed and win)  We have a choice here. The momentum behind our choices is developing rapidly now as billions of individuals are seeing corruption, greed, abuse, conflict, war, economic hijacking our resources, and many other areas of human society that are filled with contamination and toxic outcomes for the majority of us living here on the planet.

Evolution requires revolution

I suspect we are on the wave of a collective revolution within our entire human population reaching entirely around the earth at this time. The power of individual thought is gaining momentum and is just beginning to resist all the larger forces of negative, disharmonious, abuse that have been in control for generations in all societies on larger, more massive human levels.

There is a quiet revolution taking shape amongst us now.

In all our Peoples, in every nation, and walk of life.

How do we move forward ? Learning to become more thoughtful about our choices and developing healthy levels of discernment. We move forward with the relentless growth of all our thoughts as we take action and learn the results we discover. We move forward by living from our thoughts in ways that we deem just, humane, and inclusive while still other forces in the minority insist on the opposite. There is a minority of powerful negative thinking people running huge banking systems, gigantic military operations, massive covert political agendas, and many dark religious thinking people believing in rigid dogmas all over the world in all our communities. By accessing media, influencing law making, economics/banking, and many other facets of society this minority number is seeking to exert its control harder and harder with more fear, fear mongering, and fear based agendas like never before. We become conscious and aware that each of our thoughts matter in every single life and every single person when we recognize the lack of love in these thoughts and actions generated by individuals seeking power over others. It is final attempt to exert control even though the collective mind of humanity has already decided we do not want this any longer!

Why is this? Because their time is running out.

The momentum behind our collective thought has already begun to decide that we do not want this any longer.  The regular exposing of , and releasing of secrets, and the unending revelations that result are the forces of this momentum within us . And forces for collective good, forces that expose the underbelly of darkened thinking that control and enslave humans is starting to take hold in the masses of human beings seeking to restore personal sovereignty, personal creativity, and harmonious interaction within the larger spectrum of differences we share. Infighting is no longer going to be acceptable as we prefer to work out our problems without violence, without power mongering, and without deceptive forces of control. We are learning how to let go of our judgmental old style thinking for more liberating happy possibilities that everyone may share. We are just beginning to witness the effects of this all over our beloved planet.

The wave of the future is shaped by these things

This wave of momentum arising in the bosom of our human experience is the power of our thoughts to shape our future and the world for future generations. All manner of human activity is growing in this direction as people in the arts, education, in industry, in medicine, in governments, and many many other areas of life are working on new ideas to generate better living conditions for us all. We are learning how we must include the wisdom of our hearts in our daily lives and make the changes we feel we need to make. Speak to the truth of our lives, and honor what it is that is awakening inside each of us.

A paradoxical thought to hold is the truth that the future is now… how we create reality. This is how our “now moments” are shaping our “future”! We cannot ignore the present moment without consequence to all our lives, the environment, all the animals and life herself in us all.

Humanity as a whole, instead of separate parts.

How we are learning to see ourselves collectively all together is rapidly changing, as we learn to see ourselves made of many yet one whole….  a human species. Just on the tip of this thought we are starting to redirect all manner of outcomes with this in mind.

As we let down our defenses, and relax into our more heartfelt decisions about life we learn to see in new ways. One must cultivate an awareness of this and begin to pay attention to what is not reported on the news. One must seek out these new possibilities and learn to recognize how people are finding new possibilities through new groups and programs that recognize our oneness.

Our mutuality, with differences.

As a person begins to take away the hardened, painful, and limiting beliefs that create separatist thinking it becomes easier to see what is shaping up in the momentum of our collective thought. I have personally researched many significant caring individuals and groups all moving in this direction all over the world despite the horrible circumstances they may be surrounded by in their particular societies.

Standing to power

Using our  voices to face and stand to power forces with dissent. Using our  voices to educate others still sleeping in the fog of victimization. Using our voices to stand up and be heard at great consequence and personal sacrifice. We as  individuals become the beacons of light igniting the darkened forces… where there are collective groups of followers  of suffering, and oppressed voices all over the world  ripe for changes.

Sleepers, repeaters, and awaken-ers, and those who forge ahead

People still living in belief systems of oppression through their respective out dated religious dogmas, people struggling to get the rent paid, food on the table. People struggling with addictions born of their hardships and hopeless life scenarios, people ingrained in massive personal denial, people who submit and follow rather than think for themselves because they have been trained, socialized and hypnotized to stay afraid, hold onto anxiety and suffer through life and live in constant states of unconscious fear. People who just repeat whatever they are told without questioning authority have all yet to feel the true lightness of personal freedom from these darkened old forces. We have people who are moving forward, and forging new possibilities through peaceful dissent, peaceful thinking, and open-mindedness in just about every walk of human life today everywhere. we learn to resolve our own personal conflicts and in so doing contribute to the collective human experience making it easier for the next person to “catch on”.

Solutions are everywhere

Solutions are everywhere, but most importantly inside each of us.

Solutions arise within us as we free ourselves of the limitations of the collective agreements to suffer, to submit, to be oppressed in any way. When one person chooses to stop this in any way in his or her life, they are opening up the collective field. Not simply for themselves, they do this for the next person. We ping-pong off one another everyday, and through our relationships we activate one another for good or for bad, for positive or for negative. Depending on our own individual thoughts! Happiness is universally taught by all core religions, felt by all regardless of religious belief, and is needed by our world. Our world needs individuals to be happy in the face of all that is going on around us so that we can transcend the limitations of our unhappy states of thinking. Unhappy thinking that we have been programmed to hold as normal. Happiness is one of the most powerful forces human beings have within us to confront evil, oppression, and suffering. We need to make ourselves happy by realizing solutions are not just everywhere, they are inside us waiting to be released.

Choosing to take care of anxiety, unknowns, and learning to love the mystery of living become the first stages of personal and planetary transformation and global transition out of misery.  Our happiness and joy are paramount to overcoming whatever holds us back or threatens our innate human dignity and freedom.

When one of us consciously chooses to take care of that which bothers us, to hold our anxiety in new ways. Learning to give ourselves permission to live for positive growth and solutions that matter,

When just one of us moves into the positive choices still contained in our personal unknowns, we cause a shift in the collective mind. When one of us learns that life by it’s very nature holds mystery, and this mystery is how we awaken to our deepest, most meaningful life solutions and creative expressions, we make it easier for the next person. Courage is ignited and a new step becomes possible.

This is how collective thought is born and shapes our shared life journey together on this planet.

It is a scary, marvelous, wild, ride to live here and take part in the energizing choices available to each one of us. To recognize the darkness around us and inside us and choose to lighten up. To make new steps, and to give ourselves permission to grow in new ways, fashion new directions, and embrace changes all together.

There is one mystery that truly is not a mystery, it is simply a realization. That is that the momentum behind our collective thought is not some huge unknowable force, not at all., not some great mystery.

The momentum is you and me,

each one of us.

Taking care to watch our thoughts one day at a time.

One thought at a time.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self exploration

Taking a Fresh Look into the Family ( Ohana) Dynamics that Trigger us… A Soul Perspective….core spirituality, my personal journey

Taking a Fresh Look into the Family ( Ohana) Dynamics that Trigger us…A Soul Perspective….core spirituality, my personal journey

When I did not or refused to love, I learned to love anyway.

When I was hardened, I softened and came to understand more than before.

When I felt stubborn I yielded and learned to be more open.

When I was too soft, I became strong, and in so doing became more capable.

I was lazy, and became disciplined… the painful inertia of my non action forced me to take action. I learned how valuable it is to understand stagnation, and the power of moving. People triggered me to get my butt moving, I did not like it, and I learned to get the message.

When I was victimized particularly as a child, I later healed my emotions, learned to think in new and different ways, and turned my own self around to become victorious. Releasing my holding on to my past and freeing my now moment, finding my true sovereignty. I learned the value of my own inner child voice and I listened. I sought help for myself and in so doing learned respect for the voice of the child.

Any child.

When I was afraid, I learned courage and thus changed the entire course of my life.

When I spoke hurtful words, or they were spoken to me, I have learned to take account of my own subjective experience and understand how my own internal self is effected. In this action of self-reflection I have learned to reflect. I have learned to become objective, and I have learned to redirect my own sense of hurt in a way that has shown me how I can be, and how others are as their words are a reflection of them, not specifically of me. I have learned to stop the patterns of self hurt through the words of others when I can, and accept how it is others show themselves. Dropping judgmental projections for clear discernment. This discernment has become an ongoing trait with less problematic outcomes in all my relationships. My world shifted when I claimed accountability for my emotions and feelings and stopped blaming others for HOW I FEEL.

When I hurt I looked within, took back my own power of self, and learned to be accountable for my own life in ways which removed me from patterns of hurt and replaced those with profound new awareness which showed me I can move on, thrive, and not incur the same to someone else. I refuse to perpetrate cycles of hurt, for myself and for others. No matter what.

When I was saddened I learned to accept my emotions so completely I went all the way to the bottom of that sadness and I sought healing, and in so doing the sadness showed me the value of endings that lead to new beginnings. And generated for me the awareness of how cycles exist all over the universe.

When I felt betrayal I took issue with myself instead of the other, and learned to find power in letting go, finding new directions, releasing people who do this to others, and freed myself from ever having this happen again. I learned acceptance for “what is”, and in so doing moved on. Acceptance of “what is” cannot be underscored more. Learning to accept what others show us about themselves is a primary skill in relationships. Honoring my own feelings, is equally as primary.

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Some of my own personal triggers. These are but a few trigger scenarios I have been through in my own family, and how they each became powerful developmental stages in my personal evolution. Beginning early in childhood, under the roof of an abusive family situation, full of alcoholism, co dependency, and some basic neglect. I learned how to take myself seriously, when no one else would, and to take responsibility, when no one around me would, and to redirect my life as I would have it, because the pain and difficulty was not a choice I wanted to live through. The fury of alcoholism, combined with quilt ridden religious teaching, and the lack of getting my own emotional needs met as a child all changed as I became a teen and found my own will to move on beyond all these many life situations.

We all have personal challenges hidden in issues that arise in families today

I finally learned that issues I experience, regardless of who triggers them are for me to process and that any issue I find carries a significant personal challenge for me to resolve. leading me to  release the controls, manipulations, and any other scenarios from other people, and with gratitude… I do my own inner work. People trigger us for many reasons, the primary one is our soul growth, and not just to hurt us, bug us, irritate us and drive us crazy.

Is it is valuable to note that I have understood the issues that arise for me in my family are the perfect issues for me personally to grow from as a spiritual being. Contrasting this with the common idea that people who dump problems belong to everyone else and I am simply a causal victim, or recipient of the actions of others. This is hardly the case, once we become awakened from the soul aspect of who and what we are. The shift occurs that these incidents are part of a larger design for which I am present here to process, learn, and grow.

Issues of every kind show up in family dynamics. Our people will trigger us. Those closest to us will push our buttons. Our closeness will cause us to get irritated, upset, and angry. Our losses will hurt, and hurt deeply. Our talents, skills, and potentials will be challenged, exploited, neglected, and all manner of triggering. Power, love, misunderstanding,cruelty, abuse on every level. Abundance, materialism, artistic expression, and history.

Today life style challenges many… religious paths, sexuality, gender, politics.

Issues are areas of concentrated emotional, intellectual, artistic, physical, mental situations yet to be explored fully which contain experiences that will teach the indwelling spirit of a person something for which they have chosen to incarnate into this physical world. Issues by nature are unlimited in the earth experience, can be highly charged, totally challenging and either build up or completely tear down existing belief systems, erroneous ego notions, and shift us on all levels of ourselves all over the map of creation.

What is a trigger?

Everyone starts as a child, and as that child may encounter emotional/mental situations for which they do not have the capacity to process. Once adulthood sets in anything resembling those unprocessed emotions can trigger us. Paralyzing us for an hour or even the whole day. We become susceptible in these situations because of our own unmet need to process, understand, and integrate those aspects of emotional intelligence into our selves. Not just because someone has done something to us.

In my experience we also as soul self, choose family situations where we can see specific triggers will likely happen that are precisely what we need in our own evolutionary growth as spiritual beings having a human experience. In my own case I have remembered patterns of emotions that were so complex that one lifetime alone was not enough to fulfill the necessary experience to bring full understanding to me. Thus incarnating into life to continue themes for which I have spiritual purpose to explore so I could come to a full realization of what these emotions truly are . Often this has happened with the same people over and over, as we switch places and play our roles from every side of the equation in a soul based effort to bring to each other greater knowledge while on earth. Sometimes one may play the victim, next the perpetrator, other times the savior.

Triggers are those patterns of emotional intelligence, mental ideas, and circumstances that we carry inside of us, as unfinished potential full realizations. these are the significant components of our earth life with which there are many valuable experiences that will open us, reveal to us, illuminate us, redirect us, and add to our underlying sense of purpose as well as knowledge about life.

They are not merely problems, obstacles, hindrances, irritations, and conundrums solely in our lives to make us miserable. This level of awareness is the early stage of awakening in the earth school. There are many more possibilities for learning that ultimately lead to transcendence and transformation.

How the knowledge of our soul can open up greater purpose

When we have been activated beyond the ordinary awareness through circumstance which may be positive or negative we engage the wider spectrum of our own source self, our spiritual self, the soul. Once we have the connection to our soul perspective this engages knowledge of purpose that likely transcends the typical earthly perspective without the soul. The intellect begins a process of re-education where we begin to observe these experiences from a new perspective filled with meaning and purpose. As we cultivate this meaning in our lives, even the most negative of life situations sheds light and brings significant meaning to our inner selves, the world, and life around us. Widening our view of ourselves, each other and life around us. There is an unfolding of learning that begins to awaken inner knowledge so much so that the experience becomes one of remembering. Remembering (soul) what we have forgotten about life, ourselves and one another. This remembering is the soulful spiritual nature that exists in life everywhere in the universe in vast capacities and is forgotten temporarily through the act of embodiment here on the Earth. When the purpose of any situation becomes apparent from the soul a large context begins to emerge with which to operate our lives, make choices and to understand. This larger perspective may not occur to every family member at the same time, and so often when this happens a wide divide may occur in relationships. Boundaries change, and relationships go through many phases of expression, and understanding.

Memories of my own soul

In my own quest for a sense of completion, and fulfillment, understanding and release from pain I have bumped up against the edges of all my emotional and intellectual edges. Finding myself going further and deeper past those edges into realms of spiritual sight, inner soul memory, and soul based awareness that far exceeds the typical human levels. Because I have chosen to ask myself the necessary questions, and I have chosen to allow myself to keep feeling my feelings I have entered the realms of soul presence. This has brought into contact with others who have had similar experiences and realizations which have confirmed and supported my own soul development and choices to let go and move forward beyond the status quo of my previous understandings. I have spontaneously seen, felt, heard, myself in other times as other people struggling with the essence of the exact triggers I go through in this lifetime. Providing a broader context of understanding that I can say “fits well” with everything in my experience up to this point. Like finding a missing puzzle piece and completing a puzzle these memories of soul history complete the unanswered, questionable conundrums of my life in ways that are difficult to describe. I can say that once a life puzzle piece from my soul comes into place the feeling of peace, of understanding, of completion, and “fit” is perfect. There truly is a quieting of the self, and a peace that passeth all understanding.

Hardships, unrelenting difficulties, and impossible scenarios …unexpected deaths, murders, and various other horrific family stories

As difficult as it may seem to an unprompted human, one who has not opened to the soul qualities of this wider perspective, there is tremendous purpose in these events. For the individuals to whom they occur, those around them, and the general human family collective as well. For in all things there is a vast intelligence and purpose that is unfolding through the human experience. The great tragedies will open us into the soul realm of ourself and begin a journey of exploration far beyond anything we conceived up to that moment in time. Breaking open our minds, hearts and feelings with such depth that only by choosing to relearn and deepen understanding will the event itself not destroy some part of us. Wounded beyond repair this leaves the choice to either lose self in thoughts and actions of greater degradation, or transform and then transcend. The choice is ours.

THERE IS A IMPORTANT LEARNING HERE!

Though murder, unexpected deaths, and seemingly impossible scenarios hardly appear to have such meaning, they actually do! Soul consciousness extends beyond the boundaries of physicality and time. Living from a spectrum of spirit that within us is so vast that it includes a physical lifetime. And the soul is fully aware of this. I have had hundreds and hundreds of experiences communicating with loved ones who have passed over due to extraordinary circumstances and regained their full faculties after life and have come forward to express details which release and heal those left behind. Myself, I have remembered my own tragic life endings and recalled the details of my ongoing soul evolution. Without any doubt, I am fully aware of the greater meaning, and spiritual significance in horrific endings, tragic outcomes and sad scenarios left in the wake of a life through tragedy.

Ways in which we are meant to learn….. Physical, mental, spiritual, social

Looking at human life from the soul perspectives we are set up, so to speak, ( by our own soul choices and agreements before incarnation) to learn specific things about ourselves.

The nature of reality, and the essence of life itself. The most difficult of human learning bring the greatest capacity to break patterns that have existed in families for thousands of years, repeating and repeating until such time as a soul awakened individual breaks free of the limiting emotions, imprisoning belief systems, and twisted notions of reality. These people are truly present all over the world right now passing through some of the most difficult scenarios thought possible. Their choices to learn from these experiences are causing tremendous changes everywhere and sparking others to loosen up, to question authority, and to seek answers from within.

Physical

There are infinite scenarios through physical challenges that we find problems, obstacles, triggers,and limitations. All of which when observed with an awareness of learning from and learning through the process of painful physical illnesses, and limitations we develop depths of understanding about the natural world of a physical body, and how to successfully achieve results. In my case I must always attend to my circulation, via exercise of all kinds, play time, and authentic sensuality. If I do not pay attention here I always end up sluggish, lethargic, unhappy and disconnected. My body shows me through the non verbal messages of pain and pleasure, restfulness and excited-ness just how to find balance. Diet has a significant impact on cell physiology, circulation as well as mental and emotional states. Our physicality is a major area of universal learning. As a body therapist I encounter all of these and many other issues through the practice of body work, facilitating the clarity with clients and the deeper more meaningful messages in the body.

Mental

How we think, what we think, and then any actions we take or do not take based on our thoughts impact every aspect of our daily lives. When we develop a vigilant attention to our mentality we open unlimited areas of resourceful possibility, and when we do not we close off any of the same possibilities. Mental illness, as it is called is in my family, and through humanity. Mental illness both for the person experiencing it and those around them impacts our lives and is monumental catalyst for shifting people’s awareness. As we learn to take care of our thoughts, and how they affect life in us and around us we heighten our consciousness in ways in which we can not only heal, we can transform, and still go further and transcend these situations in ourselves. Developing the witness part of ourselves is a signal that we are learning to face, and move through mental states instead of being victimized by our own thinking and the thoughts of others. Intellect alone or knowledge is not sufficient to clearly embrace the totality of our mental states. Self awareness develops the witness aspect of a mind capable of seeing its own thoughts, and discerning the intellect, the thinking mind, the rational mind and the intuitive mind. Intuitive mind is unlike the intellect in that the frame of reference in any intuitional thought arises from a basis that may include thinking, or intellect, yet more than often comes from beyond it. In other words it appears to be from left field as the saying goes. Having little or not connection to what the thinking mind is saying. I have learned to hold on to intuitive thoughts longer, so as to give my thinking mind time to process, translate and integrate the significance of the intuitive thought. I experience this both inside my head, and above my head about 4 feet above. This is an aspect of soul connection that informs me. This is almost always amazing, provides answers that bypass all the typical logical thought processes and integrates the mind as well. By choosing to face our thinking triggers, pass through our thoughts to completion, and to remain open-minded to learning the mental issues we face will always show us new perspectives far beyond our beliefs, thought processes, and logical deductions.

Emotional

When I look at emotions I like to discern the difference between non verbal feeling that arises from the depths of myself, or my body and the thoughts I have about what feelings I am having. I find many times there is not a distinct discernment in thoughts we have about what we feel. In fact it is common when asked about an emotion a person will reply with an “ I think that….” kind of statement to put into words what they feel. I also detect how we think so much about feeling that we layer thoughts over feelings and address those as our emotions. This confuses the person, and the body sending many mixed signals all through the biology and physiology of a person. Causing much physical distress, hypertension, and all kind of diseases as these scenarios progress and become deeply ingrained in the character. Emotional intelligence is the cultivation of our feelings and thoughts. Separating them and identifying all the components of a particular emotional situation. Intuitive feeling gets bypassed, or ignored because it does not always have words, or fit into our specific emotional patterning. Intuitive feeling is different in us all. In myself I know how I have feeling that is deeply intuitive that arises directly from my heart, and or my abdomen. It is almost like a watery substance that comes from beyond my conscious awareness and I have learned how to hold on to these feelings long enough so that they become processed and then translated into images, and words that I can understand.

Spiritual

Every family either has a spiritual or religious pattern, or none at all. These days our spirituality is being confronted, challenged, and developed by the immense amount of polar opposites that arise in conflicts. Our innermost spirituality is easily broken wide open through our family tragedies, intense possibilities now available in self-expression and personal direction, amongst so many other issues. That we look deeply into ourselves through the challenges all the way to our innermost spiritual selves, our religious beliefs is all part of the plan. And learning to view ourselves and each other and all life as spiritually based. Moving beyond the limitations of only physicality as has been the case for thousands of years. Our spirits are activated, excited, speeded up, and flipped out into our lives like never before. Expanding every aspect of human life out into vast spaces of larger meaningfulness. Many are choosing instead to go the route of more limitation, more fundamental religiosity, and deceiving themselves and others about hatred, non inclusive rules, bigotry, egotistic maniac-ness in the effort to hold on to thousands of years of old patterns that no longer serve us. This reversal of spirituality is a free will choice that has its consequences and limitations. It is steeped in denial on all levels… physically, mentally, emotionally as well as spiritually. Perhaps the pervasive thought and emotion in going backwards is the fear. Fear based spirituality has been used to control people for long history in our human family.

Social

We are redefining all of our social places through our expansion of our complex human sexuality, gender identity, class-ism, economics, and so much more. As we develop new relationships we expand upon the old ones causing more inclusiveness, more understanding of our selves and each other. We develop new social structures, procedures, systems, laws, and so on. We have many socially unacceptable situations needing our attention. We have many unresolved social problems we need to take care. In the process of facing these issues the triggers subside, diminish and lead to many many new understanding and possibilities.

Patterns exist because we have lived before

Looking from the soul view patterns exist in our lives because we have lived before! Within our own bodies are generations of DNA that are the former expression of people who were ancestors. We do not realize it because many of us are so completely cut off from the knowledge of the history of our particular family ancestors, however the effects of all this live within us as us. Add to this the embodiment, or physical incarnation patterning carried forth through the subtle body of our soul self. Here are the continuing intentions for learning, the timing of events and people who will trigger us and the unspoken longing for truth about all these situations. Our incarnate directions are within us aligned with the soul choice for embodiment through the circumstances of our birth. Picking up on themes we are seeking to develop. These may be either positive or negative or any combination.

The deflated ego and the restoration of self

The majority of the early work of our lifetime is in the structure of our ego nature. This is very important as it will provide a personal container for our soul essence in life. As part of the curriculum of this planet we will pass through many many stages of ego development. In my experience one very misunderstood aspect is the deflated ego. The deflated ego feels like depression, sadness, dark emotions, feelings of being lost, and disconnected. Once I realized much of this was the realignment of my own ego I began to catch on to the fact that my ego is not really in charge. And when it deflates it is a good thing, though it feels awful. The deflated ego learns to let go of silly ideas, twisted notions of power, inappropriate life plans, and immature ways of living with others. To truly grow up we pass through all the delusions, and illusions of our ego creations. However the trade-off is the larger self, or spiritual self… the soul. Spiritual here different from religious. Innate spiritual forces that exist within us are independent yet may be connected to religious dogmas, disciplines, or beliefs. Yet even still the pure aspect literally stands independently of any man-made religion. It is what it is because this is the source of what we are as spiritual beings having a human life. Family triggers punch lots of action into our ego structures, testing their strengths, weaknesses, and the reality of truth with which we hold. Whenever my own ego gets deflated I have learned to reflect upon those uncomfortable feelings and I let go to a larger aspect of myself. Every time the result has been what I opened this writing with, I shifted and learned something very valuable and traded my limited little ego stand for my inner authentic soul place.

Changes in locations

Family triggers will cause us to move. The changing locations with which we pass into are significant in that new opportunities arise in new places. Separations, relocations, sudden movements of large groups of people as is now happening are all purposeful in the larger unfolding plan of our human family. Out of the larger collective family arise forces that alter our locations and in turn shift our relationships. Causing us to face differences, solve new problems, expose out dated customs, and free people from many painful life circumstances. I like to remember how family triggers include the larger family of humanity. And like our smaller micro family dynamics these larger ones add equal value to the human evolutionary process. As we integrate all that this means we have rich opportunities to grow and to evolve our selves.

Abuse and how we are to learn from it

A shocking realization for me was the memories that surfaced within me through the emotional work I did on healing myself. As I released more and more of the stuffed up, contaminated, overloaded contents of my own sub conscious I found a clarity. As there became a deep abiding inner peace within me I became emptied of many family scenarios of which I had suffered for years. In this peace my soul qualities filled in. In these peaceful internal states I integrated powerful memories of soul choices I had made before I became the me I am today. As a pre incarnated spiritual being I had looked closely at the earth based, family dynamics I could be born into. And to my shock I recalled the choice to undergo the difficult and painful experiences I would later learn to name abuse. Yet from the soul perspective I was particularly excited to avail myself of the chance to learn more and more through these difficult life scenarios. In my work with individuals over the years, I have witnessed the same exact realizations. These individuals who worked through the deepest layers of their negative pain, also had similar such soul memories. This has happened with such a congruent way I have learned that what we call abuse is meant to teach us, reveal to us, and to release us as we grow out of those circumstances. Not at all to imprison us as is the common idea held by people without soul awareness development. Shocking as it may be I found in the memories of many previous death experiences in past lives, even death has purpose.

When I was 33 years old I had a spontaneous soul review. Similar to a life review that is reported by people who have near death, and dying experiences. I had a soul review that showed my a long history of incarnations and the prevailing patterns in those lives and each death at the end. I reviewed the after life experiences and the returning to my soul self with each incarnation. This overview provided for me a larger context with which to frame human experience based on my own personal evolutionary unfolding in the earth school. In many incarnations I was learning every component of human power, power over others, power under others. And now as was revealed to me in this experience power with others. I experienced the tremendous, infinite love of God for me to have these experiences including death through murder, being murdered, and everything else. This love is far greater than even humanly possible to understand. So great is this love and so intelligent I learned how each negative experience I was victim to or had victimized would also contain an equal opportunity for balancing. Thus the polarity of experiences and the roles I played in all these different life times. The abuse we suffer here is actually meant for us to learn to understand, transform, and then transcend. This has not been the prevalent teaching in history of religion, and I learned that there have been powerful forces inside many religious institutions that are subliminally exerting hidden forces of control and manipulation. Thus in this lifetime I have learned that when a dogma is mean and unloving in any religion, I notice that. I do not participate any longer in any such teachings.

Soul agreements for incarnating and suffering through hardship

The incarnation that you and I are living within now contains soul agreements with the people in our families, as well as the collective human family. Suffering only need last as long as it takes to wake up to the larger perspective of a spiritually based ( not necessarily religious ) soul awareness of life. The depth of the painful things that are happening now have a polar opposite in the larger context of our human history and human species. The depth of pain has a counter balance in the depth of how unconscious we may be. In other words put like this… were we not so unconscious about the nature of existence and relationships we would not create or allow to manifest that which we are creating in this world. Out of our own unconscious thought feeling and action we generate experiences that will by nature arise to balance these things out. There is wisdom in the seemingly crazy unconnected terror, horror, pain and suffering we see around us. As we learn how not to create oppression, submission, power over others, greed, malice, and all the darker human emotions we currently still create we will have less expression of terror, abuse, suffering and pain inflicted one to the other. However we will have to learn from our triggers and seek to stop recreating patterns of hurt.

Release and freedom, the transcendence of conditions

Summing up here releasing self, learning to abide in freedom, and transcendence of negative situations is the underlying momentum arising naturally out of the great wisdom of creation in us, as us. Our experiences of suffering though not all consciously created, may be consciously transcended through prudent, vigilant exercising of our own free will. We all have some element of free will within the dynamic patterns of our pain. There is not final outcome of unending suffering and pain that is taught all over this planet. The soul is timeless, and directly connected to God. The soul in us is possible to be activated in any situation. Until one has passed through this, tested it, and learned this ….it may be hard to embrace, however that we effort to test ourselves, our beliefs and learn from what triggers us is a defining key to the human conundrum and mystery of suffering on our planet.

Anchoring the personality into the soul self

The result of the effort of the healing of our family triggers inside each one of us is ultimately the anchoring of the soul itself into the personality structure of self. Bringing into the world the greater will . Purpose, and light of a spiritually based person. A soul infused person who will manifest the love of our source here on this planet. If you have ever met or encountered such a person you will not forget them. A soul infused being has a powerful love, unflinching understanding and deep embrace of the human. Their very presence shifts the world around us. And they exist in every single walk of life, from the most lowly to the highest stages of human activity. I have been fortunate to have traveled all over the world and met many many such people and I am always left touched in some way with a gentle, yet even fierce love.

Living in the world as a soul being, and the effect this has on the world.

A soul incarnate being contributes in this world in ways that bring balance to life. They may even be your worst enemy. The bane of your existence. The choices that one encounters as a soul infused being, in my own experience defy what is normally accepted. Soul infused choices arise like magic, and create opportunities where humans could not. My own life has been filled with amazing such happenings. I know that soul people heal this world where ever they go. Their actions may be quiet and subtle yet their power great. Power to lift others, to show the way, and to pass beyond the most difficult of circumstances. Making way for truthfulness and the possibilities to love like never before here on earth.

The mystery of deep listening

The mystery of deep listening is that we learn to listen beyond the common voice of current rhetoric, and habitual patterning of anything less than soul based awareness. Learning how to pay attention to the unspoken promptings inside us, around us, and in nature. To listening to each other far beyond our words. The mystery in silence is there is more in the silence than in the words. I have learned to honor the pauses in life, not to fill every moment with chatter, and to hear past what you are saying. There is the sound of your soul, my soul yearning to be heard, seen, and felt. Our triggers lead us deeper so that we may come to these places in ourselves, and with one another.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self-reflection

The Transcendence of Hardship…. core spirituality, my personal journey

The Transcendence of Hardship…. core spirituality, my personal journey

It is perhaps the least spoken of and certainly least understood of all human activities our hardships and our unwilling conundrums. Where we find how our transcendence of hardship plays such a vital and important and always contributing spiritual action in this world. The act of transcendence is a universal sub-note or theme to all of our lives and carries a universal purpose. Not limited by any one religion, any nationality, race, any place, or age of person. In fact the act of transcendence is connected to all human activity… directing the future for all of us. So how is it that we have forgotten this deeply moving and important aspect of living?

The facing of the difficult.

The facing of difficulty is so common that we hardly give it a thought, so pervasive in society that we have a vast array of choices we all make which serve to distract us from this very thing! Much of our human activity…. the quest for power, the abuse of drugs, the proliferation of violence as entertainment, the chasing of money, the complete obsession of so many aspects of life and much of the negative psychological problems we share arise out of our resistance, and denial of our need to move forward through circumstance and transcend the conditions we find ourselves.

Transcendence happens on all levels of our lives. Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, social… there is hardly a human arena where we do not have the personal power to exert change and difference in our lives through our transcendence of hardship. There are no limits to gathering what it takes inside us, around us, and through us to take on the task. Often it is not until we have passed through the fires of a painful and difficult time do we even discover the meaning of it all! Yet in hindsight we frequently do arrive at the greater purpose that was unfolding all along in our hardships.

An act of spirit.

As an act of spirit transcendence transports us into realms of mystery, and revelation, where we are able to shape and develop personal qualities, conditions around us, and participate in something larger than ourselves.. that of evolution. The opening to personal revelation and our unknown strengths and weaknesses are almost always revealed. The forces of circumstance drive us all to move beyond ourselves and to taste the sweet waters of humility. Here is where we regain our footing in new vision, new possibility, and new outcomes. Our soul selves quietly lead us forward through these things all to bring to us the larger place of being, where we discover our most important truths, unravel our greatest mysteries, and find the love we were searching all along. Yet… oh how we resist and fight the urge to transcend our own short comings and negativity. Until we reach the place of our deeper wisdom and learn the purposeful unfolding, we suffer. And most often we generate our own suffering through our ignorance ( from the word : “to ignore” ). The act of spirit is heaved forward into our lives as we gain momentum with our transcendence of every single circumstance both within ourselves and outwardly!

The idea of polarity.

What is so vital in all this is polarity, those forces of positive and negative. For as we face hardship and grok our way onward we gain strengths and wisdom’s as we face the tremendous negativity in our lives. It is perhaps the single most powerful teaching that any negative force can show us. The horrific negative scenarios in our world awaken human beings and redirect us in ways it is almost inconceivable to understand. When we gather one to another uniting in our efforts to face the hardships and difficulties of this world we literally change history, alter the future and gain tremendous strength of character. We are able to redefine and transcend these negatives. Within ourselves whenever we face a personal state of our own making, our own negatives, we draw from the very substance of our lives, the spiritual energy needed to move our blocks, shift our minds, release our pains. It is not uncommon to look back after such a growth zone and think of it as a miracle! Yet as humans this is perhaps one of our most powerful and fluid capacities. We can move mountains! We are truly spiritual beings having a human experience and not just humans having a spiritual experience. Never more is this realized than after passing through a difficult hardship and successfully and completely transcending the conditions and limitations that used to over take us.

How we react to the world and why it matters.

How we react to the world is of pure consequence because our reactions have momentum, have energy behind them. Every thought, emotion, action, or lack of … shape the collective conditions of our lives. Building our days with human choices both conscious and unconscious.

Once the realization that our reactions cause more actions with our environment, our human brothers and sisters, and all life on this planet we learn to pause. Pausing allows us the moments we need to learn to consider how and what we choose will affect life around us.

Staying prejudiced, or remaining stubborn, holding on to our viewpoints when another expresses an opposing view, for example, will only cause ourselves to continue to experience the same limiting and painful scenarios over and over.

Unyielding points of view in the face of opposition only add to conflict.

It is a choice to be this way, and learning to just relax and let others have their say, and to act on their notions is sometimes the one act that can bridge the differences. There is a third place where oppositions meet and the possibility for understanding then has a grounding for arising. It is quite possible to say no to injustices, suppression, oppression, and any forms of subservience while not creating any hardship. Learning how to engage difference has its strength in this world as it can show us how we ourselves may make a difference through the willingness to peacefully face such actions in the world. For truly all of these scenarios show us on the most primal level, what not to do to another. And so not to cause such in our personal lives in any degree.

Saying no to injustice, suppression, oppression and all forms of subservience to outside negative forces.

Choosing kindness over hatred

Choosing empathy over defensiveness

Choosing understanding over prejudice

Choosing strength over weakness

Choosing clarity over confusion

Choosing openness over closed-ness and obsessiveness

Choosing cooperation over fighting

Choosing willingness over resistance

Choosing love over… as the final result in all matters on a personal level
These are but a few harmonious conditions we can always grow in our personal lives in the face of hardships.

Transcendence is a core element of spirituality.

Transcendence is an aspect to core spirituality as it is basic to all of life, even on a cellular level. Transcendence is core because whether we like it or not, whether we want to at the time or not, circumstances will eventually lead us beyond ourselves and the limits we place in life. And this transcendence connects into the collective. Our private thoughts, feelings, and actions do affect the public domains of our common ground. As the actions, words of such generate the conditions we live within. How often have I discovered a private and personal act of transcendence brought to me a new door opening, a new friend, new possibilities. Yet on the surface there did not appear to be any connection outside me. The revelation was indeed, we are… and all things and circumstances all connected.

“Going against the grain” when it serves your intent to transcend.

“Going against the grain” is an uncomfortable realization that our personal growth demands of us eventually. There is a time when it becomes right to step away, to step out, and to go another way. Even at the dismay of loved ones. Our deeper urge to transcend does not always align with the timing of the people with whom we love. Thus there is a pain and this pain we are urged to bear as we move forward and learn to not only face our difficulties, but also to transcend them. Resulting in many turn rounds, shifting of circumstance and whole new unexpected directions. Family and friends are not always up to speed with us at the same time this happens. When we choose differently it is helpful to be considerate of our loved ones and to take time to share, if that is possible. When it is not we must go forward anyway and my experience is that in time, more opportunities will show up later where the chance to build understanding will manifest. But until then, “going against the grain” may become the central theme of our lives.

Transcendence as a way of life, the art of always giving self permission to move on.

Clearly one of the most difficult aspects of all this is giving ourselves permission to move forward! Yet it is needed, as no one has the power to do it for us, we have to act on our own life force from within ourselves otherwise the transcendence is not complete. Going it alone, and learning self permission is one of the scariest most important realizations on the path of facing the difficult. When we can muster this with the smaller conditions, we graduate to larger ones. Along the way we learn how transcendence is a way of life and an art to living that is absolutely necessary. Often it is in our loneliest, most alone moments when we discover our own most powerful strengths. Graduating to the art of transcendence where we learn to love and live happily as we make our changes, even when we face our hardships. This is where we encounter the paradox of living. Paradox becomes familiar ground and acceptance is the way through the polarizing opposites in our nature and the world around us. Many times in my own history of transcendence I have been in a state of paradox until I achieved a greater momentum in my direction. I learned to accept this about myself, life in general and this supports me in facing the difficult with much less angst and more layering of negativity.

The evolution of circumstance based on choice.

When in hindsight we reflect upon circumstance it is much easier to see how our evolution and growth through our choice selections generate the circumstance. When we discover how we create reality, (circumstances) we learn how to value what is inherent in facing hardship. It becomes worth it to move onward and go through whatever it will take to transcend our unhappiness, our discords, our pains, and our adversities and adversaries. All such negative situations become the fuels with which we use to propel ourselves out and beyond. We stop fighting them, and we learn to transcend them…. ourselves.

This is most valuable with larger issues where whole groups of people are involved. We may not have unto our individual selves the powers necessary to shift a whole group, yet we do when it comes to one individual. Me! One transformed person will make it possible for another and another, and so on. In case you have never heard of The Hundredth Monkey phenomenon, then investigate that. We learn to be appropriate in the larger context of life and we replace our rant of “change the world” to “change my world” and we get on with the business of living the change ourselves. This is powerful.

Anchoring intention into states of transcendence vs. the struggle.

When we arrive to the natural impulse within ourselves to transcend, and concentrate on our own life, and stop projecting this onto every person, group, nation or whatever that we do not agree …we cease the continuous state of conflict so many humans place their energy.

We then add to the harmonious forces of transformation and transcendence that already exist and are popping up all over the world. There is an appropriate action facing the negative forces around us , and there is the time to do this work internally and make the change within that we want to see outwardly. In other words… “I become the change I want to see in the world”. And thus we become a force for transcendence that is unstoppable.

Through out my entire life I have experienced all these things and I know how new levels of transcendent living actually shift the very life around me.

Forces of negativity that once pulled upon me withdraw their grip and the freedom within is untouchable to those forces.

There is still a lot we all are learning when it comes to sovereignty… and one of the most difficult realizations is no one can give this to you, no one can make you sovereign like you can.

Yet still the masses seek freedom outside themselves, when it is actually within us.

The discovery that we make this ourselves is for all of us.

As more and more individuals begin to live this, the forces of oppression, suppression, injustice, and harm will only continue to diminish. These kind of negative forces can only take hold in individuals that do not live in alignment with transcendence and the self sovereignty of a human life.

Thus for these negatives to go away we all will learn and learn so fully, so collectively that negatives will have no place to anchor in us, in our lives.

This is the deeper more powerful truth of the transcendence of hardship that all negative forces do not want you to learn, for it does mean their end.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

Consciousness and Belief… Finding Core Value, core spirituality, my personal journey

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Consciousness and Belief… Finding Core Value, core spirituality, my personal journey

Consciousness here is defined as the totality of my own psychology, emotional nature and feeling of sensations, perceptions ideas, attitudes in both ordinary and non ordinary (dreams, meditations, and altered states) super conscious and subconscious experience.

Belief here is a state or habit of my mind, a conviction of truth in which I place my trust and thru which I view and experience reality.

Core value here is what I have come to understand, experience, learn and remember as central to the experience of being human from the viewpoint of my own spirit, soul self.

My own paradigm shift!
While belief plays a significant component to life here on earth and provides a framework for experiencing our lives it is not actually the most important value as many human beings hold true.

In my experience of passing out of and beyond this physical existence while still in body with my present awareness completely intact, I have learned that how and what I create and cause to evolve within myself holds the central core value of meaningfulness to each physical embodiment or incarnation.

Circulating all over the earthly human environment are voices which do not hold fast to this idea.

Having passed from their original spiritual state into the physical incarnation cycles, many people ( spiritual beings ), the idea of belief has become for the masses the most important value and is the cause of horrific and vast conflict among-st our collective humanity …..
undermining the basic core value of our species reason for living.

My own “wake up” realization!
When what we believe and how we believe it becomes more important than how our beliefs cause us to evolve or hold us back from evolving, we sidestep and avoid the deeper more meaningful purpose with which our beliefs serve us.

What we are actually doing to one another that is based in placing our beliefs over our evolution.
To use belief to oppress, suppress, control, manipulate, hoard, harm and kill others has been a longstanding outcome to many of the religious, political, and personal beliefs of billions of humans adding to the suffering of many and the preventing of global unity and collective prosperity for everyone.

The effect of which causes me to observe…
I find it very telling when groups, nations, military around the world, whole bodies of religious people all involve themselves in hurting of others for the sake of their own beliefs.

In this way we can observe a signal that some aspect of belief is inherently out of sync with the larger picture of our collective experience (especially from the spiritual, not religious perspective). Whether the belief is based in Christianity, Islam, or the Jewish systems the history, or any other religious or non religious systems is noteworthy here of how people of these faiths have allowed their belief to perpetrate harm to others… to children, adults, animals, the environment which supports us is staggering.

The application of religious belief combined with political will to withhold basic human rights, to perpetrate control over whole masses of people and the justification of harm to others is highly questionable to me. I feel myself wanting to understand this about our humanity.

When what we believe becomes more important than how that belief supports us in evolving our awareness and our consciousness shows me how we have personally and collectively lost something central to the experience of being human that together we all share. The underlying spiritual being-ness that we all share! ( for example … the unyielding quest for power in thousands of ways at any cost to others to maintain a status quo !)

Decades of working with healing modalities have shown me…
In my personal work of healing my own pain in this life and those others who have come to me, I have had a lifetime of experiences of moving beyond belief, and into the purely spiritual aspect of my own self and others, my soul to realize what it is I am or am not learning.

The massive astral realms of souls.
It has been my experience that after death of the body many individuals pass into gigantic realms of collective belief far into the astral realm of this planet. Where the mutual thoughts have generated artificial astral realms filled with millions of souls who have gathered together out of their collective beliefs formed while in body. This is true for every religion.

I have visited these astral realms and been shown how the over emphasis in belief causes the staggering of the soul beyond incarnation. Yes! Beyond this lifetime! Like wise I have traveled beyond these realms and witnessed both for myself and others how we eventually come to realize what we have learned as a result of earthly life when we make it beyond the realms of our earthly belief !

The “soul reviews”…
I have witnessed the assessments of evolution that arise from these experiences. I know how the value of evolution, personal and collective growth plays a much greater role in our spiritual selves, far beyond the beliefs we have held while in body. As each soulful aspect, each being, has the opportunity to learn of itself, its experience, and to assess its own evolution while on earth!

While what we believe is all well and important… the actual question of the soul is; “what did I do to evolve my consciousness, how did I grow by learning?”

Once in this realm the appropriate configuration of belief is understood for the true value it holds and we reconnect with the context of our experiences from our purely spiritual selves.

Belief is merely a vehicle for mind, emotion, feeling, and experience which teaches us about our nature as spiritual beings having a human experience.

For truly it is so…. we have a common, yet diverse experience of being human, as spiritual beings we are all on a much larger common ground of spiritual experience.

As soul beings, or expressions of the Source, or “God”, (use the word you feel best expresses this) our souls have much more in common and are all completely connected one to the other. It is quite ordinary while in physical body to use beliefs to substantiate exactly the opposite! And maintain a separateness one towards another while in the body experience. Contrary to the larger reality of the vast larger, true and actual reality of life where this is not even true.

In viewing my brothers and sisters in spirit I have seen the realms where they go based purely in their earthly beliefs, where Christians are still waiting for the coming of their lord, or where Muslims linger in a paradise of their own making. It was a startling experience to watch as I moved through these realms learning to understand how what we believe even directs us after we die our bodies here.

There are realms which exist beyond earthly belief in the universe!
Contrasting thus further with the realms where the actual soul essence is supported to engage in honest self-reflection, self understanding about what we did with our beliefs while on Earth. This engaged a huge wake up call to me as I learned how much farther we go knowing we are not a belief, we are pure spiritual being and this being is far more open, far more larger, and far more connected to something far greater than all these separate beliefs COMBINED! In this place we understand the nature of our consciousness as not just a human having a spiritual experience, we know that we are a spiritual being having a human experience!

The conditional reality of living only within a belief as the very core of the structure of life, and that being in life is seen as that…. conditional. And not the actual full reality of existence. This is why I have learned to shift the emphasis of belief to its more appropriate place and to look to how my or someone else’s beliefs are causing us to evolve. I look to the evolving results, or the learning, while respecting the belief that brings us to our personal evolutionary states.

We as a species have a tremendous leap now as all the beliefs of thousands of years are being stirred. As our world becomes personally closer one to another through technology and the expansive experience of consciousness growth, and we face how what we believe is actually hurting our collective “us”.

We have further to go towards understanding and what we do with our wills.

How we choose to act, towards our belief differences. We have so much more capability here to resolve what has been our history.

As more and more of the darker side of our beliefs is brought out, into the light of how we actually harm one another, or withhold universal rights to all beings we can evolve into a completely diverse yet harmonious humanity. Yet… this will take work.

And this work is for each one of us in our daily lives, in whatever ways we can muster toward greater understanding that beyond what we all believe, how we evolve from our beliefs, what we actually learn is the central value and purpose of our ideas in the gift of living each day.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

Willingness to Watch Our Inner Conversations…. core spirituality, my personal journey

 

 

Willingness to Watch Our Inner Conversations…. core spirituality, my personal journey

What did I say to myself today?

These posts are reflections and expressions of my own internal conversations.

The voices in my head.

The feelings that arise, and the ongoing development of my own place in the cosmos.

We all have the “inside place” where the voices inside us speak.

My question is how well do we know these places and are we listening?

Listening to the internal dialogues we have with ourselves is a crucial element of inner development which leads to our personal revelation, and self discovery. Without the conscious awareness of these interior voices we are subject to reactions, rationalizations, excuses, and pitfalls of infinite variety.

How we learn to catch these inner voices is one thing, discerning them is another and integrating them is still another step.

How long has a voice spoken inside me without my ever listening?

Do I ignore my own internal dialogues?

Am I afraid to listen… sometimes?

How can I make peace with the voices within me that are unresolved?

How do I stabilize my thoughts? Have I truly resolved my own inner conflicts?

Today when will I submit to the urge to be silent enough to be aware in some new way?

So much information around us now,information overload… when there are too many thoughts, voices inside me, how do I refocus ? Do I allow my interior dialogue to remain in constant conflict?

When are the voices or thoughts inside me not really mine, but some internalized influence from someone else? Society, religion, parents, media, friends, many voices blend within us. Am I clear enough to recognize the difference within me as I sort them out and find my own genuine inner voice?

What we are learning now is how to refine our perceptions of our true inner most voice.

The voice of our most intimate internal knowing. Without the clarity and discernment here who do we actually become?

The discerning awareness of self-knowledge is a vital new interior place of self-awareness that is growing in the human collective today.

As more individuals learn how to recognize the truthful self within and those thoughts that originate from the pure center of self, or from the actual biology… the physical body of self, or the mind of self we engage our placement outside, into the projected realities that others in this world would have us believe, have us submit, or have us engage. Fear being a primary example.

FEAR.. A force that is easy to become caught up, easy to internalize, and easy to perpetrate without really knowing how we do this. Easy especially when we are unconscious, or unaware, or cut off, or in denial of our own inner voices. When this happens our outer life circumstances become enmeshed and entangled in the lives of others also all in engaged in fear scenarios.

And so is this what the innermost self truly seeks?

Listening to ourselves, refining discernment.

The act of listening requires our commitment to honesty and some silence in order to stay connected without the constant distractions and sidelining of external voices seeking to reach us on a daily basis.

The capitalistic nature of our society is constantly speaking to us with voices of buy, buy, buy, buy now, hurry.. buy now. Without discernment we are grabbing our credit cards, our phones, and buying as if our lives depend upon it. Mindless really, or thoughtless, yet in our culture this is prevalent.

The stillness that exists inside us and all around us, how familiar are we really with this?

The stillness is a voice of silence.

How well do I listen to the voice of silence?

Have you ever considered that the voice of silence actually is a voice with meaning?

How we learn to appreciate our own inner voice of silence plays a major role in our personal development as we learn the art of discernment.

This silence carries the unspoken awareness of direction within the circumstances of our inner world. This direction is constantly moving and carries us along as we go through the many phases of development along any single theme within us. The silence has a way of clarification that brings out the most valuable components of our current themes. We can learn to pace ourselves in any situation by maintaining a vigilant intention to honor our inner silence and what it will show us. Because our lives are in a constant state of movement this is valuable as we receive continuous updates from within this silence.

So how does the silence, which seems to be nothing, actually speak to us if there are no words?

The silence is a form of presence that is us. This presence contains the actual consciousness of our larger self, perhaps the spirit, or the soul of us. This silent presence is our very witness to everything inside us and carries a significant point of view that is an important aspect of our totality.

For example when I am watching the world with all my thoughts, what is watching the watcher that is me? This is the silent voice and still presence that is our larger self outside the boundary of our physical, mental, emotional life. This silent self is here always and holds something quite valuable to the process we are having of being a spiritual being having a physical experience… our life. This is our most valuable resource as we entertain, struggle, and move through being human.

The paradigm shift of knowing self is upon us.

The capacity for our thoughts to be rearranged, to be revised, to elevate emotions and feelings, and to highlight important details all exist within the silent and still voice of presence that is who we are. For this reason once we learn to integrate all our inner voices, manage them, name them, and familiarize ourselves with them we can add the silent voice.

In this larger paradigm of inner awareness we break through the habits, and hypnosis of casual living and exchange this for intentional living. We become more able to accelerate our purposeful directions and meaningful relationships with a lively state of inner knowing. This is why the ancients subscribed to the notion KNOW THYSELF.

Meaning know thy thoughts, thy feelings, and learn to know your own so well that you solidify your person.

Anchoring our selves in the midst of chaos and confusion.

When we solidify the state of inner knowing we can hold the space of greater potential and direct the outcomes of our lives with significant more fuel. The fuel of self awareness, which holds the attention and the intention of the silent, still voice of our spiritual self, or soul self. The strength of this protects us from the casual nature of, distraction into , and subversion of forces which would have us be slaves, be perpetual victims, and malinger in life long conditions of unhappiness and suffering. Our very own negativity is called into check as we increase our self-knowledge and learn to grow inner courage.

We cultivate courage to pass beyond our self-imposed limits and our own deeply held habits when we increase self-knowledge, know our inner voices, and integrate the silent, still self. This courage is a signal to our person that our efforts are all worth it, that our willingness truly does make a difference, and that we have unlimited potential to explore.

The maturation of our human condition requires this courage within us both as an inner voice and as a presence. The maturation of our individual human selves adds to our collective experience and we learn from one another thus creating new paradigms of possibility for us all. This is our collective human evolutionary way, we are all contributing something to this on this planet at this time.

Do not your fear to control your “inside places”, or if you are… seek assistance, guidance and help. For there are many incarnate souls living in our world who came here for this very purpose. For the purpose to assist the humans with their consciousness, feelings, thoughts. We have legions of people here dedicating their lives to helping humanity one person at a time.

In my previous writing I wrote of how life is increasing in spirituality, and how we have the choice to love in any situation. Now I am adding that we have the choice to know ourselves, more completely, more deeply. It is in these discoveries that life as we know it is being transformed and the future generations will step forth from our efforts and succeed even further.

Core spirituality. My personal journey

The Paradigm Shift Happening In Our Humanity This Year- 2016… core spirituality, my personal journey

The Paradigm Shift Happening In Our Humanity This year 2016… core spirituality, my personal journey

In these times of great chaos, confusion, violence, and conflict involving global change we are experiencing a shift in our attention, our very way of perceiving that which is coming to pass. This shift in our awareness is personal and impersonal, individual and collective, and is permeating, in some way, through every aspect of life on this planet. This shift is in our thinking, our feeling,our way of perceiving, and our very cellular bodies and is changing everything.

The shift I am referring to is the spiritualization of our humanity and our world …as we know it.

In a recent post I wrote about the choice to love in 2016, and this idea grows from that one. The spirituality of who we are and how we respond to our daily lives is completely up for a rewrite. I see the human scripts changing everywhere.The interior messages growing within people are those of a spiritual realization about life.

The “spirituality of life” is different in that some of the old ways of handling our difficulties, of facing problems and even how we view evil are transforming in that we no longer are able to sustain our separate notions of difference in the same ways, we are no longer able to sustain many old patterns of belief, our very natures are transforming.

A few of the dynamic changes arising from global spirituality.

We are realizing how we are both different as people… and the same.

We are realizing that what ever action we take in the world has a reaction that returns back to the source of that action.(each one of us)

We are realizing that conflict without spiritual perception is totally futile and only leads to more futility. We are recognizing ourselves in each other in ways that provoke our hearts to open towards greater empathy and we want to help one another more.

Disasters, horrendous events of terrorism, sick and morbid pathological, egotistical governmental decisions are becoming less tolerable to the masses. This is the result of the spirituality possible in these times within each of us to rise up and transform our very actions and reactions.

While we have pathological, psychopathic, egocentric people who suffer from these kinds of traits we also have more numbers of people with whom the spirituality of daily life acts as a buffer to the actions of these individuals and the syndicates, and conglomerates they perpetrate onto the sleeping humanity.

Our own consciousness turning away from participation in unhealthy behaviors, relationships, and our inner turning towards our own individual self-healing and personal growth is actually shifting our world slowly one person at a time. We have power, we have the capacity to learn more, evolve further, choose the appropriate actions as we learn to experience our own individual unique spirituality. As we multiply this force in groups this power increases. We can discover that we are all much much more capable this coming year than we thought ourselves to be!

When I refer to spiritual I do not specifically mean a religion, however there are billions of good people in Muslim, Christian, and Hindu, Jewish as well as many other religions that are activating spiritual principles in their daily lives, and much of these principles are universal to all religions.

Spirituality that is universal is one that is inclusive, and infinite and can speak to any individual walking on any different religious pathway. Ultimately the one universal loving source that exists in all religions is being activated, beyond yet including their respective prophets, leaders or originators. As I wrote in a previous essay, love is love, whatever name one calls it, and where one thinks it comes from. It is what it is.

We can see this clearly because all of life responds to it regardless of the name we call it. A child in any culture will respond to love whether it is called Muslim, Jew, Hindu, Christian or whatever name. A pet will respond in like manner, your pet bird, or dog does not know what religion you ascribe, he only feels the love that is present. ( as within your respective pathway of belief)

Particularly demanding is our response to the negative aspects of life here.

We are all touched in some way by the negative actions of others in this world. Whether this is close at hand in our own home, or distantly from across our vast planet. The spiritualization of the negativity is a very large component of our individual lives and our collective world situation. And we are becoming better and better at how we approach the negative situations we all encounter.

However this work is far from over and our task is still at hand demanding an ever-growing vigilance towards the pitfalls, hurt, and pain that results from our own negativity. The single largest piece of learning in this is how we ourselves choose to respond to our own interior negative experiences. How we handle what we feel negative about matters greatly as our response can accelerate, perpetrate, and increase any form of negativity very easily. In other words we create what we are negative about because we are the ones being negative. Thus how we face the negativity this year will have a substantial outcome on our daily lives as we pass through more of the difficult unfinished business of all our lives. A significant aspect of this negativity is our fear.

Fear on this planet is substantial and our lack of awareness to our own negativity will certainly cause this fear to grow even bigger, more powerful, and with further consequence should we avoid our own negativity on a day-to-day basis. For example I am particularly aware of this because of the experiences I have with family members who are participating in the military. While on one hand I am told and shown how very powerful we are, on the other hand there is the overall fear. It is immense, intense, and yes it is scary. It is scary to the point of pure justification on a scale that is almost more than I can actually comprehend in any one setting. However it is a “real” thing for all these people…. this fear. How I choose to react feeling all this when I am totally in the midst of it could either increase it more, or stop with me. Even though I am one small person, I choose not to allow myself to engage in those levels of belief about fear. I do not carry that fear away with me whenever I leave those circumstances, in fact I increase love. Within my own family I also have a dear precious Muslim person and I have been made well aware of the fears that arise when this persons relatives come to visit. Just walking down the streets is quite a spectacle of discomfort at times with the reactions of those we encounter as we walk along. How I choose to face this when we are walking makes a difference, and I know how truly loving these people are on a personal basis. The issue is the fear and how do we face it?

How we choose to process fear inside each of us had much consequence in our lives, and a deeper introspection may be helpful. Small fears, medium fears, then the bigger fears. My intention is to take more time to take apart my own fears and dismantle their hold over my personal life in any way I can muster. I know that how I choose to face fear has consequence… and that there are many probable outcomes to the many choices we each have in conquering that which makes us uneasy.

Evil is another aspect of our lives with which we must face. How we face this also had many pathways. As more and more evil is revealed in this world we are having to face it. Face that which we hate, despise, and usually ignore. This too is subject to spiritualization as I know I can react by hating more, and increasing the disharmony I feel, or I can choose to face evil with the power of a more balanced positive and yes even loving stance. I know this for I have had occasion to personally address evil face to face in my life, I have watched it recoil in the face of my lack of fear to it. And my willingness to address it in my life or to allow myself to become engaged in their evil ways. We have much still to learn about our reactions to evil and what is and what is not appropriate in the way of our reaction.

There is spirituality in conflict.

How we see conflict beyond right or wrong, is apparent once we allow our spirituality to guide us through the opposing points of view. World problems that are conflicting in nature are actually holding many spiritual problems that need to be addressed. When we open ourselves to the idea that problems are spiritual we open ourselves to much richer possibilities for restoring and balancing these situations because we are finally dealing with the real problems… the spiritual ones masked by the conflicts.

For example the levels of powerlessness, oppression, servitude, abuse, and personal violence that ensue from these scenarios are the real spiritual problems for people suffering all over the world.

Lack and privilege mask the spiritual problem of greed and egotism on a very disharmonious level everywhere for so many individuals.

Once we can learn to respond with a more spiritual nature to these world-wide problems we will lower our need to use military solutions of “power over” and might, domination and suppression to alleviate these situations.

Spirituality has such tremendous power in it to overcome because the source of the spiritual nature is infinite, contains the perseverance, the desire to understand more, and willingness to work through the difficulty. Instead of stamping everyone and everything with power alone.

Our ignorance about ourselves and each other is bridged whenever we choose to seek out the spiritual nature of our relationships. Withholding and distancing actually become too uncomfortable whenever we allow ourselves to connect with what really is spiritual in our human dynamics. The fears we place on one another begin to drop and the desire to build bridges of understanding start to form. And though at first this is all very uneasy, and can become even sloppy, when there is a spiritual intent behind any action, that action is received differently. I know this for I have worked with it for a life time. Our capacity to unlearn our preconceived ideas about our differences is softened as we open ourselves to our spiritual nature.

As we practice the letting go of fear and negativity a unique form of spirituality will develop. It may be called by many different names. Whatever those names that level of spirituality in any situation will be felt by those involved and begin to transform any circumstance. One does not truly discover this for themselves until they have actualized this, perhaps several times. It is a remarkable experience and is a deeply satisfying expression of core spirituality.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

When There is a Choice…. Choose Love in 2016….. core spirituality, my personal journey

 

01 Jan 1976 — Mother Teresa Visits Patients At Kalighat Home For The Dying — Image by © JP Laffont/Sygma/CORBIS

When There is a Choice…. Choose Love in 2016….. core spirituality, my personal journey

What makes a difference in every outcome, every conflict, every confusion, and all stale mates?

What generates surprising new outcomes, impossible new openings, and brings connection?

What supports, strengthens, and engages in us beyond our “thought-out” possibilities?

What brings calm inside us, and opens the doors of further understandings?

What lifts us out of boredom, mediocrity, selfishness, and self-deception?

What will redirect our lost and angry voices, our deeply sad unfinished business?

What will urge us to seek new solutions, and open our hearts to possibilities beyond every imaginable conundrum, problem, and unanswered question inside our common human condition?

What will sooth the hard edges of our torn and wounded emotions, our painful memories, our childish insistence on suffering?

What will force us to let go when we are holding on for dear life to those we love, those who hurt us, and those whose ideas are no longer fitting to a world filled with so many unanswered questions?

What brings an understanding to the most resistant, the hidden, and lonely ones of this world?

What will bring courage when there has only been fear and cowardice?

What will bring song when there has only been angry bellowing?

What will make a long dark night worth living?

What will sustain you when nothing, absolutely nothing else is left?

What will make an idle soul take action when before there was only lazy idleness?

What will raise a child to honor him or her self, and bring this honor to our world when nothing else will?

What will stretch the impossible short-sighted vision of ignorance and suffering to realize it is time… time to move beyond all the craziness?

What will heal the bloody effects of the violence we throw at one another and begin to seal the wounds of pain and injustices?

What will cause a meek and mild man or woman to rise up, to make their voice heard and to stop submitting, stop being abused?

What will force a hand in life to extend to another instead of grabbing for all he can get?

What will open the way for truthfulness to be seen, heard and felt in the midst of all deception, lies, and subversion?

What will make room in my world for the light of this truthfulness to grow inside us when so many, so much around us succumbs to darkness?

What will turn off the noise of endless television, cell phones, and demented media propaganda’s?

What acts as an anchor when everything is leaving us, changing around us, and the life as we know it is disappearing moment to moment? When systems, and programs crumble right before our very eyes?

What sustains us when we realize our religion no longer holds enough of the truth of our very life experiences?

What is it men in power fear most, women know works, and exists in the very heart of any situation?

What is it that lies within the heart of every man, woman, and child, every flower, every animal, and the entire design of creation that we turn our backs and refuse to see, feel and engage ourselves?

What lies within your enemies, is hidden by their taking sides, and knows only of the absence of your choice to understand?

What is the one choice that every person can make that will bring about the solutions, the answers, the new directions, the power, the possibility, the courage to change, transform, and heal the human circumstance of global suffering, mass injustice, global poverty, global war and mass killing?

It is my friend , the choice in any singular moment of my day,

a realization of my ability to choose,

and the action of choosing to love.

And to bring this choice of love where it is not.

There is no force more powerful, more sustaining or more surprising than love.

Love is a force to reckon with in case you have never tested these waters. Love will turn you around, put you upside down, and rearrange you like nothing in this universe will do. Love will pull you out, expose your darkest secrets, and open your most painful wounds. Love will show you your most horrendous fear, your worst enemy, and your deepest sorrows.

Love will bring your secret tears to flow upon your cheeks, will reveal your innocence like nothing else on earth. Love will make you hope and keep you strung out when you have lost it all and want it all to end.

Love will bring you more possibility than any other quality in this universe and will lead you to your first new steps of discovery.

Love will loose your tightest grasp, your most angry voice, your deepest held secrets so you can learn how to be free.

Love will open the doors, illuminate the darkened halls of your unknowing like nothing ever did before.

Love will answer your calls when absolutely no one on earth will.

Love will give you reason beyond reason, direction when there is none, and purpose when there has been absolutely no purpose.

Love is intelligent beyond the wisest man, the holiest of the holy, and the greatest of any one person.

Love is for everyone and works all sides, so to realize its place in your life will cause you to stop it. To stop taking sides and unify with your brothers and sisters, your fellow creatures, your entire physical world.

Love will produce for you out of nothing, it is unlimited in resources and endless in its insistence in your life.

Love is calling within you, outside you, around you.

Love was beckoning all along, is resounding now, and most likely will call through you in your future.

Love is omnipresent, omniscience, and without beginning or end. It is the way, though in this world it goes by many names besides love. Love is love, never the less!

When you do not recognize love at your door, it will surely knock again, and keep knocking at your heart till you answer, love is relentless beyond your wildest imagination. Love is a real force, a real substance, ask any mother, or any child.

When you least see love, feel love, and know it not…This is your time. It is your time to choose it. To choose love when you least would do so. Love is like this for us all.

Love is known by every heart, yet given in parts and pieces, with conditions and circumstance. For this reason… that it is truly known in each person, that it knocks and beckons without end till you die and go to your grave, love will be there. And after too.

Love is not just the folly of fools, that kind of love is only a taste, love in its purest form is powerful beyond any spoken word. Love has this capacity for it speaks to everyone, no matter their language.

That you forget love is only temporary, your suffering heart will always deliver you back to its door. To learn that love is what your really are, were always meant to be, and is what your being was created out of.

That love exists inside you as you, unique you. Love your self, for you are that.

That love that is connected to all of creation. Let love reveal you to you.

Love is never quite what you imagined, so prepare yourself for love’s presence in you as you.

Love….Do not underestimate the smallest of your choices this year, Remember just as a mighty oak begins with a tiny acorn, so too does the smallest choice to love lead to most mighty of circumstance.

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How We Give Power to our Emotions Without Being Aware, core spirituality, my personal journey

How We Give Power to our Emotions without being aware, core spirituality, my personal journey

Healing the negatives in our lives.

When we hold back and stuff emotions inside us we carry around these feelings and they are the vibrations that grow and shape our subconscious, our internal health… and the way our cells reproduce.

Contrary to the idea that if we ignore, hide, delude, or “forget”, we give more energy and power to feelings whenever we contain them. They do not go away.

Our physical bodies, and our minds hold on to the feelings and this results from prior intentions of escapism and denial or overwhelm, which are actual forms of energy.

Emotions and feeling as forms of ENERGY.

The energy we produce by resisting our feelings actually gives more power to those feelings.

We often do stuff emotions in different phases of our lives.

And so it goes we can have an inner child that stuffed emotions, an inner teenager, an earlier young adult version, all in our past still stuffing feelings. Even after we have learned not to do that as adults. These emotions linger inside us from previous unconscious growing phases that we have lived out already. This can show up in the form of memories, difficult conflicts that were left unresolved, victimization experiences, and any form of toxic emotional manipulation or mind control by people close to us.

Ways unexpressed emotions, stuffed feelings, and denial take shape in our now-adult lives.

The power our feelings have does not stop because we choose not to look at them, often these unresolved emotions transform into all manner of physical, mental and emotional shielding, defense mechanisms that become habit, mysterious body aches, and many forms of sickness that have all manner of allopathic medical diagnosis. Without emotional depth and maturity, emotional integrity, emotional awareness, and emotional strength our feelings take shape inside us and redirect the course of our lives in surprising ways THAT TAKE AWAY FROM OUR SENSE OF BALANCE AND EQUILIBRIUM AS ADULTS.

As a transpersonal hypnotherapist I learned how all of this is absolutely true. I learned by witnessing clients, and how stuffed emotions, left untended can destroy the full capacity of a human being to live a fruitful, open-minded, healthy existence. And so when I encounter the unhappy state of many body symptoms which are presented to me as a massage therapist I often encounter unexpressed emotions in clients.

One reason we can contain our emotions!

Unexpressed emotions are waiting, held in time, within us as a component of our ability to handle difficult situations, or unacceptable ones until a time that we can process. No one wants to go to the dentist who is horribly angry from a difficult confrontation that occurred earlier that day. So we are able to suspend our feelings in order to deal with them. It is when we habitually deny those feelings, ignore them, and hold on to them that our problems begin to develop. However for children this is a bit different and all of us have the common experience of having grown up through our childhoods.

Children are emotionally important for these reasons.

Children, young teens all feel quite more purely, even if they do not understand what they feel. As children and young adults our little neurological systems, our little physical bodies, and our little minds cannot process many of the adult feelings and emotions that are put upon us. These adult feelings are far to great for a little one. However we live with adults who in their unconscious ways put on us as children, all manner of stories which have elements of emotion and feeling that are completely inappropriate for small humans. The effects of this are felt in the little minds and bodies of children and are a large source of overwhelm, are often not understood, nor are they processed and so they are not even accepted. Adults forget this a lot and lay many overwhelming emotions they are having on young people with the expectations that they can handle this, not so. Overwhelm is the result, and this all plays into the developing person which will all come out later in life in some form of deviation, misunderstanding, brokenness, or physical ailment or all of the above.

It is all too common for a child to grow and never process an overwhelming emotional scenario. When this occurs splits in the emotional body are created that as adults will confuse. Often these emotions seem to be without cause, only in that the conscious grown adult has little or no memory, or past experience in completing the processing of the original situation.

It takes some digging, some self-reflection, and a deepening of self honesty to allow the full expression of past pains, conflicts, and emotional scars to surface so they can heal. For this reason stuffing emotions carries a promise of future inner work that one day will solve the puzzle of the emotional turmoil, and mysterious malingering body aches of the present day adult.

Healing our feelings is not subject to a time line.

In all truthfulness we only have our now moments, and we can access any past incident by bringing up to our now moment. Regardless of the amount of time that has passed from an original emotional incident, my experience has been that the inner child can still feel, still process, and still heal completely as an adult. In my own case l learned to have the mantra….”its never to late to have a happy childhood!” as I learned to allow my inner little boy, my inner teenager, and my inner young adult self to be able to have permission to FEEL MY FEELINGS!

Thus using the power of my present day adult self to give back to my inner child selves all the opportunities to express my feelings and emotions. No matter how painful, horrible, unhappy, unjust, or miserable they were. I found that as I allowed myself to feel, feel more deeply now, many of my own unresolved emotions came bubbling up to the surface of my life to be reexamined and accepted in a new light. I continue to have a happy childhood now, and this is just great. There is no time limit on that either!

Perhaps the reason so many people are reluctant to allow themselves to FEEL DEEPLY, is because of the loaded subconscious memories, or emotions, or an overwhelming single event that still is hidden deep inside.

The fear that originally caused the overwhelming feelings, and the stuffing of emotions is a significant component to being able to allow ourselves access to the emotions.

Those old voices of parents, teachers, coaches, and other authorities that were in our lives are still locked into our emotional bodies and continue to play over and over and over again. The fear that holds us back acts as a container inside us.

Face the fears , we must.

For this reason when we do find that we have elements of fear it is valuable to open the fear in our “now safe” way. For originally there may not have been a “perception” of safety and so the fear surrounded the original experience inside us. Facing that fear around any unacceptable emotion or feeling is the first step in learning to grow out of the limits of a fear based reality into the wide open space of personal freedom and self-expression. This develops immense integrity and opens our feelings to having the possibility of maturity. Maturity of emotions is the soul goal here.

Integrity and emotional maturity is the result of fully processing any unfinished business within ourselves. As the pieces of our broken understanding, our broken self images, our broken story lines begin to come together in new ways of seeing.

Often we will have to engage more heart with ourselves to be able to pass through the dark hall of fear that leads to our emotions.

This self-love that develops brings such a depth of integrity to any past unloved situation that the transformation is remarkable. It is completely true that a person can heal themselves long after any incident of broken heart-ed, miserable pain has occurred. This is another reason why it is so valuable to realize that when we ignore emotions we are actually making them grow stronger, even though we “think” we are doing the opposite.

Deep unresolved difficult emotional patterns that wreak havoc on our lives.

Having done many years of my own personal resolution, healing my feelings, and my work with clients seeking to heal the really difficult emotional patterns, I have come to be aware that as souls we have emotional themes that we are born here to live through and to work out. These soul purposes can have very dark, uncomfortable, painful emotional depth. Often a person will wonder why they have been born into such circumstances that would cause them such pain, or the question “why me” surfaces. For these reasons it is also wise to consider that there may be a soul reason for all this.

Soul growth is real.

That our souls know this earthly domain is a place where we may explore the very depths of emotion is the powerful side to acceptance here for emotional integrity. The soul that we are chooses the time, place, circumstance, and people to be involved in out “growth experience”. We then incarnate into the situations that are most closely aligned with the emotional experiences we are here to encounter. We allow this from our more open soul selves before incarnating where we are vastly more wide open. After we embody here and begin to develop a personality we encounter these emotional situations as part of our individual soul plan. From what I have observed, we do this because our lives are so short in most embodiments here that we are not able to always complete every emotional theme we begin. Thus we incarnate into many lives so that our intention to understand and learn from specific emotions become complete. Which leads me to previous life emotional patterns.

We are born with tendencies of all kinds. Many of which are the tones of feeling we carry into our lives as newly incarnated beings. We continue these emotional themes so that we can continue to learn until such time as the soul self is whole and complete in the understandings of the particular theme. For this reason we change places in our different embodiment’s and play the different roles pertaining to any one emotional theme. In one we are the perpetrator, another we are the victim, in still another we may be the therapist. We can be the husband one time, the wife another, and the friend in still another. As we go around the experience we gather every side of it and the soul is infused with knowledge, understanding and is more as a result. This is why some lives we see people who are the victims, yet without the soul sight, we do not see their purpose in the role they are suffering. The soul self is seeking to balance itself through each experience.

All this is particularly true with the really difficult emotional themes. Our souls are actually not just starting out at the beginning of the this life time. The soul has been working on these emotions for many lives and is still intent on getting the whole picture. So even in victim-hood there is an underlying soul reason unfolding. Because patterns are so strong and so deep inside us we use these many lives to learn how to embrace all the feelings that make up an emotional pattern.

Emotional patterns contain many feelings.

Because emotional patterns have many feelings we will revisit emotions many times. It is pretty common for a person to say… “I thought I already took care of this” when a feeling resurfaces, or a situation reappears.

Not so… for actually there are more feelings in the pattern seeking to be understood and processed. For this reason we repeat, and have many encounters with certain emotional themes. There are layers of feelings inside us that need our attention and we are simply dipping down into another layer of those feelings so we can address what those feelings are and learn to accept and take care of more of what our experiences offer us. In this way we become whole and eventually we heal.

I know this from personal experience because I have arrived at that point when a particular emotional theme is complete and my need to experience it is finished. The feeling of completion is ecstatic, unquestionable and always transforms my entire person in some way. Transforming my life experience so that I attract totally different, new, and better situations. My heart and depth of love, as well as my compassion and self understanding becomes immensely more open. And my knowledge of life becomes something that I cherish, rather than ignore, hide from, or delude myself. I feel a deep gratitude, even though I may have suffered. The gratitude replaces all the suffering.

How we give power to our emotions without knowing it is what happens when we ignore, stuff, or delude our selves, how we give power to our emotions be becoming accepting and willing to process is the other choice. We all go through them all.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

Denial….. Our Own True Greatest Enemy…Breaking Out of Our Shared Agony, core spirituality

Denial….. Our Own True Greatest Enemy…Breaking Out of Our Shared Agony, core spirituality

The media of our times, elements of the religiosity of our times, the political climate of our times is messaging us daily about who and what our enemies truly are with a speed, and tone that overrides the intellect and is so pervasive that the group begins to accept many of the pointers… the talking heads and we lose sight of the genuine enemy that underlies, undermines our core life experiences.

Our own internal denial shapes our innermost intimate and valuable places, beyond any outer person, group, or ideology.

Denial is considered one of the most primitive of the defense mechanisms in human beings psychologically. Denial is one of the pervasive of all human traits and is more common that we think. Denial is both insidious and blatant with a wide spectrum in between. Denial is so common that we usually project it on to others without a single thought.

Our world culture is swimming in it like fish in water. (well worth pondering)

What is denial in its many forms?

Denial is the refusal to, the ignoring of, the looking away from, the hiding of….. truth from ourselves AND OUR LOVED ONES, and the world around us. The truth of our innate, honest, spiritual nature. Our cosmic bearings as spiritual beings having a human experience. A universal truthfulness and all that this contains for us as a species, as individuals.

When denial has become normalized.

Denial is so covert that the manner in which it is passed on from one generation to another is considered normal and healthy. Sanctioned by people in just about every walk of life! Sanctioned and perpetrated by many places in society, education, religion, government,military, science, ad infinitum.

Our churches, schools, parents, our global soldiers, our governments, our politicians, our teachers, our scientists, are exercising massive forms of cover up which prevent the actualization of world peace, global harmony, world understanding, and then perpetrate victimization and violence on a scale of such magnitude that our entire planet is covered in separation, delusion, and mayhem, with massively dangerous weapons and all manner of killing capability.

We now seem to consider this dangerous situation one that is normal?

What we have now is…

Collectively we are a body of individuals gathered together merging our ideas based in all manner of denial and producing a world that is about to get some big wake up calls. We are reaching a zenith in our self-made agony. It is not over yet. There is still more to learn about our human experiences.

The NORMAL ways we are programmed to use denial.

We use denial to refuse each other in so many ways in efforts to control outcomes, to control people and this is covertly done under the guise of every conceivable excuse and reasoning.

We refuse to honor so much so …that it is intrinsically universal about us as a species instead choosing to repeat our mental and emotional habits of separation, differences, creating all manner of classicism, righteousness, superiority in almost every sector of society we literally deny the reality of how we have so much in this world for so many. It is time we stop pretending!

What can I do about this horrendous, insidious, negative, violent situation?

I learn how to accept and process all my own denials in any form I discover and I hold this as a valuable component of freeing my own spiritual self on a day-to-day basis.

Holding beliefs on their own , talking a good talk does not replace the actualization of facing and process denial.

Perhaps the most powerful place to start when choosing to consider denial and its power over us in life is to begin to identify how we use self-deception, self-delusion, and self-denial as normal ways to navigate through the uncomfortable scenarios inside us. There is no greater way to stop the insidious activity of denial… then by cleaning up denial inside myself.

This creates a space of integrity whereby anyone living in denial will not have a willing participant to go along with them and the chain of toxic behavior ceases or go away. I cannot change you…. I CAN CHANGE MYSELF!

The negative feeling we have about the world, what goes on around us? These are actually our own unprocessed emotions, thoughts and feelings. All inside the self…and reflect to us valuable signals about how it is we are, one by one, creating this world.

When we choose to remain present in the face of difference, in the face of opposing points of view and to see clearly where our enemy is we stop the projecting of our denials. ( the real enemy of us… within )We open our capacity to realize how easily my own unspoken and unconsciously held issues are anchored in beliefs of righteous projection and I stop this with my intent. The action of genuine processing of denial increases self honesty, which aligns my person with the core spiritual self in often surprising new ways.

What happens when I let go of self-delusion, denial ?

When denials fall away I am left with pure consciousness of my own spiritual essence and this informs me far beyond man-made rules, obligations, dogmas, religious beliefs, and so on. That we each are made of a substance which is the same is a startling experience when we have long believed we are all separate and limited by the beliefs we have energized through our inherited ancestry, or our socialization process growing out of the parental frameworks.

My experience has been in my own family of pulling away, as I no longer felt the impulses to feed myself into the accepted norms of denial around me. Not playing by the game, by agreements has often created distance between people. As I have learned to stop my own actions of distancing myself because I no longer participate in the agendas, beliefs, and patterns of denial I have learned to hold the space for togetherness even as we are different, when ever I can muster up this within myself I am surprised by the capacity I am able to remain in a state of mutual respect without the agreements that we socially put on one another.

My own capacity to embrace whatever I may not agree with is surrounded by a grace like form of compassion and deeper understanding which drops in to replace the old patterns. This is one of the main reasons for doing the work of clearing out my own self deceptions, delusions.

This heals misunderstandings, pathology of all kinds, and in so doing opens my heart mind to wider spectrum’s of genuine love….. truly an amazing experience. One that a person cannot truly hold inside themselves until they have done this internal work.

This is the process of “waking up”. Waking up to what it is I am investing my thoughts, feelings, and actions that no longer serves the greater whole. Nor does it align with core universal spirituality. I experience both the awful feeling of deflation of ego, and the awesome upliftment of fantastic spiritual AHAA’S. My person goes through transformations that redesign and realign me with much broader spectrum’s of life. And this feels much better to me. Staying “asleep” or unconscious has begun to feel uncomfortable and my life themes are taking on whole new vision and energy. None of this is possible through the action of projecting my beliefs, ideas, or notions of what is right onto anyone else, any group, any family member. It just has to arise from within self to work and to become long-lasting and uplifting.

As a spiritual being having a human experience it is my perception that we take on all these illusions, delusions, deceptions as part of the current human agenda for each lifetime. This is not intrinsically a bad thing.

It is our classroom for learning as we sort out identity, and direction.

To judge others because they are locked into their beliefs, and their stories of pain and suffering does nothing but hold them in those boxes. something I do not want to do to anyone.

Thus I shift the emphasis on changing them, and the world by changing my self, and my world.

This works much, much better and generates real long-lasting transformations.

For this reason I am on vigilant watch inside me, to make sure I catch my own projecting, my own judgmentalness, and my own limiting negativity.

It is really a very arduous task indeed. It is so commonly accepted to blame others, to point the fingers toward another, to malinger in pain and sadness, to stay in a sleepy victim state. For this reason I spend time with myself in silence, in nature, and I take time to meditate. While I grow my own stronger personal spiritual sense of myself beyond the maddening crowds, lost souls, talking heads, medical authorities, political manipulaters, social critics, bigoted religious leaders and so on. It is simply no longer worth my time or my energy to give in to them any longer. It simply is not.

core spirituality, my personal journey

THE BIGGEST CLUE I FOUND TO HEALING ANY FORM OF DENIAL I AM UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT IN A PERSON, GROUP OR THE WORLD?

When ever i recognize denial in any form around me and think it belongs to some one else, or group or place in the world…. i turn it around and find what it is in myself i am in denial about. Every time i do this and take care of me i lift another piece of madness out and away from the place i exist. The action is always to go inside self using the clues.

Inspired by my visit to ohana in the pacific northwest

Acceptance without agreement leads to a new paradigm of living… core spirituality, my personal journey

Acceptance without agreement leads to a new paradigm of living… core spirituality, my personal journey

Whenever we can hold an open space of acceptance in the face of opposing views with genuine goodness and resist being judgmental we generate a third space between us. The field of space that is generated by opposing views is still very connected and the typical dynamic of separation ceases. We become connected in the awareness of separate visions yet common ground as a dominant dynamic of social behavior.

We are all living out being our human selves. Our shared humanity becomes the next focus of our action. Instead of me versus you, or me versus the world.

When we can embrace opposing views in this way we activate a kind of intelligence which is larger than the polarity of our differences.

This other kind of intelligence arises from the common ground of our shared experience and makes room for the differences while maintaining connection with one another. This intelligence becomes a new place from which to view ourselves and our thinking, beliefs, and what it is that may need to be understood with greater depth and clarity. Without this intelligence we remain in a kind of personal and collective stand-off with one another that locks the differences into their polarities and perpetrates limitation and unresolved feelings. This is futile as it prevents the next octave or level of awareness from rising out of the differences. Stale mates, confusion, aggression, misunderstandings, and violence grow and become the outcome.

When we can psychically, mentally, and with our sense of inner presence allow another who is not the same as ourselves the same respect and honor, as spiritual beings having a human experience we open to new paradigms of intelligence that will find the solutions, understandings, meanings, and significance of our differences. This psychic space which is a third zone of perception maintains continued dialogues in ways that deepen any opposing points of view revealing material, and information previously unknown and certainly unexpected. In this way we ignite intelligence in new ways that bring new discovery. There is almost always more to learn, to understand, and to process in any conflict, opposition, or difference amongst ourselves.

The dangerous habit of shut down, and learning to find this in myself.

I’ve learned about myself that it is simply a mindset, a human behavior to shut down when ever a powerful opposing view is expressed to my own. Shutting down and the hidden feelings of judgment sit just below the surface of my own thinking and acting.

This is a common pattern among us as humans. Turning away our attention because someone may express something so different from ourselves.

I find that I have even diminished my own self expressions as a result of these kinds of interactions. My own human behavior limits me and in this way I stay in self perpetrated separation with others.

Dwelling upon this dynamic is quite enlightening and reveals tons of human behavior patterns that ultimately end up creating negative situations. Negative situations in our own minds and bodies and in the world around us.

This is all self-generated by each of us as we participate unconsciously and habitually to another person or group differences.

We can see this pattern in people practicing many religions,

people from different life styles,

people of different colors,

people with different political views,

people in different social classes,

people from different cultures,

people who eat different foods,

people who adhere to scientific theories,

people who work in different sub categories of life,

people who simply dress differently, have different hair styles, it grows to levels of stupidity…. really.

The universal impulse to belong.

In our culture belonging is socially significant and a primary universal experience encoded within us, so anyone who is of color, has a different culture from ourselves, has a different lifestyle, loves someone of a different gender, or even changes their gender are all subject to the negative effects of separatist, or non inclusive socialization in the larger group. I have lived with this my entire life as a gay identified man and know just exactly what I am speaking about.

The remarkable outcome of directly opposing points of view.

The remarkable possibility that arises from oppositions, especially directly opposite ones is how they actually arise out of the same source thought yet are the polarized differences to the furthest spectrum of the idea. I have found how this literally will show me the many facets of any one situation with detail, as from one end to the other of a spectrum there is the whole picture.From the very positive to the very negative. So all the people who are in separation because of their religious beliefs, really they are all stemming from their ideas of Source, or ultimately God. They have this in common and express the widest possible notions of difference in how to perceive this one thing.

When ever I encounter people expressing their differences I like to say to myself, “just wait” because whenever one person breaks out of their shut down side of opinion, this third level of awareness automatically pops up and suddenly they are able to see another view, while perhaps not agreeing. The next step is to embrace the person or group anyway and hold out for the option to connect anyway. I have practiced this many times in my life.

When I learn to remain open to differences, and even direct oppositions I most likely find myself learning something valuable. I typically learn how to drop my own preconceived ideas based in some form of my own judgments. My place of understanding stretches beyond my previous held convictions. While this does not always lead into agreement it does lead into mutual respect, honor, integrity, understanding, and even love.

We as humans in our society for the most part have all been repeatedly educated in a common way, indoctrinated in similar ways, and we form habits out of these places. When we cultivate acceptance in the face of disagreements and stay open we shorten the gaps between ourselves as people and groups and shift the paradigm of human belonging from the old style of exclusive to inclusive.

This generates a kind of harmony within. Inclusiveness actually feels good the more we learn to enlarge upon this in our lives. The common ground we share becomes highlighted in delightful ways and as socialized beings we receive feelings of goodness in ourselves and for one another. I have reached this many times in difficult situations where I let down my own prejudices, and beliefs which contained hidden messages of … “my ideas are better than yours”. I have found this is not always true, and besides not all people actually are in the same place at the same time in their awareness of anything. Divisiveness becomes something that I no longer want to participate in and I realize how silly I may have been. I stop projecting onto others my own separation. I take responsibility for myself and this responsibility carries weight and substance in this third field. A weight and substance that holds “we” and not just “me”!

Are  problems in our world associated with our differences which can turn into pure oppositions? Yes, and to inwardly continue to live at odds with others from inside myself no longer feels good.

I find how this begins to lighten.

And I don’t find myself having to, or automatically reacting to the news, to the radio, to anyone else in the same way. I find myself accepting that in our world everyone is learning, whether they realize it or not. I do. So I can move on and live my life caring, and compassionate in this world full of so much incredible, awful, awesome, magnificent diversity. Acceptance without agreement is possible.

Mutual respect,

Caring,

universal understanding,

connection,

and intuitive learning all arise as we learn to move to the next level in our human relationships.

Core spirituality… my personal journey of self investigation

shared in the spirit of Aloha

Inspired by my visit to the Pacific Northwest with my ohana

The Evolving Realization of the Self… core spirituality, my personal journey

The Evolving Realization of the Self… core spirituality, my personal journey

Their comes a time on the path of self awareness when we realize how our experiences are here to remind us of some deep inner knowing, something we have forgotten. Pointing us in a direction which holds a better way for each one of us.

This activation of our attention starts out in sporadic ways as the dawning light of our soul’s true essence breaks through the massive litanies of our human history. We begin the lengthy process of unlearning.

Recognizing the great charade, unlearning what we thought was real.

How important unlearning is becomes evident as genuine remembering of the natural reality of the spiritual self arises inside us as we go through our AHAA’S. These AHAA’S are a wake up signal that we can learn to cultivate. We begin to recognize that there really is within us a familiarity and a knowledge of life that fits with our sense of personal harmony.

First we learn how to face ourselves and take off the blinding actions of shame and blame.

However, the long process of facing what is real within us first becomes the work of the evolving realization of self. As we learn to accept and face our feelings which are hurtful, harmful, painful, agonizing, and self limiting. The honesty of self reflection at this stage does not always reveal the greater awareness which lies just below the surface of our attention.

We are too invested in our drama, drama, drama at the early stages of waking up.

The choice to honestly face both our deepest most uncomfortable feelings as well as our most precious unexpressed longings are the initial steps to awakening our active participation in self realization. By self realization I am implying becoming our most REAL SELF.

Grappling with what we do not want to see, face, or feel.

The difficulty with this stage is the tremendous amount of mental and emotional energy we have used to build our walls of protection against our ills, our pains, and our illusions of reality. And also the people we have surrounded ourselves with who have contributed to our needs for agreement so we can sustain these dramas.

We sustain our points of view with our personal attention by repeating scenarios in our minds to make sure we are still where we think ourselves to be in drama, where we believe we have been victim, or to perpetrate the drama we want to run with people around us or the world dramas in general.

We then surround ourselves with others who will reinforce our notions and we gain agreements to solidify our pains. To learn to give these dramas up to something that feels more harmonious takes effort. Our thinking and the emotional patterns which arise from this are deeply set inside our attention and are habits to break and require a vigilant effort to learn to release.

Refusal to see ourselves, facing our denials.

Learning to face what is real contains the notion that we are creating through our own feelings and thoughts. We learn to see what we are really doing by way of these self made feelings and thoughts and up to this time this is all very real. This can bring to the surface of our person many feelings which up to this point have been denied expression. These are the unacceptable feelings that the self has stored away and hidden with justifications, defenses, and painful histories which provide a basis for staying in our limited selves. We grow ourselves up here at this point by choosing willingly to take full responsibility for whatever it is we are feeling and thinking and start to heal the hurt, and the victim self.

Choosing the path of self responsibility

The result of facing these kinds of emotions and thinking is the development of emotional awareness, a more refined identification of our emotions. As we develop our emotional awareness and learn to identify our feelings, name them, and learn to feel them completely through we learn how these states actually transport our awareness into a more clear development of our mental, emotional nature.

The inner work leads to new forms of personal clarity.

When we develop our emotional nature with greater depth and clarity this leads to the greater realizations of spirituality that are waiting to be felt and expressed which exist beyond the limiting boundaries of our lesser selves. These larger spiritual places of which there is greater personal freedom lead us into our more honest places of true free will. At this point we have learned to go beyond what we thought was the limit and found inner resources which provide additional self understanding, strength, and now VISION.

New pictures begin to form inside our heads.

Vision, as in seeing who we really are as spiritually identified beings… Vision as in the soul based, spiritually energized access to our own inner purposes and plan for this embodiment. Here we contact the universal substance of co creation within us and then use this new awareness to continue on our path. And while many scenarios of discord, confusion, and incongruity may drop away there is still more to tackle.

What is shifted is our capacity to resolve our personal dilemmas and to make better choices which will transmute the negative life scenarios still active around us. With this new spiritual fuel of a more highly developed emotional awareness, and the clearing of our own negativity we hold a larger space of possibility for our own further development and greater access to authentic true free will.

This is much like the transformation of the caterpillar to the butterfly. Personal metamorphosis arises and lifts us out of many damaging life situations and redirects our attention to the new directions inherent in our life plans. Healing on all levels is activated as our physical cells now have access to greater life forces, our minds are opened beyond our old thinking, and our emotions are not squashed into our loaded subconscious and we have clear access to feeling that now includes intuition.

Intuition is simply the essence of the self now activated into and through the personality. It is a natural component of the self. And it is something that now becomes a new tool to learn, to respect, to develop.

Intuition is amazing.

Intuition is amazing in that it connects us to the larger picture of life, and connects our attention beyond the limiting ego self. The ego self is merely the organizer that makes sure we have our keys before we go out the door, or makes certain we know how to get where we are going. The ego self is actually a wonderful component which helps us stay connected into the time-line and daily activity. It no longer is the main driver of our life. As intuition develops more and more we learn how capable we are of holding a larger version of reality, of how not to hurt others, and how to navigate through difficult situations with finesse and a real sense of deeper cooperation with life. We learn to use the ego self in proportion to the other parts of ourselves with a much better balance. We learn too that we are much much more capable at this point as there are so many coincidences, serendipitous happenings, and amazing circumstances that show up and we observe how purpose is behind whatever is now currently happening around us. We learn to embrace mystery as a safe passage into opening ourselves to being able to hold greater and greater truthfulness about life. We then realize we are part of the cosmos.

Taking away the fear of mystery and not knowing.

When we learn to embrace mystery and not knowing with an opened mind, a receptive heart, and a clearer sense of feeling we start to actualize potentials. Our potentials were not available before to us in our limited, judgmental, self loathing, unloved state. However at this point these qualities have become so refined that our discernment is much more refined and we are stronger and more able to explore our own mysterious not knowing. We learn to live with paradox as we walk fine lines between different realities around us and people running all kinds of dramas. I have felt many times the fine balance of real knowing simultaneously beside not knowing and moved forward anyway. We learn the difference between real fear, which is signaling danger is ahead with self created fear, fear of not knowing. The discernment of fear and its origins becomes another valuable tool that we add to our awareness as we move through our own personal paths of mystery.

The creative urge is mysterious.

As we encompass larger components of our creative urge we connect with our deepest longings and our intuitive nature combining our resources to cultivate discovery in ever more fascinating ways. The act of creation is not all filled with instant knowing of what lies ahead but does hold a kind of promise. We learn what I call “right direction”. Right direction is the meaningful way our own daily life unfolds from one moment to another with a sense of purpose that speaks directly to each one of us. This right direction has its own boundaries and movement, along with stasis and set back. All of it meaningful as we continue through our journey of life.

Learning to open ourselves to even more.

When we can live each day with a pure sense of self, connection to the ALL THAT IS or source, when we can be strong enough to face our own self loathing, self created miseries, and let go of our painful histories, when we can sustain an open heart, and open mind, and then embrace our own personal life mysteries, we have begun the path of self realization towards co creation. We learn to embody joy as natural to us without the need for circumstance. We learn to hold possibility for those around us as they too struggle with the pitfalls of self realization. We learn to walk away from the damaging aspects of our human past and we align with something much greater than all of us. This is core spirituality.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

12 Worst Ideas Religion Has Unleashed On The World

In the great shift of our times is the transition from finding answers to life externally thru authority created by others to finding answers within thru our internal self authority.

Historically we can learn to recognize the damaging effects of some of the man made ideas, rules, beliefs created and perpetrated by human beings thru religions.

In my own quest for pure authenticity i have had to reexamine those beliefs in religions that do not serve myself, or the collective well being of our species. The fact than many people have been murdered, injured, wounded, or cast out of their families as a result of these particular religious beliefs is well worth reexamining.

i am posting this today as a vehicle for reflection and reexamination.

While at the same time the universal beliefs that support unconditional love, compassion, inclusion, mercy, and service to each other are also fine examples of ideas and beliefs in religions, my experience has shown me that not all of what religion has to tell us, or offer us is actually good for us.

These decisions are personal ones and each individual is free to examine and decide for themselves those beliefs they want to support.

In the spirit of discernment i like to post this article.

core spirituality, my personal journey of self examination

 

12 Worst Ideas Religion Has Unleashed On The World.

Learning to embrace our experiences (neurotic behaviors)… core spirituality, my personal journey

Learning to embrace our experiences (neurotic behaviors)… core spirituality, my personal journey

When we deny any shadow aspects of ourselves through transcendence, avoidance or repression these very forces come alive in our neurotic behavior.

They come to the surface in our jealousy, in our angry words, in our irritability

toward life, in our inability to communicate with our partners, children or friends.

Yet these very shadows, if embraced and met with love and compassion, become helpful aspects and illuminated qualities of our true nature. 

We may notice that if:

If we deny our power, we become angry.

If we deny our sadness, we become cold and heartless.

If we deny our humility, we become closed and arrogant. 

If we deny our fear, we become anxious.

It is through embracing our darkness, our shadow, that we become both free of our shadow as well as embodying of the very positive aspects of our humanity and Divinity.

When we embrace our anger, we become powerful.

When we embrace sadness, we become compassionate

When we embrace arrogance, we become undefended

When we embrace fear, we become open hearted.

The transformation of our humanity is our true work in this world. As we do so we discover there is no separation between our humanity and our Divinity.

Craig Holliday

http://www.craigholliday.com/index.php/blog

I Trust You, Do You Trust Me ? Hug Me – Social Experiment – Free Hugs Istanbul ikizlerTv

What are we capable of in this world ?

It all depends on our thinking…

It all depends on what we believe to be true…

It all depends on me… and

you!

core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Entering the Valley of the Rainbow, Core spirituality, my personal journey

Entering the Valley of the Rainbow

We Are Being Led to Figure This Out…Together , core spirituality my personal journey

The year that lies ahead is filled with possibility….2015

The amazing way life unfolds leads us to one another in search of peace.

While the ignorance inherent in distrust and hate-filled painful isolation and separation only lead to repeating our inept cycles of dysfunctional behaviors. Murdering, killing, destroying, bombing, only lead eventually to our eventual meeting our enemies again and again.

The end of any disharmonious situation continues unresolved and is put off again until such time as the quantum numbers of us finally come to our senses and open up to acceptance of some kind, acceptance of something possible thru peace  and cooperation. There is a critical number of mass quantum activity that gathers increasing in power and force for us to deal with.

The quantum numbers of massive problems our humanity faces are leading us to our oppositions, enemies, and least expected people to peacefully resolve the pain that results from our actions here on planet earth. Not only do we seek similar thinking people out in our efforts, we eventually learn how we can heal and resolve by also including everyone.

Whenever the pain of a situation reaches that unbearable place of such magnitudes and great uncertainty do we find ourselves opening doors of thinking beyond our comfort zones and learning how to embrace a bigger picture, a cooperative one,  a notion our minds had rejected long ago.

We are drawn to the obvious differences to recreate a new answer for ourselves based in mutual respect and longstanding soulful patience. Eventually coming to that which we held ourselves away.

When masses of people reach these points in life those of us looking on as observers can see how the patterns unfold.

We see how the opposites naturally come together…. eventually.

We see how the  conflicted,dejected, rejected people and their thoughts make their way back to us to find their place in the overall solutions which arise from an open heart, and the willingness to cooperate, correct, and heal the shared pains that pass beyond the boundaries of taking different sides.

We find our answers together.

The acts of discrimination become acts of mutual redemption and efforts of cooperation, whenever we decide we will acquiesce and learn to make peace with the messes we create when the pain is just too much.

We learn that the pain we generate as human beings is the same no matter what side one takes.

No matter what.

Pain is universally the same for everyone.

It is a common denominator that ultimately causes the ignorant in each of us to submit our ego based, self centered, righteous ways to come together and stand beyond the conflicts of differences to seek common peaceful ground.

Thus now we have quantum levels of planetary pain unfolding thru the masses of human beings thinking these painful thoughts, and learning how this makes us feel.

We are reaching whole new levels of possibility thru the path of pain and suffering we inflict on one another and the directions that arise out of the sanctity and appreciation of life for everyone.

The world is a tearful place of living hell filled with imprisoned minds. Some refer to this as “the prison planet”. And indeed it is for many. Poverty rules, along side this making it all the worse. The global pain expressed thru the voices of this earthly agony are being projected thru all the medias of this world day in and day out.

While this continues the great distances between us diminish, we cannot help but be aware of our brothers and sisters who suffer. It is getting harder and harder to deny our human pains. The pain is overlapping all of us slipping into the awareness of anyone who turns on a TV, surfs the web, or reads.

The level of terror inflicted on each other rises from the cries of this great collective imbalance shared in our humanity.

What is terror ….REALLY?

Deeper in, deeper into the causes of  terror, perpetrating terror, participating in terror there are reason humans are hurting and crying out, and becoming desperate. While I do not condone terror in any way, I do seek to understand the nature of it, its roots, its causes, its deepest origins. ( I am well aware of how it appears that many so called educated people use the news of terror in the media, in military propaganda, and many other outlets to perpetrate a continual state of controlling fear that limits, and paralyzes the common person ) I question this… I question the real and deep causes that would bring people to commit their acts of terror, and then those who perpetrate the news of this terror in our world. I refuse to settle with the surface perceptions of terror as it is presented in our media, our consensus views from society. So I ask myself what could be some of the underlying causes of these people’s lives that create these scenarios? I write in the plural (we) form as I am questioning our humanity, as in we, the human civilization.

Terror is the loud voice of the thoughts of powerlessness.

Terror is the voice of the thoughts and the beliefs we create of oppression gone wildly mad.

Terror is the voice of the thoughts of deep injustice.

Terror is the voice of the thoughts of horrible unspeakable long lasting generational suffering of the likes many still have yet to understand and to embrace.

Terror is the voice of misplaced notions of how life naturally unfolds and results from our dysfunctional attempts to live.

We must scream out!

Terror is the voice of all of this multiplied by fear.

Terror is the voice of the thoughts we have in our powerlessness disguised as power plays, dominance, submission, control, oppression.

Terror is the voice of desperation magnified by those who are in its darkest expressions seeking to find solutions.

Terror is the voice of the cries of those with whom we have yet to listen, their lives shaped by thoughts of painful injustices, religious ideas of superiority, years of oppressions.

Terror is the voice reaching out to the larger humanity to listen and learn to see the real problems we face.

Terror is the voice of people who are thinking and feeling out of control and filled to the brim with pain acting “as if ” terrorizing  is a TOOL for powerful control ….lashing out in this world. ( which it is not )

By the act of believing that all these painful scenarios will be solved thru militarization is ridiculous.

Terror is only the voice of……. something much greater we have denied in all of us. Our human family has many unresolved issues.

Might over terror is simple child’s play and completely ineffective in resolving the magnitude of underlying problems that are deep in the roots of human terrors.

More bombs, more weaponry, more guns, more shouting, more protests, more violence, more dominance, all generating more of the same.

Terror… on it’s own is the face and voice of massive humanitarian  denial….that which we have yet to face.

Our greatest super powers are not our might, our military’s, our politics of domination, or our defeatist notions forced upon one another.

Soldiers, civilians, even the women and children are being murdered in our best efforts to use might as a solution.

Might is not our super power as we are lead to “believe” thru the propaganda’s of war and politics.

Not at all.

We are a suffering humanity.

Our suffering is leading us to one another in the eventuality of peaceful new terms of problem solving.

It is life’s great silent way of showing us that which many have yet to learn.

Where the problems really exist, who is suffering because of these problems, and what the problems are. The maddened, crazed, insane voices of terror rise from the underbelly of our denied humanity.

We have denied one another, in some way, in some unthinkable ways and we are starting to wake up to how we can embrace our suffering.

So while we lament, and cry our tribulations this coming year we can actually learn to start to engage peaceful, non sterotyping new thoughts, new conversations, and new possibilities of solutions in our individual lives by coming to terms with our denials and releasing our grips with ignorance and constant repetition of solutions that have not, and do not work for everyone of us.

We can follow the directions of our most broken notions of life and where they lead us to our op-poser’s, our enemies, into our conflicts not to create more, to resolve and find new meaning and possibility.

To face ourselves in one another.

And finally see who it is we are fighting.

Ourselves.

Myself.

The amazing way life leads us thru both our joys is also our pains, leading us back to each other. We can learn to respect the pain as well as the joy of our humanity.

Learn to love your enemies, yourself.

Learn to love enough to see what you have denied, ( I have denied)

Learn to break open the illusions of terror.

Our real super power is our capacity to co operate to find our solutions.

Our real super power is to bring our man heart spaces so strongly forward that we face our denial and learn to see the truth of our actions.

Learn to recognize the voices for what they truly are……

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

The Choices I Make for Anger, Core spirituality

CHOICE..
I LOVE THE COMPASSIONATE ACTION OF LOVING THE “ENEMY” AND THE SHIFT THIS BRINGS INTO MY LIFE .
I LOVE LEARNING TO OPEN TO THAT WHICH IS DIFFERENT AND APPEARS TO OPPOSE MY THINKING.
AND LEARNING HOW DIFFERENTLY I FEEL WHEN I DO THIS.
I LOVE THE DAY THIS IS REALIZED FROM ONE PEOPLE TO ANOTHER FROM ONE LAND TO ANOTHER FROM EVERY ENEMY TO THE OTHER ACROSS THIS PLANET,
HOWEVER
IT TAKES EACH OF US TO REALIZE.
OUR HUMANITY IS ONE HUMANITY,
INTERCONNECTED.
INSTEAD OF FIGHTING THE FIGHT I (WE) CAN ACTUALLY FACE THE GREATER ISSUES AT HAND.
AND LEARN TO RESOLVE THOSE ISSUES.
THIS IS REAL POWER, NOT DOMINANCE AND SUBMISSION AND DESTRUCTION…..
I VISUALIZE THE SUPER POWER OF “WORKING TOGETHER” TO SOLVE A PROBLEM.

THIS I VISUALIZE…
STOP THE MILITARIZATION OF WORLD PROBLEMS, THIS DOES NOT WORK,
(ALL SOLDIERS EVERYWHERE)
WE CONTINUE TO REPEAT THE STORIES OF OUR HURTING DISCONTENT.
I SEE WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON.
I STOP PRETENDING THIS IS CREATING PEACE. (WHILE PLANNING THE NEXT BATTLE? )

I CHOOSE TO STOP THIS THINKING.
I ASK MYSELF…”IS THIS TRUE?”
AND
“HOW WOULD I BE WITHOUT THIS STORY?”

I STOP THE PROLIFERATION OF STEREOTYPING THE “ENEMY” “THE OTHER PERSON” “GROUP” OR CULTURE.
I STOP PLANNING THE BATTLES
I RELEASE FROM THE FIGHTS TO FINALLY SEE THE REAL PROBLEMS ( MY ISSUES PROJECTED ON YOU)
I CHOOSE TO FIND AND BRING TO THIS WORLD THE POSSIBILITY OF
NON VIOLENT,PEACEFUL, SOULFUL RESOLUTIONS !
I ACCESS LONGSTANDING AND SOULFUL PATIENCE IN MY PROCESS.
I CONTINUE TO QUESTION AUTHORITY, MY BELIEFS, MY THINKING AND I ASK AGAIN AND AGAIN…

WHAT IS THE THOUGHT INSIDE ME THAT CREATES THESE SCENARIOS, AND HOW IS IT THAT I AM BELIEVING IT?
I (WE) DIRECT WHAT UNFOLDS IN MY (OUR) LIVES THROUGH HOW I (WE) BELIEVE WHAT IT IS I (WE) THINK AND HOW THIS MAKES ME (US) FEEL.
IGNORANCE, AT SOME POINT, BECOMES A CHOICE. A CHOICE TO CONTINUE THE DRAMAS.
I AM LEARNING EVERY DAY AND THIS IS THE GIFT OF MY LIFE TO COME TO TERMS AND RESOLVE THAT ….
I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE
YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE
AND LEARN TO OBSERVE THE CHOICE…….
UNTIL I MAKE A DIFFERENT CHOICE THE WAR WITH SELF CONTINUES ON
AND IS PROJECTED OUTWARD
TOWARDS YOU
IT IS A CHILDISH GAME

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

 

The Darkened Self, One Man Returns To Living Grace. Core spirituality, my personal journey

The Darkened Self, One Man Returns To Living Grace. Core spirituality, my personal journey

When i read this I say to myself,

“When I place the blame of judgment on someone else, this leaves me powerless to change my experience: taking responsibility for my beliefs and judgments gives me the power to change them.”

Men, as “silent” victims, who live under the dark clouds of their emotions, end up stuck in the harbor of many a discontent notion and find ourselves repeating and repeating the unquestioned effects of emotional pain. Our own, our father’s and the grandfather’s and those before him!

We do this as we place blame on others and judge them according to our hurt and hold hostage the image of our discontent.

I watch this scenario in the media as what is perpetrated as news is endlessly reported.

How we evaluate our circumstance in life without self responsibility becomes an endless tirade of finger pointing and mistrust, broken promises, and dangerous world circumstance. That men in politics, men in military, men all over the world continue to view the world as “silent” victims is a sad component of the sleeping unawakened self… Still dreaming a dream yet to unfold.

The result is the violence perpetrated thru war, thru dominance, thru greed and power stands, thru covert agendas and the insistence that someone else must make the change.

The voice of the wounded man is surely a voice we can learn to heal. In one another and in ourselves.

Yet without the inner power of recognition to the source of our discontents, our sadness and our own feelings of victimization we are self limited in “boxes” of our making. We struggle with the notion of external power as a means to the end, and it is not working. We build more weaponry, we create new strategies for control, and we distance ourselves from that which may have the greatest capacity to reveal to us new solutions.

First of all we need to look inside our own selves and see what we harbor inside our own bellies and learn to to turn the directions around inside the hurting selves. Then we begin the genuine transformation of the ills of this world. We take down and take apart our tendency to act out of violent response, and endless tyrannical outbursts and expressions of “the wounded”. We find the place where authentic power lives inside.

The awakening man is a glorious thing to see. No longer satisfied or under the illusion he must convert, force, control, or gather power at the expense of another, no longer hypnotized by those around him,  he separates from the pack of other men and walks alone for a time to discover what it is he can do within himself.

This is the shift from external power to inner power. ( See previous post on this )

This is how we make the remarkable strides in transforming this planet and the ghastly amount of violence and poverty and greed that exists all around us.

We as men on this planet can and are doing this.

We are choosing our trade offs and moving quietly amongst the crowds.

The inner warrior with whom we as men are more comfortable than practically any other archetype of behavior and identity on this planet take on new strategies.

The strategy of overcoming the war within.

The battlefield is moved.

It becomes the place in our own belly, our own minds, our thoughts and how those thoughts make us feel.

Temporarily we lay down our weapons and we find anew something with which we have not considered.

Our own dedications, and mighty stances of right no longer seem to work and must be reworked. We find there is more power to make a change, yet it is inside our own perimeters of life. Our own houses, our own families, our own work spaces, our own neighborhoods.

We find our enemy finally, and it is ourselves.

How startling a revelation to realize that who we have been fighting all along was yourself. How sad that we thought it was YOU and YOU and YOU! We learn to sit with this, we learn to walk with this and ultimately we rise up and accept the challenge.

We begin to take on the battles within.

When a man finally see this he becomes instantly different.

He begins the arduous task of becoming himself again. ( there is the start of a pure little boy in each of us still) The armors of self protection, of falsehood and right…he begins to take down, to lay aside and finally there is a spark of much greater humanity that begins to shine.

Beyond all hope is the actuality of true change in all this. There is possibility that needs hammering out. New behaviors practiced, and learned. A man becomes more of himself. Any mother would be proud. And father would be amazed.

For a man to take his life in his own hands and shape it according to his own inner needs, and genuine self is a mighty thing indeed, surrounded by so many others, yet alive to this kind of thing.

As men we can question each other, yet stand aside and withhold judging as we learn how we truly look to one another in peace, instead of war, instead of conflict, instead of, instead of, instead of…..

the time of making excuses comes to an end.

There is much resolution to be had, much to made with ourselves and each other.

No longer is it so important that I conquer you.

The peaceful warrior has arrived.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Opening up to the difficult within…core spirituality, my personal journey

Opening up to the difficult within……core spirituality…. my personal journey

To learn to open up to the difficult within the self, this is the task in front of us. The arrival of our soul!

Where there is discontent, disturbance, disagreement, unhappiness, feelings of lack, unresolved conflict, whatever it is that is speaking to me today. I open myself in an unlimited embrace from my heart.

I know my heart self can do this….I leave my thinking mind aside. I instinctively choose to run with my heart.

Whenever I call upon my heart I know that I am opening up. This opening allows the continuing unfolding of my life journey from the perspective of my indwelling spirit. My soul calls….motions, whispers, murmurs, and points this to me everyday.

I have long ago left the shore of my unconscious sleeping self, and have traveled into the realms of my heart’s beckoning. Into the voids of not knowing, yet open!

I realized this as I journeyed into the hard places.

Finally I realized what I had missed all along.

My heart was calling out to me, and I had answered.

Though in the midst of the difficulty I did not see this at first.

I have been smack dab in the middle of life difficulty grokking my way thru circumstance by circumstance.

The soul had placed every one and everything into place, including me, for the opening.

At first there is the struggle, then the realization, then the intent to work on thru, then passing thru.

New awareness is born of such circumstances and the heart is there, without it I fall.

That every difficulty arises is the construct of big stuff for us. Problems and obstacles all develop for us the perfect set ups for opening up! The classroom of life where I surrender to and admit we do not understand, nor do we see, or even want to go forward into all that lies ahead.

Yet I must! The heart and soul of each of us urges our human personality into and thru what we thought we could not even comprehend. Bypassing my mind, it’s endless thoughts and conclusions.

Life is amazing this way, to me. I am familiar to when my battle is ceasing, and the time has come for it to end.

Opening up is uncomfortable and we resist it every day. And we succeed everyday. We get thru anyway. Once we let go we pick up new momentum and the road becomes much easier.

Opening up…..The past.

When we open up old wounds we open ourselves to our most poignant soulful moments.

Old wounds carry the unfinished business of our lives. Under the surface of our everyday thinking, making us sick and limited and foolish. There is so much further to go, to discover.

These secret we keep from ourselves, our hidden wounds…..They do not go away.

Old wounds hold potentials we have backed away, and lost ourselves. Parts of us that go on inside us as we go forward.

These parts of us invested in old wounds become like old friends reminding us of how we were hurt.

We make them into allies and build up our case. They are there every time we need to confront the difficult in our lives. They help us to avoid the issue and perpetrate our unconscious addictions to suffering. They surface in the most surprising of ways.

The addictions to suffering replace all the lack of love, and fill the emptiness inside our hearts with nothing. Yet how we yearn to love and be loved, yet still.

The love we did not get, or think we did not get. Old wounds and hurt parts, they are a part of the difficulty in life that show up every time we try to avoid life when it is set up for us to learn thru our hardships.

Opening up to what we resist can signify we are ready.

Whenever we resist we are on some level not fully ready, not yet but almost. Yet, the timing of the soul does not always coincide with our idea, once inside the incarnate life we learn to pay attention to our souls work here. We become urged forward by the doings of our soul anyway. We learn to overcome!

Learning to align with the timing of life as it arises. We learn how to lower our resistance to living fully. Resistance is permission to process. Processing is our way of looking into all the details. And then we move onward clutching onto our beliefs like they are jewels never to be let go. And we do let go anyway.

Opening up to the difficult side of ourselves assures us we can steer the directions of our responses in ways that fit for us rather than having these things come upon us as we take care of our victimized thinking, our hurting victimized selves.

Opening up is what happens when we least expect it, we may be surprised, or shocked, or “caught off guard” in that moment. This is a gift, though often not received.

These happenings occur mostly when we have turned away from the delicate messages our souls bring to us. Whispers of words, images within dreams, and coincidences. We ignore and thus we have become ignorant to our own soulful stirrings.

When we turn away from our own souls something must be done, and so it goes the circumstances arise.

We are confronted by that which we most turn away.

The human struggle…. it is a sad and difficult one. Showing us how little we actually understand about our souls. Yet opening, opening us thru the trials and tribulations of our daily lives, circumstances proceed onward.

How perfect each stinging word, each cut. How perfect our misery showing us the way to the unlimited view of something greater inside us, around us. Each step forward until we find our laughter once again. Realizing how silly and ridiculous we have been.

Life is innately wise to itself in us and thru us and in each other, always here to show us our most far reaching lost notions, our ridiculous conclusions.

The soul beckons in every way it can as it animates the circumstances of our lives, balancing that which we were unaware needed a leveling out of our humanity.

Finally in each revelation is restoration.

Our humanity is learning, each of us, one by one to recognize that which is and is not of the soul.

To lose the tender and remarkably strong presence, and the awesome grace of patience of one’s soul brings upon self the darkest of nights, the deepest of pains, and the assurance of life lived without joy. The world’s most ugly wars!

For joy is the natural state of the soul and is present when we are connected to it. Joy is paradoxically here even as we weep, for the soul is connecting. This is why we cry in the face of the most difficult life circumstances. We are opening to our soul. Pain is but the opening, the love from our soul floods into us as we release the sorrows, our prelude to letting go of all that is untrue. The deepest sobs are the return to joy as once again our hearts open. Love is arriving!

So weep if you will, throw out your deepest sobs and release, you are becoming free.

“I love you” the soul whispers, and once again another illusion is broken.

Remembering again that love is the language, the very garment of the soul, of which you forgot while you were busy making up your life and building your conclusions. .

“Oh my soul…” the wise grandmother said in response to the news. We say this because it is true. Something of the soul is becoming apparent. This was once a common phrase, how little we hear these days, when was the last time you even said the word… soul. It is a clue.

The workings of our souls are not limited to song only. Yet it seems this way as we text, and drive, and drink coffee and watch the news. Behind the scenes of all of this there is the stirring of soul, the arrival of something yet unknown. There are openings arising here, everywhere.

The painful circumstances of this world are ripening, are showing us that which is our doorway, the very direction to take leading us into our greatest moments, our greater selves. Every human life has the opportunity to choose the soul of itself in any single moment.

We are arriving to our souls. These are our soul moments….

Go directly into and thru your pain, do not stop, discover what awaits you. you will not learn this until you do!

There is no greater experience than to drop that which has pained you and to stand in the naked light of that which you are….soul! The moment joy returns!

Core spirituality… my personal journey of self investigation

Who would I be without my story? PART 2 … core spirituality my personal journey

Who would I be without my story? PART 2… core spirituality my personal journey

“Who would I be without my story?” Continuing the journey of self investigation.

One of my favorite questions to ask myself whenever I am overwhelmed, distressed, saddened, angry, hurt, betrayed, misunderstood, irate, dis-empowered, overly selfish, upset with someone or with myself is this one.

The question is one that tracks my genuine feelings about anything that is disharmonious to me.

Contrary to when I feel peaceful, harmonious, giving, happy and well about life.

Releasing my story is the result of honest self reflection, self evaluation, and deep stillness within around issues of discontent.

It is a process of dismantling thoughts going thru my mind that cause me to feel less than my true self… a spiritual being having the human experience.

We all build stories in our minds about the lives we live, each other, and the world around us on a daily basis. We all have story lines in our heads each day. And not only do we build these stories with endless ideas, notions and thinking, we also take them down and destroy them as we go along and come to new conclusions!

So this is not such a brainy idea to ask of me…”who would I be without my story?”

Everyone grows along their time-line of childhood, youth, adult, elder creating story-lines, huge themes, and so on.

Some of us do, but many do not, continue in the same thoughts and thinking they had as children, we release those ideas because we found ones that were better!

Then we release our stories. We let go!

In fact in my own inner work of remembering my past lives and integrating gifts and talents as well as healing issues of carry over, I discovered we continue this process thru different embodiments until what it is we are seeking to discover and learn is accomplished.

What differentiates this process as I am writing about it is THE OPEN = WILLING CONSCIOUS CHOICE TO question.

The conscious choosing to face into, look squarely thru, to go to the source of our discomforts. And make new choices because we can.

Because it is no longer necessary to suffer so much when we awaken our ability to use our faculties to question our reality. We have the innate capacity in our original human design, and our innate spiritual selves to unravel ourselves from any dramas we feel entangled. I know this because this is my experience. I do it.

And I will do it again and again and again in my own way towards reconciling myself to the painful experiences of living on this planet in a human form.

Whenever I encounter myself in this process and I break through my thinking and reconcile myself I look back and I seem to have been in some kind of daze, some kind of hypnotic trance of believing my story that seems ridiculous. And just as astounding is the fact that so many others are engaged, fueling, and perpetrating these same hypnotic like thinking states, that when completely questioned, are not even real.

Well… the thoughts are only thoughts and the feelings they cause in me are real. Real feelings, however based, originatingfrom thoughts going through my head. ( who knows where all these thoughts come from, I don’t know but I find them ) (at times the thoughts seem to be thinking me versus me thinking them… they just pop into my head!)

Hmmmmmmmmmm this is a huge wake up.

The unburdening of the self by recognizing the power in thinking and the feelings this generates when my thinking is distressful is nothing more than liberating. So simple a task, once one learns these things we believe in are only our thoughts. There is tremendous “mana”, or life force in this.

Where my thoughts are is where my life energy goes.

So it is a wise idea to get conscious about thinking.

I really do not want to spend my days in fighting, or conflicts with the world or you, or agonies, and misery without solutions and unable to feel the joy of living! All of which is guaranteed until I choose to get conscious about how my thoughts are making me feel and seeing you are not the source of my pain, nor is the world the source of my pain, nor is the government, the mega corporations, so on and so on ad infinitum…….

When I am hurting I am the one doing this to me. This is paramount in understanding since we all grew up thinking so and so hurt me. ( the feelings may be real and yet the source of this… is this true ?) It is not your job to hurt me, that is mine and mine alone.

We all have the experience of someone lashing out at us, or speaking a painful thought at us and not getting hurt because we already see the truth about it. It is when we don’t see this and we are still stuck, or lingering or malingering in pain and suffering we can learn that it is what I do with what you say that is the origin of my hurting me, not what you did or said.

I call this self accountability, self responsibility.

And until one reaches this understanding one cannot do anything else but act accordingly, striking out, projecting out, lashing out at the world. It is impossible to do anything else because at that painful moment the person is still believing their thoughts. They cannot react any other way.

Compassion……

The next level to all this is the collective one.

This where we take two people believing their painful thoughts, then 3, then 4.. OK, this could be any one family. Then take it to groups, organizations, this could be governments or any military. Then take it to masses of these groups thinking someone else is hurting them this could be nations. Then take it to the world, here we have a common belief that someone else is hurting us, hurting me, on a species level. And when we question the origins of all this insanity, I learn this isn’t so, it is me hurting me with what ever you said or did.

We do this to ourselves in micro ways and project this out into the world believing we are all in danger. And we are whenever we are believing the thoughts that create this inside ourselves.

Look at what we do with our minds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( on a collective level)

As we individually grow in our conscious thought processes we grow our collective self, our species. We are ONE, made up of MANY individuals. It is only in limited perception we have that does not see that what one thinks effects all the others. This completely shifts in us once we clean up, clear out, and let go of our distressing thoughts and the ways this make us feel.

I find my experience as a spiritual being…having the human experience filled with opportunity to uncover the magnificent joy that is the genuine basis of reality for my human condition. Every time you or the world brings me your pain, I have the opportunity to look at it. And to choose to hurt myself or do something else, so thank you.

This takes practice and as I do this practice I am learning how there is really nothing special about it. We are intrinsically designed to undo ourselves consciously using the mental, emotional faculties of which we are made. This is simply a form of redirection away from constant repeating the old styles of thinking we all have been born into.

I am certain future generations of humans will ultimately unlock the limited thinking styles prevalent in today’s world. And there will be the outward demonstration of the transformation of thought in our species.

It is paramount to to succeeding as a species.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Thank You Byron Katie… for   THE WORK          http://www.thework.com

The Remarkable Act of Questioning Aggression, a client case history of back pain, core spirituality my personal journey

The Remarkable Act of Questioning Aggression, a a client case history of back pain, core spirituality my personal journey

Recently I had a client present to me with a aggravating back pain that suddenly appeared in the upper back and was unaware of the source of this pain. There didn’t seem to be any physical reason like lifting, or over exertion for this.  This is a regular client I see on a weekly basis. We have a trusted client therapist relationship. Whenever a client is unclear about pains in the body and is wanting to get clear about it I reflect on the somatic notion that the body will express what the person cannot- or will not at the moment. The body can and will store this as a memory somewhere inside, and for good reason, so I asked if he would like to explore this and he did. The outcome to our discovery revealed to me a simple understanding of the source of the pain this client was experiencing. ( and the nature of an aggression left unquestioned)

Upon inquiry we went back in time thru the week previous and discovered a public meeting where the client had been approached by the hostile angry words of a person attending the meeting. The client reflected on the tensions in this confrontation. He related this has been an ongoing situation, and graphically shifted his body position in front of me as he began to recall what happened.

He began to slouch, leaning forward, arms raised, fists clenched, jaw tightened, complexion reddening… all before me. As he described it, he realized he was having thoughts that he was ready to fight, and went on to describe his thinking as he wanted to attack, to strike out, he was feeling furious, angry, and threatened. (though as he recounted he did not see his sense of threat, as he was consumed in the thoughts)

He was clearly showing me the posturing of “fight or flight response” common to someone who is feeling he is in a state of personal danger and ready to punch out the confrontational person before him.

This was a public forum and yet, as he continued along with his story, he related he never had to hit the other person because it never got to that point. This was a continuing drama that was not resolved, this person was an ongoing source of irritation to the client. So as he said , “I didn’t have to hit him, it never got to that.” I found this remark telling.

What is valuable here is learning to see the perception of threat. As a result of this perception of threat, my client’s back seized up and later he was overcome with back pain in between his shoulders ( a form of defensive armoring relating to being threatened). This interfered with his daily activities.

I silently noted to myself how he had suffered from his own responses to a perceived threat, a physical level of threat that was self created that lingered on long after the actual event.

Here is where I like to bring in the process of inquiry to reveal important information that I learned from the client. He was having thoughts of danger, of a personal nature, and he was readying himself to attack. He was believing his thoughts. Believing his thoughts made his feelings shift into “fight or flight”. And yet it wasn’t happening, not at that specific moment!

The confronting individual was showing tones of angry conflict without a show of fists. The degree of threat had not even reached that of physicality! Hmmmmmmmmmm

This illustrates, to me, how we actually create dangers out of our thoughts.

Creating a level of personal physical threat within ourselves causing the self to suffer. (surges of back pains, in this case)

A more common response to the effects of this kind of tension is a person would point the finger and hold the confronting individual responsible for these reactions, as did the client. “he made this happen to me” He was certainly right in how he felt and how he was ready to have a physical altercation, as he made this clear to me.

In the wake of a “flight or fight response” our minds are in a tunnel vision sort of function, we do not see outward, or beyond the perceived threat of that moment. Nor do we always recognize the after effect to ourselves.

The dumping of adrenaline into the body, the squeezing of the muscles, the clenching of the jaw, the twisted gnarling of the stomach, ( the client then reveals to me the additional component of chronic abdominal pain) the increased fearful heart rate resulting in a red flush upon the face. No, none of that do we see. Yet in retelling the story for himself, my client actually reenacted the scenario, and this was all out in the open for me to take in. Yet to my mind, the source of his threat did not match the intensity of the actual confrontation, certainly not on the level of this. We clearly identified a scenario in which this back pain could have been sourced. He started to become more aware and felt this was what had caused him the discomfort. We went on to the next step in the session.

I then proceeded to administer the treatment. Slowly and methodically, layer by layer, coaxing the tensions out of the muscles and nerves, and slowly quieting mind with the addition of soft gentle background music. A few good full deep breathes began to spontaneously arise as he began to unwind. His chest heaving with slow natural out breaths.  He allowed himself to deepen into greater levels of letting go and he became significantly more relaxed. The tense “armoring” of his body’s defense mechanism began to subside. (having been carried for days now since that moment when it had happened)

At the completion of this session when the client sat up I noticed a distinct shift in his appearance. His head seemed to be floating higher on his shoulders, his face had returned to a childlike softness with a radiant glow. His manner had become still and quiet. He had returned to his true nature. His countenance was emptied and now- present, he sat for a few minutes allowing this new level of stillness to envelope him. ( a peace full human being)

Such an experience causes me to question how many people in this world experience similar levels of threat within themselves. Whether their threat is a major one with fists drawn or milder, where one only prepares the defense without ever actualizing it. This fight or flight response, I estimate, is a tremendous component of human aggressions.

Multiply this idea in the world. For example, and we can start to see emerging a collective experience of perceived danger, that may or may not even exist.

To the person having this experience it is completely real. No question about that. In the mind, in the body, it is a real experience.

However I question the reality of actual threat. On one hand it appears to be real, on the other it does not. Until one learns to question this how would one really know? How would I know?

I have entered many a home in my work thru many years of practice doing out-call massage therapy. Some homes, regardless of the contents of materials, have huge systems for protection. Signs posted on the yard, in the windows, decals on the front door saying this property is surveiled, and protected by…so and so. Is this the result of a perceived threat? It may or may not be real.

And so it is with our society, how we think creates our collective reality of real and or perceived sense of danger. It starts in the mind of the individual, then multiplies into several, then into groups, then into cities, nations and finally the entire world. Masses of human minds thinking thoughts of threat, believing those thoughts and then creating them. Both real and not real. Yet to each this is a real thing. I find this astounding. I HAVE TO QUESTION THIS SCENARIO!

Astounding because in light of this subject we have aggressions and these aggressions redirect our attentions and there are many issues of hurt and injury, issues of misunderstanding and judgmental-ness that arise from such aggression TO OUR PRECIOUS HUMANITY.

Positions of righteousness fuel these aggressions and carry them out magnified into our human species. Industries are built on this, profits are had. A cycle is generated that creates monetary profit out of huge emotional investments in aggressive activities. Much of it may not be real…. however justifications are built on this. Human energy is focused in this way and while all this is going on we are not clearly able to perceiving outside the “tunnel vision” of our focus, THE RESULT OF “FLIGHT OR FIGHT THINKING”.

In my lifetime alone the magnification of this human activity has grown monumentally year by year, decade by decade until now our entire planet is being flooded with waves of fearful, threatening thoughts of danger, WITH FLIGHT OR FIGHT ALL OVER THE PLANET.

And we are doing this to ourselves!

We as a species have a great wake up call in all this, for while this is going on people are in poverty, food is unequally distributed, resources are greedily taken, the care and education of our own is thwarted, the ecosystems of this planet are plundered, the animals of our world are diminishing.

Our continuous regeneration of perceived levels of threat outweigh our healthy care, nurturance and sustenance of our own human species. What in the world are we all believing about each other? HOW IS OUR AGGRESSION A SIGNIFICANT COMPONENT OF OUR EXPERIENCE AND HOW DO WE CHOOSE TO CONSCIOUSLY HANDLE THIS AS A SPECIES?

For one thing I would like to submit the idea of questioning our experience and learning to better understand our own thoughts and how our thoughts make us feel. Individually and collectively in a more moderate, relaxed manner. Without all the hype, the spin, and the drama,drama, drama!

As a therapist for many decades now my job has been the nurturing of the human condition. Addressing thousands and thousands of sessions of individuals experiencing all levels of stress, distress, and tensions in their bodies and their minds. Much of this is repetitive.

I have been feeling this in my fellow human beings for virtually my entire adult lifetime. I have been quietly attending to this situation we share via my practice of healing massage therapy.

Finally I have simply learned how to question the source of these distressing states of human expression. I cannot any longer deny the fact that we do this to ourselves. That we do this to ourselves repeatedly, and that we inflict our aggressions on one another. This may be common amongst us, however it is not the genuine design of our human nature to be so. I know this.

I know this because thousands and thousands of sessions later is see the same response in people, they return to peaceful beings once they let go. Once they let go of all the aggressive, dynamic distressing, tension filled experiences in their minds and bodies. This has happened in my presence for an entire lifetime. I have to question this. Is this real?

Are we, by nature, genuinely peaceful beings? Because I keep seeing this response repeated as a result of beneficial massages therapy. My findings are we are peaceful by nature.

I cannot even tell you how many furious, distraught, unhappy, miserable, tired, individuals have lay upon my treatment table, and gotten up after a session peaceful, kind, generous, and happy. It is an amazing experience to witness thru all the years.

Core spirituality is about the realization and the living out of the idea that I am a spiritual being having a human experience. How I learn to question my human life, my day to experiences can show me much about my humanity and also lead me into my spirituality. Is it true? Is this absolutely true? These are questions to ask myself anytime I find myself in a distressful moment, feeling, or situation.

We are by design, most capable of selecting our realities here, our day to day state of being. We are very capable of understanding the truth in any moment when we simply ask these questions of ourselves. We are very capable of learning how to lower our aggressions and all the consequences that arise and are built upon them. We are capable of returning ourselves to original design, that of a happy peaceful human. I know this because I experience this everyday. I know this because I share this experience with others on a regular basis. I know this because I choose to question all my tensions, uncomfortableness, and distressing thoughts and feelings. This is my core spirituality.

I am a spiritual being having a human experience!

The Remarkable Act of Questioning War, core spirituality, my personal journey

The process of questioning the messages we listen to around us , of inquiry is inherently of value here when we look into the messages sent to us thru our American medias. Is this true? Is this absolutely true? I ask myself, because as I investigate news for myself… thru understanding the sources of our news, the intentions of those who generate news, when I look at the state of things that arise as a result of what is perpetrated here I wonder to myself. I am certainly aware that “perceived” dangers exist, that the innocent need to be protected, and for that I am grateful. However the never ending militarization of this planet, her peoples, surface areas of land, and the compromising of our future possibility as a benevolent species, the damage and destruction of eco systems, the toxic effects of all this is still staggering to me. (having watched this now for a lifetime of over 50 years it has increased thru every decade of my own life)

I find tremendous value to uncovering the larger reality of war mongering, and all the benefits this brings to a certain few. Such as control over petroleum and energy resources, control over populations, greed and the growth of financial gain to select few, ( check your stock portfolios, these companies are gaining )I wonder about all the hand overs to non military sources for the industry of war and the profits this brings, the use of non military human energy directed at not just protection, but destruction, deception, and selfish aims for still more profits and gains. ( the military use of human resources for the proliferation of war and aggression has grown significantly within our generation, thru privatization of military like sources in the civilian areas of society) Why is this?  What is the real truth here?

I am learning to understand more thru questioning the differences between true war and political take overs, and forced aggressions towards selected populations, areas, and industries. Were we not to question what is going on here we would not discover the actual truth within ourselves and we regenerate more and more and more of the same, aggression and destruction of the infinite valuable resources of our humanity and our living planet

For this reason I question the real nature of prolonged, sustained acts of continual aggression. (by anyone)

And truthfully is this not an aspect of a free society, a democracy ? That we question what the heck we are doing?

Continuous militarization of basic human dilemmas as the answer to the problems has lead to compartmentalization and divisions. This leads to greater and greater compartmentalization within our human populace and generates continuous divisions amongst all good peoples. Compartmentalization also adds to confusion because not any one person, or body of people understand the whole picture or truth in what is happening around us. ( the proliferation of secrets, black op spending without democratic consent, immensely secretive commissions, boards, and bodies who share partial explanations, spins and withhold information of the whole story) This perpetrates the divisive human energy that might be better used in education, global human cooperation, intensive understanding to the problems underneath acts of aggression, acts of terror, such as the global human problems of every kind of powerlessness, human poverty, human suffering and death and destruction. I am reminded of an ancient military strategy for take overs which is “DEVIDE AND CONQUER” , this to me, looks like what is happening here to our national and global society by unknown origins)  I ask my self … “do i want to support this?” within myself. “How will i interact in my daily life so as to demonstrate my values?”

Ultimately all this information points me to the inner self and the place I have to actualize my sense of purpose. Will I stop the war …within me?

Will i stop the fighting within myself, and around me?

How can i make peace with me?

How can i make peace with each person in my life?

What will i do with my own aggressive thoughts?

Thru inquiry to self  I am able to answer these questions for me.

When we study the nature of WAR, when we study the role of AGGRESSION, when we learn to ask questions and see how and what this really is all about we can unravel the source of many shared human problems and redirect our human resources towards acts of peaceful, intensely patient, non aggressive peace keeping, lessening aggression and seeing clearly what deception,subterfuges, undermining, greed, sadism, ineffectual paths to problems, power grabbing, and submission from one person, or one people to another really look like. We can then re-orchestrate ourselves to attend to the actual problems and much of this is not thru prolonged war and aggression thru further militarizations.

I often reflect on the immense price  good military people all over the world, pay to solve such immense problems in our world. To me we are asking our world military’s to solve problems that are far to big for them alone. I often reflect on all sides of military aggressions and their families and the price they pay with their lives and the wounds of war. I often have the thought we place far too much pressure on these fellow human beings ( whom i truly love). Ultimately wars are not won thru power over one another, they are won thru understanding what we once did not and bringing a new set of actions to address our common human problems in non violent cooperative ways.

So having shared some of my own introspective thought on the subject I like to share the following short speech this lovely woman has to share to bring forth the ideas that we can bring to our own awareness. Especially when we grow enough to learn to question a bit more thoroughly, a bit more deeply into what we choose to invest our thoughts and feelings.

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Corporate Media Beating the Drums of War — Mnar Muhawesh Speaks Out

Mnar Muhawesh, Founder and Editor In Chief, MintPress News, talked about how the tightly controlled corporate media ignores reporting and good journalism to follow directives on creating enemies and promoting wars. Almost all of the media outlets in this country are owned by a few corporations.

Inspirational words that cause to pause…. core spirituality

“…LETS  WORK ON OUR CONVERSATIONS WITHONE ANOTHER…”

 

The Remarkable Act of Choosing Presence, the Natural Human…. core spirituality, my personal journey

The Remarkable Act of Choosing Presence, the Natural Human…. core spirituality, my personal journey

The remarkable act of choosing to stay still enough in any situation to see what there is to be seen is a remarkable way we have to use the 5 senses of our bodies. While also opening to our inner senses.

Senses of connection, empathy, knowing, such as…

Clairvoyance – seeing without the use of the 5 senses,

Clairsentience – feeling touching psychically,

Clairaudience – the ability to hear in an extraordinary, paranormal fashion,

Claircognizance – the ability to know something without physical explanation why you know it,

Clairalience – the ability to access information thru the sense of smell.

Once we have cleared out much of the contents of our subconscious minds, our past highly charged distressing emotional memories, and resolved what bothers us from our early programming there is a stillness that takes the place of all the discomforting content.

We become free to spontaneously charge more of our innate self thru our internal senses, all of which are natural aspects of the real human being. Freeing us from the common experiences of overactive mental thoughts, philosophies, and highly charged positions of right and wrong.

The intellect returns to a more natural position where it is primarily used to decipher the new information that floods into our awareness. The intellect sorts, deciphers, and manages, and illustrates the larger perception that presents itself thru natural pathways in awareness so that I may increase and develop in understanding. In other words the intellect and all that “it thinks” is not the basis of the construction of my reality.

The intellect then becomes a kind of translator, rather than the source of our reality.

Much of our collective reality is still constructed from the ideas of intellect, and thus has many pieces of the larger spectrum of “what is” missing.

This can happen to vast numbers of people, groups, nations, entire religions, as a result of the beliefs we fuel thru our thoughts that we believe without sober questioning. Looking into the world and believing the massive systems of human creation based only in intellectual ideology, looking at the world and recognizing the intellectual basis for belief becomes apparent, as “what is” missing in the larger spectrum is felt. This is our “not knowing”, our “I don’t know”. The very basis for fear and all that is generated by this grand massive experience of terror….. which is a fear magnification of  “what is” that is still missing in our awareness. We each have the design to repair this within ourselves.

The natural human being without the intellectual constructs has the other parts of the mind, ( via other access areas of the brain ) available to experience. I call this “consciously aware” versus unconsciously aware. We are a blend of both at this place in our human development.

The natural unburdened human being is easily informed by knowing directly from the source, within the self. Knowing about life is a natural state and being informed by this knowing is a daily occurrence.

The natural human being is connected to life in it’s unlimited versions of free expression, form, and appearance. Whenever we choose to unburden the overload of the subconscious mind we free up all the natural capability of which is our pure design.

The benefits of therapy, emotional clearing, honest emotional expression, and the regular questioning and challenging of our beliefs and their truthfulness all serve to unload the subconscious mind.

Tremendous amounts of information stored in our minds and bodies overlay all the natural abilities we each have as our intrinsic design as human beings. (tensions, headaches, sickness, drunkenness, addictions, sleeplessness, angers, conflicts, distancing, misunderstanding, and so on. )

I once took to the study of Alchemical Hypnotherapy, a kind of hypnosis. In my years of study and interaction thru sessions on myself and with clients I have come to learn all these things are true for me. Were more people to investigate their own subconscious thoughts they would learn how limited we are by this and how common an experience this is for most people. For example I encounter responses to my own clairvoyance with people as something almost unnatural, special or unreachable. While this could not be actually more further from the truth. Every human being has all of this capacity and normally arrives at these capabilities once they clear out their subconscious minds and free their attachments to their intellectual bias.

The “work” of personal development, of healing our wounds, of amending our relationships, of dismantling the effects of an intellect left unchecked for decades, or for generations is only the beginning.

Because once we clear out the free space inside… each of us is opened up to what I call the larger spectrum of reality that is not based in ideas of fear, lack, bondage, false religious notions, and selfish political agendas. I know my intellectual mind does not rule my world any longer. My conscious attention is asking for truth, questioning my thoughts and is on call to regulate the effects of overpowering via the intellect.  I experience on a daily basis another kind of mind which has fluidity, and deep automatic knowing. My intellect translates this material to my conscious awareness. This is a much more comfortable place for the human intellect.

As more and more human beings heal our hurting selves and release our attachments to our suffering, we learn to let go of the astoundingly limited control our own subconscious thoughts have over the rest of our being. (and hijack our joy!)

When we release the astoundingly limited control our own subconscious thoughts have over us the access points to inner senses are freed up to develop and utilize in our daily lives. I find this tremendously life supportive. Because when we get to this point our natural connection to life is uncluttered we are informed much more clearly about everything in our world, including one another.

I post a lot of writing in this blog on clearing out, healing, and learning to open up to our negative experiences with one another, and ourselves because it is the “primary step” which leads to the natural human being that is far more expanded in all ways. Without clearing out our subconscious minds most of us are left in the dark, not knowing, disconnected, and believing the constructs of an unchecked intellect. We hurt one another, and ourselves when we believe all this extra mental thought inside ourselves. And yet there is the way thru it all that frees us from this kind of daily, “normal suffering”.

The natural human being is not full of suffering, the common one is!

My personal experience of divinity is not that I must be in pain all the time and suffer. Rather that is the consequence of the kinds of thoughts I have held, my attachments to those thoughts, and my emotional investments in unconscious forms of living. Not some greater God source trying to teach me a lesson, not some karmic law teaching me a lesson, not some punishment from a higher authority. Simply it is my own disharmonious, negative, unhappy, sad, selfish, righteous, thoughts here. My personal experience of divinity is completely benevolent to itself in all of us, in all creatures, in all things, everywhere. When my experiences show me it is not….THEN …this is our own doing. It is the response we are creating collectively that hurts our species, not the God Source. This arises from our own unconsciously held thoughts about reality and how we believe them and invest our life force into them. This is the education of the human form inside the reality of a great cosmic design called LIFE!

This discovery that I am doing this to myself is tremendous.

The amount of subconscious powerlessness this erases is staggering.

Each element of my own doing is right within my own grasp… every day. And I can choose to stay present, be still, learn to observe, and realize how my ability to choose is something I can activate anytime I will myself. This completely eliminates any form of external domination, releases every form of burden, and most of all unlocks the deepest most profound state of love within my heart. I literally go thru ecstatic moments on a regular basis. Again and again I find myself in greater states of realizing ONENESS…experiencing how the real interconnection of life is designed.

Then I return to “my inner work”. That is not to say I lost anything of an ecstatic nature inside me, it is only that I have dipped down again into my own subconscious to clear out some more. I find this is how it works for me.

I know that as a spiritual being having a human experience that it is possible to return my toxic human self to an un-toxic one. I know that my human body, my human self is naturally designed to be open and free, knowledgeable, and forthright in this knowledge. I KNOW THIS BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I FIND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AS I DISMANTLE MY FALSE IDEAS.

I know that my human self is capable of experiencing many kinds of life thru all the different forms and appearances. (animals, plants, insects, physical places, spiritual beings from other dimensions as well as other types of sentient beings ) All of this is quite normal and natural to a human who is free of attachments based in loaded subconscious negative and false- reality based thoughts.

The new emerging human is continually developing around us in one another as we learn, as we release old worn out data, as we multiply new generations. All of this is normal and natural.

All forms of bondage, domination, entrapment, servitude, powerlessness, insanity, suffering, injustice, burden are anchored within each of us thru our own unconscious minds. (each generation unravels…dismantles…. and destroys some aspect of false reality here on this Earth in some new way delivering that generation to freedoms previous generations did not permit themselves)

We can and are discovering this more and more.

We are naturally designed to undo all of this inside our selves.

This is our normal, natural state of being human beings.

We are spiritual beings passing thru this experience of being human and we can make the most of this experience by ending our own attachments to what is called normal and presents as suffering in our world.

Core spirituality my personal journey of self investigation

Resistance….. core spirituality, my personal journey

Resistance….. core spirituality, my personal journey

Resistance is the mental refusal to accept or comply with something, someone.

It is the attempt to prevent something by action or argument.

It is the ability not to be affected by something, especially adversely.

It can also be taking a stand of opposition.

Resistance can also be a form of denial or rejection, and defiance.

Other related words to resistance are protest, misgiving, reservation, disobedience, noncompliance,objection.

I have a lot of resistance in my personal path this lifetime. I am continuously looking at my own rigidity, reluctance, and denial.

Even to the point of resisting my resistance!

It can be a mild form of mental insanity and pain. Mirrors of it are everywhere. I see them because of my own inner unquestioned thoughts and feelings of resistance. At first I encounter these “external” forms of resistance in the world around me, though the discomfort is clearly my own. Eventually I always come to recognize I am projecting again. Projecting my “rejected” thoughts of my own inner states of resistance onto people and situations in this world. It is a roller coaster spin out ride of craziness I have found myself repeatedly.

It is a such a mild form of crazy making that it is often regarded as a normal state of affairs amongst friends.

Yet still, there are the unsettled thoughts and feelings which are inside my own head. I have given myself stomach aches over it. I have over eaten thru it. I have had fights because of it. I have caused myself tremendous pain and suffering in my unconscious states of resistance.

One of the main reactions to resistance I have is one of making myself feel less than, or smaller.

I find that resistance to life causes a diminishing personal me that I do not like. How resistance makes me feel is less than I truly am.

This is disconcerting and points me to understanding how this is such an effective life experience. I have struggled with this issue my entire lifetime. Anything that diminishes my sense of authentic self is worthy of questioning.

Left unquestioned, personal mental and emotional states of powerlessness, take away from my core spiritual authentic presence in my life.

This feels like withdrawing, this feels like contracting, and I find it very uncomfortable. These are more reasons for me to inquire into my own thoughts and how they make me feel when I am in stark resistance to anything.

Yes, anything!

I am learning how this is like a school bell calling me into the classroom to have some reviews of my own opinions and ideas and I find it always compelling. Compelling in that reviewing my opinions on what feels like stark resistance leads me to self discovery.

Self discovery of the deeper me, the under surface of my outer thoughts.

Usually there are a whole string of thoughts that are all linked into any one kind of resistance.

It is very common for me to open up on the surface to my resistance, which leads me to the string of thoughts and feelings, and then I resist even more, to those resistive ideas that were just below the surface of my attention. The process has been complicated and I have found layers upon layers of beliefs, thoughts and feelings attached to all of it. It is staggering to undo.

Yet it is the undoing here that is my inner work here in this life. My source of personal revelation and the breaking down of my beliefs which are based in various forms of resistance.

Beliefs based in resistance do not feel all that good to me, thus I continue to investigate them. I can go for days on one strand of thoughts tied into some form of personal resistance or protest, even years, and as I have found even decades.

Until I realize I am the one here doing this to me ( It is not all the infinite forms of projection named by my ideas of issues, of people, of persons, or circumstances in the external world).

Personal revelation arises as I do my internal self examinations and learn to recognize what I may be fighting against, and learn to release myself from the pain and drama of how this blocks positive life experience. Prevents me from going forward. Slowing down what life is offering me that I cannot seem to embrace. This is major inner work for me. I have created fatigue and lethargy out of it. Out of avoidance comes misery. It is a predictable cycle. I have been thru this all my life.

Groups of humans bond together thru resistance. I find this astounding. Huge struggles we humans must face are empowered by our bonding in our resistance to something. Ultimately it is the individual that finally shifts, makes a change, and redirects the force of resistance into something authentic.

Gandhi was a perfect example of this. He died.

This was his action that arose from resistance, and the millions upon millions of others that followed his actions in the world ultimately also died. Died to some form of resistance in themselves that redirected them toward authenticity.

The authenticity is the turning point.

The turning point where life carries on with what it has to offer. The resistance is only the build up to… it is not the transformational moment.

The transformational moment is when we let go of the resistance and embrace the truth of ourselves.

When “we die” to our object of resistance we become something else.

We become what has been a potential waiting to happen.

We become the courageous, the true, the real self.

The resistance was the “just before” moment. I find this illuminating.

This is why I inquire into my resistances.

Today I am very fortunate to have the opportunity to look at my own resistance and to examine how this makes me feel, once again. It it truly an old story for me. I have been lingering in resistance on several topics now for weeks. I have felt awful because of it. Sometimes not even realizing I am wallowing in it… all by myself.

This is definitely is my “wake up call”. Appearing right on time, just as usual for me to see my thoughts and feelings.

My attachments to them as beliefs. And to find new choices for which to engage my reality.

I have had enough of the pains and discomforts associated with my objections, my reluctance, and my protests.

Core spirituality my personal journey of self investigation.

Message from my heart to me on this today…. “John your living life stream has for you all that is possible and will show you..

… You are capable. You have before you more authentic living than you can imagine at this point. As you learn to accept what feels uncomfortable in your self, you open your capacity to feel loved, and to love. This has and always will be the driving force of your spiritual self, and especially as an incarnate being. How compassion grows within you as you live out truthfully your discoveries of both your negative as well as your positive thoughts and feelings will surprise you. As you trade your thoughts of resistance, and opposition to thoughts of acceptance you find yourself aligned with your most authentic self. Your authentic self truly accepts anything that is unacceptable to your human mind as It knows and holds the vibrant frequency of unconditional love. Thus you may inquire so you may liberate the rigidity, the polarizations, the limitations of your own personal humanity. One day at a time, one thought at a time, one issue at a time. As you grow in this you continue to identify with that which you truly are. Free and unlimited. A spiritual being having your human experience”

Outrage and moral indignation…core spirituality, my personal journey

“There’s no value in moral outrage. The rumor is that passion through outrage, and justification for that outrage, is the motivation that changes the world.

It does not.

It’s exactly what keeps the world in place. Without the outrage, looking at things the way they are, seeing them clearly, more options and solutions can be seen within the same circumstance than fear, and moral outrage is fear.

Education, the end of the ignorant mind, allows the benevolent open mind to see solutions that were never before available.

Basically, love is the power, not moral indignation. Moral indignation is stress, disrespect, smallness, and it has been done, and the world is still in the same place.

There’s fear and hatred, which are words for ignorance—pure, fearful, unenlightened ignorance.

If I say you shouldn’t, and I point my finger at you, and I notice the power that comes out of me toward you, immediately I shouldn’t. The war begins with me, the war ends with me, not with you.

Sit down with me, enlighten me to the way that you see it, and let’s talk. I will not con you, I will not trick you; I’ll open my mind to you, and you will show me the way, you’ll always show me the way.

And as I open to you, I notice that you open to me.

And what comes out of that, two open minds sitting together, can never be war. Two open minds can’t oppose each other.

It’s a law.

Solutions are found in that.

For most of us, our minds aren’t yet open to understanding these laws. An open mind is not a mind that waits and listens and uses what it hears as an arsenal.

An open mind is unlimited. It’s always learning; it only rests, if at all, in a solution.

And from there it accelerates and energizes and sees that as rest.

It’s infinite”.

Byron Katie Quote

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I question my previous strong holds, my thoughts and beliefs on moral outrage and indignation now.

When I catch this voice of passion inside me and I “think” that it will change this world, yet I feel horrible in it,in the emotions this brings up in me.

I grew up in the 60’s as a child when protest was cool, and the voice of the people became heard thru such thoughts. It is a huge experience in my generation for millions.

I have to question this, now is this truly effective?

The mind is powerful, when my thoughts go unquestioned…. and can lead me to believe that this is the only step to take and how justified I find myself in it. I have to question this in me… now is this the solution?

In unity consciousness, or oneness I can completely feel and share in any voice of moral outrage shared by any voice… I get it inside myself. And there is further go with this dialogue. Beyond the limits of this voice is the opened mind that can be with the source of any such voice. I love this. There is a common ground in what we can learn from one another. Where the open mind beyond outrage discovers the next viable solution for self, for another. Here is where we find the peace.

Over and over thru relating I am arriving at this unity awareness, that there are no real workable thoughts in protest, outrage, indignation alone. We have all felt such things for many many generations of every kind of human enslavement on a personal and a collective level.

It is my time to move to another dialogue where I find our open minded selves learning more and learning to share in mutual participation in bringing to ourselves and each other the peace that exists under any of the mayhem, the discordant, the indignant experience of our lives on a day to day basis.

Whenever I find myself inquiring enough I realize a lighter version of things, a universal intelligence that does have answers, does have insight, does have purpose. A state of mutuality that any human being can share, if opened to it. And in this way I change this world, starting with one, myself.

When the number of “one” multiplies we have whole groups, then communities, then nations, then a planet. We return to the universal principle of “The One” , starting with one, becoming the one.

Unity awareness and presence in this world.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation