Hatred and Love, Shifting into Possibility.

Hatred and Love, Shifting into Possibility.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

We have not yet realized the power of our love and its capacity to heal the hate that is still held in our human family, our human minds and hearts and our beliefs. For what is hate really? Is it the refusal to love?

Love beckons!

The need we have to share this love for who we are and all that encompasses.

The need we have to be loved for who we are, and all that encompasses. Exists!

Love has much to do here, and through our trials and tragedies shows us how we can do better.

The morality of love is ever-present, and never-ending in its scope for expression in a world so full of hate, so full of hurt. There are many still captive to the darkened shadows of lovelessness. Yet love prevails in the face of it all!

I have experienced this hate in my life, and it is always hurtful. I have felt this in my family, my ohana. Love is my own primary response to heal that hurt. I have been tested many times.

Wherever there is any bigotry, any hate amongst us that leads to violence, that violence may be delivered in words, in emotions, or in actions.

However this may arise, our response can balance the equation of inequality and mis-perception for self.

The work of any perpetrator will have to also arise from within self. Ultimately this occurs within each of us, and so i consciously choose to do my own inner work and carry on.

These times are filled with many new opportunities to make better choices to love all that which we held outside ourselves …. up to now.

There is another reason for hate, arising from a  wound! The wounded self… 

A wounded mind, a wounded heart strikes out.

This wound in a man or woman, or child needs the love that can hold the wound and press forward to re balance what has passed in the wake of unimaginable pain. The sadness of these things is our heart crying to love.

And love we may permit ourselves, anyway. This is not just hurt alone with which we hold pain it is also our hearts yearning deeply from within to love and be loved.

Many hearts are crying on this planet… our world is opening to a long history of abuse, hurt, woundedness, and victimization.

The wound in our human family is felt because we can love, and we do not.

We hurt because we deeply need to be loved and to love. And only a real love breaks the bondage’s of confusion, pain and suffering.

Our refusal to surrender to love within ourselves is a painful one. Just as a pus must come out for a wound to heal, so too must the darkened thoughts and feelings arise so as to release what is preventing this love from being discovered.

Love is wise and powerful and will right what needs to be righted given a chance. Love is an action and not just an idea, as a verb it is moving energy. Love as an action inside each of us moves us all. Love in this way is universal and leads us to our mutuality. Our universal place of oneness through diversity.

Love is accountable and as such takes new footing in responsible action with regard to hate and the violence that results. It will take a lot of love to overcome a lot of hate in this world. For every bigoted idea, every injurious hatred still held, love seeks a surrender. Love seeks a surrender in any individual imprisoned by such notions. Love seeks a way through our world just as a stream will find any crack in the land to further its own outward flow.

The cracks in our world are those still in darkness. The darkness of the un-awakened heart. And so every tragedy holds open the moment long enough for that love to come through, even if just a tiny bit.

As “WITNESS” to hatred unfolds on a mass level through media this provides infinite new probabilities for re examinations on infinite new ways for our human perception. And to reevaluate how we decide what needs to be in our world.

Re examine everything that is about hate and violence and our need to express this. How meaningful it is that we embrace these feelings within our humanity and make new and different choices in our personal lives. The choice to love and be loved and to have this within authenticity.

Thus meaning is derived by the most base, most horrendous of any action. Without our individual re examinations we doom ourselves to repeat and repeat and repeat.

Love within each of us can provide meaningful purpose for that which seems meaningless.

Loving meaningful purpose arises now to lead us into our darkened hearts and out into our loving free new possibility. Much will change. And still there are those who hold tightly to their wounds. We can and will continue onward holding the possibility that at any moment anything can and will change, and change for the better. Though the path is full of darkness around us we hold a light within. We can have these conversations.

To learn to walk along a darkened path yet hold open and freely a light within. This is a new paradigm and one that can hold much safety and potential. For at any moment that inner light may reach a darkened place in someone, or some place around each of us. we can now learn to speak to that which holds us back and learn to open our hearts in new possibilities.

As the inner light within our humanity grows our capacity to overcome darkness around us increases. Thus we learn to illuminate our interior places. We learn to lighten our hearts, our minds and our bodies and bring newness to that which was old.

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Fears as The Blocks that Dumb Us Down…Facing, Processing, Mastering

Fears As The Blocks that Dumb Us Down…Facing, Processing, Mastering.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

Why face fear with our intention?

When I look away, and stay in denial I am withholding something as a form of awareness that is mine to own and to be transformed. When I ignore those feelings that are telling me that something is not right, I remain in ignorance. When I refuse to see all before me and inside of me with clarity and honesty my spectrum of choices become very limited.

For me to make the most informed choices and decisions about anything I need to have all the facts that are pertinent and without facing fear this is just not possible. Facing fear by way of what holds me back, no matter how vague or undefined it may be, brings up details that widen and deepen my capacity to be informed.

This information is significant in that what we are afraid of or what holds us back about anything, may contain valuable knowledge for personal and planetary growth.

Much knowledge is withheld from our waking consciousness through the walls of fear.

The Walls of Fear based thinking.

I can look around the planet and watch how so many people are emotionally investing themselves in these barriers. Walls of fear that we cycle around and around not really getting through them into the core of the issues. The dominance of fear based manipulation by people on this planet is wide-spread and used to control and prevent progress. My own  unseen fear, my own refusal, or denial to see within myself resonates outward. This resonate frequency within my vibration attracts those fear based scenarios to me. This is how we get hooked in to other people’s fear based programming. By side tracking our own issues.

Progress which transcends the dynamic nature of conflicts, and those of forces of polarization that keep people in massive states of disharmony. This disharmony that side tracks more individuals and perpetrates cycles of more dysfunction all through the human species. This is the “why” we question, and the “why” situations arise that are uncomfortable and have their roots in some form of unconscious fear. This is also how we can observe that we are socialized in fear based paradigms of belief. Unspoken social agreements lived out by passively participating without internal questioning results in the “”sheeple effect. (“Sheeple” = masses of people blinding following!)

Heart openings

When we drop into our hearts we activate our natural capacity to be caring. This energizes all our other potentials to be responsible, accountable and to seek, find, and orchestrate the larger pictures in our lives. We do this by refusing to engage in the smaller picture and moving into the larger one that holds the possibility, the solution for harmony. Harmony born of conflict. New ideas, revelations, and directions open up. Those things that had been held outside our awareness in the closed heart positioning common in the “sheeple effect”. When we clear our opposing positions and polarizing conflicts through deeper more meaningful information our possibilities for solving huge problems becomes substantially improved. Without it, or rather by staying in our own little states of vague, cloudy, confusing fear we perpetrate and prolong all manner of suffering. This is not too smart. This does not express wisdom. Our problems appear to not go away. When actually we are feeding the problems with our own unconscious choices.

Horror movies, murder and so on…

The urge to look at fear is spread all through society, perpetrated in our television and movie industry, written about on blogs, and books and focused on by every major news organization on earth. It is filled with both fearful real and artificial scenarios. Though these things are not all real, they act as attention grabbers where we can remain at a distance from our real, deeper unexplored subconscious fear. When we unconsciously participate in any forms of this we become controlled by fear in ways that prevent us from going beyond it… into our most precious pure awareness of knowing who and what we truly are.

Feelings of fear

We all have fears, however what we are afraid of may not be that.

We allow ourselves to be motivated by fear and this costs each of us some price on some level of our lives. There is that time in our personal growth where the maturity of self seeks to understand feelings of fear rather than continue in the repression, and falsity, limitation, and dumbing down that this incurs. We choose to be accountable. The price I have learned that I pay when I allow real internal unprocessed fear to exist without self-reflection and discernment is staggering. Limiting, and takes away energy that could be used in more productive life pursuits.

Calling upon inner strengths, and willingness to hold the idea that I can move myself past it.

I have found countless times that in passing through the dismantling of whatever is  built into my own subconscious mind, I learn that what I thought I was afraid was not actually something for me to stay fearful about, the feelings of fear were real, the object of my fear was not and so I learned that fear is not my endgame. It never is!

Facing fear has been a part of the awakening of my consciousness… leading me to discover there are plenty of other fields of knowledge still to be learned. Continuing the game of dumbing down has become so uncomfortable that the courage and strength inside me has risen up. This is a crucial turning point for anyone as this is when inner forces gather to generate power, more personal power with which to conquer the fear based emotions. This kind of inner power, is connected to the indwelling spiritual self and as such has long-lasting and profound effects on the development and the direction of our lives.

The paradigm shift towards inner power and self-generated authentic spirituality

The discovery of our more meaningful spiritual nature is exhilarating, sometimes surprising, and always re-balancing.

The increase of the spiritual self has the capacity to shift our physiology, adjust our mindsets , heal our emotional hurts, and much more. These adjustments to our human expression are the aspects of our species evolutionary impulses and not merely our individual growth. This process occurs universally regardless of the particular station in life any human being may hold. Growth is always potentially rich, and ever-present to be expressed. The collective awakening of our beliefs, our actions, and our reactions, our history, and the directions this is all taking is now in full throttle on a mass level.

Choosing growth instead of suffering. Choosing growth thru our suffering!

We are facing down our ridiculous, immature, and small-minded fear. That we live in a polarized world means that we may learn in two basic ways here. Positive or negative. At some point as we clear away what it is we have inherited by way of our birth it becomes unnecessary to have to learn in the same negative ways. We choose our growth, and our choice to be open to learn positively lessens and shortens the negative sting of our shortsightedness.

Getting Real

I find myself feeling less than the ideal picture of myself whenever I malinger in my fears without inquiry. This less than ideal within drives me in a negative way and does not let up until I move into and through those things that scare me or that which holds me back and limit me. The negativity messages move around in my body detracting from my happy places until I act upon them to discover, process, and release the hold this puts on me.

There is real intention that rises up from the deeper places inside me driving me to pay attention to my own limiting fear based ideas, beliefs, and past experiences. The urge or deeper intention within me to face these things leads me to places where I have discovered that i felt  controlled beyond my own desire to be controlled. This deeper urge is a positive message and generates whole new possibilities that negative reactions do not.

And controlled by outside influences, whether they be societal, religious, moral, political, violent, and oppressive to name a few. The idea that an idea or belief that is not intrinsically from me, or is actually a part of me having a control factor over me or within me is very uncomfortable and I find even abhorrent. The nature of a less than spiritual congruence, undermining of deep strength, and loss of energy that arise from fears that have taken hold in the psyche is unacceptable to me. And so it is I find myself in a life long quest to discover, dismantle, disengage, and release myself over and over and over again. This requires an intentional follow through in my thoughts, deeds, actions to come to some inner peace within myself about anything that has fed a conscious or unconscious scared fearful feeling.

Physical fear held in the body and how it is depleting us.

Underneath the chattering mind and its negative  reasons for how things are the way they are those unchecked levels of fear that undermine the authenticity of self. Loss of drive, loss of energy, and the aches and pains, repetitive self-injury in the physical body can all signal unresolved feelings that I have held based on my beliefs about myself, beliefs about reality that are fear based and  held outside normal waking consciousness, rather there is a split inside us called the subconscious.

As a remedial massage therapist trained in practicing therapeutic bodywork with clients who present symptoms all the time I have learned to have a vigilant eye on how fears might be behind physical symptoms that repeat. As a transpersonal hypnotherapist I have seen how injuries that repeat, and frustrations about the body that arise from these pains, and loss of energy is a common symptom that alerts me to unconsciously held fear. The remarkable thing about this subject is the split we humans have in our consciousness…inside  our subconscious. We are learning to know more of ourselves in this current time line. Our subconscious is becoming conscious. And our vague unknowing is being replaced with real knowledge.

That our inner awareness can be running programs of fear simultaneously while we are loving, living, and engaging in all other aspects of our lives naturally is quite a paradox. This is very easy to see as an observer. This is an indication of how we split. (our disconnects )

Listening with clients I have found myself being prompted many times to open up dialogues that express fears. In this way providing outlets for the trapped energy to be released out of the body in some small way. Sometimes there comes the AHAA, and we recognize some aspects of a limiting thought or feelings that is actually based in fear and h holding a person back. These dialogues open up the withheld dynamics that are signaling inside as pain, and release to our awareness valuable new pieces of info that propel us forward. We learn to add to our self-knowledge like how a child puts together a puzzle. For this reason each step we take, each new data point adds to our overall return to wholeness. This is how sharing our stories and listening to one another will diffuse the momentum inside and cause us to hear ourselves.

The value of physical incarnation and the brilliance of how our physical bodies are designed.

I honestly see the physical body as a translator for the spiritual being within it. Translating all manner of mental, emotional, spiritual content.

When fears are anchored into the subconscious minds, they live in the body physical and exert their influences by way of pains, injuries and limitations. Patterns of self-injury, sabotage, and malingering unresolved maladies. The withheld potential that is inherent in a life situation remains unexpressed and dormant as an actual energy in the body. Without processing completely what it is we are learning on these various levels of our consciousness we experience all kinds of messages that go nowhere, circulating inside our tissues,organs and physiology. Shifting our capacity to experience our physical potentials.

I have found it fascinating to observe in the reality TV shows where people are losing weight just how this comes up for every person. At some point in their process there are emotional, attitudinal issues that arise usually from unresolved past histories. The intensive work out programs and deepening into physicality eventually reveal what is stored inside the body. Everyone has a story of some kind that they have been living, some pain that has held them back. They learn to come face to face with these issues in the body and transcend their previously held ideas. Not until they pass through the breakdown of the psychic walls inside them, and feel out all their feelings do they get to the deeper truth that is within them. This is a universal theme! Our stories are not finished because we stopped in fear sometime, somewhere, someway. Our stories do go on. And we learn how to rewrite them in new and better ways.

I cannot even count the number of times I have shared in dialogue with a client over the past 35 years of my practice when I recognized these kinds of disconnects in their faces. It is all too common that as I point out how what we think and feel within us is directly translating through us and put this into context with a particular issue a client is presenting to me with their physical body that I get blank stares, moments of disconnection, confusion, and rapid fire changing of the subject.

Our recent human histories.

We have been very out of touch with what we hold subconsciously inside ourselves and this is dramatically shifting as we learn to open and remember what was once held outside our waking awareness. Unaware of the fact that everything is connected inside us on different levels, and how it is with our minds that we separate it all. We can always choose to nurture our experience of connected-ness by choosing to drop into our hearts to find answers that are outside the intellectual mind!

Our sport, and medical models are so externally based that the connection to interior places in our feelings and thoughts contributing to how our physical bodies are functioning are typically minimized…  and minimally associated to the symptoms our bodies are expressing. Perhaps thousands of times in this lifetime I have asked a client in the intake segment of our session after they have expressed to me what is wrong, their symptoms, the places in their body where there is a problem, “what do you think is the cause of this?” I get blank stares, immediate lines like “I don’t know”, and I recognize an immediate disconnect with the person and their physical body.

Steps to take towards personal enlightenment

On a personal level when I experience these same kind of vague, unknown symptoms in my body I go within.

I quiet myself and ask my body directly what it is saying to me.

What are the feelings I am having that I have yet to identify?

I allow myself to go deeper into what the symptoms feel like and I stay within those feelings until I find answers.

I wait for words and pictures to tell me about what it is that is arising inside me that I am totally disconnected from but are expressing physically.

This is an amazing process that often leads to uncovering deeper fears in the human psyche that are running my life without my conscious knowledge. In this way my awareness serves my body, and my body expresses the deeper parts of myself with which I am about to integrate and learn all about. The resulting outcomes are a wider spectrum of emotions, feelings, thoughts, and beliefs and ideas. All of which add to my self-knowledge. And ultimately freeing me to be more independent and self-sovereign.

Our physical bodies are actually vehicles, vehicles to translate reality.

Our physical bodies are not what we were taught they are…. Translators of energy! Our brains are not the origins of our thoughts, the mental realm… pure thought is!

I know this as I have traveled outside my body many times in this life and I did not have a brain when I did so, yet I had mental thoughts. Our brains translate the thoughts we hold inside the energy body which is the real self this is within our mental field. Our feelings do not originate only in our physical body, they are coming from our emotional field.

Very interesting in my work I have often encountered feelings that have no substance whatsoever in the present day events, yet they present in the body. Memories are such that there is not any real physical thing now happening, yet all the feelings are there coming out of the emotional field of our spiritual substance and being expressed in the physical body!

Paradigm flips.

Once I realized that my body was translating material my entire paradigm shifted and I began the path of awareness that leads me to knowing myself not just as a body, but as a spiritual being having a human experience living within a physical form! Whenever we uncover a new paradigm we start all over from a new perspective. This new way of seeing things places all the components of our questions into a new order and whole new pictures start to evolve. This is how what is called the “higher mind” aspect of ourselves begins to integrate. This takes time and often will result in needed rest, naps, and or longer periods in solitude and reflection. a much more sophisticated mental awareness develops!

Our bodies carry information that is passed to us from our ancestors via genetic coding.

Our choices in the present moment about this information can switch on and off the different components of our DNA, and we can activate whole new genetic pieces of information this way.

I found it fascinating that in recent genetic studies with identical twins born with the same exact genes, checked 20 years later those exact genes were different. They no longer carried the same genetic messages as they did when they were born. This was attributed to the differing choices that each twin made and these choices switched on or off certain genetic messages.

The Soul

I have also discovered how the soul choice for a physical body creates our experiences. In that the levels our soul needs to learn choose the DNA starts and potentials in the family of origin we are born into. This assures a particular focus for the incarnation and protects the soul intentions to learn specific things, and express in certain ways. the choices we make with what we have is more important than the actual content, once we get going with each life time. Those choices determine what DNA switches on and off through out our lives! The question becomes for me “what more can I switch on inside my genetic code through my choices?”

Fear as a defining character trait…do we really want this?

Whether you know it or not your fear becomes a defining character trait. As horrible a wake up call can be I truly learned how true this is.

In my discussions with clients and friends over the years, and my own personal inner reflections, I have observed how it is we actually defend our fears when exposed, or confronted. This defense is part of an inner dynamic within us that we use to logically suspend ourselves because of our resistance to change. And that resistance to change is actually our resistance to process because of our discomfort.

Our resistance to process our fears has an element of  terror and as such holds us back from our purest selves… the core spirituality that is us on the deepest levels of our being. These postures are held in check by the smaller parts of ourselves…. our ego’s!

As humans we live in so many agreements that have been put into place when we are in our earlier egoic developments. We grow up unaware that we do not see the greater value in a more mature self honesty. A self-honesty that pierces through the illusions, logical fears, and limiting beliefs we have learned to be complacent to or comfortable within ourselves. Thus we become shaped by these fears as people. As groups, and as nations and finally as a species!

Whenever I catch myself defending my fear… I say good. It is a really good thing to notice. Because there is unconscious thinking inside those defenses. I want to get to those things. In my past when I stayed in denial, my relationships would point out the hidden things inside my defenses and I would become even more defensive, distant, and combative. This is a common occurrence with loved ones, family members and people who know us. They see what we do not about ourselves. I have learned to observe and listen to myself better. This cut down on many outer problems my own unconsciousness was causing.

Our many masks. Why the masks we wear need defining.

These fear based character developments masquerade in our lives as all kinds of things they really are not.

They become entrenched in our sense of personal self, our ego structures and lead to what I call… ego take overs. ( see previous writing on the topic of Ego Takeovers)

Ego take overs take over many of the other components of our character and dominate our personalities. Thus we have all the power issues in the world manifesting now. Clashes of power,

power take overs,

stealing of power,

power mongering,

power plays.

Loss of power…

The political, social climates of our world are virtually filled with these situations. We can learn to observe the many faces in the world society of these ego driven forces and learn to refocus on our own sovereignty by learning to do what is called “inner work” . This inner work acts as a buffer and stops the resonate field of attraction which generates more of the same. We have the choice to detoxify our selves. Much of what is arising now is very toxic. Providing a perfect setting for clearing and much-needed healing. Learning to face the masks we all wear and discover the greater self underneath!

It is interesting to me how this happens so naturally in humans. When we are invested in fear, we masquerade it as something else. This is so common in my experience that I have learned to tread lightly in the therapeutic setting with clients. (And I have found myself doing the exact same things) I find myself gob smacked whenever I encounter myself in a masquerade, as I usually did not even realize I was acting out some kind of role, instead of expressing myself authentically.

Social agreements that support fear

Simply watching what is reported as news each day reveals to me the tremendous amount of social agreements we invest into that support fear and how easily people will believe the masks so many wear.

Fear that we actually create and perpetrate by socially allowing ourselves to emotionally invest into these dramas. I watch as politics are used to sway people and hold them in fear. I watch as religion leaders use fear to sway people and hold them in fear.

I watch as scientists group together and promote their versions of reality and this sways people and holds them in fear, disconnected from the broader real reality of the cosmos.

I watch as business such as pharmacology perpetrate fear that hold people outside the greater truth of their bodies and our inner capacity to heal ourselves.

Sport

While sport has many valuable sides to it like personal development, learning about the human body, camaraderie, goal setting along with achievement on an individual level.

I question some of the elements of organized sports and look into the darker side of what we have created on a social basis.

I watch as sport enthusiasts use sports to drive their own egotistical agendas, make money, and promote the use of sport as a well-meaning, healthy human character trait. Yet I ask myself how healthy is it when someone always must lose?  ( perpetrating “either/or ” binary style of thinking.) The perpetration that competition is always healthy  can and does become over emphasized and dominates our societal agreements leading us into many habitual forms of behavior and becomes a lingering subconscious strategy to maintain  masses of people in mindsets of subjugation and conflict .

Subjugation as in agreements that support  human values of superiority, dominance, win/lose strategies, control, over powering, and so on… all in good fun? Yea right! Not actually, these strategies, these habits hold humans in forms of thinking of limitation outside the grander spectrum of human capability and cause patterns of repeating over and over again.. I find it crazy. These styles of thinking overlap into other areas of life with much consequence to our relationships.

The themes of dominance, over powering, and profiting that flow over into business, personal relationships, and basic human living do not embrace the large spectrum of universal spiritual values necessary to generate a world where everyone, and everything is evenly distributed. The huge imbalance of human resources, time, energy, and planetary goods remains constant. As a species we do not always see how our very thoughts and feelings overlap to each other, and across the world. Our thinking is what charges these situations with energy and so this is where it goes.

Group fear and petty tyrants, ego take overs, and control maniacs

Whole nations, global religious organizations, large segments of populations all over the world are living in group fears of all kinds. Loss of services  and resources, proliferation of war, lack of food, political oppression, political control agendas, domination, stifling of creativity. It is obvious to me that this is greatly out of balance, is not working, has not worked for generations. I refuse to invest my own personal energy into any forms of ego based policies, take overs, or agendas being fed to us under the many masks of good will. The un-balancing of human resources alone, the perpetual states of conflict, and the sheer levels of human poverty do not express the real values of spiritual wellness.

Petty tyrants that run banks, run businesses, run local governments, run their military all exert influences that seek control of some kind at us. The proportion of our world society that is held in some form of bondage, or subjugation and control is overwhelming. The few that exert dominance, conflict and control on the many is staggering. Money alone as a system on this planet serves the few while making workers out of the many. The levels of corruption, lies, deceit, and misuse that are coming to light now reveal the larger aspect of how money has been used for centuries to exert a “worker-force” of humans to supply the few. It is abhorrent to me how we have learned to accept this as normal. As a spiritual being I find myself pulling out of and away from any and all of the societal agreements we have around the value of money in this way. My personal value in life has nothing to do with how much or how little I have. This situation has undermined the basic spiritual value of an entire species of spiritual beings on this planet for thousands of years. I wonder how long it will continue! This is simply pure distortion!

Our group consensus to perpetrate fear under the guise of heroism, good will, with overt and covert tyrannical systems is like a virus in our human species. One for example is warring. That our government has perpetrated some form of war for 200 hundred years shows me that someone is adamant about making money, having control, dominating others, thwarting resources and really doesn’t care very much about the common man and woman, and child.

The amount of resources used in perpetrating war machinery  overrides every other aspect of our social and group well-being. At the expense of all of us, this planet, and the animals! Those behind the scenes of this are what I call control maniacs.

They represent themselves as just the opposite and want us to believe it. I do not. I refuse to accept that war, dominance, and submission are character traits that I want to live by. I refuse to buy into the many political agendas that perpetrate war, rather  I look at the real causes of oppression, suppression, and the unbalanced proportion of goods all over the world. Power issues are only the tip of the iceberg.

People need basic materials to have a happy, enriched environment with which to create life. How these factions of war mongering continue to fracture, break up, and pit one people against another is truly an ego maniac dream come true, filled with psychopathic leaders and their ego take over completely selfish agendas!

When oppressive societies rise up and individuals begin to feel their sense of true sovereignty.

I find it fascinating how forces of government, political leaders, religious leaders and teachers will exert power over whole groups of people anytime they attempt to exert real personal choice, personal sovereignty! I am not so certain that all the people who participate in carrying out these things actually realize what they are doing. Their own unconsciousness is often something they do not realize, as they would not truly do to other humans what they are doing to them? Would they if they were not brain washed, and driven by their own subconscious programming?

I mean, what the heck are those guys up in the sky thinking when they fill the sky with chem-trails? They are not, they are not thinking. There is a disconnect!

There is tremendous unconsciousness here, and yet this is a good example of how people are controlled through fear and do not even know they are! How many people just want to keep the bread on the table?  My sense is the majority of people perpetrating these actions would not do it were they connected, and self realized as spiritual beings having this human experience. There is a huge degree of human brainwashing and hypnosis in all this negative behavior.

Real fear as a warning, discernment about all our fears. Know the difference!

When fear is a signal of distress, danger, and there is a need for real action to address this, fear is a discernment we all must learn to make. We have to and must pay attention!There is real fear and there is false fear!

Fears that are self-generated, or inherited, or educated into us without real basis are some of the kinds of discernment up for re deciding. Safety and harmony are maintained when we take care of the dangerous aspects of life. I am in no way thinking that we must eliminate, ignore, or disengage with fear. Simply put I want to define it and reveal the actual causes of it in myself and then make appropriate choices. How real is what I am fearful, though my feelings are real, it is a discernment to realize. So much of what we think we need to be afraid of is not that at all.

Family fear and how we perpetrate these fears. Our starting points in life.

Unconscious programming is passed thru us via our behaviors and experiences within our families. Each family has a different perspective it is living out with themes, patterns, and directions. Our soul choice to incarnate into the particular family we are born into has much to do with these things. Frequently we come into these families as starting points for our need to learn as spiritual beings, and then we will transcend those conditions. By willingly going along with family patterns of fear based beliefs we perpetrate them to the next generations. My own experience of this is dramatic. There was a time when I pulled away from my birth family as the most loving thing I could possibly do for myself and there were those who insisted I was doing the exact opposite. It took years for some of them to realize the loving choices I made to disengage from family dynamics that I felt were toxic.

Family carries stories. Our stories carry our family based fears and we pass these along to our children and they pass them on to theirs whenever we allow ourselves to submit and perpetrate these histories. We do this as a kind of family character trait and act as if it is all normal. I choose to catch myself doing this as much as I can and to regroup, reevaluate, and re-decide at any time I need to. And our genes hold these stories and bring up inside us all the emotional patterns of our birth families. By way of conscious knowledge and better choices once we realize what our emotional patterning is we may, we can change this. This will switch on and off different genetic messages within us. Redirecting our future possibilities. We all have observed family members sharing the same emotional genetic patterning choosing differently and then having different outcomes because of how they choose to deal with these patterns.

Fear mongering

Fear mongering is the deliberate act of causing, exaggerating and repeating harm using fear based tactics to achieve control. Using fear to persuade people through their vulnerabilities and cause splits, divisions and chaos. This fear mongering engages us the more we are out of touch with our own inner sense of self. Otherwise this will distract. Fear mongering as a distraction tactic is widely used to actively engage in covert activities all over the world. Much of the contents of our daily news is filled with this kind of fear tactic. Driving the attention of billions of people away from their inner sense of authentic attention to what is real and focusing them on danger. It is a basic, primal feeling that has all of us to paying attention to danger and not going inside to our hearts for solutions. Fear mongering using this innate sense to manipulate and control while redirecting our attention to what may actually be happening. This is an effective method to use in order to dissuade real connection and inner self-awareness in humans. Many individuals are participants in this method and do not realize it. Not only are there serious political activities like this there are marketing ones too. The use of fear mongering in religious doctrines alone control billions of people without them having a clue.

Fear hidden in religious doctrines, dogmas, and how we learn to submit

Threats about the after life that cause harm and submission! If you do this then you will go to hell. If you do that you will go into a bottomless pit for eternity, if you express yourself in any way not keeping with the dogmas and doctrines of many religious teachings you are told you will have to suffer and burn in hell.

This is a distortion of the truth.

I know because I have visited the hell’s associated with this world with my spiritual guides in my own out-of-body experiences. I learned how we ourselves create hell. God does not do this to us. Nor was there a hell created for this purpose. The hell and damnation taught by religious doctrines and dogmas has been perpetrated as a fear mongering method to control people. This is a twisted version of the actual reality.

What I learned was that there is a natural law of the cosmos called action and reaction. This action/reaction causes us to experience the effects of our own negative actions as a means of learning something. Thus it is true that what we put out comes back. We are the source, on some level of whatever we experience. Everything returns to source and that includes source within each one of us!

The hell’s I visited developed out of the accumulations of millions of thoughts of people stuck in negative scenarios after they left their bodies at the moments of death. This caused a widening in the field of this planet that is called the astral realm. I saw, felt, and witnessed the horrible and very sad states of individuals in these places. Places that feel just as real as here once you are in them. But one very valuable aspect of this experience that I observed many times was how the consciousness of the person shifted in these hell’s. Once there became an opening out of the despondent hopeless nature, and self punishing, twisted sense of self, release happened.

This release would manifest according to the belief system of the person in the hellish bondage. If they were Christian… then an angel, or Jesus would extend a holy light to them and pull them out. If their belief system was directly connected to their core spiritual nature, their own inner light would pull them out. We call this redemption. It is a kind of resurrection of the individual. I watched as they rose out of the planes of suffering into more planes of harmonious light. As I watched this I could feel the nature of the darkened planes as those of self-created miseries. It was an obvious thing to see there. I also experienced my own aspect deep within a hell of this kind and the awful state of despair and powerlessness. I also experienced the uplifting release and transformation of that aspect of me. It is an experience never to be forgotten, as the return to true spiritual self is beyond words in description…. it is ecstatic and joyful!

The same experiences hold true for us on this plane. Not as extreme here on Earth, as when you leave your body and completely immerse yourself in a hell. But the dynamics of the miseries, the suffering, the pain that we unconsciously generate stay with us until we learn to shift. And shift into a better state. Probably just about every human alive has at one time or another descended into their own living hell on earth. And then rose out of it. Coming out of our own hell’s, when we finally make it out we bring with us tremendous new awareness’s. We integrate new compassion’s, new love, new understandings. It is an amazing experience. We have our descents and our ascents through our fears. We need to notice how this works and direct ourselves appropriately with understanding about how nature really functions. I have replaced my old beliefs in religious doctrines and dogmas of hell and damnation, pain and suffering with my experiences of how it really works.

Love is the dominant, prevailing, and omnipresent force not damnation and hell.

Most of the people who perpetrate these doctrines do so out of their belief in them, not their personal soul experience. If they were truly connected to the indwelling soul self they would not subject others to this method what so ever. Loving accountability, action and reaction and truthful telling of how the spiritual nature of the cosmos would be the teaching. Many pure little children have been subjected to these teachings at times when they themselves were at their purest and most vulnerable places in life. These teachings go deep into the psyche and then go underground into the subconscious mind as adults.

I worked with this particular issue of religious programming as a therapist. Working with people who had chronic sickness. Working with people who had deep complicated issues that traditional therapy was not reaching. In my hypnotherapy practice I studied and practiced religious deprogramming techniques designed specifically to address the issues I mentioned above. I was astonished to observe in clients the highly charged, emotionally based fear doctrines taught to them as children. Internalized so completely as a result of continuous repetition by well-meaning care givers. Internalized so deeply that these teachings replaced the actual inner voice of the adult. The result was an inability to authentically express their deeper unsettling emotions. The locks inside the psyche that went into place that prevented these adults from access to their genuine anger, sadness, fear and intrinsic inner truth along with  countless other emotions was riveting.

Pointing out the falseness of these teaching while accessing the authentic emotions underneath them accessed much-needed inner power and resolve to tackle the real problems associated with chronic sickness and debilitating mental and emotional states. The unresolved emotional landscapes underneath the physical symptoms.  I watched as client after client went into remission or passed beyond the horrendous difficulty in their therapeutic process. The transformations were miraculous. Once a person regains authentic inner connection to real feelings, and develops the awareness of discernment and learns to articulate and express genuine feelings the entire physical body responds in kind.The mental landscape of the individual clears out ! And a whole new level of homeostasis develops. A completely empowered and authentic spiritual nature moves in to replace the false, toxic belief system and the person is restored!This is a sight to see with your own eyes as the transformation is magnificent, truly magnificent!

Submitting and suppressing our most precious pure selves. The loss of true identity!

What we lose sight of by investing into fear based thinking is our most precious pure self. That is that in us that is below the surface of everything in the core. The core self. When we allow fear to guide our actions we lose the natural effectiveness of our precious pure self and that fear based thinking reshape all our actions and shifts the outcomes and directions of our lives.

To return to our most pure self is a beautiful and powerful experience where we become congruent inside us. We stop splitting ourselves up and conflicts become resolved more effectively, more naturally, more rapidly.

Loss of spiritual integrity, soul integrity, and connection with all of life

When we lose our inner connections in these ways we allow ourselves to make choices out of fear alone we lose sight of the natural spiritual integrity inherent in any situation. The fear masks many details of authentic  spirituality and as such twists and distorts authentic experiences of that which is spiritual. Our soul integrity is held at a distance while our ego based thinking engaged in fear directs our lives.

This cuts up the true interconnection we all have with one another and with life. And for this reason we prevent ourselves from seeing the larger picture. There is some fear controlling a person whenever there is a loss of connection to this large aspect of life. Distance from soul self generates feelings of powerlessness, loss, loneliness, and separation. Anxiety takes the place of our true loving spiritual presence. Repeating levels of anxiety of this kind can signal the need to question what it is we are afraid of and why. Tensions that do not resolve themselves take the place of authentic inner calm.

How fear limits attention, limits awareness, and takes away from creativity

Unconscious fears limit our capacity to pay attention to deeper more significant information that is available to any of us. Fear limits our awareness by dumbing down our awareness and limiting it . Differences are difficult to accept and this undermines our creativity. Without creativity we are doomed to repeat and repeat our life situations generating cycles of frustration and powerlessness. For this reason intentionally facing what holds us back is very important. We have the capacity to unlock all of our conundrums through the choices we make to step out of our fears and work towards dismantling their limiting effects.

We hide from fear, fear notions are designed to hide from us
We avoid fear…. no… we actually hide from it. And likewise our fears seem to hide from us. It is a great cat and mouse game humans play. This hiding from our fears cause set backs and repeating situations to occur over and over again. Cycles of repetition become the norm. A powerful spiritual message surfacing in the masses today is STOP HIDING! It is not necessary to hide your true self, your real emotions, and your deepest longings. Reveal to yourself! Let yourself come undone, or be undone. It is your choice how painful this will be. Whenever I notice a part of myself hiding I bring in love. Fear parts of ourselves cower in darkness, and misunderstanding. Inner conflicts are the results as these parts hold back the natural creative depth of our true inner selves. Loving oneself at this point is a mandatory step. Millions of people are now learning all over again how to love themselves and each other. We are learning to let love in, to let love guide, to let love have its way with us. This is a truly transformational thing to realize. Going through it feels miraculous and amazing. Where it is leading is unknown.

How in charge can you be when you are submitting to fear?

Not too much, though it may appear like it temporarily. Petty tyrants are the best example of this one. I have had my share of them. And I always learn to much. The thing is petty tyrants remain in the conditional states of their own fear based agendas, while those who finally get away, or out from them actually move forward in the life. Without the fear! This has been a liberating experience for me to observe and grateful I have been many times after releasing myself from these controls.

How loving can you be when you are submitting to fear?

Not to your full potential that is for sure. Love has a powerful way in life. Love, real love will usually teach us, lift us, release us from the limiting conditions of our previously self-created fear and transforms. How life looks to you may signal the real truth of your love. I always check this with myself. Am I free? If not I know that I have a way to go in the love departments. Without true inner freedoms my love is still conditional and controlled.

Splitting the human into pieces and how this detracts from our greater experience of  truth

Loaded subconscious thoughts and feelings that overtake our lives is what this looks like. The more unconscious material I can make conscious the better. There is a timing to this which protects the personality so that we do not become completely over taken by the subconscious. However much of our lives is still being governed by it. These splits are manifested outwardly in the splits we see around us in our humanity. The splitting, division of our species now undermines our collective experience of having truth as a whole planetary body. Imagine how it will be when the entire species has reached that quantum level. How differently the whole world would be. For this reason I do my part, with myself. I cannot do yours. We each have our own part in this unfolding process of life.

Committing to healing our fear consciously by choosing not to let it suppress you

The result of facing fear in myself has developed a commitment. A commitment to not suppress. This shifted all my relationships and was at that turning point a huge pivoting of my life expression. Choosing not to suppress myself required a whole new set of boundaries in all my relationships. These new boundaries moved people around in my life. Move me around as I found myself attracted to or repelled in new ways. I learned to take in much consideration to those closest to me so as to not be offensive. And to allow more time and space for them to process how it is I was choosing to be. The most significant thing though has been how many new people came into my life. These new people had different expectations, different boundaries, and were focused in more mutuality.

The breaking of hypnosis in the human collective

The dismantling of the false layers of self, the false beliefs, the false social agreements, the false ideas associated with so many aspects of our humanity are revelatory. I am less of a follower of others. Yet I am in good company. With more people following their inner soul voices, there is a remarkable stability among-st the chaos. There is a bonding, and understanding. There is a mutual recognition, and willingness.

The returning to Source

All returns to source. This is life. This is reality. This is how the cosmos runs. This is in effect here on this planet. What returns to source can be transformed, transcended, and completely transmuted. We simply need to remember that each person here is a point in Source! And that everything in everyone is returning to that source point, the source we share. The great paradox to get over is: we are one, we are many. Source within each of us is having this experience.

The direct experience of Source is Unmistakable. I could write a chapter on this alone. i have had the experiences of Source within me and i have traveled so far beyond the known universe into the the great cosmic sun,  the source for our own galaxy, our own universe. The love that this source has is beyond description, beyond words, beyond even holding so great a love it is! It fuels whole universes that to my observation was beyond comprehension.  For now I will say that the best experience of facing what holds me back, the fears is the experiences of the source-field, the amazing brilliant intelligence and love that is source. Within and outwardly, this is truly an amazing experience of living life as a spiritual being having a human experience. The fulfillment of all things, knowledge restored, and connection enhanced. The full circle moments, and the endless opportunities to get it right. It is all worth it. Every single bit!

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EGO Take-overs !…, Our Life Shifts Possible From Ego Awareness? … Core Spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

EGO Take-overs !…, Our Life Shifts Possible From Ego Awareness? … Core Spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Help!!!!!!! My own ego has taken me over and I can’t get up!

Conflicts, pain, suffering, confusions, and misunderstandings mixed with power issues. This is terrible! How frequently does my own ego jump in and take over me? And how covert is this anyway? Do other people’s egos over power you? Not only in the general public but also within the spiritual community.

Ego awareness is a tremendous form of self-awareness that opens us to our most valuable inner qualities. Looking into what and how our ego’s take hold and identifying behaviors can be an unnerving yet a most amazing way to get to our deepest authentic self. I decided to write down some of my own ego places and what I have learned by applying self honesty and getting to know my ego.

First of all I want to start by saying the ego is not bad, does not need to killed, erased or eliminated. The ego needs to learn… and to learn how to fit in with rest of the self. The path of the ego is the path of balancing the self in human form. There is nothing wrong with it until you become too uncomfortable, and then it is time to grow. It is the growth of consciousness within us and the balance we learn by applying self-awareness. Particularly ego awareness! That juxtaposes our egos into the best position within us to navigate our lives!

What is the ego?

The ego is that part of our consciousness that develops as singularity of self inside our consciousness and thus is the beginning of the development of our self-identity, self awareness and personal sense of individuality. The ego learns how to get by in the world, and typically sees itself as separate from everyone and everything.

The ego is a starting point for us and need not be the end point of our lives. We are all born into a spectrum of acting out as babies, little egos in the world discovering life.

In the beginning an ego thinks it is the sum total of ourselves… it thinks it is THE SELF! The ego learns to define life from its particular individualized point of view and is a valuable aspect of our human development, yet it is only one aspect of ourselves. I know I am in my ego state when I am seeing life as separate, am convinced in supporting opposing points of view that perpetrate power over others, with more separation scenarios and I am supporting more points of view that perpetrate unnecessary fear, and when I am caught in the act of diminishing others.

We all have had our journeys through our ego’s, and the ego’s of other people… parents, siblings, teachers, those in authority, politicians, scientists, specialists, pastors, religious leaders, leaders of all kinds. This planet is virtually overwhelmed with egotistical voices of authority, dominance, and suppression of true and valuable internal knowledge. Learning to navigate this world of the earthly based human ego is no small feat, they are everywhere in every aspect of our lives. One method of learning true navigation in this ego-based world society is to get to know your own ego.

Below I decided to share some of the incredible ego states I discovered in myself and that I have been learning to work through all my life. I love my ego. Much of it formed its opinions when I was unaware. And because I wasn’t paying attention at that time my ego states grew to ridiculous and many times problematic proportions. As I began to wake up and notice, it wasn’t you who was wreaking havoc with my life, it was my own ego I began to get to understand and know my ego.

Below are just some of the amazing ego take overs I have experienced that may trigger you to get to know your ego self. By loving and appreciating my ego and learning to forgive myself for my own lack of observation in this regard I am learning to re-balance myself with respect for and to my ego self. So here goes, here are some of my ego dilemmas.

I know I am in my ego when I see life as competition and allow myself to feel less than blessed in any situation or any moment.

I know I am in my ego when I am driven to fill myself up, out of a sense of emptiness. When I am eating out of emptiness, when I am compulsively seeking stimulation of any kind. I know I have left the grips of my ego when I return to wholeness, and I nurture my well being.

I know I am in the grips of my ego when I am looking outwards for my sense of right-ness, I have left my ego when I look inwards. My answers come from within me!

I know I am in my ego when I am stuck in any form of lack.

When I have bought into a reality of lack I lose my grounding. I know I have released the grip of my ego when I return to abundance. When I allow myself to rest within the greater truth that there is plenty, and plenty for all. Losing sight of abundance in any way signals me to get a grip. I choose not to perpetrate the ideas in the world which say there is not enough for everyone. That is simply a strange yet true form of ego takeover .

I know I am stuck in ego when I seek wisdom outside me, I know I have returned to my authentic self when I seek, wait, find, wisdom within myself. I cultivate and develop my ability to be wise. Wisdom discovered as a personal experience always replaces that which was from outside us.

I know I am in my ego state when I am in fear of endings, and my own mortality.

When I let go of this fear I go to my own internal space of the eternal. The eternal within me nourishes me and realign my attention towards truthfulness. I eliminate my outer emotional investments in false teachings, doctrines, and agreements that profess anything other than the actual truth, that our nature is eternal.

I know I am stuck in my ego when I am stuck on me.

When I am possessed by my own thoughts, feelings, situation, and positions to the exclusion of others. I know I have passed out of this when I get to we. Replacing me with we always shifts any difficult personal situation and reveals information that was withheld to our awareness because of the selfish nature we were investing ourselves!

I know I am stuck in ego when I cause pain to myself and others as a solution to me.

When I release myself from the grips of my own ego I cause healing. I always shift the equations from me to we and then I realize my own participation and power to truly heal. Healing takes many forms and simply implies wholeness. Anytime I can grab hold of another piece of my puzzle that contributes to being whole I am better off.

I know I am in my ego when I am driven to have outward recognition.

I have left that place when I seek my own inner authority. Inner authenticity is the expression that replaces any forms of compulsive outward recognition.

I know I am a victim of my circumstances and I feel how my ego causes me to be separate, less than, and diminished.

I leave this place when I return to my inner realization that I create my own reality. I shift my perceptions and return to my own resources within. My circumstances are my growing places and I do not intend to stay a victim in these places…. I can always learn something that will add to my spiritual awareness and thus support me in transforming, and transcending a situation.

I know I am in my ego when I fear the temporary nature of life.

When I let go of my ego I find I feel how awesome life can be, that it is constantly changing and that situations are temporary. When I am out of the grips of my ego I recognize a bigger picture unfolding and the greater realization that is unfolding for me to learn all about. I am grateful for the unlimited expression of the temporal nature of life.

I know I am stuck in my ego when I only see and feel how complicated things are.

I feel overwhelmed and victimized. When I let go of the grip of my ego mind I recognize the parts, I see how things fit together, I open myself to learning more. I learn to dismantle my overwhelms and I recognize patterns emerging for me to learn about. Simplicity replaces complication. Simplicity becomes my new theme.

I know that I am in an egotistical place when I I think I am more spiritual, or you are more spiritual than me.

When I think that what I am doing is more spiritual, and I notice the unconscious levels of superiority within me I am surely in an ego take over.. I know when I am getting into self-righteousness and superiority I am deep in my ego separations. I know I have released the pain this causes and the friction it generates when I return to the place of authentic spirituality and I recognize how spirit in all of us is unlimited in expression. I know that everything, and all actions are sourced from a spiritual domain. We are all on equal grounding as humans and our capacity to express our own spiritual directions has many colors, shapes and sizes. I see myself in you and my heart opens with loving attention and willingness to share. Unity replaces separation, and oneness replaces superiority.

I know I am in the grips of my ego when I am hard-hearted.

I let go of my strictness, my fixed-ness and I find compassion. When I return to compassion I allow myself to melt my own ego hardness. At any time I alow myself permission to change, and then to share this with those whom I have held my hard-heartedness.

I know I am in my ego when I get impatient and cause more negativity.

I let go my impatience and find remarkable new levels of patience inwardly. I move with patience and this informs me in totally new ways that assist the unfolding of whatever is going on. Slowing down enable me to be more capable of the details. Details I was missing when I was impatient.

I know I am in my ego grips when I am indifferent, and lackadaisical.

When I lose sight of and interest in the unfolding of circumstances around me and in the world. I let go of my egotistical grips and find myself happy and open-minded to pay attention and remain open. I seek to learn and understand where I refused to care. Caring replaces complacency.

I know I am in my ego when I allow my own mind to generate unrealistic fear about anything. Allowing myself to engage in fear based group mind thinking that is fear mongering, fear making, and fear based limits my authentic self-expression and connections to others, to differences and to opposing points of view. I know I have released my ego based hypnotized self when I begin to experience inner courage, strength, and genuine power. I see how fear is a stepping stone toward greater self-expression, and the possibility for developing group awareness. I see the problems, conflicts and have empathy arise within me to replace the frozen, limiting, hard perceptions that fear cause in my own human conditions.

Hostility is a sure sign I am in my ego self, and when I release this I learn to process the layers of my own feelings and thoughts in a way that reveal my true friendliness and willingness to cooperate. I learn to pay attention to issues that arise and I take care of what needs to be addressed. I refuse to allow myself to participate in social movements that perpetrate these hostilities.

I know that my ego has overtaken me when I am stuck in past and future life scenarios.

Unable to be present the endless playing of story lines, old conversations, and hurtful past experiences dominate my inner world. I can’t reach the future, yet it is the only place I want to escape. As I relinquish this ego trap I return to the “NOW” moment. I become capable of managing whatever arises because I am present for it.

Complaining all the time, is how I feel when I am stuck in ego states.

Instead of complaining I return to gratitude. When I shift into gratitude I release the endless negativity of relentless complaining and I feel a sense of acceptance with life that shows me how to transcend, and use my circumstances to grow.

War…. warring with others as a way of life or pattern of constantly battling is a sure sign I am in the grips of some egotistical state of my own creation.

Including national and international group notions of continual war. I know I am leaving the painful grips of my ego when I accept the possibility that peace is possible and I choose peace as a way to solve conflict. No matter how long it takes, or how it looks. Peace is the choice that replaces war, and restores the core spirituality, or soulful aspect into my life.

I peacefully engage my awareness to the problems of war and my own inner battles.

I shift my energy from outward to inward and I refresh my own attention to my inner battles.

I resolve my inner wars and restore my inner peace as a solution to the outer wars on this planet.

Peace is possible.

Intolerance is the uncomfortable act of ego grip that strangles the soul in the human form.

Whenever I recognize my own intolerance I shift into tolerance. I see my own limited self, my own limiting perceptions and I pull away from any and all forms of externally based intolerance. I stop the flow of this group mind behavior in myself. As I cultivate tolerance within me I contribute in the world in much more meaningful ways and I find connections with others for which there had been none. I learn to bring tolerance to my own difficulties and I love what process I am going through.

Self importance at the expense of others is a horrible ego state that isolates and generates many negative human relationship problems.

Whenever I let go of my own self importance in this way I shift my energy and attention to We importance. Lessening the weight of the self brings equality, equanimity and lightness of being. We not me has become a new mantra!

Self denial is the uncomfortable act of not getting my authentic needs met.

I know I am in the grips of some kind of ego takeover when I am in self denials. The uncomfortable outcomes that arise from self-denial cause all manner of toxic life interactions. Human relationships, relationship to the divine in life are all inhibited and thwarted by my self-denial. Unhappiness, suffering and pain are the usual outcomes. When I let go of the egotistical notion of self-denial I open myself to the genuine possibility and the actualization of my own authentic sovereignty. I become more of an honest expression of my soul in human form, and I tend to life with others in a realistic and meaningful way.

Blaming and shaming others for how I am, how I feel, and my circumstances in life.

This is the uncomfortable short sided perception coming from my own ego based thinking. This generates endless cycles of victimization and diminished self-love. When I find myself insisting on blaming and shaming others I know I am in some kind of ego takeover.

When I get others to side with me I only increase my own ego gratifications and perpetrate ego states in others.

When I release this toxic behavior I shift into accountability.

When I choose my own accountability in any blame and shame situation the entire dynamic transforms for me, regardless of the actions of others. There is no greater inner power in a situation where there is blame and shame being tossed about.

Accountability protects and restores internal integrity where it was given away through the unconscious action of egotistical blame and shame. I refuse to participate in the group agreements where this is being hurled across the planet. I replace all forms of blame and shame with my own internal personal accountability.

Power over others, however covert and sublime, and tricky this may be this is a sure sign I have engaged my own egotistical self-centered selfish self.

While this may be a temporary feel good solution to a problem it never lasts. It cannot be sustained except through perpetrating over and over again ones position and can be made more significant by engaging others to support this negative egotistical position. Power over others multiplied by social agreements creates more of the unsolved problems that dis-empower others and generates cycles of abuse, victimization, and unending cycles of repeating human relationship issues. By participating in group agreements in this way I cause my own problems in the world and never get to the core issues or solutions. When I can get myself out of the grips of this ego takeover state I find humility. Humility restores equanimity and fairness. Humility keeps me in my own place and prevents me from overstepping boundaries of others, demonizing those with differences. And opens me to new levels of perception that lead to brand new solutions. Without humility these solutions to life relationships and situations remain obscured. We cannot and will not and do not see the possibilities that are potent in our life situations when we are in our ego takeovers filled with power over others. Read those last tow sentences again they are treasures.

I know I am in my ego when I find myself over micromanaging, dis-empowering others, and over demanding control over others.

When organization stumbles and falls apart. Over managing situations is frustrating and generates more and more negative outcomes. When I let go of my egotistical ideas for control I find the value I missed in others. The value of our interrelation increases and I stabilize my own resources for accomplishing the tasks at hand. I affirm the power and capability of others and their our freedom to choose.

Global Ego Take-overs

Currently on our planet there are a multitude of themes in banking, economics, business, religion, politics, military, science, education, socialization of whole groups, to name a few… all running some person’s ego takeover of the world. It is truly astonishing to recognize. This is being brought out into our awareness with painful insight, dangerous revelations, and waves of data drops. The times are such that we are able now to see our own global take-overs. Without a certain level of integrity to address these issues one can surely turn into a victim. Victimization on a mass level is being revealed and it is horrific. On the other hand it is enlightening. It is enlightening in that we can now address the real sources of our human problems. We can address them most powerfully and with utmost potency by way of our own choices to address and tend to our own ego based emotional investments, our own ego based ideas, and our own ego driven actions. Without our own individual ego re-educations we are doomed to more and more victimization. All of which stops whenever we clean up, tend to, take care of our own crazy ego’s!

It is not possible for another ego to take you over when you stop giving over your personal power to these situations. I am stopping giving away my resources, personal emotions, thoughts and ideas to egotistical people, groups, or movements.

By taking into accountability my own ego, the damaging effects stop.

How to realize personal power requires the honest self reflection, processing, and decision-making to either continue to invest emotions and thoughts and actions into ego based scenarios or not to invest.

This is a personal decision-making process that millions of people are making at this time in our world. We are collectively waking up and learning to choose differently.

Our collective human species is not in agreement in the deepest core place with all these ego take-overs. Our collective human species is… one person at a time… choosing differently. And the Hundredth monkey effect is happening as more and more people are suddenly deciding not to participate in small ego based, self-centered, ridiculous life situations.

The larger more capable aspect of our species which lies beyond mere egocentric life decisions is growing. What this looks like is the return to earth, or to physicality of spirit. The spiritual being having a human experience. This is core spirituality!

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Turning Points, What are they? And Why?, Core Spirituality, my personal journey

Turning Points, What are they? And Why?, Core Spirituality, my personal journey

Turning points are the accumulations of experiences we have which gain momentum and propel us into new information. Our thoughts and feelings drive us toward action. These thoughts and feelings have substance, and as such they have momentum. The growing momentum in our thoughts and feelings develop fullness. This fullness carries power. The power of our momentum drives us forward or backward as each experience unfolds. When we develop a sense of complete fullness we pass through turning points.

This occurs whether this is totally private and inward and moves us seemingly without outer consequence, yet it is the very weight of our internal choices, dwellings upon, that will cause events in our externalized life to become triggered. Externally we can easily see how actions we take bring forth outcomes that cause us to turn.

Turning points as crisis

crisis is the turning point in our lives. As the nature of crisis being upsetting to the existing conditions and the facing off of opposing or highly charged differing points of view. I have learned to embrace crisis for the real significance it carries…. we have arrived at a turning point. Whenever we allow ourselves to be frozen, overwhelmed, over taken, and upset by the drama within the crisis we undergo a kind of metamorphosis. Things begin to change shape. To become stuck in this aspect of the dynamic of a turning point can prolong suffering, and hold off the changes about to occur. I watch as people stay stuck in dramas of all kinds without moving on and thus with hold the power of meeting up to their turning points in life and the upcoming new possibilities yet to show themselves. This is particularly true in our relationships. Work dynamics, and states of personal evolution. Thus to take on the notion that crisis is actually a turning point for our own development is a wise choice to make. And then to open to learn what this all means as it unfolds.

Humanity is within such a time as a species and as individuals. Huge groupings of people are sharing in the experiences of great turning points in life, without realizing this all that is left is the drama, and drama alone is not enough to stabilize the conditions that arise in these crisis’. Darker forces of unloving unconscious people hook in and can take advantage of these very vulnerable zones. When we see how unconsciousness plays a part in suffering in this way we can take back our selves by learning to let the drama of crisis move us forward and see where it leads. Refusing to be taken advantage of at this time is crucial. Yet it continues on the world stage. We need to wake up! Stop investing into the dramas and utilize the momentum of these turning points to develop ourselves, develop awareness, and to put an end to victimization. The experience of crisis is enough on its own for anyone. We can and are healing much of what it means to be human through taking care of our crisis points, our turning points!

Turning points as realizations

the dynamic turn of events in turning points redirect our attention so that we open up to new realizations. These realizations have meaning for each of us. Whether we are an observer or we are dead smack in the middle of a great turning point. Realizations charge our attention with new thoughts and feelings that need to be processed so that important decisions will be made. These decisions that we make are what will catalyze the outer world into the transformation awaiting each of us. Paying attention to our realizations can have tremendous power for each of us as we live out each day. Truthful sharing and recognition of what it is we are realizing is how we as a group, as a species, move all of us along. We are many yet one in this case and what any one of us decides at these turning points affects the group in some way.

Confusions and chaos may signal a new turning point

I like to re frame my notion of confusion and chaos as new information arriving. Not just confusion as we typically have been programmed to hold it. Confusion and chaos is a signal that differing forces are arriving to our awareness that need attention. When confusions hold a lot of charge to them this can be the signal that we have arrived at some kind of turning point. A larger perspective, a bigger turn of events may be about to arrive. Thus holding confusion with diligent awareness to details, and possibility for learning is potent. Often we will discover something new that has escaped our attention, and needs to be addressed. I use my own confusion to untangle, unravel, or decode some elements of thinking, or perception that are not quite in line with a larger picture or truth that is up for me to realize. In this way there is only minimal victimization and maximum awareness.

The wisdom of observing self

The closer we become to developing independent self observations the more capable we are of understanding our turning points. One important component of self observation is learning how to see our mind. See our thoughts, feel our feelings and to step back, disengage from the intensity of merging our entire being into our minds. The intellectual mind is limited. Getting out of your mind can be the healthiest thing to do in many situations. The thinking mind wants to think it is in total control of everything, when reality is… it is not. Self observation acts as a buffer to this overwhelming experience of being over taken by ones thoughts. And provides levity to the overall awareness within us. Self observation can be cultivated passively through various practices of meditation, prayer, and actively while we are going through our day. In this way we can learn to use the mind as a translator for deeper thoughts inside us, deeper realizations that have yet to fit into our outer awareness or thinking. Yet ripe to be developed.

The knowledge that is real inside you

Knowledge that is inside each of us is real. This is a big realization as we shift from the habits of leaning on others to know things. Converting our externally based leaning into internal ones shows us how we are actually receiving knowledge from within. That there have been forces active on this planet for generations now seeking to sway us from this is quite a wake up call. Familial, religious, social, educational, political forces…. to name a few have actively been engaging people to seek knowledge in memorization, rote learning, submission to rules and regulations, doctrines, and dogmas in an attempt to gain power over people. Yet what truly matters and ultimately makes the difference is the realization that knowledge is within.

The power of living off your own energy

The shift in energy we get when we live off of our own interior is dramatic. There is an unlimited source of spiritual power that will charge an individual with energy whenever we make the shift off of depending on, leaning into others for our knowledge. It can be quite draining to follow rules that don’t really feel authentic. It can feel powerless to believe all the knowledge is outside of you, and not within. Thus to begin the process of learning how to live off of your own interior, authentic power will activate new sources of energy that will be very surprising to many. This is a marvelous realization I have come to understand, and often I thought in my mind things are impossible and really they are NOT!

Accessing the power of turning points

The momentum we personally achieve by way of shifting our awareness inward and learning to access our own interior sources of energy and power can fuel turning points. Joining these two forces, inner energy with outer turning points provides the larger more necessary fuel needed to make a break-through. Turning points draw lots of energy as the swirling of all the different forces contained in the conditions require huge strength to pass beyond. When we learn how to access turning points as positive energetic shifts we propel ourselves into much more capability. Capability in ways we are Developing for ourselves and adding to our spiritual knowledge.

maintaining equilibrium through chang

My favorite imagery for maintaining equilibrium through change is a tornado. At an earlier time in my life the course of events that were either in crisis, or in big time swirling around me was so huge my little self did everything just to hold on. Turning points can have huge impact on the personal levels of ourselves and really challenge us, challenge our sanity, and just about every aspect of being human. Thus as I was in a time such as this I found the image of a tornado came to me repeatedly. And I learned to see myself in that tornado. I leaned to see myself moving within it, in the still quiet of the center as it moved all around. I adopted the idea of being still on a moving point. This allowed me to continue in the process of changes occurring while maintaining an internal sense of balance. In time this became a very comfortable place for me.

Allowing what is arising as a choice for personal growth

By allowing I am implying that whatever arises I choose growth as the purpose for it all. Allowing is the act of submitting to the deepest part of myself. The deepest part of myself that holds the knowledge of my true spiritual direction and the unfolding wisdom in the events around me. To allow the deepest part of self to be the secure place to place my attention. In this way I have learned that no matter what… no matter what circumstances I must face, the ultimate outcome is a return to self, a return to greater realization and the deepening of my own authentic spiritual nature. And I have had to face tremendous negative elements in my lifetime… from dark demonic to ultimate betrayal to name a few of those circumstances. Allowing the deep in self to an energetic, interior source of resting, security, and ultimately power. This shifts dynamics all around and literally there has not been one issue with which I have not been able to face and come to a spiritual place with it. The interior choice to hold circumstances as opportunities for personal growth has catapulted the meaning and significance of everyday life into such amazing purpose.

Spiritual development and growth are the why

Spiritual growth is the “why?” we go through what we do. Plain and simple. Whenever I need an answer to a why question regarding my life and I have not received a specific response, I always get the answer is ….for my spiritual growth. This one shift in attitude has completely opened up my awareness into every aspect of human life. Without spiritual growth as the underlying purpose life conditions appear meaningless and in congruent. With it the possibilities are infinite.

Core spirituality within our turning points

Bringing core spirituality to my turning points in life has shown me how I fit into the larger picture unfolding. It has brought significant intuitive understanding, opened me when I was contracting and shutting down, connected seemingly separate situations and shown me how there is a larger picture to my life.

Life without meaning

The obvious alternative is life without meaning. And I have found myself in that place many times. Whenever I have made the choice to stay unconscious. Whether that choice was one I realized I was making or whether I had made it when I was unaware. Life without meaning is boring, frustrating, unhappy, broken and chopped up, and without joy. I have learned that whenever I experience these kinds of things I have looked away from being aware. It is a negative form of learning something very positive. In time I am learning to choose awareness, and this invites meaning.

The significance of learning to recognize the bigger pictures

While staying in an awareness of ego positioning, opposing points of view, conflicts, misunderstandings, prejudices, fixed bias’s keep a person in a little picture, a tiny box of awareness. Where pain and suffering grow. Where manipulations and power struggles are endless. The alternative is to learn to embrace, learn the significance of recognizing the bigger picture in any one situation.

Why we exist without remembering

We exist without remembering all these things as a self made set up… that is looking at it from a spiritual perspective. We temporarily undergo a kind of spiritual amnesia when we are born. We do this because we want to infuse our life circumstances with the absolute greatest possibilities for awakening. Our unconsciousness is only a starting point in any one situation. In reality this unconscious starting point is leading us to all our conscious turning points. Turning points where we do remember what we have forgotten as spiritual beings having a human experience. We remember our innate capabilities through the exploration of human conditions that ignite further knowledge and awareness. There really is such purpose in all things.

Leaving your turning points behind

Once we have encountered our turning points, been swirled around, turned upside down, inside out, and challenged beyond anything we emerge! We learn to leave behind so much human garbage, so much unnecessary drama, so much ridiculous thinking. We leave behind unproductive relationships, we release ourselves from toxic people, toxic life conditions. And we become free to re-create, re-direct, re-explore our lives with an authentic inner awareness of how much more meaningful it has all really been. And we cycle through these zones again and again coming up to new ones through out our entire life journey. This is the journey of soul into human form. This is the core spirituality experience of my life, and yours.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

My Forgotten parts, Recollecting aspects of my soul, core spirituality… my personal journey

My Forgotten parts, Recollecting aspects of my soul,core spirituality… my personal journey

When undergoing the experiences of recollecting parts of our selves that have become out of reach and apart from the potential within us amounts to taking back aspects of our selves involving the heart and all that it has refused to express share and give forth in the world. My heart is designed for loving.

Taking back aspects of our selves involves the mind and all it has refused to admit, to see, to embrace, and to understand, all of which was held outside self. My mind is both fixed and fluid and I need to discover more of it.

The realization that we are much larger, more capable and intrinsically more dimensional than the dumb-ed down versions we have been fed all our lives, the capacity to find answers to mysteries, and the possibility to hold more of our selves inside our physical body is far greater than anyone thought. We are going through this process collectively now.

Where does the power come from?

The soul is more capable as it contains super energies of many many kinds. We are made of that which is of the soul and that being an expression of our source. Our socialization, our educations, our family dynamics, all contain elements of limiting brain washing that stifle the authentic expression of our most real internal selves, or some aspects of our totality. Thus to transcend these limits we need only empty out that which we cling, to become open human beings that can hold a greater vibratory rate of existence. I learned I needed to engage a continual life style of letting go and re-identification as I took on new material. I came to an experience of source both within myself and outside myself that paradoxically revealed to me how tremendous, really the power of soul is.

The common dynamic in the dilemma of physical embodiment is sometimes that we are not expressing all of our true potential. We can live an entire lifetime learning how to fully express ourselves as fully adult human beings. And we can live an entire lifetime controlled by thoughts, emotions, and scripts that are not intrinsically expressing our most genuine self. I saw this in my own past lifetimes as I had many revealed to me so to educate me in this lifetime to the significance of all that I was learnging.

Our physical bodies are over loaded, jammed up with so much mental/emotional baggage that is not genuinely ours and this impedes the inflow of soul qualities. Redefining our minds, releasing emotions, and letting go of histories that are by nature suppressed, oppressive, dominating, over loading, inaccurate, twisted, half truths, and so on all make space inside the light body, and the physical body in such a way so as to make the truly meaningful progress happen inside us. The transformations are basically an inside job for each of us. They do not require external forms of authority to give us permission to achieve nor will they happen by way of external means. This direction is one which naturally arises from within. I realized I was holding the ball so to speak with just about every aspect of myself. I learned that my body contained a history and that I had to relearn what that was and then make new and different choices as to how I would live. Our unconscious histories ( our DNA) is overpowering and defining and until we awaken our inner knowledge of self we are subject to that history. Once I woke up to this I began to shift my entire perspective on choice.

We have lost aspects of our authentic nature which are deep inside the hearts of our souls awaiting our activation’s. These are at first felt as distant longings, and urges for which we have no references. And we have completely unknown aspects beyond that still held in potentials until the time we reach into and past our longings.

When we take on the beliefs of others without our own genuine investigation we overlay into our physicality energetics that influence our biology. We actually direct the switching on and off of different DNA contents by way of our choices. Be they consciously or unconsciously chosen. This is easy to see with identical twins who as they age their DNA changes, although when they started out it was identical. Science has shown this.

Without the personal reflection along with internal investigation we disconnect ourselves from the deeply meaningful and authentic nature of our spiritual being. Our human self can be filled with man-made deductions, dogmas, scientific beliefs, religious dogmas, mental notions, and the resulting emotions not even based on genuine reality, yet agreed by common consent as truth. Wise to remember that common agreement is not necessarily in agreement with universal truth. As we align with these forces we disengage from many important aspects of our true nature that express this universal quality. To the degree that we see and believe ourselves separate, to the degree that one sees they are better than, to the degree that there is exclusiveness in place of inclusive there are elements of our hearts and minds that become shut down or even off.

Soul aspects that we regain through our recollections

Soul aspect that we regain through recollecting our different aspects are the understanding of a much broader perspective, clear thinking, ego deflation that results in the re-positioning of self-identity, intuition, psychic knowledge, interconnection and the ability to communicate with many forms of life. Awareness of how manifestation happens and steps that lead to consequence. Larger memory of our spiritual path, including our previous experiences…. earlier in life, or in other lifetimes. Lives in other dimensions, and on other worlds. We regain the knowledge of our real life history including yet beyond this lifetime. This is quite natural as a result of releasing outdated beliefs, letting go of negative programming, facing and transcending our fears, and releasing feelings that control and inhibit our self expressions. I had to learn to drop many dogmas, and teachings I had picked up in my youth. Those ideas no longer expressed my own internal experiences.

The songs of our hearts, our people’s and our lands

We have within us each a unique song of life, one which has its particular tones, colors, and expressions. We share this song with others and the land we live. We feel good when we experience these songs, this life music. When we choose harmony in our actions and when we face the disharmony to understand and learn we join in with a larger aspect of creation. A larger symphony of interactions takes place that infuses life with joy, understanding, synchronicity. Life itself in its vast expressions literally sings itself outwards.

The joys hidden in our lost selves act as the food for soul which bring spiritual sustenance. Sustaining us in miraculous ways.

Our retrieved joys are a form of spiritual sustenance normal in the soul level dimensions, yet that is also true in this one. We need the sustenance of joy to add to the experiences of being human as this shapes and forms the outcomes and realities we live through. Bringing new tremendous meaning and uplifting qualities that actually will support us in transforming the negative scenarios we must face, pass through and process. Our daily lives are filled with many opportunities with which to test this out. This joy replaces all the negativity when we finally move past our personal challenges with enough force that we comprehend what was not understood, when we release that which is our personal dross, and we upgrade our thinking and belief in alignments with authentic spiritual presence. Joy comes when we empty out, it is the original state and becomes reinstated as the natural state.

How love in any situation helps us to bear the pains we are needing to release.

Most all humans have issues with which we grapple and that need tending, these issues are actually our personal steps unique to each of us that provide our growing directions. Learning to accept these challenges can mean that we encounter painful situations. Bringing love into ourselves can help the entire situation. That love is analgesic is true. Without love … there will be intense pain and difficult suffering that appears not to have meaning or purpose. Bring love in and that all changes. Love as an analgesic always lifts, releases, and transcends us as we make our way thru the difficulties. Loving ourselves and one another through the painful circumstances we bear brings significant depth of purpose that could be lost without it. Love acts as an analgesic with actual pain we feel in our bodies. Scientists have now uncovered how love actually lessens the pains felt in the body. I find this amazing.

Lost meaning in everyday life and the recollection of those meanings

When we live a robotic life in any area of ourselves that area is subject to drab meaninglessness. Living on autopilot we do not access feelings, challenge thoughts, or take actions that are in best interest. Living in a script of how we think things should be, living a script in our minds when we are the only one reading that script (an awful realization I have had to accept about myself at different times in my life), living a script for us that someone made for us… a parent, the family, the church, our society are all places within that we can learn to collect back into ourselves. I have found this adjusts the levels of emotion and outcome significantly in positive ways. Prepare to see the scripts we think we must live, and then prepare to throw them out. I have had been through this many times.

Wisdom reaches us… we do not have to reach for it, the action of recollection will bring forward the perfect environment for wisdom to be born in each of us.

When I choose wisdom as my guide in how to collect back into myself that which is of meaning that intention for making wise choices brings to me new possibilities that were blocked before. The intention to find wisdom brings it. What a revelation! Not taking action unless the criteria for wisdom has been met prevents me from repeating patterns, making mistakes again, and assures my own more deeply satisfying outcomes. There are many signals along the way with which we must learn to discern and understand. There are many kinds of wisdom…. happy wisdom, sad wisdom, crazy wisdom, brilliant wisdom, intuitive wisdom to name a few. Not having these kinds of wisdom show up may be a signal that one is blocking it in some way. Stuck in belief systems that are out of alignment with my true inner nature always blocked me from accessing deep wisdom. The script always took over. And well that is a lesson in itself, I examine my scripts on a regular basis.

Asking for signs, signals, and validation in our lives

I always found comfort in the native American way, and many other indigenous people s and biographies of the saints. When listening to their ideas on learning to observe, ask for, and respond to signs, signals, and how these validate us when we are on the edges of knowing and learning as we move in to our own dark mysteries and unknowing. Signs and signals began to occur for me in remarkable ways literally shocking my system into the new directions. In my experience I thought initially that these things were happening to me, for me, and what a miracle. Eventually I came to recognize all of life is communicating with itself. Signs and signals are a natural ongoing aspect of creation, now I have joined in, instead of holding myself outside of this wondrous component of living. There is not really anything special about me, it is however unique to me and my own participation to life on a larger level. Signs and signals are actually an ongoing aspect of creation. Once I realized that one I made certain to change the old scripts I had been living.

Synchronicity and its meaning as we build our authentic self expressions

Meaningful coincidence where random or even opposing forces join together that speak something that connects internally with us is just so wonderful a way to live life. The more I have dropped my false notions and let go of self-limiting definitions I have felt myself to become more and more authentic. The more authentic the more synchronicity shows up and this encourages more of the same.

Wonder and the ignition of spiritual sight

When we return to wonder in our lives we ignite the spiritual sight inside us. Capable of seeing beyond the surface, and into the essence of meaning in situations we are able to stay connected to the larger picture seeking to unfold. Spiritual sight is not dependent in any way on religious dogma, but more so arises naturally as we learn to be present and just see what is. This take practice to exercise our minds beyond limiting ideas. And to open our wider expression of many feelings and emotions.

Release of obstacles…

Letting go, conquering our fear, releasing judgmental thoughts, throwing away outdated life scripts, and finding humility like never before all lead into and through the release of our personal obstacles. Our egos are highly invested in tremendous amounts of these things and I have learned how the ego aspect of me has had to learn to take a different seat, or perspective when it comes to the finality of the release of obstacles. The joy is transformational. The realization I had about learning has become my turning point in any obstacle as there always appears something for me to learn, without the learning the obstacles persist. What a realization!

Recovery and becoming whole is a journey that is infinite in its true nature

When I write infinite I mean it. I experience the infinite nature of life and the process of becoming whole as I learn. This basically obliterates many life scripts as I have learned how power life really is and that nothing is lost, every effort counts, and the letting go is all worth it.

Reclaiming authentic truth as a way of life

What a theme…. to live in authentic truth, honesty with self, and daily willingness to be open and to learn.

Developing quantum interior resilience and strength that acts as the best bullshit detector on earth.

There is no more powerful truth detector than the cleared out self, connected soul based person. This becomes a powerfully resilient attribute necessary to pass through all the difficult zones with which we must get through. Making an automatic bull shit detector that goes off anytime we need it. Truly amazing.

The idea that living a human life is all about your soul is the reason we investigate the unknown. We live so as to experience and learn. We recollect ourselves while in the physical body. I have learned what body and soul together really feels like, and it is only just beginning.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self reflection

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If …YOU …”think” You Cannot Handle the Truth, Think Again…. My Reality Checks are coming in!

core spirituality, my personal journey

The path of awakening for each of us has significant differences yet many universal similarities. In my experiences I do come up on the thought that I cannot handle something, or I hear this from others. This writing describes the inner process within me. The thinking intellect, my emotions… and my inner voice or deep self in dialogue. So I know we all have conversations inside us as this is not so uncommon. In order to really get what my process is on this subject I wanted to put it into writing.

Reality selection is a choice for us all…

Our thinking is filled with programming

I call it programming, this is not what the mainstream calls it.

In the process of conditioning,socialization and education that is prevalent in our societies today. Telling us what to think, how to think, placing limits on thinking, emotional side tracking, emotional suppression along with oppression of many covert forms. Schools, churches, universities, groups of many varieties all teach children from an early age how to view reality in specific ways. This will override the natural instinctive capacities and innate points of view children are born with making certain that each child fits into the specific format of the group they belong to.

Hidden inside reading and math, science and history lessons are infinite variations of subtle programming that inhibit the spiritual nature. This becomes real and evident after one goes through the process of self-reflection, deep inner questioning and discovery, and the release of the effects of our memories, and limiting emotional situations we carry inside us.

These emotionally charged memories are very much like boxes of thought that limit and suppress the innate knowing within a child. As adults we have the greater free will and possibility to discover our true nature through the choices we make that push us beyond our original experiences and unveil the innate spirituality of a human being.

In my journey of self-reflection the most significant redefinition I arrived within myself was that I was not a human being having a spiritual experience as I had been programmed to believe, rather I discovered I am  actually a spiritual being having a human one.

The opposite of all the years of teachings I had received in my development as a person. The paradigm shift inherent in this is remarkable in that everything takes on a completely different and significant meaning or purpose. And I had to drop whatever did not fit into that category of meaningful purpose. In other words most of the reality boxes I had been raised to believe were not based in truth. Letting go of these older versions of reality resulted in my development of having a larger capacity to perceive reality from “outside the box” so to speak.

Or in other words outside the limitations of programming I had been subliminally indoctrinated.

Repeaters

While I realized that well meaning adults were passing information along to me, I recognized the action of repeating in their words. People who learn to repeat information as they were taught. Most often these individuals were shown to be the best at their subjects, and always receive high marks, and accolades. To my astonishment I was at an early age, able to discern true learning vs. repeating, and to feel the significance in authentic discovery outside the patterns of thinking inherent in repeaters. I would say this began to occur to me in my early 20’s!

For example a paradigm shift I learned when I moved to Hawaii was how the oceans really connect all the land masses. Making it possible to travel and connect. Where as in my youth I learned how the oceans separated the world. It is a subtle shift in thinking yet powerful. Separation consciousness versus connection. I have found many such ways of perceiving the world that I learned all based in separation consciousness that are not even true, I have found connection in every aspect of life since getting out of that box of thinking. Shifting my awareness and myself in ways that brought great connection to life. Our experiences, our choices when understood as all connected with meaning take on a completely different reality with this in mind.

Learn to do my reality checks

Reality checks can be cashed in any time! They pay off really well and add to our sense of life in ways that carry us through time in amazing new ways. For much of this world is not really what it is represented to be. We are still a young species at the lower rungs of the universe. Our ideas are filled with inaccuracies and misunderstandings about how life is actually governed, manifested, and is lived. So doing reality checks will most often occur whenever there is a feeling of discomfort about something. Especially when there are no words to match the feeling, yet it still exists in the gut. I have this experience often. My first reaction is to question reality, question the voice of authority that is either speaking to me outwardly or the inner voice in my mind that “thinks” it is THE authority on any idea or subject. I cultivate an open mind, and I question until I find an answer that fits and replaces my discomfort with a sense of good, or right feeling. This is perfect for those times when we think we cannot handle something. For the truth is we can though there will be some shift to do so. Shift in our version or belief in what the reality presenting itself really is.

Questions you might ask yourself

Secrets and the nature of controls

That our present day is filled with astounding and horrific revelations of secrets held by mankind for generations is startling and sobering to say the least. Many dark secrets are getting released about every aspect of our lives through the internet, the media. Within us we are also finding revelation on a mass collective level in people from all walks of life, no matter the education, social standing, religious belief, upbringing, or culture. Revelations are everywhere in all sciences, history, math, physics, and so on. One need only pursue truth beyond the limits of media, and university education to find new thought being taught by people outside the box of accepted thinking. These individuals are stepping forward with deep, complex and riveting new approaches to understanding reality.

The revelations of abuse of power on this planet that are being revealed through the banksters, the military of the world, politicians, scientists, and historians are gob smacking. The degree of covert control, covert agendas, covert operations, covert policies, covert behaviors in these people now getting out will surely shift our world paradigm in fascinating new ways.

As now we are beginning to realize how we have been lead to believe so many things that are not actually honest or true and to give away our sovereignty along the way will shatter much of what has existed for generations on this planet.

Revelations are natural

the natural state of all beings is revelation. Revelation arises as a consequence of learning beyond the moment in any situation. We have been programmed so completely we have forgotten what a natural process this is in a healthy well lived lifetime. Robotic, habit-ized, and submissive the human will has been subverted away from the delights of revelation. So deeply valuable is this to our experience even after centuries of generational programming individuals are breaking through the dogmas of every sector of our known reality at this time. Making those in power and control very nervous and more afraid. Yet we cannot stop this because revelation is natural to who and what we are as spiritual beings having a human experience.

The dark truth, the light truth of your life

when I can’t handle it anymore I am up against the dark truth of my life. The dark truth is the awareness of all that which is reversed, or opposite the light truth. The revealing to ourselves of dark truth requires a powerful will to see beyond these illusions we have been so deeply emotionally invested. To accept how something so intrinsic to us is not true takes courage to process. It is a signal of our growth and maturation as spiritual beings when we can allow the deconstruction of our beliefs, notions and ideas of reality once shown not to be valid.

In my experience whenever this happens the light truth moves in and replaces the dark.

This is quite amazing as the feelings that arise in the discovery of greater truth energize and redirect our attention in completely fascinating new ways. Opening possibilities that were totally blocked while I was under the limiting beliefs of the previous dark programming. I feel a sense of internal accountability with myself to push my way through my own fears that I cannot handle the truth in any situation.

So we move back and forth on the game board of life discovering both our dark truths and our light truths finding new resources for powering up our previous states of victimization, powering up our defeated powerless selves. The deflation of ego states that goes along with this process can feel even depressing, and sad, and awful. Yet the light truth that we are then more capable to hold because we let go those limiting ego states of consciousness eventually lifts us up and frees us from the process that is so uncomfortable.

Each of us has a turning point from which there is no return

Whenever we begin to move past our “i cant handle it” moments there arises significant places of no return that require a deeper acceptance. As our consciousness adjusts to changing perceptions and feelings we do find that we can no longer go back. This happens in such a profound way that with each new discovery we transform.

Our transformations lead us to transcendent new places that take us into whole new arenas of living. I experienced this on all levels. Eating and diet, emotional states of profound suffering have lifted, immense unhappiness is replaced with a ridiculous kind of amazing joy, beliefs I once held no longer feel right and drop. People, events, and situations that once triggered powerful negative emotions are gone. What I choose to focus in life shifted from survival to thrive, from disharmony to harmony, from lack to abundance, from not getting my needs met on a daily basis to meeting my needs abundantly so that I overflow for others. This is how the process of moving through and beyond our “i cant handle it” states of being in paralysis and withholding just turn all the way around.

The transformation of the human condition in each of us

Our personal transformations are the human condition for which all these life experiences unfold and have meaning. We embody physicality and take on each lifetime in our efforts to transform and transcend ourselves while discovering the unlimited nature of existence. Every event that each of us tackles adds to the larger context of our humanity. And eventually we reach quantum levels of transformation that make it easier for those yet to make it go forward successfully. We improve our reality by way of these actions.

The planetary transformation of life as we know it

As the numbers of people transforming their life situations grows we begin to see massive new levels of behavior and activity that redefine life as we have known it, and believed it to be. This is what is happening now all over the world. Dark forces are revealed and breaking down, light forces are coming forward to heal and redesign our life stories.

Reclaiming your self as a sovereign being

To realize new states of sovereignty is how we liberate our humanity. One person at a time, one group at a time, one nation at a time, one world at a time.

Noticing when we are submitting to thoughts of self oppression, sabotage, and the diminishing of our potential are the start of this liberation as we notice the dark truths we have subscribed our lives. This being merely the early stage of awakening and the start of whole new possibilities.

Connecting in with the larger paradigms emerging today we learn to take in accountability and responsibility for our human lives, charting new directions and learning to be happier, healthier, and deeply spiritual.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self reflections

Permission to let go… core spirituality, my personal journey

Permission to let go… core spirituality, my personal journey

Moving on, progress, release, freedom … all arise from a simply action of permission.

Permission to let go does not have to come from outside us. This is an inner choice and the momentum this creates runs the spectrum from crazy to liberating. Fears jump into our minds as we approach the boarders inside our minds of permission in ways that will stagger the decision, giving us clear possibility to deeply consider our next steps. Other times we must make rapid decisions on the fly which propel us into the unknowns. Practicing the art of giving myself permission to let go becomes an act of creative selection and evolving experience. We get better at self permission the more we access our choices and release ourselves from the grips of our own thinking, our own emotions, our own tired out beliefs. Times arise when the momentum that sets us up for change start arriving in our lives and we become increasingly more uncomfortable with the way things are. Situations arise that once invited us in and now propel us away. People become uninteresting and we no longer want to associate. Out stomachs turn and we must go the distance and make way for the new in our lives.

Know enough about self to make the meaningful decisions that will enact letting go

When we commit to knowing ourselves by paying attention to our thoughts,feelings, emotions, body messages, signs, sychronicities, and patterns we can foresee how meaningful letting go will take us beyond our current situations and propel us into unknowns for which everything up to this point have prepared us. The better we know self, the less guessing and the more concrete our choices develop into accessing new information which lead us through our mysterious questions.

How taking care of our personal interiors open the possibilities

Self care is the base line for all possibility to arise. Nurturing self acceptance and physical habits of healthy well-being generate equilibrium while the other aspects of our personalities undergo the stronger deconstruction, redirection, and new momentum that take shape from permission to let go. Always the good baseline for change is self-love, self-care, and the integrity of our attention inwardly to the process that is unfolding. Appearing as selfishness, at this time of letting go we must take those steps only we can take. Thus to those around us we may appear selfish, and this may be true. It is a time to take one’s self into deeper reflection and meaning and allow this self-absorption, or selfishness to occur. In our single-ness of decision-making we learn to sustain our choices through our own means and we liberate that which needs be.
What we choose to invest our emotional energies into and how this shapes our reality

Though it is rarely taught, it is a realization returning to many now on our planet. What we choose to invest our emotional energies into shapes our reality. We are not simply victims of circumstance, we are experiencing the results of our unique personal investments in our thoughts, feelings, etc. as we believe ourselves to be. The realization that we, I, not someone else is responsible for my life is both unnerving and liberating. The liberation of self through responsible emotional self acceptance is paramount to our moving forward through any difficult situation. Things do not change, people do. For my world to change I must make that change from within. We stop looking outside ourselves for people who can make us feel better, save us, give us what we want, and we do this for our self. This is a paradigm change that has very large consequence in the moment, and for the unfolding future of the next decisions we will make. To be able to untangle our minds from the seriously crazy programming of socialization, and outer authority to an interior place is at first mind-blowing. However so that may be as we see reality transform all around us in our personal lives it is strengthened and multiplied and anchored. Every day is a new day. Anything new could occur. Lets just see what happens as we engage self-knowledge. Self permission and self-responsibility. All three of the anchors to assure changes in appropriate ways. Because this is a learning we do make mistakes along the way, yet we learn to make corrections and navigate through the mistakes and take them as jewels of learning that bring to us knowledge and add to our experience of life.

Giving ourselves permission to move forward and let go while accepting those who do not

one of the most agonizing aspects of giving myself permission to let go and move on has always been not everyone comes with me. So I have learned not only to accept my need and impetus to move on, I also have to accept that those I love or care for cannot or will not join me. Lovingly accepting this for others will make everything more easy for everyone. Often much later down the path, these people have rejoined me when they themselves have caught up to the momentum that was inherent in the changes. Then sometimes they do not and they become more distant, either way acceptance is mandatory.

The paradox of healing ourselves and the amazing outcomes this bring to our life choices

That we make painful decisions that heal our lives is a paradox. The healing is needed yet is painfully reached. Our life choices develop in such a way that we learn to accept pain in this way as a friend going along with us on the ride. It cannot be avoided. The pain is crucial to the whole process as old ways break down, old relationships fall away, and we are left to our own new life choices. In time these painful choices drive us to our meaningful life outcomes which amaze and astound us. In our previous mental habits, beliefs, we could not hold for a minute what now arises. The unending nature of life is astounding as the possibilities unfold and we engage totally new energetics into the circumstances of our lives. It all becomes worth it and the purpose of paradox becomes understood.

Painful memories, grudges, emotional wounds, misunderstandings and why we need to let go

All such negativity tie us to history without freeing us from the now moments of our lives. The negative history we each inherit must be lived through and surpassed as a vehicle of our own self-development. We become strengthened and aware as we face, process and resolve our own side of any negative situation we carry within our self. The loaded physical form, our physical body is overwhelmed with the energetics of the negatives and our alive-ness is compromised when we carry around negative scenarios inside us. Not only that but the energy it takes to hold it in, suppress it, and maintain it is staggeringly unbalancing. The more we hold on, the worse it gets. Sometimes resulting in sickness and even death of the physical. Many of us die ourselves out of this world because we would not let go, would not release ourselves from our own negativity. The amount of this I have personally experienced with people in my practice of massage and bodywork for over 3 decades is truly staggering. I know this to be the case for many individuals.

Shifting the forces of our lives, breaking habits that no longer serve us, or serve our world.

The pain, discomfort, and disharmony signals all point us to our own personal shift, which is also our planetary shift, which is also our species shift. Now underway and gaining momentum in the collective experience of our humanity. Everywhere we look, listen, and arrive to we can find this shift unfolding before our very eyes and ears. The patterns that I will call habits have been in our DNA for generations. Our families are filled with this stuff, and a lot of us are increasingly more uncomfortable with it all. I myself have chosen to do the work, and learn to understand what these forces are that need my attention. Through therapy, emotional release, bodywork, exercise, re-education and a personal commitment to give myself permission to let go I continue to align myself with the greater unfolding now which is wreaking havoc all over the world. Letting old habits die that no longer serve me, or this world.

The world changes when we change

The world changes when we change could not be truer. Until one has tested this one the depth of this will pass you over. And then when you realize that for your world to change you must make the change and you permit yourself to go through with the things you need to do. Reality does shift. It shifts the more we permit ourselves to let go. If my world is not changing enough, I take a cue. I keep deepening into my ability to let go and make that change.

Losing what is meaningful, and rebuilding new directions

Yes we do lose what has been meaningful to each of us when we let go. We lose relationships, finances, and all manner of life circumstances. As we continue we learn we rebuild new meaningful relationships, new ways to finance ourselves, and many other new circumstances develop. We do also carry within us the valuable essences of all our experiences even though we no longer experience them. I know this from my practice of hypnotherapy, my own soul retrieval experiences. Nothing… I mean nothing is ever truly lost that has been our experience. Everything… every single second of life is inside us as us contributing to our personal journey. All of our personal experiences actually go into a larger collective which is Source. Source as itself, in us, is discovering itself through every one of us. The entire nature of existence is growing everywhere through us, around us, and beyond us. Truly amazing to see, feel, and recognize this universal truth about life. Nothing ever is truly lost. Ever!

Grace and the healing of our human history

Grace has many definitions depending on your particular belief. In this case I will refer to the transcendent nature of non ordinary reality. A place of connection much larger than a single human mind can contain, a place with such knowledge and wisdom. This wisdom is also beyond the human mind as it unfolds through synchronicity and the direction of meaning in our lives. This grace is enacted as we meet our most powerfully difficult, and painful life scenarios. I have experienced this many times in my life and have felt a sense of pure divinity, lightness of being, and transcendent personal space beyond words. It is definitely non ordinary reality. It is real, and it is unending. I bring this up now because we are reaching the quantum moments of our human history where the themes of many generations of humans is coming to a point of pure no return. We are on the precipice of life experiences that transcend generations of our ancestors. We are beginning to experience the horrific and startling new consciousness of regaining our spiritual sovereignty. New powerful souls are incarnating with astounding capabilities…. we can and we are truly surpassing all our known knowledge heading into the great mysteries of life. We are starting to connect physicality with spirituality in the most authentic forms of expression and much healing is coming in to us now

The challenges of resistance and how this is meaningful

Resistance is one of my specialties as a therapist, I love this quality. I have the inherent perspective that resistance is simply permission to process. It is a way we are slowed down when we are getting too high off the changes we are experiencing. Resistance staggers the time line, staggers our minds so that we can more fully engage our senses in ways that bring to us the information we need to make the shift possible. Without set backs, and our own personal resistance to change we might endanger ourselves or others. Make unnecessary mistakes, and complicate the situation.

Respect resistance is my motto and learn to see what it is all about. Our resistance carries tremendous info just under the surface of our awareness that needs to be addressed in order to successfully move forward. Resistance in others needs to be honored. We do not all move forward simultaneously as we wish we could. We all move according to some amazing timing unique to each of us. Read that last sentence again, it is truly a jewel to hold.

Staying engaged, cultivating connection, and forging the new directions and letting self sleep.

When learning to let go it is paramount to stay engaged and not lose it all. Staying engaged within and around us is how we stay grounded through immense changes. Sleep occurs as a way to allow the body physical, and the energetic bodies to re-calibrate new points of grounded-ness inside us, and around us in the environment. The actual work of the soul that takes place inside a human is likened to the metamorphosis in a butterfly. There are many new arrangements, new connections to make, new coordinates to be put into place that all take time in this dimension. Staying engaged either by cultivating connection and forging new directions as well as sleep time is paramount to the entire process.

Commitment to self

The redevelopment of new and different ways in which we commit to self is a direct outcome of letting go. Not losing self. Not abandoning our self. Not denying our self, not ignoring our self. But true deeper more meaningful redefining of self is what happens. This can be quite striking to those who have known us up to this point, so letting go of what others think of us at this point is helpful. No one can actually embrace the process of self commitment that happens like each one of us can with ourselves, this commitment grows from within. In time others learn. Patience here is truly a virtue.

Realizations that arise as we heal

When we let go we heal components of our human self inside us. This healing provides new frameworks on many different levels of our personality. As the new energetics of healing engage we will find that new realizations start to happen. The realizations that occur do so because in the healing we make room for that which we withheld in our previous states of consciousness. Our minds are opened in new ways on new levels. We become more capable of translating our individual soul messages, signs, and possibilities. Our perceptions take on wholeness. Whole minded awareness can process huge amounts of new information from design levels. When we start to get the “designs” our souls are offering us we will experience new realizations which not only become solutions for us, they also contribute to our joyful nature as never before. Learning to write down, or draw, or share our realizations is fascinating and fun. Engaging us beyond conflict and returning us to new levels of personal and universal harmony. When we recognize the designs unfolding in us, all around us and begin to see and feel how we are a dynamic part of the cosmos our lives take on such wonderful new meaning.

Joining the mass human family in taking care of business

Letting go by using one’s conscious choice instead of being forced by way of painful circumstance because we have learned the wisdom of it is significant. While many upon within the human family struggle in agonizing ways as these changes come through our planet we can simply choose to join in. this makes our process a bit less uncomfortable and even joyful. As we cry out our tears, and say our good bye’s to our old ways we can laugh right on down the road of life. We recognize how and why we are here. We are uplifting the entire species. One by one. We are engaged in a historical event of such proportion that even the animals are anticipating what comes next. When we take care of what bothers us, what pains us, we are taking care of our human business.

Make a list

I like to make regular lists of changes so I do not forget those moments of clarity as I go about my busy days. I want to stay on track. I want to feed my need for changes. I want to stay engaged. I need to remember what I forget. I make my lists.

Find new interior resources

When we embrace connection and stay engaged we automatically find new resources. It is amazing to me how the universe works. Not only do we find new resources but they find us. You know you are on the right path when this happens because it is so completely astounding. I have looked back at my life and thought how could I have ever stayed so disconnected? This is so much more fun. I absolutely love, love, love how the universal intelligence works all through our lives informing us with new information and possibility.

Discover new aspects of who we are

Only after we let go do we get the new answers. All to often I have lingered before I made a change wanting myself to know before I actually did my work. Wishing for new solutions, new answers to appear and they did not. Finally out of frustration and endless suffering did I finally let go. And not until then did the new info arrive. We must do our individual work on change. And once we do we get the prize… we discover the new aspects of our souls. New talents, new identities and new directions that bring to us experiences that genuinely fulfill us.

The final thoughts on letting go.

My final thought to myself here on letting go is … go for it.

I choose to gain the wisdom awaiting me as I let go my hardened clutches of reality and join the mysterious unknowns of taking new steps. Core spirituality is the expression of our unique and personal truth as each of us. Unique and universal and right in the middle of paradox. Core spirituality is not limited by religious dogma, nor is it directed by politicians, bankers, or any outside authority. I accept my own personal experience as validating and I learn to engage my experiences as my own spiritual path. Just one tiny human amongst billions.

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The Momentum Behind Collective Thought…core spirituality, my personal journey

Portrait of humaity an image taken in Hawaii

 

The Momentum Behind Collective Thought… Directions of humanity…. core spirituality,my personal journey

The momentum behind human collective thought is you and me.

Each singular expression of each person generating their own thoughts is the momentum behind our larger landscape of existence.

What collective thought is

Collective thought is my thoughts and yours and all other people’s thoughts arising together moment by moment in the field of the human reality. Added all together our thoughts join, clash, or move around in a massive field of subtle electrical energy shaping our day-to-day existence.

One human thought multiplied by all other thoughts in resonant harmony or similarity cause tremendous activity which creates a shared reality that we see and experience all around us, resulting in positive or negative outcomes depending on ideas we infuse with our emotions, our minds, and our actions.

These collective agreements and disagreements fill the planetary field of human activity, the environment, and the surrounding space in and around our solar system. This is all reflected back to us when we look into the electronic / technological group mind we share through our internet and media outlets. In case you were not seeing this clearly it does show us what we are all thinking about.

That we are creating reality individually and as group resulting in the world scenarios we witness around us is staggering to embrace, however true it is. This is how powerful our thoughts can become. We do not even know this on a mass level… yet.

We have many singular thoughts ( ideas) that are developing and growing ever stronger each day in size and changing the world in which we live. For example let us look into our notions about the issues of abuse.

Our thoughts on abuse are transforming everyday through out our lives.

For example all the awareness of abuse in human relationships that has existed for thousands of years is now being named, understood, and processed in-depth now and this is shifting the moral climate of humanity as new programs for further developing awareness and assisting victims of abuse and neglect are being created all around us. As well as forming new agreements for which we are now holding ourselves accountable through new and different legislation all over the world. New laws are made and this shifts and reforms our global society.

The climate of abuse while still horrific, is very different now, say from the 1950’s when we had much less conscious thinking about the effects of abuse we are perpetrating upon one another.  This has a significant  and dramatic effect on future generations as each new wave of collective realization redirects the outcomes of abusive human activity. Making, for example, it no longer morally or socially acceptable to perpetrate abuse in any way. All manner of local, national, and global society is reshaped toward more meaningful interaction with clarity regarding the painful outcomes of our abuses perpetrated upon each other.

This has directly affected children, women, people of color, people who are different from the larger groups ( gay, lesbian, transgendered, whole nations, entire populations for example) and protection for these individuals manifests where it did not exist not so long ago. This is the power of a thought multiplied on a collective level  reaching into the live of billions of human beings.

The decisions we make eventually  join together… discernment

The decisions we make based on our thinking join together to create powerful realities that may or may not be in accord with the larger spiritual reality of life. Mankind has held certain notions of the larger reality of existence for many generations and these ideas are being challenged with the growing new ideas being born in us as a result of our experiences. That our ideas actually are in accord with the larger spectrum of universal spirituality is still a reality we have much to learn. We do not always hold this larger perspective in our thinking. However that may be we learn from these thoughts and make corrections as we go and for this reason what you think is meaningful, and important.

The electronic mind, technologies, medias and the internet.

The electronic mind is filled with messages that seek to shape reality, versions of it that not always align with the greater good of everyone. This is why and how media and internet is used today to promote thought amongst our species. So that certain outcomes are developed and shaped so that specific actions will take place. People in “power”… those with money, religious influences, political agendas. military might.   This is a multi trillion dollar industry that is influencing the electric mind, or media/technological aspect of life through the internet, television etc..by filling it with ideas for their specific purposes and design.

Discernment at this point is an absolute quality with which to act upon as we learn the source and purpose of those thoughts that are being repeated incessantly and that are perpetrated as truth, as reality all around us. ( we have to live in fear… the world is totally dangerous, we have to fight everything to succeed and win)  We have a choice here. The momentum behind our choices is developing rapidly now as billions of individuals are seeing corruption, greed, abuse, conflict, war, economic hijacking our resources, and many other areas of human society that are filled with contamination and toxic outcomes for the majority of us living here on the planet.

Evolution requires revolution

I suspect we are on the wave of a collective revolution within our entire human population reaching entirely around the earth at this time. The power of individual thought is gaining momentum and is just beginning to resist all the larger forces of negative, disharmonious, abuse that have been in control for generations in all societies on larger, more massive human levels.

There is a quiet revolution taking shape amongst us now.

In all our Peoples, in every nation, and walk of life.

How do we move forward ? Learning to become more thoughtful about our choices and developing healthy levels of discernment. We move forward with the relentless growth of all our thoughts as we take action and learn the results we discover. We move forward by living from our thoughts in ways that we deem just, humane, and inclusive while still other forces in the minority insist on the opposite. There is a minority of powerful negative thinking people running huge banking systems, gigantic military operations, massive covert political agendas, and many dark religious thinking people believing in rigid dogmas all over the world in all our communities. By accessing media, influencing law making, economics/banking, and many other facets of society this minority number is seeking to exert its control harder and harder with more fear, fear mongering, and fear based agendas like never before. We become conscious and aware that each of our thoughts matter in every single life and every single person when we recognize the lack of love in these thoughts and actions generated by individuals seeking power over others. It is final attempt to exert control even though the collective mind of humanity has already decided we do not want this any longer!

Why is this? Because their time is running out.

The momentum behind our collective thought has already begun to decide that we do not want this any longer.  The regular exposing of , and releasing of secrets, and the unending revelations that result are the forces of this momentum within us . And forces for collective good, forces that expose the underbelly of darkened thinking that control and enslave humans is starting to take hold in the masses of human beings seeking to restore personal sovereignty, personal creativity, and harmonious interaction within the larger spectrum of differences we share. Infighting is no longer going to be acceptable as we prefer to work out our problems without violence, without power mongering, and without deceptive forces of control. We are learning how to let go of our judgmental old style thinking for more liberating happy possibilities that everyone may share. We are just beginning to witness the effects of this all over our beloved planet.

The wave of the future is shaped by these things

This wave of momentum arising in the bosom of our human experience is the power of our thoughts to shape our future and the world for future generations. All manner of human activity is growing in this direction as people in the arts, education, in industry, in medicine, in governments, and many many other areas of life are working on new ideas to generate better living conditions for us all. We are learning how we must include the wisdom of our hearts in our daily lives and make the changes we feel we need to make. Speak to the truth of our lives, and honor what it is that is awakening inside each of us.

A paradoxical thought to hold is the truth that the future is now… how we create reality. This is how our “now moments” are shaping our “future”! We cannot ignore the present moment without consequence to all our lives, the environment, all the animals and life herself in us all.

Humanity as a whole, instead of separate parts.

How we are learning to see ourselves collectively all together is rapidly changing, as we learn to see ourselves made of many yet one whole….  a human species. Just on the tip of this thought we are starting to redirect all manner of outcomes with this in mind.

As we let down our defenses, and relax into our more heartfelt decisions about life we learn to see in new ways. One must cultivate an awareness of this and begin to pay attention to what is not reported on the news. One must seek out these new possibilities and learn to recognize how people are finding new possibilities through new groups and programs that recognize our oneness.

Our mutuality, with differences.

As a person begins to take away the hardened, painful, and limiting beliefs that create separatist thinking it becomes easier to see what is shaping up in the momentum of our collective thought. I have personally researched many significant caring individuals and groups all moving in this direction all over the world despite the horrible circumstances they may be surrounded by in their particular societies.

Standing to power

Using our  voices to face and stand to power forces with dissent. Using our  voices to educate others still sleeping in the fog of victimization. Using our voices to stand up and be heard at great consequence and personal sacrifice. We as  individuals become the beacons of light igniting the darkened forces… where there are collective groups of followers  of suffering, and oppressed voices all over the world  ripe for changes.

Sleepers, repeaters, and awaken-ers, and those who forge ahead

People still living in belief systems of oppression through their respective out dated religious dogmas, people struggling to get the rent paid, food on the table. People struggling with addictions born of their hardships and hopeless life scenarios, people ingrained in massive personal denial, people who submit and follow rather than think for themselves because they have been trained, socialized and hypnotized to stay afraid, hold onto anxiety and suffer through life and live in constant states of unconscious fear. People who just repeat whatever they are told without questioning authority have all yet to feel the true lightness of personal freedom from these darkened old forces. We have people who are moving forward, and forging new possibilities through peaceful dissent, peaceful thinking, and open-mindedness in just about every walk of human life today everywhere. we learn to resolve our own personal conflicts and in so doing contribute to the collective human experience making it easier for the next person to “catch on”.

Solutions are everywhere

Solutions are everywhere, but most importantly inside each of us.

Solutions arise within us as we free ourselves of the limitations of the collective agreements to suffer, to submit, to be oppressed in any way. When one person chooses to stop this in any way in his or her life, they are opening up the collective field. Not simply for themselves, they do this for the next person. We ping-pong off one another everyday, and through our relationships we activate one another for good or for bad, for positive or for negative. Depending on our own individual thoughts! Happiness is universally taught by all core religions, felt by all regardless of religious belief, and is needed by our world. Our world needs individuals to be happy in the face of all that is going on around us so that we can transcend the limitations of our unhappy states of thinking. Unhappy thinking that we have been programmed to hold as normal. Happiness is one of the most powerful forces human beings have within us to confront evil, oppression, and suffering. We need to make ourselves happy by realizing solutions are not just everywhere, they are inside us waiting to be released.

Choosing to take care of anxiety, unknowns, and learning to love the mystery of living become the first stages of personal and planetary transformation and global transition out of misery.  Our happiness and joy are paramount to overcoming whatever holds us back or threatens our innate human dignity and freedom.

When one of us consciously chooses to take care of that which bothers us, to hold our anxiety in new ways. Learning to give ourselves permission to live for positive growth and solutions that matter,

When just one of us moves into the positive choices still contained in our personal unknowns, we cause a shift in the collective mind. When one of us learns that life by it’s very nature holds mystery, and this mystery is how we awaken to our deepest, most meaningful life solutions and creative expressions, we make it easier for the next person. Courage is ignited and a new step becomes possible.

This is how collective thought is born and shapes our shared life journey together on this planet.

It is a scary, marvelous, wild, ride to live here and take part in the energizing choices available to each one of us. To recognize the darkness around us and inside us and choose to lighten up. To make new steps, and to give ourselves permission to grow in new ways, fashion new directions, and embrace changes all together.

There is one mystery that truly is not a mystery, it is simply a realization. That is that the momentum behind our collective thought is not some huge unknowable force, not at all., not some great mystery.

The momentum is you and me,

each one of us.

Taking care to watch our thoughts one day at a time.

One thought at a time.

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The Transcendence of Hardship…. core spirituality, my personal journey

The Transcendence of Hardship…. core spirituality, my personal journey

It is perhaps the least spoken of and certainly least understood of all human activities our hardships and our unwilling conundrums. Where we find how our transcendence of hardship plays such a vital and important and always contributing spiritual action in this world. The act of transcendence is a universal sub-note or theme to all of our lives and carries a universal purpose. Not limited by any one religion, any nationality, race, any place, or age of person. In fact the act of transcendence is connected to all human activity… directing the future for all of us. So how is it that we have forgotten this deeply moving and important aspect of living?

The facing of the difficult.

The facing of difficulty is so common that we hardly give it a thought, so pervasive in society that we have a vast array of choices we all make which serve to distract us from this very thing! Much of our human activity…. the quest for power, the abuse of drugs, the proliferation of violence as entertainment, the chasing of money, the complete obsession of so many aspects of life and much of the negative psychological problems we share arise out of our resistance, and denial of our need to move forward through circumstance and transcend the conditions we find ourselves.

Transcendence happens on all levels of our lives. Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, social… there is hardly a human arena where we do not have the personal power to exert change and difference in our lives through our transcendence of hardship. There are no limits to gathering what it takes inside us, around us, and through us to take on the task. Often it is not until we have passed through the fires of a painful and difficult time do we even discover the meaning of it all! Yet in hindsight we frequently do arrive at the greater purpose that was unfolding all along in our hardships.

An act of spirit.

As an act of spirit transcendence transports us into realms of mystery, and revelation, where we are able to shape and develop personal qualities, conditions around us, and participate in something larger than ourselves.. that of evolution. The opening to personal revelation and our unknown strengths and weaknesses are almost always revealed. The forces of circumstance drive us all to move beyond ourselves and to taste the sweet waters of humility. Here is where we regain our footing in new vision, new possibility, and new outcomes. Our soul selves quietly lead us forward through these things all to bring to us the larger place of being, where we discover our most important truths, unravel our greatest mysteries, and find the love we were searching all along. Yet… oh how we resist and fight the urge to transcend our own short comings and negativity. Until we reach the place of our deeper wisdom and learn the purposeful unfolding, we suffer. And most often we generate our own suffering through our ignorance ( from the word : “to ignore” ). The act of spirit is heaved forward into our lives as we gain momentum with our transcendence of every single circumstance both within ourselves and outwardly!

The idea of polarity.

What is so vital in all this is polarity, those forces of positive and negative. For as we face hardship and grok our way onward we gain strengths and wisdom’s as we face the tremendous negativity in our lives. It is perhaps the single most powerful teaching that any negative force can show us. The horrific negative scenarios in our world awaken human beings and redirect us in ways it is almost inconceivable to understand. When we gather one to another uniting in our efforts to face the hardships and difficulties of this world we literally change history, alter the future and gain tremendous strength of character. We are able to redefine and transcend these negatives. Within ourselves whenever we face a personal state of our own making, our own negatives, we draw from the very substance of our lives, the spiritual energy needed to move our blocks, shift our minds, release our pains. It is not uncommon to look back after such a growth zone and think of it as a miracle! Yet as humans this is perhaps one of our most powerful and fluid capacities. We can move mountains! We are truly spiritual beings having a human experience and not just humans having a spiritual experience. Never more is this realized than after passing through a difficult hardship and successfully and completely transcending the conditions and limitations that used to over take us.

How we react to the world and why it matters.

How we react to the world is of pure consequence because our reactions have momentum, have energy behind them. Every thought, emotion, action, or lack of … shape the collective conditions of our lives. Building our days with human choices both conscious and unconscious.

Once the realization that our reactions cause more actions with our environment, our human brothers and sisters, and all life on this planet we learn to pause. Pausing allows us the moments we need to learn to consider how and what we choose will affect life around us.

Staying prejudiced, or remaining stubborn, holding on to our viewpoints when another expresses an opposing view, for example, will only cause ourselves to continue to experience the same limiting and painful scenarios over and over.

Unyielding points of view in the face of opposition only add to conflict.

It is a choice to be this way, and learning to just relax and let others have their say, and to act on their notions is sometimes the one act that can bridge the differences. There is a third place where oppositions meet and the possibility for understanding then has a grounding for arising. It is quite possible to say no to injustices, suppression, oppression, and any forms of subservience while not creating any hardship. Learning how to engage difference has its strength in this world as it can show us how we ourselves may make a difference through the willingness to peacefully face such actions in the world. For truly all of these scenarios show us on the most primal level, what not to do to another. And so not to cause such in our personal lives in any degree.

Saying no to injustice, suppression, oppression and all forms of subservience to outside negative forces.

Choosing kindness over hatred

Choosing empathy over defensiveness

Choosing understanding over prejudice

Choosing strength over weakness

Choosing clarity over confusion

Choosing openness over closed-ness and obsessiveness

Choosing cooperation over fighting

Choosing willingness over resistance

Choosing love over… as the final result in all matters on a personal level
These are but a few harmonious conditions we can always grow in our personal lives in the face of hardships.

Transcendence is a core element of spirituality.

Transcendence is an aspect to core spirituality as it is basic to all of life, even on a cellular level. Transcendence is core because whether we like it or not, whether we want to at the time or not, circumstances will eventually lead us beyond ourselves and the limits we place in life. And this transcendence connects into the collective. Our private thoughts, feelings, and actions do affect the public domains of our common ground. As the actions, words of such generate the conditions we live within. How often have I discovered a private and personal act of transcendence brought to me a new door opening, a new friend, new possibilities. Yet on the surface there did not appear to be any connection outside me. The revelation was indeed, we are… and all things and circumstances all connected.

“Going against the grain” when it serves your intent to transcend.

“Going against the grain” is an uncomfortable realization that our personal growth demands of us eventually. There is a time when it becomes right to step away, to step out, and to go another way. Even at the dismay of loved ones. Our deeper urge to transcend does not always align with the timing of the people with whom we love. Thus there is a pain and this pain we are urged to bear as we move forward and learn to not only face our difficulties, but also to transcend them. Resulting in many turn rounds, shifting of circumstance and whole new unexpected directions. Family and friends are not always up to speed with us at the same time this happens. When we choose differently it is helpful to be considerate of our loved ones and to take time to share, if that is possible. When it is not we must go forward anyway and my experience is that in time, more opportunities will show up later where the chance to build understanding will manifest. But until then, “going against the grain” may become the central theme of our lives.

Transcendence as a way of life, the art of always giving self permission to move on.

Clearly one of the most difficult aspects of all this is giving ourselves permission to move forward! Yet it is needed, as no one has the power to do it for us, we have to act on our own life force from within ourselves otherwise the transcendence is not complete. Going it alone, and learning self permission is one of the scariest most important realizations on the path of facing the difficult. When we can muster this with the smaller conditions, we graduate to larger ones. Along the way we learn how transcendence is a way of life and an art to living that is absolutely necessary. Often it is in our loneliest, most alone moments when we discover our own most powerful strengths. Graduating to the art of transcendence where we learn to love and live happily as we make our changes, even when we face our hardships. This is where we encounter the paradox of living. Paradox becomes familiar ground and acceptance is the way through the polarizing opposites in our nature and the world around us. Many times in my own history of transcendence I have been in a state of paradox until I achieved a greater momentum in my direction. I learned to accept this about myself, life in general and this supports me in facing the difficult with much less angst and more layering of negativity.

The evolution of circumstance based on choice.

When in hindsight we reflect upon circumstance it is much easier to see how our evolution and growth through our choice selections generate the circumstance. When we discover how we create reality, (circumstances) we learn how to value what is inherent in facing hardship. It becomes worth it to move onward and go through whatever it will take to transcend our unhappiness, our discords, our pains, and our adversities and adversaries. All such negative situations become the fuels with which we use to propel ourselves out and beyond. We stop fighting them, and we learn to transcend them…. ourselves.

This is most valuable with larger issues where whole groups of people are involved. We may not have unto our individual selves the powers necessary to shift a whole group, yet we do when it comes to one individual. Me! One transformed person will make it possible for another and another, and so on. In case you have never heard of The Hundredth Monkey phenomenon, then investigate that. We learn to be appropriate in the larger context of life and we replace our rant of “change the world” to “change my world” and we get on with the business of living the change ourselves. This is powerful.

Anchoring intention into states of transcendence vs. the struggle.

When we arrive to the natural impulse within ourselves to transcend, and concentrate on our own life, and stop projecting this onto every person, group, nation or whatever that we do not agree …we cease the continuous state of conflict so many humans place their energy.

We then add to the harmonious forces of transformation and transcendence that already exist and are popping up all over the world. There is an appropriate action facing the negative forces around us , and there is the time to do this work internally and make the change within that we want to see outwardly. In other words… “I become the change I want to see in the world”. And thus we become a force for transcendence that is unstoppable.

Through out my entire life I have experienced all these things and I know how new levels of transcendent living actually shift the very life around me.

Forces of negativity that once pulled upon me withdraw their grip and the freedom within is untouchable to those forces.

There is still a lot we all are learning when it comes to sovereignty… and one of the most difficult realizations is no one can give this to you, no one can make you sovereign like you can.

Yet still the masses seek freedom outside themselves, when it is actually within us.

The discovery that we make this ourselves is for all of us.

As more and more individuals begin to live this, the forces of oppression, suppression, injustice, and harm will only continue to diminish. These kind of negative forces can only take hold in individuals that do not live in alignment with transcendence and the self sovereignty of a human life.

Thus for these negatives to go away we all will learn and learn so fully, so collectively that negatives will have no place to anchor in us, in our lives.

This is the deeper more powerful truth of the transcendence of hardship that all negative forces do not want you to learn, for it does mean their end.

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Emotional Intelligence… leaning into self awareness to heal, core spirituality

Voices in His Head

Emotional Intelligence… leaning into self-awareness to heal, core spirituality

Learn to address every emotion that you have. This is my interior message this year. Learn to identify moods, gut feelings, disconnects, and the interior places that still pull me out of my own joy. Generate the understanding in the world you wish to see for the place you inhabit, your physical body and let the world of madness go by you. Do your inner work and learn to know thyself.

Learn how it is your emotions play into your life as they will be the source of many situations that you still do not comprehend. ( shaping your reality from behind the curtain of your conscious knowing)

Radical self honesty is arriving to your door, so pay attention!

Your sub conscious is becoming conscious as you open yourself to the deepening discovery of radical self honesty. Profound self honesty empowers your personality to gain strength and momentum in the ongoing unfolding course of your life experiences. These experiences are also a large component of your path, your spiritual path. That you come to understand and identify what you feel is the precursor to more significant self-development and capability is starting to gain momentum within humanity now.

Stuck places, repeating mood swings, disharmonious life patterns and lack of joy and personal freedoms are symptoms of your still as of yet, unfinished inner work, and spiritual development.

A big AHAA is upon you!

It is rare that emotional development is tagged as a major component of spirituality, rather we are led to focus on belief alone as our source of spirituality, yet this is still far from the larger truth of existence.

As spiritual beings having human experiences our feeling nature is extensive, multi-layered, mysterious, and complex. When we only focus, as we are led to believe by so many external forces such as religious leaders and many teachings they promote, on belief without integrating all of our feelings and emotions we block from ourselves vast amounts of information that lead to deep understandings and the true interconnection of all life.

External forces of religion that perpetrate belief without emotional sovereignty and deep self honesty for all feelings then have a capacity to box up certain feelings that prevent a human from having full access to the larger innate and very powerful feelings that will guide one through the maze of human life.

Beliefs alone are used as mental ideas and these will not sufficiently embrace the wider spectrum’s of feelings and emotions any human is capable of having. This blocks the natural flow of spiritual feeling and the possibility for knowing something from inside self as a direct experience.

When we are externally focused in this way our emotions will continue to pop up, and cause frictions with our personalities in ways that maintain a continuum of human confusions.

This is a real aspect of the darker forces that have been active on earth for centuries. ( hiding in so-called spiritual places, yet religions)To prevent humanity from knowing the significant truth of self, as a spiritual being, and to direct subservience, and passive acceptance without understanding of how life works. This form of subtle coercion exists all around us in all forms of media control, religious belief, and how our society is informed on a daily basis.

Do you actually believe that all the news that is reported is really “the news”?

We are not being shown the actual truth of our lives, as we are led to believe. We are not really getting all “the news” as is reported by every news media. All of this is selective, and is selective so as to lead us into a very limited perspective about our lives and each other.

The amount of real and relevant information is being omitted is huge!

The ramifications of this are the continual use of power over others through war mongering, political positioning and control, media hype, and religious perversions that cause and perpetrate powerlessness and victimization as long-standing patterns within our human family.

How does one come to really know this?

It is from the deep radical self honesty of self-reflection, and learning to integrate our emotions and feelings on a daily basis which lifts one out of the hypnosis of falseness still being perpetrated across the entire planet. Self knowledge and clarity of emotions inform us directly from within, and in this way we have our own detectors for information. This interior state of feeling and emotional clarity carries significant more information that reveals purpose, direction, and many of the answers our humanity is seeking. It comes from within self. Within each person one at a time, day by day. And our connection to this interior place is our own sovereign life force in us, as us.

It is quite simple.

The big AHAA, is that each of us has this capacity built inside us and we can increase, develop, and maintain this if we so desire. Thus diminishing our sense of victimization and lack of knowledge about any subject.

One has to walk the path of emotional honesty so completely that this becomes obvious, and not until one has cultivated this to a significant degree will it become so obvious and relevant.

To persevere in the face of ignorance, denials, and the habits of being a “follower” and to shift into knowledge, acceptance, and self sovereignty is how we learn to truly grow up. To learn to take the substances of our dally lives and utilize this material as a learning lab for our spiritual selves and to rise through it all.

Our humanity is venturing forward now in larger ways towards a collective wake up, a collective leap into our own larger capacity to hold vastly greater amounts of information which can generate tremendous new self-knowledge. More and more people are becoming aware of the lies that are being perpetrated all over the world, as well as all the corruption. How we feel about all this and what we do about it will depend on our capacity to feel our feelings. Is retaliation really the best way, is power over others, is emotional immaturity really working?

We are learning to discover how emotional maturity really feels, and how this redirects us into better life choices. Our learning curve is huge here as we have so very far we can go. Our future generations of humans will be riding on the decisions we make now. And I can tell you that this is very essential to integrate as another form of emotional maturity… that we realize the actual consequences of our actions without repeating the same victimization and violence over and over and over.

To shift into a better capacity to handle increasing intensities, choose radical self honesty!

Instead of the same emotional denial and reactionary patterns we usually have in our life patterns we can choose radical self honesty. Radical and profound self honesty has the capacity to withstand the intensity. It has the capacity to drive through difficulty, and to align us with much more powerful forces available to us for manifesting reality. This honesty will diminish your ego, tear your “so called” self importance down, it will deconstruct and reconstruct an improved you.

Getting though all the pain.

The transformation of our humanity is passing through this in each of us as we learn to let go and allow for a better way inside our selves. As we learn to release our pain and suffering, our sorrows filter to the surface to be released.

As the tears of our sorrows empty out our eyes begin to fill with new vision.

We birth into ourselves something new, and this requires all the self honesty one can muster at any single moment. It is all worth it.

Personal freedom precedes all other forms of freedom, and cannot be taken away once one has brought self into the frequencies of radical self honesty. It is powerful beyond any politics, any religious teaching, anything external. This is because it is the living essence of truth within as you.

Truth fullness as a self expressed aspect of who and what we are as spiritual beings having a human experience.

The somewhat confusing reality of our lives.

That our humanity is filled with twists and turns is how we re-position our attention.

We shift our possibility as we go along and make many corrections.

This is the remarkable flexibility of our emotions and feelings that empower our species.

Truly astounding.

We are all so much more than we thought ourselves to be, or anyone has told us.

We can discover this without permission, without anyone needing to do this for us. It is a singular experience, one day at a time, one person at a time. This is the dawn of the transformation of our humanity!

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How We Give Power to our Emotions Without Being Aware, core spirituality, my personal journey

How We Give Power to our Emotions without being aware, core spirituality, my personal journey

Healing the negatives in our lives.

When we hold back and stuff emotions inside us we carry around these feelings and they are the vibrations that grow and shape our subconscious, our internal health… and the way our cells reproduce.

Contrary to the idea that if we ignore, hide, delude, or “forget”, we give more energy and power to feelings whenever we contain them. They do not go away.

Our physical bodies, and our minds hold on to the feelings and this results from prior intentions of escapism and denial or overwhelm, which are actual forms of energy.

Emotions and feeling as forms of ENERGY.

The energy we produce by resisting our feelings actually gives more power to those feelings.

We often do stuff emotions in different phases of our lives.

And so it goes we can have an inner child that stuffed emotions, an inner teenager, an earlier young adult version, all in our past still stuffing feelings. Even after we have learned not to do that as adults. These emotions linger inside us from previous unconscious growing phases that we have lived out already. This can show up in the form of memories, difficult conflicts that were left unresolved, victimization experiences, and any form of toxic emotional manipulation or mind control by people close to us.

Ways unexpressed emotions, stuffed feelings, and denial take shape in our now-adult lives.

The power our feelings have does not stop because we choose not to look at them, often these unresolved emotions transform into all manner of physical, mental and emotional shielding, defense mechanisms that become habit, mysterious body aches, and many forms of sickness that have all manner of allopathic medical diagnosis. Without emotional depth and maturity, emotional integrity, emotional awareness, and emotional strength our feelings take shape inside us and redirect the course of our lives in surprising ways THAT TAKE AWAY FROM OUR SENSE OF BALANCE AND EQUILIBRIUM AS ADULTS.

As a transpersonal hypnotherapist I learned how all of this is absolutely true. I learned by witnessing clients, and how stuffed emotions, left untended can destroy the full capacity of a human being to live a fruitful, open-minded, healthy existence. And so when I encounter the unhappy state of many body symptoms which are presented to me as a massage therapist I often encounter unexpressed emotions in clients.

One reason we can contain our emotions!

Unexpressed emotions are waiting, held in time, within us as a component of our ability to handle difficult situations, or unacceptable ones until a time that we can process. No one wants to go to the dentist who is horribly angry from a difficult confrontation that occurred earlier that day. So we are able to suspend our feelings in order to deal with them. It is when we habitually deny those feelings, ignore them, and hold on to them that our problems begin to develop. However for children this is a bit different and all of us have the common experience of having grown up through our childhoods.

Children are emotionally important for these reasons.

Children, young teens all feel quite more purely, even if they do not understand what they feel. As children and young adults our little neurological systems, our little physical bodies, and our little minds cannot process many of the adult feelings and emotions that are put upon us. These adult feelings are far to great for a little one. However we live with adults who in their unconscious ways put on us as children, all manner of stories which have elements of emotion and feeling that are completely inappropriate for small humans. The effects of this are felt in the little minds and bodies of children and are a large source of overwhelm, are often not understood, nor are they processed and so they are not even accepted. Adults forget this a lot and lay many overwhelming emotions they are having on young people with the expectations that they can handle this, not so. Overwhelm is the result, and this all plays into the developing person which will all come out later in life in some form of deviation, misunderstanding, brokenness, or physical ailment or all of the above.

It is all too common for a child to grow and never process an overwhelming emotional scenario. When this occurs splits in the emotional body are created that as adults will confuse. Often these emotions seem to be without cause, only in that the conscious grown adult has little or no memory, or past experience in completing the processing of the original situation.

It takes some digging, some self-reflection, and a deepening of self honesty to allow the full expression of past pains, conflicts, and emotional scars to surface so they can heal. For this reason stuffing emotions carries a promise of future inner work that one day will solve the puzzle of the emotional turmoil, and mysterious malingering body aches of the present day adult.

Healing our feelings is not subject to a time line.

In all truthfulness we only have our now moments, and we can access any past incident by bringing up to our now moment. Regardless of the amount of time that has passed from an original emotional incident, my experience has been that the inner child can still feel, still process, and still heal completely as an adult. In my own case l learned to have the mantra….”its never to late to have a happy childhood!” as I learned to allow my inner little boy, my inner teenager, and my inner young adult self to be able to have permission to FEEL MY FEELINGS!

Thus using the power of my present day adult self to give back to my inner child selves all the opportunities to express my feelings and emotions. No matter how painful, horrible, unhappy, unjust, or miserable they were. I found that as I allowed myself to feel, feel more deeply now, many of my own unresolved emotions came bubbling up to the surface of my life to be reexamined and accepted in a new light. I continue to have a happy childhood now, and this is just great. There is no time limit on that either!

Perhaps the reason so many people are reluctant to allow themselves to FEEL DEEPLY, is because of the loaded subconscious memories, or emotions, or an overwhelming single event that still is hidden deep inside.

The fear that originally caused the overwhelming feelings, and the stuffing of emotions is a significant component to being able to allow ourselves access to the emotions.

Those old voices of parents, teachers, coaches, and other authorities that were in our lives are still locked into our emotional bodies and continue to play over and over and over again. The fear that holds us back acts as a container inside us.

Face the fears , we must.

For this reason when we do find that we have elements of fear it is valuable to open the fear in our “now safe” way. For originally there may not have been a “perception” of safety and so the fear surrounded the original experience inside us. Facing that fear around any unacceptable emotion or feeling is the first step in learning to grow out of the limits of a fear based reality into the wide open space of personal freedom and self-expression. This develops immense integrity and opens our feelings to having the possibility of maturity. Maturity of emotions is the soul goal here.

Integrity and emotional maturity is the result of fully processing any unfinished business within ourselves. As the pieces of our broken understanding, our broken self images, our broken story lines begin to come together in new ways of seeing.

Often we will have to engage more heart with ourselves to be able to pass through the dark hall of fear that leads to our emotions.

This self-love that develops brings such a depth of integrity to any past unloved situation that the transformation is remarkable. It is completely true that a person can heal themselves long after any incident of broken heart-ed, miserable pain has occurred. This is another reason why it is so valuable to realize that when we ignore emotions we are actually making them grow stronger, even though we “think” we are doing the opposite.

Deep unresolved difficult emotional patterns that wreak havoc on our lives.

Having done many years of my own personal resolution, healing my feelings, and my work with clients seeking to heal the really difficult emotional patterns, I have come to be aware that as souls we have emotional themes that we are born here to live through and to work out. These soul purposes can have very dark, uncomfortable, painful emotional depth. Often a person will wonder why they have been born into such circumstances that would cause them such pain, or the question “why me” surfaces. For these reasons it is also wise to consider that there may be a soul reason for all this.

Soul growth is real.

That our souls know this earthly domain is a place where we may explore the very depths of emotion is the powerful side to acceptance here for emotional integrity. The soul that we are chooses the time, place, circumstance, and people to be involved in out “growth experience”. We then incarnate into the situations that are most closely aligned with the emotional experiences we are here to encounter. We allow this from our more open soul selves before incarnating where we are vastly more wide open. After we embody here and begin to develop a personality we encounter these emotional situations as part of our individual soul plan. From what I have observed, we do this because our lives are so short in most embodiments here that we are not able to always complete every emotional theme we begin. Thus we incarnate into many lives so that our intention to understand and learn from specific emotions become complete. Which leads me to previous life emotional patterns.

We are born with tendencies of all kinds. Many of which are the tones of feeling we carry into our lives as newly incarnated beings. We continue these emotional themes so that we can continue to learn until such time as the soul self is whole and complete in the understandings of the particular theme. For this reason we change places in our different embodiment’s and play the different roles pertaining to any one emotional theme. In one we are the perpetrator, another we are the victim, in still another we may be the therapist. We can be the husband one time, the wife another, and the friend in still another. As we go around the experience we gather every side of it and the soul is infused with knowledge, understanding and is more as a result. This is why some lives we see people who are the victims, yet without the soul sight, we do not see their purpose in the role they are suffering. The soul self is seeking to balance itself through each experience.

All this is particularly true with the really difficult emotional themes. Our souls are actually not just starting out at the beginning of the this life time. The soul has been working on these emotions for many lives and is still intent on getting the whole picture. So even in victim-hood there is an underlying soul reason unfolding. Because patterns are so strong and so deep inside us we use these many lives to learn how to embrace all the feelings that make up an emotional pattern.

Emotional patterns contain many feelings.

Because emotional patterns have many feelings we will revisit emotions many times. It is pretty common for a person to say… “I thought I already took care of this” when a feeling resurfaces, or a situation reappears.

Not so… for actually there are more feelings in the pattern seeking to be understood and processed. For this reason we repeat, and have many encounters with certain emotional themes. There are layers of feelings inside us that need our attention and we are simply dipping down into another layer of those feelings so we can address what those feelings are and learn to accept and take care of more of what our experiences offer us. In this way we become whole and eventually we heal.

I know this from personal experience because I have arrived at that point when a particular emotional theme is complete and my need to experience it is finished. The feeling of completion is ecstatic, unquestionable and always transforms my entire person in some way. Transforming my life experience so that I attract totally different, new, and better situations. My heart and depth of love, as well as my compassion and self understanding becomes immensely more open. And my knowledge of life becomes something that I cherish, rather than ignore, hide from, or delude myself. I feel a deep gratitude, even though I may have suffered. The gratitude replaces all the suffering.

How we give power to our emotions without knowing it is what happens when we ignore, stuff, or delude our selves, how we give power to our emotions be becoming accepting and willing to process is the other choice. We all go through them all.

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Denial….. Our Own True Greatest Enemy…Breaking Out of Our Shared Agony, core spirituality

Denial….. Our Own True Greatest Enemy…Breaking Out of Our Shared Agony, core spirituality

The media of our times, elements of the religiosity of our times, the political climate of our times is messaging us daily about who and what our enemies truly are with a speed, and tone that overrides the intellect and is so pervasive that the group begins to accept many of the pointers… the talking heads and we lose sight of the genuine enemy that underlies, undermines our core life experiences.

Our own internal denial shapes our innermost intimate and valuable places, beyond any outer person, group, or ideology.

Denial is considered one of the most primitive of the defense mechanisms in human beings psychologically. Denial is one of the pervasive of all human traits and is more common that we think. Denial is both insidious and blatant with a wide spectrum in between. Denial is so common that we usually project it on to others without a single thought.

Our world culture is swimming in it like fish in water. (well worth pondering)

What is denial in its many forms?

Denial is the refusal to, the ignoring of, the looking away from, the hiding of….. truth from ourselves AND OUR LOVED ONES, and the world around us. The truth of our innate, honest, spiritual nature. Our cosmic bearings as spiritual beings having a human experience. A universal truthfulness and all that this contains for us as a species, as individuals.

When denial has become normalized.

Denial is so covert that the manner in which it is passed on from one generation to another is considered normal and healthy. Sanctioned by people in just about every walk of life! Sanctioned and perpetrated by many places in society, education, religion, government,military, science, ad infinitum.

Our churches, schools, parents, our global soldiers, our governments, our politicians, our teachers, our scientists, are exercising massive forms of cover up which prevent the actualization of world peace, global harmony, world understanding, and then perpetrate victimization and violence on a scale of such magnitude that our entire planet is covered in separation, delusion, and mayhem, with massively dangerous weapons and all manner of killing capability.

We now seem to consider this dangerous situation one that is normal?

What we have now is…

Collectively we are a body of individuals gathered together merging our ideas based in all manner of denial and producing a world that is about to get some big wake up calls. We are reaching a zenith in our self-made agony. It is not over yet. There is still more to learn about our human experiences.

The NORMAL ways we are programmed to use denial.

We use denial to refuse each other in so many ways in efforts to control outcomes, to control people and this is covertly done under the guise of every conceivable excuse and reasoning.

We refuse to honor so much so …that it is intrinsically universal about us as a species instead choosing to repeat our mental and emotional habits of separation, differences, creating all manner of classicism, righteousness, superiority in almost every sector of society we literally deny the reality of how we have so much in this world for so many. It is time we stop pretending!

What can I do about this horrendous, insidious, negative, violent situation?

I learn how to accept and process all my own denials in any form I discover and I hold this as a valuable component of freeing my own spiritual self on a day-to-day basis.

Holding beliefs on their own , talking a good talk does not replace the actualization of facing and process denial.

Perhaps the most powerful place to start when choosing to consider denial and its power over us in life is to begin to identify how we use self-deception, self-delusion, and self-denial as normal ways to navigate through the uncomfortable scenarios inside us. There is no greater way to stop the insidious activity of denial… then by cleaning up denial inside myself.

This creates a space of integrity whereby anyone living in denial will not have a willing participant to go along with them and the chain of toxic behavior ceases or go away. I cannot change you…. I CAN CHANGE MYSELF!

The negative feeling we have about the world, what goes on around us? These are actually our own unprocessed emotions, thoughts and feelings. All inside the self…and reflect to us valuable signals about how it is we are, one by one, creating this world.

When we choose to remain present in the face of difference, in the face of opposing points of view and to see clearly where our enemy is we stop the projecting of our denials. ( the real enemy of us… within )We open our capacity to realize how easily my own unspoken and unconsciously held issues are anchored in beliefs of righteous projection and I stop this with my intent. The action of genuine processing of denial increases self honesty, which aligns my person with the core spiritual self in often surprising new ways.

What happens when I let go of self-delusion, denial ?

When denials fall away I am left with pure consciousness of my own spiritual essence and this informs me far beyond man-made rules, obligations, dogmas, religious beliefs, and so on. That we each are made of a substance which is the same is a startling experience when we have long believed we are all separate and limited by the beliefs we have energized through our inherited ancestry, or our socialization process growing out of the parental frameworks.

My experience has been in my own family of pulling away, as I no longer felt the impulses to feed myself into the accepted norms of denial around me. Not playing by the game, by agreements has often created distance between people. As I have learned to stop my own actions of distancing myself because I no longer participate in the agendas, beliefs, and patterns of denial I have learned to hold the space for togetherness even as we are different, when ever I can muster up this within myself I am surprised by the capacity I am able to remain in a state of mutual respect without the agreements that we socially put on one another.

My own capacity to embrace whatever I may not agree with is surrounded by a grace like form of compassion and deeper understanding which drops in to replace the old patterns. This is one of the main reasons for doing the work of clearing out my own self deceptions, delusions.

This heals misunderstandings, pathology of all kinds, and in so doing opens my heart mind to wider spectrum’s of genuine love….. truly an amazing experience. One that a person cannot truly hold inside themselves until they have done this internal work.

This is the process of “waking up”. Waking up to what it is I am investing my thoughts, feelings, and actions that no longer serves the greater whole. Nor does it align with core universal spirituality. I experience both the awful feeling of deflation of ego, and the awesome upliftment of fantastic spiritual AHAA’S. My person goes through transformations that redesign and realign me with much broader spectrum’s of life. And this feels much better to me. Staying “asleep” or unconscious has begun to feel uncomfortable and my life themes are taking on whole new vision and energy. None of this is possible through the action of projecting my beliefs, ideas, or notions of what is right onto anyone else, any group, any family member. It just has to arise from within self to work and to become long-lasting and uplifting.

As a spiritual being having a human experience it is my perception that we take on all these illusions, delusions, deceptions as part of the current human agenda for each lifetime. This is not intrinsically a bad thing.

It is our classroom for learning as we sort out identity, and direction.

To judge others because they are locked into their beliefs, and their stories of pain and suffering does nothing but hold them in those boxes. something I do not want to do to anyone.

Thus I shift the emphasis on changing them, and the world by changing my self, and my world.

This works much, much better and generates real long-lasting transformations.

For this reason I am on vigilant watch inside me, to make sure I catch my own projecting, my own judgmentalness, and my own limiting negativity.

It is really a very arduous task indeed. It is so commonly accepted to blame others, to point the fingers toward another, to malinger in pain and sadness, to stay in a sleepy victim state. For this reason I spend time with myself in silence, in nature, and I take time to meditate. While I grow my own stronger personal spiritual sense of myself beyond the maddening crowds, lost souls, talking heads, medical authorities, political manipulaters, social critics, bigoted religious leaders and so on. It is simply no longer worth my time or my energy to give in to them any longer. It simply is not.

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THE BIGGEST CLUE I FOUND TO HEALING ANY FORM OF DENIAL I AM UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT IN A PERSON, GROUP OR THE WORLD?

When ever i recognize denial in any form around me and think it belongs to some one else, or group or place in the world…. i turn it around and find what it is in myself i am in denial about. Every time i do this and take care of me i lift another piece of madness out and away from the place i exist. The action is always to go inside self using the clues.

Inspired by my visit to ohana in the pacific northwest

Acceptance without agreement leads to a new paradigm of living… core spirituality, my personal journey

Acceptance without agreement leads to a new paradigm of living… core spirituality, my personal journey

Whenever we can hold an open space of acceptance in the face of opposing views with genuine goodness and resist being judgmental we generate a third space between us. The field of space that is generated by opposing views is still very connected and the typical dynamic of separation ceases. We become connected in the awareness of separate visions yet common ground as a dominant dynamic of social behavior.

We are all living out being our human selves. Our shared humanity becomes the next focus of our action. Instead of me versus you, or me versus the world.

When we can embrace opposing views in this way we activate a kind of intelligence which is larger than the polarity of our differences.

This other kind of intelligence arises from the common ground of our shared experience and makes room for the differences while maintaining connection with one another. This intelligence becomes a new place from which to view ourselves and our thinking, beliefs, and what it is that may need to be understood with greater depth and clarity. Without this intelligence we remain in a kind of personal and collective stand-off with one another that locks the differences into their polarities and perpetrates limitation and unresolved feelings. This is futile as it prevents the next octave or level of awareness from rising out of the differences. Stale mates, confusion, aggression, misunderstandings, and violence grow and become the outcome.

When we can psychically, mentally, and with our sense of inner presence allow another who is not the same as ourselves the same respect and honor, as spiritual beings having a human experience we open to new paradigms of intelligence that will find the solutions, understandings, meanings, and significance of our differences. This psychic space which is a third zone of perception maintains continued dialogues in ways that deepen any opposing points of view revealing material, and information previously unknown and certainly unexpected. In this way we ignite intelligence in new ways that bring new discovery. There is almost always more to learn, to understand, and to process in any conflict, opposition, or difference amongst ourselves.

The dangerous habit of shut down, and learning to find this in myself.

I’ve learned about myself that it is simply a mindset, a human behavior to shut down when ever a powerful opposing view is expressed to my own. Shutting down and the hidden feelings of judgment sit just below the surface of my own thinking and acting.

This is a common pattern among us as humans. Turning away our attention because someone may express something so different from ourselves.

I find that I have even diminished my own self expressions as a result of these kinds of interactions. My own human behavior limits me and in this way I stay in self perpetrated separation with others.

Dwelling upon this dynamic is quite enlightening and reveals tons of human behavior patterns that ultimately end up creating negative situations. Negative situations in our own minds and bodies and in the world around us.

This is all self-generated by each of us as we participate unconsciously and habitually to another person or group differences.

We can see this pattern in people practicing many religions,

people from different life styles,

people of different colors,

people with different political views,

people in different social classes,

people from different cultures,

people who eat different foods,

people who adhere to scientific theories,

people who work in different sub categories of life,

people who simply dress differently, have different hair styles, it grows to levels of stupidity…. really.

The universal impulse to belong.

In our culture belonging is socially significant and a primary universal experience encoded within us, so anyone who is of color, has a different culture from ourselves, has a different lifestyle, loves someone of a different gender, or even changes their gender are all subject to the negative effects of separatist, or non inclusive socialization in the larger group. I have lived with this my entire life as a gay identified man and know just exactly what I am speaking about.

The remarkable outcome of directly opposing points of view.

The remarkable possibility that arises from oppositions, especially directly opposite ones is how they actually arise out of the same source thought yet are the polarized differences to the furthest spectrum of the idea. I have found how this literally will show me the many facets of any one situation with detail, as from one end to the other of a spectrum there is the whole picture.From the very positive to the very negative. So all the people who are in separation because of their religious beliefs, really they are all stemming from their ideas of Source, or ultimately God. They have this in common and express the widest possible notions of difference in how to perceive this one thing.

When ever I encounter people expressing their differences I like to say to myself, “just wait” because whenever one person breaks out of their shut down side of opinion, this third level of awareness automatically pops up and suddenly they are able to see another view, while perhaps not agreeing. The next step is to embrace the person or group anyway and hold out for the option to connect anyway. I have practiced this many times in my life.

When I learn to remain open to differences, and even direct oppositions I most likely find myself learning something valuable. I typically learn how to drop my own preconceived ideas based in some form of my own judgments. My place of understanding stretches beyond my previous held convictions. While this does not always lead into agreement it does lead into mutual respect, honor, integrity, understanding, and even love.

We as humans in our society for the most part have all been repeatedly educated in a common way, indoctrinated in similar ways, and we form habits out of these places. When we cultivate acceptance in the face of disagreements and stay open we shorten the gaps between ourselves as people and groups and shift the paradigm of human belonging from the old style of exclusive to inclusive.

This generates a kind of harmony within. Inclusiveness actually feels good the more we learn to enlarge upon this in our lives. The common ground we share becomes highlighted in delightful ways and as socialized beings we receive feelings of goodness in ourselves and for one another. I have reached this many times in difficult situations where I let down my own prejudices, and beliefs which contained hidden messages of … “my ideas are better than yours”. I have found this is not always true, and besides not all people actually are in the same place at the same time in their awareness of anything. Divisiveness becomes something that I no longer want to participate in and I realize how silly I may have been. I stop projecting onto others my own separation. I take responsibility for myself and this responsibility carries weight and substance in this third field. A weight and substance that holds “we” and not just “me”!

Are  problems in our world associated with our differences which can turn into pure oppositions? Yes, and to inwardly continue to live at odds with others from inside myself no longer feels good.

I find how this begins to lighten.

And I don’t find myself having to, or automatically reacting to the news, to the radio, to anyone else in the same way. I find myself accepting that in our world everyone is learning, whether they realize it or not. I do. So I can move on and live my life caring, and compassionate in this world full of so much incredible, awful, awesome, magnificent diversity. Acceptance without agreement is possible.

Mutual respect,

Caring,

universal understanding,

connection,

and intuitive learning all arise as we learn to move to the next level in our human relationships.

Core spirituality… my personal journey of self investigation

shared in the spirit of Aloha

Inspired by my visit to the Pacific Northwest with my ohana

“Holding Space”for Differences…core spirituality, my personal journey

“Holding Space” for Differences…core spirituality, my personal journey

What is “holding space” for differences, and what will this do for me and you?

Holding space refers to the attention I place on withholding judgments while I am in the presence of a person or persons who are expressing a point of view different from my own.

While holding this space I defer expressing my own emotions outwardly in an effort to authentically listen and observe someone else’s point of view, however different from my own with the genuine intention to embrace differences.

The psychic space of holding an active form of attention while in the presence of a completely different point of view allows the inclusive quality I deeply cherish and seek to make room for in this world.

This action, on a deeper level has acceptance as a basis, without agreement.

Yes without agreement.

I have learned how easy it is for me to have complete acceptance of beliefs, ideas, and notions that others may express without my need to do anything except generate authentic acceptance. I do not have to agree! And I love this feeling.

Our mutual futures!

This will be a necessary component of building better relationships based on my desire to align myself with the principle of true compassion, authentic safe expression, and genuine connection even though I may not agree whatsoever with another person or group.

The act of holding space like this allows for the lifting of tensions felt yet not expressed because of holding different points of view. The act of holding space generates a new space,, a third space, where conflicts are allowed to surface, or opposing viewpoints are expressed without negative effects.

While at the same time allowing myself to have my own point of view without having to give up anything except perhaps my own judgmental-ness. Which in fact feels quite good to recognize within myself as I prefer to let that go whenever I discover it within me.

Holding space requires self-determination with another in mind.

The focus intentions become we instead of me. Determination to include differences or even completely opposing standpoints. Determining to focus on what is mutual beyond the differences.

What is mutual when we are in opposition?

What is mutual is many things. For example we are all spiritual beings discovering our human selves, through the living out of our different points of view. We have this in common as most people may share points of view they are rarely identical in 100% of all the factors because we each embody different spaces.

Not everyone holds this point of view, however since I do hold it, this is the way I see us and so I am able to let go of wanting anyone else to agree with me. My own viewpoint is enough for me until I need to embrace you…. with whatever difference you bring to the table.

What is mutual may be the driving force behind our differences, which many times is identical in nature yet completely opposing in form and expression. When two parents act out of their desire to fulfill their roles to their children their love may be quite similar and even identical, yet their form of expression may be totally in opposition. Which place would you rather be? Opposed to one another, or mutual in understanding the driving force behind the actions? This is all a matter of clearing up our perceptions, and learning how to stop projecting, judging, and boxing one another up into our own little ideas. What is the value in not boxing up others into our little opinions of each other?

We are designed in such a way that different points of view actually serve us. These differences stimulate our mutual growth and evolution. And that could also be another way we are similar, yet different, we are all growing, yet in different ways. See?

How we learn to get along here is multiplied by the sheer numbers of human beings inhabiting the surface of this planet. We have a lot of us here now to contend with as we learn about how diverse our humanity actually is right now. At the same time there are new levels of universal understanding arising to assist each of us on this journey. We have options. We have lots of options with which we may choose to live in greater harmony even while we are different.

We do not have to hold the same beliefs or points of view to get along!

Because you believe differently does not diminish my own place here, it does not take away from my own experiences, my own core values. We can get along with our differences!

For those people still exerting their wills on others, filling up the medias with the idea that they have the “right way” the “only way” or the ‘best way” and need agreement to feel safe…. I say grow up.

It is time to allow others the same respect you give yourself, the same rights you give yourself.

Would it be easier if we all thought the same, acted the same, believed the same,looked the same, dressed the same, blah blah blah?

Yes it would if our design was a hive, a hive society like bees, or insects. However this is not the reality we live. There are forces in this world seeking to dominate, control, and manipulate. There are forces that have been actively using covert forms of this and hypnosis to have things their way for many many generations now. These people live in religions, live in governments, live in businesses, live in groups all over our world.

They have a big wake up call coming because it doesn’t work. ( it is only a matter of time passing as more and more humans are awakening)

We are simply too rich in our human gene pool, too rich in our diversity for this to actually have a long-term harmonizing benefit.

If we were a hive species, then yes it would, but that is not the case. We are richly full of such diverse magnitude that we are a stunningly amazing species of beings. Our world culture is so rich with so many interesting, different people with whom our songs are truly magnificent. Our humanity can make such fine music out of the richness of our differences, yet combine through the sound and rhythm . We are a glorious species when we join together in these ways.

I have spent a lifetime enjoying this world through travel. I have been fortunate to have visited at last count over 75 countries, lived in homes all over the world and participated in peaceful sharing of our diversity and I know from personal experiences that which I am speaking. This is no Polly Anna thing! It is my experience. When I was a young man of just 17 years of age I participated in a global experience representing myself in the world. This experience consisted of about 125 people from 23 countries who did not all speak the same languages, eat the same foods, believe the same things. We lived together for a year, traveling all over North America and Europe. We lived with host families wherever we could. This experience was called Up With People! Our cast successfully created a world blending of individuals with mutual understanding and tremendous love for one another, and this world through our intentions to get along and to develop understanding. This was a powerful experience for me in my teens that has grown deeper throughout my entire life. I will never forget this and it’s effects have shaped my entire adult life. I know because I experienced this.

Holding space for each other does take practice.

Well worth any effort any of us give it, as we learn how to enjoy this life and all the diversity. Are you a different color person, are you an elder, are you a foreigner, a christian, a Jew, are you gay, or transgender, are you a republican, a democrat or a nothing at all, a military person, a peace activist? See how many different experiences we have here to learn something. To learn to get along, and to see each others place?

My difference from you will not undermine your place because I exist.

Your difference from me will not undermine my place because you exist.

A new paradigm, acceptance without agreement.

Mutual respect.

Universal understanding in action.

One day at a time, one person at a time, one conversation at a time.

This is my experience.

Core spirituality… my personal journey

Inspired by my visit to the Pacific Northwest visit with my ohana

12 Worst Ideas Religion Has Unleashed On The World

In the great shift of our times is the transition from finding answers to life externally thru authority created by others to finding answers within thru our internal self authority.

Historically we can learn to recognize the damaging effects of some of the man made ideas, rules, beliefs created and perpetrated by human beings thru religions.

In my own quest for pure authenticity i have had to reexamine those beliefs in religions that do not serve myself, or the collective well being of our species. The fact than many people have been murdered, injured, wounded, or cast out of their families as a result of these particular religious beliefs is well worth reexamining.

i am posting this today as a vehicle for reflection and reexamination.

While at the same time the universal beliefs that support unconditional love, compassion, inclusion, mercy, and service to each other are also fine examples of ideas and beliefs in religions, my experience has shown me that not all of what religion has to tell us, or offer us is actually good for us.

These decisions are personal ones and each individual is free to examine and decide for themselves those beliefs they want to support.

In the spirit of discernment i like to post this article.

core spirituality, my personal journey of self examination

 

12 Worst Ideas Religion Has Unleashed On The World.

Jewels of Awareness, Opening Thru Facing the Difficult, core spirituality

This conversation is filled with jewels of awareness POSSIBBLE TO RECEIVE thru the openness that arises from facing difficult circumstances revealing the perspective of the soul.

That is to say a different point of view from the ego based, physical body awareness.

That we feel deeply and face our circumstances with our soul light shows how life is all transformative.

Terri Daniel is an interfaith minister , author, hospice worker and intuitive spiritual counselor.

Her knowledge is filled with “the way we perceive death is a choice “.

You may learn more about her story and life work at the following website.

http://www.danieldirect.net/

Terri is an author of the following books.

 

I resonate to the soul perspectives in life and I contemplate this as it relates to my own life circumstances. The reality of living is that we are all here for one another, regardless of which side of any equation we are on. We assist each other thru sharing the authentic awareness that arises from our experience. In this way we may elevate our awareness and life position from that of a mere mortal to that of our true soul. whenever we choose the path of our soul we are opened in unlimited new ways of viewing our life circumstances and how we feel. I find true comfort in the soulful places.

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Inspirational words that cause to pause…. core spirituality

“…LETS  WORK ON OUR CONVERSATIONS WITHONE ANOTHER…”

 

Alan Watts – What Did You Forget?

Meaningful conversation…. feeds our deepest selves not with lots of answers, no, opens us with questions.

A few minutes of listening which generate a cause to pause and reflect, to inquire and to see what shows up inside self.

The question is …Who are you?

 

THE MISSION OF ALOHA …… Aunty Aka

THE MISSION OF ALOHA | Aunty Aka
“It is our innate sense to love things unconditionally…It’s a symbiotic relationship and the acknowledgement of that symbiotic relationship that you have with everything in the universe around you and recognizing exactly your space within it.” – Aunty Aka

 

 

Criticism…core spirituality, my personal journey

 

Criticism…core spirituality, my personal journey

“Criticism is an incredible gift to receive, as well as a great opportunity to grow.”

Criticism a common form of sharing in our human exchanges. It is all too often a trait we use to get hurt or to hurt another. It is within the context of the painful effects of this I want to post this today. I have found about myself that I am particularly sensitive to this trait, in myself and others. In my effort to learn to heal this experience I have drawn from the following transcript of a Byron Katie exchange.

Here is an example of doing self inquiry with criticism and how I can re-look at this from a fresh perspective. My intention here is to maintain an open mind and get to the absolute truth with myself about this subject.

The process of self-inquiry reveals every form of self denial I may hold within myself about any unfinished business in my relationships.

Thru honest self-inquiry I am able to format my own way thru negative criticisms and learn to embrace my own negative traits. And return to an inner peace once I get to the truth…the absolute truth within me.

The power thoughts have inside us to hurt us is immense whenever we let these thoughts go unquestioned. This is the purpose of self-inquiry here. To really get a vivid clear picture of thoughts passing thru our heads and how these thoughts are actually a form of self hurt.

Here is the transcript …

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When someone said, “Katie, you are wrong, terrible, uncaring, etc.,” there was little to defend.

This awareness put me immediately into a space where I was available to hear the information in a way that could serve me. What could they say that I had not realized through inquiry for myself?
I didn’t suggest that they turn it around.

Rather, I said to them, either in my mind or aloud, “Thank you for sharing that.”

Given genuinely, that statement dispelled all defensiveness and left me free to go inside and find in myself what they were accusing me of.

If I noticed “hurt” somewhere within me, that was because I believed the criticism not to be true. If I wanted to end the war in my own mind, I looked for the criticism within myself. I have to see it to un-believe it.

If my neighbor says, “I’m angry because you lied to me,” and I go into defense, I am lost.

I’ve got a war going on.

But if I go inside and ask, “I lied to her. Is it true?” I may find, “Well, yes. I thought it was the truth at the time, and I can see how she would see it as a lie. The truth is I lied. It doesn’t always seem planned. I’m doing the best I can.”

That is giving myself the whole truth.

If I cannot find it with that person or that incident, rather than claiming innocence, I find some other place in my life where I have lied.

If my husband says, “You don’t care about me, Kate” I may not find it today, but I can go inside and find that for forty years I didn’t really care about anyone I begin to see once again through him that he is right.

I seek through him my own freedom. That’s my job. It’s not about pleasing him or changing him.

This is for my peace and understanding. This is self-inquiry. We’re taking a step into what it really means to see the enemy as a friend.

When someone says, “i hate you,” and I hear that literally, I may find, Wow. I hate me too sometimes.” Then there is no illusion of separation for me. We have the same experience in common. There is only awareness of the joining.

The enemy is the friend who brings me self-realization.

Being honest with myself and being vulnerable means that I can no longer hold the illusion of being manipulated.

There is just no place for criticism to stick. This truly is turning the other cheek.

It doesn’t mean I’m going to get hit. It’s like, “give me more please.” it’s a kiss, not a club that I use to hit myself with.

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here’s no one out there but a voice, my own voice, saying what I haven’t listened to closely enough.

That’s what’s so beautiful about living life openly and sanely.

No matter what anyone says if I’m upset. I know that I am the one who’s limited in the moment I know that it’s time to ask myself.

I judge my neighbor, write it down ask four questions, and turn it around.”

Bryon Katie Quote

( the work of self-inquiry is a 4 step question and answer sheet that can be found for free at the following web address

www.thework.com

Whenever I encounter criticisms, now, I am teaching myself to say, “thank you” mentally or out loud which ever is appropriate. I welcome the opportunity to look at this in myself. I want to be authentic, loving and open minded…. more and more and more. I welcome the opportunity of living and realize that these exchanges are valuable and can teach me about what it is I am thinking inside myself. I can learn to be still and find within myself all that this points to and I can choose to transform any of my old ideas, thoughts and feelings. I can learn to find peace within thru criticism.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Defensiveness… core spirituality, my personal journey

“Defense is the first act of war.”

“Victims are violent people.”

Byron Katie Quotes

Defensiveness starts it!

When I first took in this idea I saw in myself exactly how I have escalated things… thoughts, feelings, emotions, circumstances. Not only inside myself, but also around me involving others. I knew this was me and I knew it was right on.

So I look at this over and over in the context of taking apart any kind of personal suffering or pain that I have. The defensiveness points to something inside of myself that I am believing at the moment I have that thought.

I realize I must truly take a personal inventory because looking back I did not see how my own defensiveness began an act of violence… though in thought at first, there are deep consequences to my behavior to look at here.

 Thoughts inside us can hurt us, violent thoughts can become violent actions in the world. Tearing apart relationships and fueling pain and suffering. It starts with one person. In this instance I am looking at one person…. me.

The context of this inquiry for me is about honest reflection and has nothing to do with denials of any kind. This is about honesty in reviewing defensiveness is a way to recognize the feelings and the thoughts that create suffering. My intention here is to generate an open mind, and to tackle the thoughts that are making me feel badly.

It is my side of any equation where I am involved in a dispute, an argument, or a conflict. In this context I am willing to see how my side of any equation is for me and the how this is effecting my life.

I also find this inquiry to be revealing whenever I am invested in disputes, conflicts, or circumstances that look to be outside of myself… what may be happening in the world as I am viewing it. ( news of conflicts,war, fighting, family conflicts etc. fill the medias of today and have my entire lifetime) I find this well worth questioning.

The role of a victim has many sides to it in therapy. I have learned previously ( in therapeutic trainings of which I have many certificates) that the victim is the part of ourselves that lets us know we have been violated. The victim is the part of ourselves that cry’s out for help. All of that is true. And also what is true is how the victim’s defensiveness behavior sets into motion many more complicating effects. So in this examination it is not simply “the victim” I am looking at, it is the “defensive behaviors…thoughts, feelings” the victim in me experiences. This is important to discern in this context of inquiry.

I find the following transcription to be valuable in learning to look at defensiveness thoughts and feelings in a way that reveals the dynamic of self hurt.

{transcription of some of Katie’s words she spoke on a public event in Amsterdam 2004}

Woman: I would like to ask my question now…Does The Work always ask people to sort of criticize you?

Katie: To go in and ask yourself: could they be right?

Could that person be right?

Could it be true what they say about me?

And if I feel defended I know immediately that it IS true.

And defense is attack.

Defense is not a neutral position, it’s war.

You are the warrior. They didn’t start the war: YOU do.

Defense is the first act
of war. Victims are violent people.

Later, someone from the audience: could you go in to why victims are violent people?

Katie: Well, why would I say that? [But you did say it.]

Woman: What do you think what that means: victims are violent people?

Katie: If someone hurts you, you become defensive. Feel that inside of you: it’s war.

And then you talk about that person and you teach.

You teach what you talk about, like that person is terrible. So you teach if there is something terrible in the world. Feel that: it’s violent. Or you attack that person and everyone agrees you’re right. And now you have the “I am right cote” going and you get to be the leader.

[woman: yeah it’s true] It’s violent.

Katie: So, if you say something to me … You wanna know what grace is? Someone walks up and just slaps me across the face as hard as they can. That’s grace. You know why?

It’s over.

[woman: I don’t get that] Someone slaps me…

Katie: It is over! That’s grace!

Here’s what hell looks like: How dare they!

Who do they think they are?

Did you see what they did?

There was no reason for that!

How could they do such a thing; look what I have done.

And on, and on and on…Keeping the slap alive and alive and alive and alive… But that’s not enough: there’s YOUR face…After all: I’m justified…

You did it first: it’s your fault. It’s over…That’s grace…Understand?

Good. Who keeps violence going?

Well that would be YOU!

If you   If you experience violence within you in the name of any kind of justification it’s still violence.

The more you try to justify it, the more violent it can feel inside of you. And it’s ok…

We’re just noticing. That’s all..I do violence to me.

The person that hit me: that was merciful.

“They slapped me” is it true? Where’s my proof? Except for my thought…where’s my proof? It’s gone, it’s over, they slapped you…is it true?

Do you believe everything you think?

How do you react when you think that thought?

Violence…Violence…justified violence?…I don’t think so… Feel it.

That’s enough for me.

To feel that inside of me that’s enough for me.

It only takes one to end a war. Any thoughts? Victims are violent people.

I realize more and more the power of thinking… the thoughts we have, the thoughts we invest emotional time and energy cause the world I live in to be shaped. It is not until we learn to recognize it is our thoughts, singularly and collectively that create the living hells of this earthly experience.

Frequently in my past I have questioned God, and asked why would you allow all this? How could you let this happen to us? Why won’t you stop all the wars. The suffering, the pain?

Now as I come to awaken to seeing my thoughts and how they make me feel I realize the answer to all of these questions.

I am doing this to myself. We are doing this to ourselves.

We have made a world like this ourselves, our past ancestors for generations. We have built up whole systems of thinking and society out of such thoughts. Whole armies, nations with borders, and millions more structures based on the fears underneath the thoughts that arise out of defensiveness. This is an amazing realization.

Whenever I turn around any of my negative thoughts I find myself inside my heart where love is eternally loving me,loving life, showing me I am life itself as me and love is answer.

This is my wake up today and now everyday as I look forward to any time I find myself being defensive in any way. I can re-look at how this makes me feel and what I am actually doing that may be causing myself to feel hurt.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Amazing Near-Death Experience In Iraq – Natalie Sudman

Natalie Sudman worked as an archeologist in the Great Basin states for sixteen years before accepting a position managing construction contracts in Iraq. After being injured by a roadside bomb (improvised explosive device–IED), Natalie has since retired from government service. She is now enjoying art, writing, and continuing explorations into the non-physical.

Natalie Sudman has been a subject of studies performed by the University of Virginia’s Division of Perceptual Studies, and welcomes invitations to act as a lab rat for any scientific investigation. Describing herself as an open-minded skeptic, Natalie finds that the rigorous methodology of science appeals to her critical mind, while her artistic nature enjoys the expansive freedom of leaving behind the critical mind in frequent forays into the non-physical. She maintains that an irreverent sense of humor and a willingness to look foolish are the cornerstones of constructive exploration.

Her book is entitled : Application of Impossible Things, Out of Body in Iraq

I enjoy the experiences of those NDE’ers ( near death experiencers) because I have had hundreds of my own out of body experiences which began in my 20″s. My contacts with non ordinary experiences in other dimensions of reality have shown me how many kinds of reality actually do exist thru different dimensions. Primary to these experiences is relating to and integrating them into  my life here.

The awareness of how we are creating our reality, learning what this means, and my identification as a spiritual being having a human experience. To this day I have frequent inter-dimensional communications with those not here in physical body. These experiences have been the underlying basis for my own questioning of reality as a human being here and now.

Those who have passed thru the gateway of physical death, and returned carry information identical to those experiences I have had all my life. I enjoy the sharing of these experiences as I relate well to the different points of view these experiences cause, as they often contrast dramatically with the teachings, the current mass beliefs, and common points of view shared by millions here on earth.

My experiences have shown me that the increase of NDE’s are another catalyst in breaking free of the limiting thoughts and beliefs that arise from those thoughts common to our collective species passed down thru the ages thru families, religious beliefs, and social, political, and military thought. The advancement of awareness is seeded in real people having genuine experiences transformed by them and living in the collective world society of today. These shifts of consciousness serve the greater unfolding of a  broad based kind of self knowledge of who we really are, and what we are really doing here as spiritual beings having a human experience. NDE’S  vary as do the people that have them, however what is common to most of them is they point to a greater reality of loving, an unlimited form of god source that may include religious beliefs yet far surpasses those ideas.

It is my intention here by sharing these genuine stories, real people have had, and their transformations in consciousness to circulate these ideas so that others may have the opportunity to learn to open the mind. When really it is myself…. continuously learning to open my mind…. to open my thoughts.

My experience has shown repeatedly thru out this lifetime the tremendous value of my life by learning to cultivate an open mind by enriching my capacity to understand, have compassion, to let go, and to learn to see clearly what is before me. I am learning how to withdraw my engagement with and emotional investments into thoughts and those beliefs that do not align with my experiences in multi dimensional reality. I ask over and over… is this true? is this absolutely true?

Ultimately leading to an inner place of increasing personal freedom which underlies the natural essence of myself as a spiritual being…. having a human experience.

core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

What happens when we stop ignoring our stressful thoughts and beliefs about them

Listening in to a beautiful conversation….

Listening in on a conversation sparked by the words of Martin Luther King and his life of service. I found myself melting into a depth of heart as the conversation unfolded into the possibility each one of us has thru the choices we make to self enquire into what it is we think and believe inside our minds. Truly… It is not until we question what it is we are believing inside our heads, that we can honestly free ourselves from the suffering of our own creation. I am inspired here.