Hatred and Love, Shifting into Possibility.

Hatred and Love, Shifting into Possibility.

Core spirituality, my personal journey

We have not yet realized the power of our love and its capacity to heal the hate that is still held in our human family, our human minds and hearts and our beliefs. For what is hate really? Is it the refusal to love?

Love beckons!

The need we have to share this love for who we are and all that encompasses.

The need we have to be loved for who we are, and all that encompasses. Exists!

Love has much to do here, and through our trials and tragedies shows us how we can do better.

The morality of love is ever-present, and never-ending in its scope for expression in a world so full of hate, so full of hurt. There are many still captive to the darkened shadows of lovelessness. Yet love prevails in the face of it all!

I have experienced this hate in my life, and it is always hurtful. I have felt this in my family, my ohana. Love is my own primary response to heal that hurt. I have been tested many times.

Wherever there is any bigotry, any hate amongst us that leads to violence, that violence may be delivered in words, in emotions, or in actions.

However this may arise, our response can balance the equation of inequality and mis-perception for self.

The work of any perpetrator will have to also arise from within self. Ultimately this occurs within each of us, and so i consciously choose to do my own inner work and carry on.

These times are filled with many new opportunities to make better choices to love all that which we held outside ourselves …. up to now.

There is another reason for hate, arising from a  wound! The wounded self… 

A wounded mind, a wounded heart strikes out.

This wound in a man or woman, or child needs the love that can hold the wound and press forward to re balance what has passed in the wake of unimaginable pain. The sadness of these things is our heart crying to love.

And love we may permit ourselves, anyway. This is not just hurt alone with which we hold pain it is also our hearts yearning deeply from within to love and be loved.

Many hearts are crying on this planet… our world is opening to a long history of abuse, hurt, woundedness, and victimization.

The wound in our human family is felt because we can love, and we do not.

We hurt because we deeply need to be loved and to love. And only a real love breaks the bondage’s of confusion, pain and suffering.

Our refusal to surrender to love within ourselves is a painful one. Just as a pus must come out for a wound to heal, so too must the darkened thoughts and feelings arise so as to release what is preventing this love from being discovered.

Love is wise and powerful and will right what needs to be righted given a chance. Love is an action and not just an idea, as a verb it is moving energy. Love as an action inside each of us moves us all. Love in this way is universal and leads us to our mutuality. Our universal place of oneness through diversity.

Love is accountable and as such takes new footing in responsible action with regard to hate and the violence that results. It will take a lot of love to overcome a lot of hate in this world. For every bigoted idea, every injurious hatred still held, love seeks a surrender. Love seeks a surrender in any individual imprisoned by such notions. Love seeks a way through our world just as a stream will find any crack in the land to further its own outward flow.

The cracks in our world are those still in darkness. The darkness of the un-awakened heart. And so every tragedy holds open the moment long enough for that love to come through, even if just a tiny bit.

As “WITNESS” to hatred unfolds on a mass level through media this provides infinite new probabilities for re examinations on infinite new ways for our human perception. And to reevaluate how we decide what needs to be in our world.

Re examine everything that is about hate and violence and our need to express this. How meaningful it is that we embrace these feelings within our humanity and make new and different choices in our personal lives. The choice to love and be loved and to have this within authenticity.

Thus meaning is derived by the most base, most horrendous of any action. Without our individual re examinations we doom ourselves to repeat and repeat and repeat.

Love within each of us can provide meaningful purpose for that which seems meaningless.

Loving meaningful purpose arises now to lead us into our darkened hearts and out into our loving free new possibility. Much will change. And still there are those who hold tightly to their wounds. We can and will continue onward holding the possibility that at any moment anything can and will change, and change for the better. Though the path is full of darkness around us we hold a light within. We can have these conversations.

To learn to walk along a darkened path yet hold open and freely a light within. This is a new paradigm and one that can hold much safety and potential. For at any moment that inner light may reach a darkened place in someone, or some place around each of us. we can now learn to speak to that which holds us back and learn to open our hearts in new possibilities.

As the inner light within our humanity grows our capacity to overcome darkness around us increases. Thus we learn to illuminate our interior places. We learn to lighten our hearts, our minds and our bodies and bring newness to that which was old.

love is love is love is love is love is love

Beauty abounds! A gorgeous new orchid bloom in the garden

Allow nature to touch you deeply, truly… luminous phal. bloom in garden

Creativity… balances the heart and mind, new orchid project

Sometimes you gotta just let it happen… giant tomato plant takes over

Unusual Orchid in Re Bloom Today…. lasts for weeks!

Magnificent New Orchid bloom!

Early Morning Side Garden Walk Through with John Massage on Maui

Side garden view with 3 kinds of kale, broccoli, lilikoi, sweet potato, 4 varieties of basil, sage, parsley, chives, green onion, bromiliads, cacti, succulent bows, orchids, tilandsias, lemon grass, Tea Trees, and more!

New orchid blooms out my front door.

Re blooming Orchids is one of my hobbies here on Maui.

EGO Take-overs !…, Our Life Shifts Possible From Ego Awareness? … Core Spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

EGO Take-overs !…, Our Life Shifts Possible From Ego Awareness? … Core Spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Help!!!!!!! My own ego has taken me over and I can’t get up!

Conflicts, pain, suffering, confusions, and misunderstandings mixed with power issues. This is terrible! How frequently does my own ego jump in and take over me? And how covert is this anyway? Do other people’s egos over power you? Not only in the general public but also within the spiritual community.

Ego awareness is a tremendous form of self-awareness that opens us to our most valuable inner qualities. Looking into what and how our ego’s take hold and identifying behaviors can be an unnerving yet a most amazing way to get to our deepest authentic self. I decided to write down some of my own ego places and what I have learned by applying self honesty and getting to know my ego.

First of all I want to start by saying the ego is not bad, does not need to killed, erased or eliminated. The ego needs to learn… and to learn how to fit in with rest of the self. The path of the ego is the path of balancing the self in human form. There is nothing wrong with it until you become too uncomfortable, and then it is time to grow. It is the growth of consciousness within us and the balance we learn by applying self-awareness. Particularly ego awareness! That juxtaposes our egos into the best position within us to navigate our lives!

What is the ego?

The ego is that part of our consciousness that develops as singularity of self inside our consciousness and thus is the beginning of the development of our self-identity, self awareness and personal sense of individuality. The ego learns how to get by in the world, and typically sees itself as separate from everyone and everything.

The ego is a starting point for us and need not be the end point of our lives. We are all born into a spectrum of acting out as babies, little egos in the world discovering life.

In the beginning an ego thinks it is the sum total of ourselves… it thinks it is THE SELF! The ego learns to define life from its particular individualized point of view and is a valuable aspect of our human development, yet it is only one aspect of ourselves. I know I am in my ego state when I am seeing life as separate, am convinced in supporting opposing points of view that perpetrate power over others, with more separation scenarios and I am supporting more points of view that perpetrate unnecessary fear, and when I am caught in the act of diminishing others.

We all have had our journeys through our ego’s, and the ego’s of other people… parents, siblings, teachers, those in authority, politicians, scientists, specialists, pastors, religious leaders, leaders of all kinds. This planet is virtually overwhelmed with egotistical voices of authority, dominance, and suppression of true and valuable internal knowledge. Learning to navigate this world of the earthly based human ego is no small feat, they are everywhere in every aspect of our lives. One method of learning true navigation in this ego-based world society is to get to know your own ego.

Below I decided to share some of the incredible ego states I discovered in myself and that I have been learning to work through all my life. I love my ego. Much of it formed its opinions when I was unaware. And because I wasn’t paying attention at that time my ego states grew to ridiculous and many times problematic proportions. As I began to wake up and notice, it wasn’t you who was wreaking havoc with my life, it was my own ego I began to get to understand and know my ego.

Below are just some of the amazing ego take overs I have experienced that may trigger you to get to know your ego self. By loving and appreciating my ego and learning to forgive myself for my own lack of observation in this regard I am learning to re-balance myself with respect for and to my ego self. So here goes, here are some of my ego dilemmas.

I know I am in my ego when I see life as competition and allow myself to feel less than blessed in any situation or any moment.

I know I am in my ego when I am driven to fill myself up, out of a sense of emptiness. When I am eating out of emptiness, when I am compulsively seeking stimulation of any kind. I know I have left the grips of my ego when I return to wholeness, and I nurture my well being.

I know I am in the grips of my ego when I am looking outwards for my sense of right-ness, I have left my ego when I look inwards. My answers come from within me!

I know I am in my ego when I am stuck in any form of lack.

When I have bought into a reality of lack I lose my grounding. I know I have released the grip of my ego when I return to abundance. When I allow myself to rest within the greater truth that there is plenty, and plenty for all. Losing sight of abundance in any way signals me to get a grip. I choose not to perpetrate the ideas in the world which say there is not enough for everyone. That is simply a strange yet true form of ego takeover .

I know I am stuck in ego when I seek wisdom outside me, I know I have returned to my authentic self when I seek, wait, find, wisdom within myself. I cultivate and develop my ability to be wise. Wisdom discovered as a personal experience always replaces that which was from outside us.

I know I am in my ego state when I am in fear of endings, and my own mortality.

When I let go of this fear I go to my own internal space of the eternal. The eternal within me nourishes me and realign my attention towards truthfulness. I eliminate my outer emotional investments in false teachings, doctrines, and agreements that profess anything other than the actual truth, that our nature is eternal.

I know I am stuck in my ego when I am stuck on me.

When I am possessed by my own thoughts, feelings, situation, and positions to the exclusion of others. I know I have passed out of this when I get to we. Replacing me with we always shifts any difficult personal situation and reveals information that was withheld to our awareness because of the selfish nature we were investing ourselves!

I know I am stuck in ego when I cause pain to myself and others as a solution to me.

When I release myself from the grips of my own ego I cause healing. I always shift the equations from me to we and then I realize my own participation and power to truly heal. Healing takes many forms and simply implies wholeness. Anytime I can grab hold of another piece of my puzzle that contributes to being whole I am better off.

I know I am in my ego when I am driven to have outward recognition.

I have left that place when I seek my own inner authority. Inner authenticity is the expression that replaces any forms of compulsive outward recognition.

I know I am a victim of my circumstances and I feel how my ego causes me to be separate, less than, and diminished.

I leave this place when I return to my inner realization that I create my own reality. I shift my perceptions and return to my own resources within. My circumstances are my growing places and I do not intend to stay a victim in these places…. I can always learn something that will add to my spiritual awareness and thus support me in transforming, and transcending a situation.

I know I am in my ego when I fear the temporary nature of life.

When I let go of my ego I find I feel how awesome life can be, that it is constantly changing and that situations are temporary. When I am out of the grips of my ego I recognize a bigger picture unfolding and the greater realization that is unfolding for me to learn all about. I am grateful for the unlimited expression of the temporal nature of life.

I know I am stuck in my ego when I only see and feel how complicated things are.

I feel overwhelmed and victimized. When I let go of the grip of my ego mind I recognize the parts, I see how things fit together, I open myself to learning more. I learn to dismantle my overwhelms and I recognize patterns emerging for me to learn about. Simplicity replaces complication. Simplicity becomes my new theme.

I know that I am in an egotistical place when I I think I am more spiritual, or you are more spiritual than me.

When I think that what I am doing is more spiritual, and I notice the unconscious levels of superiority within me I am surely in an ego take over.. I know when I am getting into self-righteousness and superiority I am deep in my ego separations. I know I have released the pain this causes and the friction it generates when I return to the place of authentic spirituality and I recognize how spirit in all of us is unlimited in expression. I know that everything, and all actions are sourced from a spiritual domain. We are all on equal grounding as humans and our capacity to express our own spiritual directions has many colors, shapes and sizes. I see myself in you and my heart opens with loving attention and willingness to share. Unity replaces separation, and oneness replaces superiority.

I know I am in the grips of my ego when I am hard-hearted.

I let go of my strictness, my fixed-ness and I find compassion. When I return to compassion I allow myself to melt my own ego hardness. At any time I alow myself permission to change, and then to share this with those whom I have held my hard-heartedness.

I know I am in my ego when I get impatient and cause more negativity.

I let go my impatience and find remarkable new levels of patience inwardly. I move with patience and this informs me in totally new ways that assist the unfolding of whatever is going on. Slowing down enable me to be more capable of the details. Details I was missing when I was impatient.

I know I am in my ego grips when I am indifferent, and lackadaisical.

When I lose sight of and interest in the unfolding of circumstances around me and in the world. I let go of my egotistical grips and find myself happy and open-minded to pay attention and remain open. I seek to learn and understand where I refused to care. Caring replaces complacency.

I know I am in my ego when I allow my own mind to generate unrealistic fear about anything. Allowing myself to engage in fear based group mind thinking that is fear mongering, fear making, and fear based limits my authentic self-expression and connections to others, to differences and to opposing points of view. I know I have released my ego based hypnotized self when I begin to experience inner courage, strength, and genuine power. I see how fear is a stepping stone toward greater self-expression, and the possibility for developing group awareness. I see the problems, conflicts and have empathy arise within me to replace the frozen, limiting, hard perceptions that fear cause in my own human conditions.

Hostility is a sure sign I am in my ego self, and when I release this I learn to process the layers of my own feelings and thoughts in a way that reveal my true friendliness and willingness to cooperate. I learn to pay attention to issues that arise and I take care of what needs to be addressed. I refuse to allow myself to participate in social movements that perpetrate these hostilities.

I know that my ego has overtaken me when I am stuck in past and future life scenarios.

Unable to be present the endless playing of story lines, old conversations, and hurtful past experiences dominate my inner world. I can’t reach the future, yet it is the only place I want to escape. As I relinquish this ego trap I return to the “NOW” moment. I become capable of managing whatever arises because I am present for it.

Complaining all the time, is how I feel when I am stuck in ego states.

Instead of complaining I return to gratitude. When I shift into gratitude I release the endless negativity of relentless complaining and I feel a sense of acceptance with life that shows me how to transcend, and use my circumstances to grow.

War…. warring with others as a way of life or pattern of constantly battling is a sure sign I am in the grips of some egotistical state of my own creation.

Including national and international group notions of continual war. I know I am leaving the painful grips of my ego when I accept the possibility that peace is possible and I choose peace as a way to solve conflict. No matter how long it takes, or how it looks. Peace is the choice that replaces war, and restores the core spirituality, or soulful aspect into my life.

I peacefully engage my awareness to the problems of war and my own inner battles.

I shift my energy from outward to inward and I refresh my own attention to my inner battles.

I resolve my inner wars and restore my inner peace as a solution to the outer wars on this planet.

Peace is possible.

Intolerance is the uncomfortable act of ego grip that strangles the soul in the human form.

Whenever I recognize my own intolerance I shift into tolerance. I see my own limited self, my own limiting perceptions and I pull away from any and all forms of externally based intolerance. I stop the flow of this group mind behavior in myself. As I cultivate tolerance within me I contribute in the world in much more meaningful ways and I find connections with others for which there had been none. I learn to bring tolerance to my own difficulties and I love what process I am going through.

Self importance at the expense of others is a horrible ego state that isolates and generates many negative human relationship problems.

Whenever I let go of my own self importance in this way I shift my energy and attention to We importance. Lessening the weight of the self brings equality, equanimity and lightness of being. We not me has become a new mantra!

Self denial is the uncomfortable act of not getting my authentic needs met.

I know I am in the grips of some kind of ego takeover when I am in self denials. The uncomfortable outcomes that arise from self-denial cause all manner of toxic life interactions. Human relationships, relationship to the divine in life are all inhibited and thwarted by my self-denial. Unhappiness, suffering and pain are the usual outcomes. When I let go of the egotistical notion of self-denial I open myself to the genuine possibility and the actualization of my own authentic sovereignty. I become more of an honest expression of my soul in human form, and I tend to life with others in a realistic and meaningful way.

Blaming and shaming others for how I am, how I feel, and my circumstances in life.

This is the uncomfortable short sided perception coming from my own ego based thinking. This generates endless cycles of victimization and diminished self-love. When I find myself insisting on blaming and shaming others I know I am in some kind of ego takeover.

When I get others to side with me I only increase my own ego gratifications and perpetrate ego states in others.

When I release this toxic behavior I shift into accountability.

When I choose my own accountability in any blame and shame situation the entire dynamic transforms for me, regardless of the actions of others. There is no greater inner power in a situation where there is blame and shame being tossed about.

Accountability protects and restores internal integrity where it was given away through the unconscious action of egotistical blame and shame. I refuse to participate in the group agreements where this is being hurled across the planet. I replace all forms of blame and shame with my own internal personal accountability.

Power over others, however covert and sublime, and tricky this may be this is a sure sign I have engaged my own egotistical self-centered selfish self.

While this may be a temporary feel good solution to a problem it never lasts. It cannot be sustained except through perpetrating over and over again ones position and can be made more significant by engaging others to support this negative egotistical position. Power over others multiplied by social agreements creates more of the unsolved problems that dis-empower others and generates cycles of abuse, victimization, and unending cycles of repeating human relationship issues. By participating in group agreements in this way I cause my own problems in the world and never get to the core issues or solutions. When I can get myself out of the grips of this ego takeover state I find humility. Humility restores equanimity and fairness. Humility keeps me in my own place and prevents me from overstepping boundaries of others, demonizing those with differences. And opens me to new levels of perception that lead to brand new solutions. Without humility these solutions to life relationships and situations remain obscured. We cannot and will not and do not see the possibilities that are potent in our life situations when we are in our ego takeovers filled with power over others. Read those last tow sentences again they are treasures.

I know I am in my ego when I find myself over micromanaging, dis-empowering others, and over demanding control over others.

When organization stumbles and falls apart. Over managing situations is frustrating and generates more and more negative outcomes. When I let go of my egotistical ideas for control I find the value I missed in others. The value of our interrelation increases and I stabilize my own resources for accomplishing the tasks at hand. I affirm the power and capability of others and their our freedom to choose.

Global Ego Take-overs

Currently on our planet there are a multitude of themes in banking, economics, business, religion, politics, military, science, education, socialization of whole groups, to name a few… all running some person’s ego takeover of the world. It is truly astonishing to recognize. This is being brought out into our awareness with painful insight, dangerous revelations, and waves of data drops. The times are such that we are able now to see our own global take-overs. Without a certain level of integrity to address these issues one can surely turn into a victim. Victimization on a mass level is being revealed and it is horrific. On the other hand it is enlightening. It is enlightening in that we can now address the real sources of our human problems. We can address them most powerfully and with utmost potency by way of our own choices to address and tend to our own ego based emotional investments, our own ego based ideas, and our own ego driven actions. Without our own individual ego re-educations we are doomed to more and more victimization. All of which stops whenever we clean up, tend to, take care of our own crazy ego’s!

It is not possible for another ego to take you over when you stop giving over your personal power to these situations. I am stopping giving away my resources, personal emotions, thoughts and ideas to egotistical people, groups, or movements.

By taking into accountability my own ego, the damaging effects stop.

How to realize personal power requires the honest self reflection, processing, and decision-making to either continue to invest emotions and thoughts and actions into ego based scenarios or not to invest.

This is a personal decision-making process that millions of people are making at this time in our world. We are collectively waking up and learning to choose differently.

Our collective human species is not in agreement in the deepest core place with all these ego take-overs. Our collective human species is… one person at a time… choosing differently. And the Hundredth monkey effect is happening as more and more people are suddenly deciding not to participate in small ego based, self-centered, ridiculous life situations.

The larger more capable aspect of our species which lies beyond mere egocentric life decisions is growing. What this looks like is the return to earth, or to physicality of spirit. The spiritual being having a human experience. This is core spirituality!

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Spiritual Growth…. Everywhere Awareness Is Growing…, core spirituality, my personal journey

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Spiritual Growth…. Everywhere Awareness Is Growing…, core spirituality, my personal journey

Awareness, intelligence, consciousness… however you choose to word it, is growing collectively. Our entire world is ever-changing in spectrum’s of equilibrium as we pass through the daily activity of our lives, learning new things. Everyone of us holds our growth in our own hands!

How little or how much we really see that the field of human consciousness is growing constantly all around us depends on the awareness we have inside us to know and to be open. Like water for fish, our field of collective thought is what we live within. And even though it is all around us it actually comes from within us! Not only our human consciousness but also all the different life forms around us add their vibrational, essential experience into the larger whole of which we call our planetary body. All life is in a state of some form of evolutionary growth and development forwards or backwards, however large or small that may be to each species or expression of creation.

If ever one has had a garden to tend, it is no more evident than how everything is growing, growing at different rates, sometimes dormant, yet still alive and still in growth. Changes are a constant. To begin to see how the collective or group consciousness is changing we have only to look into nature and human activity together instead of apart and see how the shifting fluctuations, ever-changing conditions we share are in a state of growth around us. Our human activity reflects our growth as we watch the developments arise each day in our species. The endings and the beginnings are plentiful. On an external basis through the internet and television we can see the monitoring of how human consciousness shifts from day-to-day. Issues arise, new discoveries, new policies, new formulations of groupings, endings, death, decay and transitions are everywhere with much activity surging forward day-to-day on planet earth. Buildings rise and fall, streets are built, life is abuzz. These are all examples of our awareness growing.

How each individual adds to the collective

Every aspect of creation adds its perspective to the universal flow of consciousness and we can learn to observe this inwardly. As the interior sight opens up we can see the astounding flow of consciousness that arises from every living thing. Animate and inanimate both contribute to the universal flow of life here. Seen from a vibratory perspective seemingly separate things are really all interconnected and passing this consciousness along through the myriads of pathways in creation. This place is alive with intelligence that is learning. Nature is learning! People are learning! Animals are learning! And so are the rocks learning and together all these expressions combine to make what we see as our world. Consciousness weaves and flows into and out of itself everywhere. Consciousness is learning through us as us!  The interaction of everything is what makes up the totality of this world. Both seen and unseen. Every single individual is contributing their life essence into the totality here. Shifting outcomes, rearranging them, converting them, and transforming them in some way. The miracle of life is within each individual form of creation, and together in the whole picture of creation.

Discerning the frameworks coming forward for new thought

New paradigms on the planet are emerging!

As awareness grows we develop new words that restructure our languages, new thoughts, new ideas, and whole new paradigms with which to express what we are learning from our growth experiences. Pockets of new information pop up in different places with different people. All over the world we are redefining our world, making corrections, and shifting the outcomes by virtue of our growing experiences. Notice new paradigms are showing up in cultures everywhere!

Resistance to growing and change

While new ideas and new paradigms emerge in some of us, others resist this new awareness and develop their ideas based on their resistance. Resistance has its own learning and serves the collective in its own way, thus nothing is lost or unneeded, everything counts! The collective field of ideas is filled with both positive and negative outcomes. Sometimes resistance and repetition are all dressed up with new clothes providing new perspectives that engage us in new ways to see old things. Other times whole new approaches evolve. Frameworks of new thought are born as new paradigms.

Paradigms emerge as the collective thoughts gain in numbers and momentum along with our agreements. The passions with which we energize these paradigms move them forward and into the world society.

The flow of awareness passing through our humanity on any one day is astounding to view on an energetic level. On this level there is also weight, substance, shape, form, and texture in thoughts arising out of our species. Everyone at some time in their lives has walked into a space and immediately felt something for which their eyes do not register. This is the field of thoughts collecting in the space, and our emotions combined, giving shape on an energetic level, its is common for some people to call it a “vibe”. (vibration ) These collections of thoughts produce climates of feeling, vibrational in nature that we sense. As we learn to process them we find words to name what we are learning.

Structures are growing

So not only are our ideas growing but the structures with which we organize thought, our paradigms are also growing and transforming. We see this in all areas of life from science, to human behavior, culture, business, education, there are unlimited new structures forming in our humanity now. We are discovering how we define life in millions of new ways around us. And as we do life takes on new and different meaning, consequence, direction and outcome.

Developing the awareness that everything is in a state of growth

When we “get” how valuable the awareness that everything is growing becomes an aspect of our perception, how we respond to those things that occur begin to take on new meaning. As we realize how reality is truly moving and not so set into stone we can learn to overcome our own inner struggles, with a place of fluidity and openness that embraces the changes we truly are moving into, and feel we need to make. We can simply join in… join the flow of growth in any way we choose by remaining open. learning how to observe growth patterns, shifting directions. This is the natural over-riding state of the cosmos!

The perspective that I have come to be infused with now … how everything is in a state  of perpetual growth. Thus my own leanings into complete definitions, and final outcomes is halted. Suspending my idea of finally knowing i realize the infinite nature of perpetual growth in everything, everywhere… I have learned to accept how the nature of existence is such that things are always changing because life is growing, and what I may have thought one day as “the final answer” regarding something no longer applies. I stay open and even vigilant toward holding any one idea too fixedly. As i develop the awareness of how consciousness is always growing there is a deepening into the meaning of life, of life events, of relationships, and so on. i pay attention to how my mind wants to grasp at final answers, fixed notions, and limited perception habits.

Formats lead to more formats

As we discover new formats and structures of relating in the world, these lead to more new formats. There is a natural path awareness takes in each of us that illumines our mind to the information necessary to go on. Thus when we can learn to remain open within ourselves we can access new information, or we will just stumble upon new information that fits our current piece of the puzzle. All knowledge is connected and thus encourages itself in us to continually learn and grow. These growth periods can take a long time, be very fast, and then sometimes very slow. Whatever the case, the learning is the point to consider. Once we stumble upon a new format that fits for us, then we are on our way as the most natural action is more of the same momentum into growth.

Releasing thoughts, paradigms, and handling what is uncomfortable

Along the way of encountering new information I have found myself having to release old thoughts, let go of paradigms of reality (whole umbrellas of thinking and belief that over ride knowledge ) and I have learned to handle the uncomfortable feelings and thoughts that go along with this process. I remind myself how meaningful it is to allow my uncomfortable thoughts and feelings in exchange for new ones, and to continue to learn.

The process of releasing thoughts we hold about someone, or the paradigms we have emotionally invested ourselves when we find are no longer feeling as truthful drop away more easily as we go through process and learn to ignite the wonder of discovery and the power of letting go.

Releasing and letting go are absolutely necessary to move forward in many situations.

I have found myself doing all the parts I needed to learn something except the letting go. Whenever this happens I realize that I am still anchored in old beliefs and not as free as I imagine myself to be, and of course this is because of not letting go completely. Letting go in a n appropriate manner that completes a learning curve about something generates a new interior space. Interior inside the mind, inside the heart, inside our bodies.

We have to let go in order to progress, and make room for the new life energies coming in to us via our growth experiences.

Psychic information, spiritual connection, and the openings available to us now

Clearing out the mental thoughts, releasing half-truths, letting go of outgrown personal patterns of any kind open our interior selves so that new information has a place to reside within us without conflict or opposition inside the landscape of the self. This is a marvelous empty place inside that is potent with the energies of what could be, and holds “promise” for continued new awareness to develop.

This opens us to psychic information, and spiritual connection.

I find  myself alerted on a daily basis as new information becomes available. Taking the time to empty out  through the process of self-reflection, inner questioning, increased discernment, and self accountability and releasing my loaded subconscious mind, my physical body, and my suppressed and oppressed emotions. The daily spiritual connection that is possible is quite amazing, and truly full of wonder. Inspiring and informative ,our awareness when allowed to get free has tremendous more energy and creativity for living.Awareness in us as us is intentionally urging us to experience growth! Thus it is possible to learn about the psychic conditions we all have possible within us to know things.Psychic information is not limited in the way we have been programmed to only use our 6 senses. It is as aspect of our nature that is connected naturally to the soul, our cosmic environment, and experiencing this educates us without limits.

Psychic information may not at first make sense to our thinking logical minds, however this information has a feeling of “fitting” with other info we hold and how psychic information fits with the larger pictures of our lives is instrumental in developing progress. As becoming fully into our potentials we learn how to pay attention and then to specifically access for ourselves all the information we need. And we can use this information to assist, uplift, and heal with others. Immense paradigms of understandings reveal themselves to us when we integrate our interior senses via the psychic information that is everywhere and inside us. Breaking through the programming of our socialization, hypnotized, habitual patterns opens this to each of us as everyone is more capable than we have been programmed to see ourselves.

Spectrum’s of new growth …balance and unbalanced

Everywhere awareness is growing, intelligence is growing yet how this happens is not the same for each person. In that there are spectrum’s of growth which occur according to each unique individual, situation, and the conditions we find ourselves. Thus on one side of the world people are not only learning about freedom they are also living more freely, and developing free structures for others. On the other side of the world people are learning the negative aspect of freedom, slavery or something like that. Enslavement, imprisonment, limitation and restriction are also aspects of freedom, only in its opposite expression. Thus we have wide spectrum’s between the two polarities.

As more and more people engage and invest their personal thoughts and beliefs into one aspect of the spectrum that one aspect manifests as reality and will do so until enough others begin the changes. I have found tremendous meaning in learning to respect the various spectrum’s of human expression as they relate to personal and planetary growth. As everyone and everything is in some state of growth. We are all growing. When we open up to this we can see evidence of this all over the world.

God in us is awareness, is consciousness, and as such is growing itself everywhere in the cosmos. As a living vibrant expression seeking its way through every life, every form there is a guarantee that God holds all, leaves nothing behind.

Living in the consciousness of growth aligns our attention in ways that energize us, provide us with energy, fulfill our deepest longings, and teaches us the wisdom of what it means to be alive.

As awareness we are capable of understanding the deepest sorrows, the most hurtful pains, and the most limiting of ideas. This is all because the consciousness that exists in us as us is one magnificent life force connected to everything and everyone. Consciousness is the ultimate “internet” .

Today I am learning to pay attention to growth, and when I don’t see my own , I see it around me and even still I am touched, moved and inspired. We can always tap into and find something that is growing… such is the real nature of life.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self exploration

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If …YOU …”think” You Cannot Handle the Truth, Think Again…. My Reality Checks are coming in!

core spirituality, my personal journey

The path of awakening for each of us has significant differences yet many universal similarities. In my experiences I do come up on the thought that I cannot handle something, or I hear this from others. This writing describes the inner process within me. The thinking intellect, my emotions… and my inner voice or deep self in dialogue. So I know we all have conversations inside us as this is not so uncommon. In order to really get what my process is on this subject I wanted to put it into writing.

Reality selection is a choice for us all…

Our thinking is filled with programming

I call it programming, this is not what the mainstream calls it.

In the process of conditioning,socialization and education that is prevalent in our societies today. Telling us what to think, how to think, placing limits on thinking, emotional side tracking, emotional suppression along with oppression of many covert forms. Schools, churches, universities, groups of many varieties all teach children from an early age how to view reality in specific ways. This will override the natural instinctive capacities and innate points of view children are born with making certain that each child fits into the specific format of the group they belong to.

Hidden inside reading and math, science and history lessons are infinite variations of subtle programming that inhibit the spiritual nature. This becomes real and evident after one goes through the process of self-reflection, deep inner questioning and discovery, and the release of the effects of our memories, and limiting emotional situations we carry inside us.

These emotionally charged memories are very much like boxes of thought that limit and suppress the innate knowing within a child. As adults we have the greater free will and possibility to discover our true nature through the choices we make that push us beyond our original experiences and unveil the innate spirituality of a human being.

In my journey of self-reflection the most significant redefinition I arrived within myself was that I was not a human being having a spiritual experience as I had been programmed to believe, rather I discovered I am  actually a spiritual being having a human one.

The opposite of all the years of teachings I had received in my development as a person. The paradigm shift inherent in this is remarkable in that everything takes on a completely different and significant meaning or purpose. And I had to drop whatever did not fit into that category of meaningful purpose. In other words most of the reality boxes I had been raised to believe were not based in truth. Letting go of these older versions of reality resulted in my development of having a larger capacity to perceive reality from “outside the box” so to speak.

Or in other words outside the limitations of programming I had been subliminally indoctrinated.

Repeaters

While I realized that well meaning adults were passing information along to me, I recognized the action of repeating in their words. People who learn to repeat information as they were taught. Most often these individuals were shown to be the best at their subjects, and always receive high marks, and accolades. To my astonishment I was at an early age, able to discern true learning vs. repeating, and to feel the significance in authentic discovery outside the patterns of thinking inherent in repeaters. I would say this began to occur to me in my early 20’s!

For example a paradigm shift I learned when I moved to Hawaii was how the oceans really connect all the land masses. Making it possible to travel and connect. Where as in my youth I learned how the oceans separated the world. It is a subtle shift in thinking yet powerful. Separation consciousness versus connection. I have found many such ways of perceiving the world that I learned all based in separation consciousness that are not even true, I have found connection in every aspect of life since getting out of that box of thinking. Shifting my awareness and myself in ways that brought great connection to life. Our experiences, our choices when understood as all connected with meaning take on a completely different reality with this in mind.

Learn to do my reality checks

Reality checks can be cashed in any time! They pay off really well and add to our sense of life in ways that carry us through time in amazing new ways. For much of this world is not really what it is represented to be. We are still a young species at the lower rungs of the universe. Our ideas are filled with inaccuracies and misunderstandings about how life is actually governed, manifested, and is lived. So doing reality checks will most often occur whenever there is a feeling of discomfort about something. Especially when there are no words to match the feeling, yet it still exists in the gut. I have this experience often. My first reaction is to question reality, question the voice of authority that is either speaking to me outwardly or the inner voice in my mind that “thinks” it is THE authority on any idea or subject. I cultivate an open mind, and I question until I find an answer that fits and replaces my discomfort with a sense of good, or right feeling. This is perfect for those times when we think we cannot handle something. For the truth is we can though there will be some shift to do so. Shift in our version or belief in what the reality presenting itself really is.

Questions you might ask yourself

Secrets and the nature of controls

That our present day is filled with astounding and horrific revelations of secrets held by mankind for generations is startling and sobering to say the least. Many dark secrets are getting released about every aspect of our lives through the internet, the media. Within us we are also finding revelation on a mass collective level in people from all walks of life, no matter the education, social standing, religious belief, upbringing, or culture. Revelations are everywhere in all sciences, history, math, physics, and so on. One need only pursue truth beyond the limits of media, and university education to find new thought being taught by people outside the box of accepted thinking. These individuals are stepping forward with deep, complex and riveting new approaches to understanding reality.

The revelations of abuse of power on this planet that are being revealed through the banksters, the military of the world, politicians, scientists, and historians are gob smacking. The degree of covert control, covert agendas, covert operations, covert policies, covert behaviors in these people now getting out will surely shift our world paradigm in fascinating new ways.

As now we are beginning to realize how we have been lead to believe so many things that are not actually honest or true and to give away our sovereignty along the way will shatter much of what has existed for generations on this planet.

Revelations are natural

the natural state of all beings is revelation. Revelation arises as a consequence of learning beyond the moment in any situation. We have been programmed so completely we have forgotten what a natural process this is in a healthy well lived lifetime. Robotic, habit-ized, and submissive the human will has been subverted away from the delights of revelation. So deeply valuable is this to our experience even after centuries of generational programming individuals are breaking through the dogmas of every sector of our known reality at this time. Making those in power and control very nervous and more afraid. Yet we cannot stop this because revelation is natural to who and what we are as spiritual beings having a human experience.

The dark truth, the light truth of your life

when I can’t handle it anymore I am up against the dark truth of my life. The dark truth is the awareness of all that which is reversed, or opposite the light truth. The revealing to ourselves of dark truth requires a powerful will to see beyond these illusions we have been so deeply emotionally invested. To accept how something so intrinsic to us is not true takes courage to process. It is a signal of our growth and maturation as spiritual beings when we can allow the deconstruction of our beliefs, notions and ideas of reality once shown not to be valid.

In my experience whenever this happens the light truth moves in and replaces the dark.

This is quite amazing as the feelings that arise in the discovery of greater truth energize and redirect our attention in completely fascinating new ways. Opening possibilities that were totally blocked while I was under the limiting beliefs of the previous dark programming. I feel a sense of internal accountability with myself to push my way through my own fears that I cannot handle the truth in any situation.

So we move back and forth on the game board of life discovering both our dark truths and our light truths finding new resources for powering up our previous states of victimization, powering up our defeated powerless selves. The deflation of ego states that goes along with this process can feel even depressing, and sad, and awful. Yet the light truth that we are then more capable to hold because we let go those limiting ego states of consciousness eventually lifts us up and frees us from the process that is so uncomfortable.

Each of us has a turning point from which there is no return

Whenever we begin to move past our “i cant handle it” moments there arises significant places of no return that require a deeper acceptance. As our consciousness adjusts to changing perceptions and feelings we do find that we can no longer go back. This happens in such a profound way that with each new discovery we transform.

Our transformations lead us to transcendent new places that take us into whole new arenas of living. I experienced this on all levels. Eating and diet, emotional states of profound suffering have lifted, immense unhappiness is replaced with a ridiculous kind of amazing joy, beliefs I once held no longer feel right and drop. People, events, and situations that once triggered powerful negative emotions are gone. What I choose to focus in life shifted from survival to thrive, from disharmony to harmony, from lack to abundance, from not getting my needs met on a daily basis to meeting my needs abundantly so that I overflow for others. This is how the process of moving through and beyond our “i cant handle it” states of being in paralysis and withholding just turn all the way around.

The transformation of the human condition in each of us

Our personal transformations are the human condition for which all these life experiences unfold and have meaning. We embody physicality and take on each lifetime in our efforts to transform and transcend ourselves while discovering the unlimited nature of existence. Every event that each of us tackles adds to the larger context of our humanity. And eventually we reach quantum levels of transformation that make it easier for those yet to make it go forward successfully. We improve our reality by way of these actions.

The planetary transformation of life as we know it

As the numbers of people transforming their life situations grows we begin to see massive new levels of behavior and activity that redefine life as we have known it, and believed it to be. This is what is happening now all over the world. Dark forces are revealed and breaking down, light forces are coming forward to heal and redesign our life stories.

Reclaiming your self as a sovereign being

To realize new states of sovereignty is how we liberate our humanity. One person at a time, one group at a time, one nation at a time, one world at a time.

Noticing when we are submitting to thoughts of self oppression, sabotage, and the diminishing of our potential are the start of this liberation as we notice the dark truths we have subscribed our lives. This being merely the early stage of awakening and the start of whole new possibilities.

Connecting in with the larger paradigms emerging today we learn to take in accountability and responsibility for our human lives, charting new directions and learning to be happier, healthier, and deeply spiritual.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self reflections

Permission to let go… core spirituality, my personal journey

Permission to let go… core spirituality, my personal journey

Moving on, progress, release, freedom … all arise from a simply action of permission.

Permission to let go does not have to come from outside us. This is an inner choice and the momentum this creates runs the spectrum from crazy to liberating. Fears jump into our minds as we approach the boarders inside our minds of permission in ways that will stagger the decision, giving us clear possibility to deeply consider our next steps. Other times we must make rapid decisions on the fly which propel us into the unknowns. Practicing the art of giving myself permission to let go becomes an act of creative selection and evolving experience. We get better at self permission the more we access our choices and release ourselves from the grips of our own thinking, our own emotions, our own tired out beliefs. Times arise when the momentum that sets us up for change start arriving in our lives and we become increasingly more uncomfortable with the way things are. Situations arise that once invited us in and now propel us away. People become uninteresting and we no longer want to associate. Out stomachs turn and we must go the distance and make way for the new in our lives.

Know enough about self to make the meaningful decisions that will enact letting go

When we commit to knowing ourselves by paying attention to our thoughts,feelings, emotions, body messages, signs, sychronicities, and patterns we can foresee how meaningful letting go will take us beyond our current situations and propel us into unknowns for which everything up to this point have prepared us. The better we know self, the less guessing and the more concrete our choices develop into accessing new information which lead us through our mysterious questions.

How taking care of our personal interiors open the possibilities

Self care is the base line for all possibility to arise. Nurturing self acceptance and physical habits of healthy well-being generate equilibrium while the other aspects of our personalities undergo the stronger deconstruction, redirection, and new momentum that take shape from permission to let go. Always the good baseline for change is self-love, self-care, and the integrity of our attention inwardly to the process that is unfolding. Appearing as selfishness, at this time of letting go we must take those steps only we can take. Thus to those around us we may appear selfish, and this may be true. It is a time to take one’s self into deeper reflection and meaning and allow this self-absorption, or selfishness to occur. In our single-ness of decision-making we learn to sustain our choices through our own means and we liberate that which needs be.
What we choose to invest our emotional energies into and how this shapes our reality

Though it is rarely taught, it is a realization returning to many now on our planet. What we choose to invest our emotional energies into shapes our reality. We are not simply victims of circumstance, we are experiencing the results of our unique personal investments in our thoughts, feelings, etc. as we believe ourselves to be. The realization that we, I, not someone else is responsible for my life is both unnerving and liberating. The liberation of self through responsible emotional self acceptance is paramount to our moving forward through any difficult situation. Things do not change, people do. For my world to change I must make that change from within. We stop looking outside ourselves for people who can make us feel better, save us, give us what we want, and we do this for our self. This is a paradigm change that has very large consequence in the moment, and for the unfolding future of the next decisions we will make. To be able to untangle our minds from the seriously crazy programming of socialization, and outer authority to an interior place is at first mind-blowing. However so that may be as we see reality transform all around us in our personal lives it is strengthened and multiplied and anchored. Every day is a new day. Anything new could occur. Lets just see what happens as we engage self-knowledge. Self permission and self-responsibility. All three of the anchors to assure changes in appropriate ways. Because this is a learning we do make mistakes along the way, yet we learn to make corrections and navigate through the mistakes and take them as jewels of learning that bring to us knowledge and add to our experience of life.

Giving ourselves permission to move forward and let go while accepting those who do not

one of the most agonizing aspects of giving myself permission to let go and move on has always been not everyone comes with me. So I have learned not only to accept my need and impetus to move on, I also have to accept that those I love or care for cannot or will not join me. Lovingly accepting this for others will make everything more easy for everyone. Often much later down the path, these people have rejoined me when they themselves have caught up to the momentum that was inherent in the changes. Then sometimes they do not and they become more distant, either way acceptance is mandatory.

The paradox of healing ourselves and the amazing outcomes this bring to our life choices

That we make painful decisions that heal our lives is a paradox. The healing is needed yet is painfully reached. Our life choices develop in such a way that we learn to accept pain in this way as a friend going along with us on the ride. It cannot be avoided. The pain is crucial to the whole process as old ways break down, old relationships fall away, and we are left to our own new life choices. In time these painful choices drive us to our meaningful life outcomes which amaze and astound us. In our previous mental habits, beliefs, we could not hold for a minute what now arises. The unending nature of life is astounding as the possibilities unfold and we engage totally new energetics into the circumstances of our lives. It all becomes worth it and the purpose of paradox becomes understood.

Painful memories, grudges, emotional wounds, misunderstandings and why we need to let go

All such negativity tie us to history without freeing us from the now moments of our lives. The negative history we each inherit must be lived through and surpassed as a vehicle of our own self-development. We become strengthened and aware as we face, process and resolve our own side of any negative situation we carry within our self. The loaded physical form, our physical body is overwhelmed with the energetics of the negatives and our alive-ness is compromised when we carry around negative scenarios inside us. Not only that but the energy it takes to hold it in, suppress it, and maintain it is staggeringly unbalancing. The more we hold on, the worse it gets. Sometimes resulting in sickness and even death of the physical. Many of us die ourselves out of this world because we would not let go, would not release ourselves from our own negativity. The amount of this I have personally experienced with people in my practice of massage and bodywork for over 3 decades is truly staggering. I know this to be the case for many individuals.

Shifting the forces of our lives, breaking habits that no longer serve us, or serve our world.

The pain, discomfort, and disharmony signals all point us to our own personal shift, which is also our planetary shift, which is also our species shift. Now underway and gaining momentum in the collective experience of our humanity. Everywhere we look, listen, and arrive to we can find this shift unfolding before our very eyes and ears. The patterns that I will call habits have been in our DNA for generations. Our families are filled with this stuff, and a lot of us are increasingly more uncomfortable with it all. I myself have chosen to do the work, and learn to understand what these forces are that need my attention. Through therapy, emotional release, bodywork, exercise, re-education and a personal commitment to give myself permission to let go I continue to align myself with the greater unfolding now which is wreaking havoc all over the world. Letting old habits die that no longer serve me, or this world.

The world changes when we change

The world changes when we change could not be truer. Until one has tested this one the depth of this will pass you over. And then when you realize that for your world to change you must make the change and you permit yourself to go through with the things you need to do. Reality does shift. It shifts the more we permit ourselves to let go. If my world is not changing enough, I take a cue. I keep deepening into my ability to let go and make that change.

Losing what is meaningful, and rebuilding new directions

Yes we do lose what has been meaningful to each of us when we let go. We lose relationships, finances, and all manner of life circumstances. As we continue we learn we rebuild new meaningful relationships, new ways to finance ourselves, and many other new circumstances develop. We do also carry within us the valuable essences of all our experiences even though we no longer experience them. I know this from my practice of hypnotherapy, my own soul retrieval experiences. Nothing… I mean nothing is ever truly lost that has been our experience. Everything… every single second of life is inside us as us contributing to our personal journey. All of our personal experiences actually go into a larger collective which is Source. Source as itself, in us, is discovering itself through every one of us. The entire nature of existence is growing everywhere through us, around us, and beyond us. Truly amazing to see, feel, and recognize this universal truth about life. Nothing ever is truly lost. Ever!

Grace and the healing of our human history

Grace has many definitions depending on your particular belief. In this case I will refer to the transcendent nature of non ordinary reality. A place of connection much larger than a single human mind can contain, a place with such knowledge and wisdom. This wisdom is also beyond the human mind as it unfolds through synchronicity and the direction of meaning in our lives. This grace is enacted as we meet our most powerfully difficult, and painful life scenarios. I have experienced this many times in my life and have felt a sense of pure divinity, lightness of being, and transcendent personal space beyond words. It is definitely non ordinary reality. It is real, and it is unending. I bring this up now because we are reaching the quantum moments of our human history where the themes of many generations of humans is coming to a point of pure no return. We are on the precipice of life experiences that transcend generations of our ancestors. We are beginning to experience the horrific and startling new consciousness of regaining our spiritual sovereignty. New powerful souls are incarnating with astounding capabilities…. we can and we are truly surpassing all our known knowledge heading into the great mysteries of life. We are starting to connect physicality with spirituality in the most authentic forms of expression and much healing is coming in to us now

The challenges of resistance and how this is meaningful

Resistance is one of my specialties as a therapist, I love this quality. I have the inherent perspective that resistance is simply permission to process. It is a way we are slowed down when we are getting too high off the changes we are experiencing. Resistance staggers the time line, staggers our minds so that we can more fully engage our senses in ways that bring to us the information we need to make the shift possible. Without set backs, and our own personal resistance to change we might endanger ourselves or others. Make unnecessary mistakes, and complicate the situation.

Respect resistance is my motto and learn to see what it is all about. Our resistance carries tremendous info just under the surface of our awareness that needs to be addressed in order to successfully move forward. Resistance in others needs to be honored. We do not all move forward simultaneously as we wish we could. We all move according to some amazing timing unique to each of us. Read that last sentence again, it is truly a jewel to hold.

Staying engaged, cultivating connection, and forging the new directions and letting self sleep.

When learning to let go it is paramount to stay engaged and not lose it all. Staying engaged within and around us is how we stay grounded through immense changes. Sleep occurs as a way to allow the body physical, and the energetic bodies to re-calibrate new points of grounded-ness inside us, and around us in the environment. The actual work of the soul that takes place inside a human is likened to the metamorphosis in a butterfly. There are many new arrangements, new connections to make, new coordinates to be put into place that all take time in this dimension. Staying engaged either by cultivating connection and forging new directions as well as sleep time is paramount to the entire process.

Commitment to self

The redevelopment of new and different ways in which we commit to self is a direct outcome of letting go. Not losing self. Not abandoning our self. Not denying our self, not ignoring our self. But true deeper more meaningful redefining of self is what happens. This can be quite striking to those who have known us up to this point, so letting go of what others think of us at this point is helpful. No one can actually embrace the process of self commitment that happens like each one of us can with ourselves, this commitment grows from within. In time others learn. Patience here is truly a virtue.

Realizations that arise as we heal

When we let go we heal components of our human self inside us. This healing provides new frameworks on many different levels of our personality. As the new energetics of healing engage we will find that new realizations start to happen. The realizations that occur do so because in the healing we make room for that which we withheld in our previous states of consciousness. Our minds are opened in new ways on new levels. We become more capable of translating our individual soul messages, signs, and possibilities. Our perceptions take on wholeness. Whole minded awareness can process huge amounts of new information from design levels. When we start to get the “designs” our souls are offering us we will experience new realizations which not only become solutions for us, they also contribute to our joyful nature as never before. Learning to write down, or draw, or share our realizations is fascinating and fun. Engaging us beyond conflict and returning us to new levels of personal and universal harmony. When we recognize the designs unfolding in us, all around us and begin to see and feel how we are a dynamic part of the cosmos our lives take on such wonderful new meaning.

Joining the mass human family in taking care of business

Letting go by using one’s conscious choice instead of being forced by way of painful circumstance because we have learned the wisdom of it is significant. While many upon within the human family struggle in agonizing ways as these changes come through our planet we can simply choose to join in. this makes our process a bit less uncomfortable and even joyful. As we cry out our tears, and say our good bye’s to our old ways we can laugh right on down the road of life. We recognize how and why we are here. We are uplifting the entire species. One by one. We are engaged in a historical event of such proportion that even the animals are anticipating what comes next. When we take care of what bothers us, what pains us, we are taking care of our human business.

Make a list

I like to make regular lists of changes so I do not forget those moments of clarity as I go about my busy days. I want to stay on track. I want to feed my need for changes. I want to stay engaged. I need to remember what I forget. I make my lists.

Find new interior resources

When we embrace connection and stay engaged we automatically find new resources. It is amazing to me how the universe works. Not only do we find new resources but they find us. You know you are on the right path when this happens because it is so completely astounding. I have looked back at my life and thought how could I have ever stayed so disconnected? This is so much more fun. I absolutely love, love, love how the universal intelligence works all through our lives informing us with new information and possibility.

Discover new aspects of who we are

Only after we let go do we get the new answers. All to often I have lingered before I made a change wanting myself to know before I actually did my work. Wishing for new solutions, new answers to appear and they did not. Finally out of frustration and endless suffering did I finally let go. And not until then did the new info arrive. We must do our individual work on change. And once we do we get the prize… we discover the new aspects of our souls. New talents, new identities and new directions that bring to us experiences that genuinely fulfill us.

The final thoughts on letting go.

My final thought to myself here on letting go is … go for it.

I choose to gain the wisdom awaiting me as I let go my hardened clutches of reality and join the mysterious unknowns of taking new steps. Core spirituality is the expression of our unique and personal truth as each of us. Unique and universal and right in the middle of paradox. Core spirituality is not limited by religious dogma, nor is it directed by politicians, bankers, or any outside authority. I accept my own personal experience as validating and I learn to engage my experiences as my own spiritual path. Just one tiny human amongst billions.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Taking a Fresh Look into the Family ( Ohana) Dynamics that Trigger us… A Soul Perspective….core spirituality, my personal journey

Taking a Fresh Look into the Family ( Ohana) Dynamics that Trigger us…A Soul Perspective….core spirituality, my personal journey

When I did not or refused to love, I learned to love anyway.

When I was hardened, I softened and came to understand more than before.

When I felt stubborn I yielded and learned to be more open.

When I was too soft, I became strong, and in so doing became more capable.

I was lazy, and became disciplined… the painful inertia of my non action forced me to take action. I learned how valuable it is to understand stagnation, and the power of moving. People triggered me to get my butt moving, I did not like it, and I learned to get the message.

When I was victimized particularly as a child, I later healed my emotions, learned to think in new and different ways, and turned my own self around to become victorious. Releasing my holding on to my past and freeing my now moment, finding my true sovereignty. I learned the value of my own inner child voice and I listened. I sought help for myself and in so doing learned respect for the voice of the child.

Any child.

When I was afraid, I learned courage and thus changed the entire course of my life.

When I spoke hurtful words, or they were spoken to me, I have learned to take account of my own subjective experience and understand how my own internal self is effected. In this action of self-reflection I have learned to reflect. I have learned to become objective, and I have learned to redirect my own sense of hurt in a way that has shown me how I can be, and how others are as their words are a reflection of them, not specifically of me. I have learned to stop the patterns of self hurt through the words of others when I can, and accept how it is others show themselves. Dropping judgmental projections for clear discernment. This discernment has become an ongoing trait with less problematic outcomes in all my relationships. My world shifted when I claimed accountability for my emotions and feelings and stopped blaming others for HOW I FEEL.

When I hurt I looked within, took back my own power of self, and learned to be accountable for my own life in ways which removed me from patterns of hurt and replaced those with profound new awareness which showed me I can move on, thrive, and not incur the same to someone else. I refuse to perpetrate cycles of hurt, for myself and for others. No matter what.

When I was saddened I learned to accept my emotions so completely I went all the way to the bottom of that sadness and I sought healing, and in so doing the sadness showed me the value of endings that lead to new beginnings. And generated for me the awareness of how cycles exist all over the universe.

When I felt betrayal I took issue with myself instead of the other, and learned to find power in letting go, finding new directions, releasing people who do this to others, and freed myself from ever having this happen again. I learned acceptance for “what is”, and in so doing moved on. Acceptance of “what is” cannot be underscored more. Learning to accept what others show us about themselves is a primary skill in relationships. Honoring my own feelings, is equally as primary.

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Some of my own personal triggers. These are but a few trigger scenarios I have been through in my own family, and how they each became powerful developmental stages in my personal evolution. Beginning early in childhood, under the roof of an abusive family situation, full of alcoholism, co dependency, and some basic neglect. I learned how to take myself seriously, when no one else would, and to take responsibility, when no one around me would, and to redirect my life as I would have it, because the pain and difficulty was not a choice I wanted to live through. The fury of alcoholism, combined with quilt ridden religious teaching, and the lack of getting my own emotional needs met as a child all changed as I became a teen and found my own will to move on beyond all these many life situations.

We all have personal challenges hidden in issues that arise in families today

I finally learned that issues I experience, regardless of who triggers them are for me to process and that any issue I find carries a significant personal challenge for me to resolve. leading me to  release the controls, manipulations, and any other scenarios from other people, and with gratitude… I do my own inner work. People trigger us for many reasons, the primary one is our soul growth, and not just to hurt us, bug us, irritate us and drive us crazy.

Is it is valuable to note that I have understood the issues that arise for me in my family are the perfect issues for me personally to grow from as a spiritual being. Contrasting this with the common idea that people who dump problems belong to everyone else and I am simply a causal victim, or recipient of the actions of others. This is hardly the case, once we become awakened from the soul aspect of who and what we are. The shift occurs that these incidents are part of a larger design for which I am present here to process, learn, and grow.

Issues of every kind show up in family dynamics. Our people will trigger us. Those closest to us will push our buttons. Our closeness will cause us to get irritated, upset, and angry. Our losses will hurt, and hurt deeply. Our talents, skills, and potentials will be challenged, exploited, neglected, and all manner of triggering. Power, love, misunderstanding,cruelty, abuse on every level. Abundance, materialism, artistic expression, and history.

Today life style challenges many… religious paths, sexuality, gender, politics.

Issues are areas of concentrated emotional, intellectual, artistic, physical, mental situations yet to be explored fully which contain experiences that will teach the indwelling spirit of a person something for which they have chosen to incarnate into this physical world. Issues by nature are unlimited in the earth experience, can be highly charged, totally challenging and either build up or completely tear down existing belief systems, erroneous ego notions, and shift us on all levels of ourselves all over the map of creation.

What is a trigger?

Everyone starts as a child, and as that child may encounter emotional/mental situations for which they do not have the capacity to process. Once adulthood sets in anything resembling those unprocessed emotions can trigger us. Paralyzing us for an hour or even the whole day. We become susceptible in these situations because of our own unmet need to process, understand, and integrate those aspects of emotional intelligence into our selves. Not just because someone has done something to us.

In my experience we also as soul self, choose family situations where we can see specific triggers will likely happen that are precisely what we need in our own evolutionary growth as spiritual beings having a human experience. In my own case I have remembered patterns of emotions that were so complex that one lifetime alone was not enough to fulfill the necessary experience to bring full understanding to me. Thus incarnating into life to continue themes for which I have spiritual purpose to explore so I could come to a full realization of what these emotions truly are . Often this has happened with the same people over and over, as we switch places and play our roles from every side of the equation in a soul based effort to bring to each other greater knowledge while on earth. Sometimes one may play the victim, next the perpetrator, other times the savior.

Triggers are those patterns of emotional intelligence, mental ideas, and circumstances that we carry inside of us, as unfinished potential full realizations. these are the significant components of our earth life with which there are many valuable experiences that will open us, reveal to us, illuminate us, redirect us, and add to our underlying sense of purpose as well as knowledge about life.

They are not merely problems, obstacles, hindrances, irritations, and conundrums solely in our lives to make us miserable. This level of awareness is the early stage of awakening in the earth school. There are many more possibilities for learning that ultimately lead to transcendence and transformation.

How the knowledge of our soul can open up greater purpose

When we have been activated beyond the ordinary awareness through circumstance which may be positive or negative we engage the wider spectrum of our own source self, our spiritual self, the soul. Once we have the connection to our soul perspective this engages knowledge of purpose that likely transcends the typical earthly perspective without the soul. The intellect begins a process of re-education where we begin to observe these experiences from a new perspective filled with meaning and purpose. As we cultivate this meaning in our lives, even the most negative of life situations sheds light and brings significant meaning to our inner selves, the world, and life around us. Widening our view of ourselves, each other and life around us. There is an unfolding of learning that begins to awaken inner knowledge so much so that the experience becomes one of remembering. Remembering (soul) what we have forgotten about life, ourselves and one another. This remembering is the soulful spiritual nature that exists in life everywhere in the universe in vast capacities and is forgotten temporarily through the act of embodiment here on the Earth. When the purpose of any situation becomes apparent from the soul a large context begins to emerge with which to operate our lives, make choices and to understand. This larger perspective may not occur to every family member at the same time, and so often when this happens a wide divide may occur in relationships. Boundaries change, and relationships go through many phases of expression, and understanding.

Memories of my own soul

In my own quest for a sense of completion, and fulfillment, understanding and release from pain I have bumped up against the edges of all my emotional and intellectual edges. Finding myself going further and deeper past those edges into realms of spiritual sight, inner soul memory, and soul based awareness that far exceeds the typical human levels. Because I have chosen to ask myself the necessary questions, and I have chosen to allow myself to keep feeling my feelings I have entered the realms of soul presence. This has brought into contact with others who have had similar experiences and realizations which have confirmed and supported my own soul development and choices to let go and move forward beyond the status quo of my previous understandings. I have spontaneously seen, felt, heard, myself in other times as other people struggling with the essence of the exact triggers I go through in this lifetime. Providing a broader context of understanding that I can say “fits well” with everything in my experience up to this point. Like finding a missing puzzle piece and completing a puzzle these memories of soul history complete the unanswered, questionable conundrums of my life in ways that are difficult to describe. I can say that once a life puzzle piece from my soul comes into place the feeling of peace, of understanding, of completion, and “fit” is perfect. There truly is a quieting of the self, and a peace that passeth all understanding.

Hardships, unrelenting difficulties, and impossible scenarios …unexpected deaths, murders, and various other horrific family stories

As difficult as it may seem to an unprompted human, one who has not opened to the soul qualities of this wider perspective, there is tremendous purpose in these events. For the individuals to whom they occur, those around them, and the general human family collective as well. For in all things there is a vast intelligence and purpose that is unfolding through the human experience. The great tragedies will open us into the soul realm of ourself and begin a journey of exploration far beyond anything we conceived up to that moment in time. Breaking open our minds, hearts and feelings with such depth that only by choosing to relearn and deepen understanding will the event itself not destroy some part of us. Wounded beyond repair this leaves the choice to either lose self in thoughts and actions of greater degradation, or transform and then transcend. The choice is ours.

THERE IS A IMPORTANT LEARNING HERE!

Though murder, unexpected deaths, and seemingly impossible scenarios hardly appear to have such meaning, they actually do! Soul consciousness extends beyond the boundaries of physicality and time. Living from a spectrum of spirit that within us is so vast that it includes a physical lifetime. And the soul is fully aware of this. I have had hundreds and hundreds of experiences communicating with loved ones who have passed over due to extraordinary circumstances and regained their full faculties after life and have come forward to express details which release and heal those left behind. Myself, I have remembered my own tragic life endings and recalled the details of my ongoing soul evolution. Without any doubt, I am fully aware of the greater meaning, and spiritual significance in horrific endings, tragic outcomes and sad scenarios left in the wake of a life through tragedy.

Ways in which we are meant to learn….. Physical, mental, spiritual, social

Looking at human life from the soul perspectives we are set up, so to speak, ( by our own soul choices and agreements before incarnation) to learn specific things about ourselves.

The nature of reality, and the essence of life itself. The most difficult of human learning bring the greatest capacity to break patterns that have existed in families for thousands of years, repeating and repeating until such time as a soul awakened individual breaks free of the limiting emotions, imprisoning belief systems, and twisted notions of reality. These people are truly present all over the world right now passing through some of the most difficult scenarios thought possible. Their choices to learn from these experiences are causing tremendous changes everywhere and sparking others to loosen up, to question authority, and to seek answers from within.

Physical

There are infinite scenarios through physical challenges that we find problems, obstacles, triggers,and limitations. All of which when observed with an awareness of learning from and learning through the process of painful physical illnesses, and limitations we develop depths of understanding about the natural world of a physical body, and how to successfully achieve results. In my case I must always attend to my circulation, via exercise of all kinds, play time, and authentic sensuality. If I do not pay attention here I always end up sluggish, lethargic, unhappy and disconnected. My body shows me through the non verbal messages of pain and pleasure, restfulness and excited-ness just how to find balance. Diet has a significant impact on cell physiology, circulation as well as mental and emotional states. Our physicality is a major area of universal learning. As a body therapist I encounter all of these and many other issues through the practice of body work, facilitating the clarity with clients and the deeper more meaningful messages in the body.

Mental

How we think, what we think, and then any actions we take or do not take based on our thoughts impact every aspect of our daily lives. When we develop a vigilant attention to our mentality we open unlimited areas of resourceful possibility, and when we do not we close off any of the same possibilities. Mental illness, as it is called is in my family, and through humanity. Mental illness both for the person experiencing it and those around them impacts our lives and is monumental catalyst for shifting people’s awareness. As we learn to take care of our thoughts, and how they affect life in us and around us we heighten our consciousness in ways in which we can not only heal, we can transform, and still go further and transcend these situations in ourselves. Developing the witness part of ourselves is a signal that we are learning to face, and move through mental states instead of being victimized by our own thinking and the thoughts of others. Intellect alone or knowledge is not sufficient to clearly embrace the totality of our mental states. Self awareness develops the witness aspect of a mind capable of seeing its own thoughts, and discerning the intellect, the thinking mind, the rational mind and the intuitive mind. Intuitive mind is unlike the intellect in that the frame of reference in any intuitional thought arises from a basis that may include thinking, or intellect, yet more than often comes from beyond it. In other words it appears to be from left field as the saying goes. Having little or not connection to what the thinking mind is saying. I have learned to hold on to intuitive thoughts longer, so as to give my thinking mind time to process, translate and integrate the significance of the intuitive thought. I experience this both inside my head, and above my head about 4 feet above. This is an aspect of soul connection that informs me. This is almost always amazing, provides answers that bypass all the typical logical thought processes and integrates the mind as well. By choosing to face our thinking triggers, pass through our thoughts to completion, and to remain open-minded to learning the mental issues we face will always show us new perspectives far beyond our beliefs, thought processes, and logical deductions.

Emotional

When I look at emotions I like to discern the difference between non verbal feeling that arises from the depths of myself, or my body and the thoughts I have about what feelings I am having. I find many times there is not a distinct discernment in thoughts we have about what we feel. In fact it is common when asked about an emotion a person will reply with an “ I think that….” kind of statement to put into words what they feel. I also detect how we think so much about feeling that we layer thoughts over feelings and address those as our emotions. This confuses the person, and the body sending many mixed signals all through the biology and physiology of a person. Causing much physical distress, hypertension, and all kind of diseases as these scenarios progress and become deeply ingrained in the character. Emotional intelligence is the cultivation of our feelings and thoughts. Separating them and identifying all the components of a particular emotional situation. Intuitive feeling gets bypassed, or ignored because it does not always have words, or fit into our specific emotional patterning. Intuitive feeling is different in us all. In myself I know how I have feeling that is deeply intuitive that arises directly from my heart, and or my abdomen. It is almost like a watery substance that comes from beyond my conscious awareness and I have learned how to hold on to these feelings long enough so that they become processed and then translated into images, and words that I can understand.

Spiritual

Every family either has a spiritual or religious pattern, or none at all. These days our spirituality is being confronted, challenged, and developed by the immense amount of polar opposites that arise in conflicts. Our innermost spirituality is easily broken wide open through our family tragedies, intense possibilities now available in self-expression and personal direction, amongst so many other issues. That we look deeply into ourselves through the challenges all the way to our innermost spiritual selves, our religious beliefs is all part of the plan. And learning to view ourselves and each other and all life as spiritually based. Moving beyond the limitations of only physicality as has been the case for thousands of years. Our spirits are activated, excited, speeded up, and flipped out into our lives like never before. Expanding every aspect of human life out into vast spaces of larger meaningfulness. Many are choosing instead to go the route of more limitation, more fundamental religiosity, and deceiving themselves and others about hatred, non inclusive rules, bigotry, egotistic maniac-ness in the effort to hold on to thousands of years of old patterns that no longer serve us. This reversal of spirituality is a free will choice that has its consequences and limitations. It is steeped in denial on all levels… physically, mentally, emotionally as well as spiritually. Perhaps the pervasive thought and emotion in going backwards is the fear. Fear based spirituality has been used to control people for long history in our human family.

Social

We are redefining all of our social places through our expansion of our complex human sexuality, gender identity, class-ism, economics, and so much more. As we develop new relationships we expand upon the old ones causing more inclusiveness, more understanding of our selves and each other. We develop new social structures, procedures, systems, laws, and so on. We have many socially unacceptable situations needing our attention. We have many unresolved social problems we need to take care. In the process of facing these issues the triggers subside, diminish and lead to many many new understanding and possibilities.

Patterns exist because we have lived before

Looking from the soul view patterns exist in our lives because we have lived before! Within our own bodies are generations of DNA that are the former expression of people who were ancestors. We do not realize it because many of us are so completely cut off from the knowledge of the history of our particular family ancestors, however the effects of all this live within us as us. Add to this the embodiment, or physical incarnation patterning carried forth through the subtle body of our soul self. Here are the continuing intentions for learning, the timing of events and people who will trigger us and the unspoken longing for truth about all these situations. Our incarnate directions are within us aligned with the soul choice for embodiment through the circumstances of our birth. Picking up on themes we are seeking to develop. These may be either positive or negative or any combination.

The deflated ego and the restoration of self

The majority of the early work of our lifetime is in the structure of our ego nature. This is very important as it will provide a personal container for our soul essence in life. As part of the curriculum of this planet we will pass through many many stages of ego development. In my experience one very misunderstood aspect is the deflated ego. The deflated ego feels like depression, sadness, dark emotions, feelings of being lost, and disconnected. Once I realized much of this was the realignment of my own ego I began to catch on to the fact that my ego is not really in charge. And when it deflates it is a good thing, though it feels awful. The deflated ego learns to let go of silly ideas, twisted notions of power, inappropriate life plans, and immature ways of living with others. To truly grow up we pass through all the delusions, and illusions of our ego creations. However the trade-off is the larger self, or spiritual self… the soul. Spiritual here different from religious. Innate spiritual forces that exist within us are independent yet may be connected to religious dogmas, disciplines, or beliefs. Yet even still the pure aspect literally stands independently of any man-made religion. It is what it is because this is the source of what we are as spiritual beings having a human life. Family triggers punch lots of action into our ego structures, testing their strengths, weaknesses, and the reality of truth with which we hold. Whenever my own ego gets deflated I have learned to reflect upon those uncomfortable feelings and I let go to a larger aspect of myself. Every time the result has been what I opened this writing with, I shifted and learned something very valuable and traded my limited little ego stand for my inner authentic soul place.

Changes in locations

Family triggers will cause us to move. The changing locations with which we pass into are significant in that new opportunities arise in new places. Separations, relocations, sudden movements of large groups of people as is now happening are all purposeful in the larger unfolding plan of our human family. Out of the larger collective family arise forces that alter our locations and in turn shift our relationships. Causing us to face differences, solve new problems, expose out dated customs, and free people from many painful life circumstances. I like to remember how family triggers include the larger family of humanity. And like our smaller micro family dynamics these larger ones add equal value to the human evolutionary process. As we integrate all that this means we have rich opportunities to grow and to evolve our selves.

Abuse and how we are to learn from it

A shocking realization for me was the memories that surfaced within me through the emotional work I did on healing myself. As I released more and more of the stuffed up, contaminated, overloaded contents of my own sub conscious I found a clarity. As there became a deep abiding inner peace within me I became emptied of many family scenarios of which I had suffered for years. In this peace my soul qualities filled in. In these peaceful internal states I integrated powerful memories of soul choices I had made before I became the me I am today. As a pre incarnated spiritual being I had looked closely at the earth based, family dynamics I could be born into. And to my shock I recalled the choice to undergo the difficult and painful experiences I would later learn to name abuse. Yet from the soul perspective I was particularly excited to avail myself of the chance to learn more and more through these difficult life scenarios. In my work with individuals over the years, I have witnessed the same exact realizations. These individuals who worked through the deepest layers of their negative pain, also had similar such soul memories. This has happened with such a congruent way I have learned that what we call abuse is meant to teach us, reveal to us, and to release us as we grow out of those circumstances. Not at all to imprison us as is the common idea held by people without soul awareness development. Shocking as it may be I found in the memories of many previous death experiences in past lives, even death has purpose.

When I was 33 years old I had a spontaneous soul review. Similar to a life review that is reported by people who have near death, and dying experiences. I had a soul review that showed my a long history of incarnations and the prevailing patterns in those lives and each death at the end. I reviewed the after life experiences and the returning to my soul self with each incarnation. This overview provided for me a larger context with which to frame human experience based on my own personal evolutionary unfolding in the earth school. In many incarnations I was learning every component of human power, power over others, power under others. And now as was revealed to me in this experience power with others. I experienced the tremendous, infinite love of God for me to have these experiences including death through murder, being murdered, and everything else. This love is far greater than even humanly possible to understand. So great is this love and so intelligent I learned how each negative experience I was victim to or had victimized would also contain an equal opportunity for balancing. Thus the polarity of experiences and the roles I played in all these different life times. The abuse we suffer here is actually meant for us to learn to understand, transform, and then transcend. This has not been the prevalent teaching in history of religion, and I learned that there have been powerful forces inside many religious institutions that are subliminally exerting hidden forces of control and manipulation. Thus in this lifetime I have learned that when a dogma is mean and unloving in any religion, I notice that. I do not participate any longer in any such teachings.

Soul agreements for incarnating and suffering through hardship

The incarnation that you and I are living within now contains soul agreements with the people in our families, as well as the collective human family. Suffering only need last as long as it takes to wake up to the larger perspective of a spiritually based ( not necessarily religious ) soul awareness of life. The depth of the painful things that are happening now have a polar opposite in the larger context of our human history and human species. The depth of pain has a counter balance in the depth of how unconscious we may be. In other words put like this… were we not so unconscious about the nature of existence and relationships we would not create or allow to manifest that which we are creating in this world. Out of our own unconscious thought feeling and action we generate experiences that will by nature arise to balance these things out. There is wisdom in the seemingly crazy unconnected terror, horror, pain and suffering we see around us. As we learn how not to create oppression, submission, power over others, greed, malice, and all the darker human emotions we currently still create we will have less expression of terror, abuse, suffering and pain inflicted one to the other. However we will have to learn from our triggers and seek to stop recreating patterns of hurt.

Release and freedom, the transcendence of conditions

Summing up here releasing self, learning to abide in freedom, and transcendence of negative situations is the underlying momentum arising naturally out of the great wisdom of creation in us, as us. Our experiences of suffering though not all consciously created, may be consciously transcended through prudent, vigilant exercising of our own free will. We all have some element of free will within the dynamic patterns of our pain. There is not final outcome of unending suffering and pain that is taught all over this planet. The soul is timeless, and directly connected to God. The soul in us is possible to be activated in any situation. Until one has passed through this, tested it, and learned this ….it may be hard to embrace, however that we effort to test ourselves, our beliefs and learn from what triggers us is a defining key to the human conundrum and mystery of suffering on our planet.

Anchoring the personality into the soul self

The result of the effort of the healing of our family triggers inside each one of us is ultimately the anchoring of the soul itself into the personality structure of self. Bringing into the world the greater will . Purpose, and light of a spiritually based person. A soul infused person who will manifest the love of our source here on this planet. If you have ever met or encountered such a person you will not forget them. A soul infused being has a powerful love, unflinching understanding and deep embrace of the human. Their very presence shifts the world around us. And they exist in every single walk of life, from the most lowly to the highest stages of human activity. I have been fortunate to have traveled all over the world and met many many such people and I am always left touched in some way with a gentle, yet even fierce love.

Living in the world as a soul being, and the effect this has on the world.

A soul incarnate being contributes in this world in ways that bring balance to life. They may even be your worst enemy. The bane of your existence. The choices that one encounters as a soul infused being, in my own experience defy what is normally accepted. Soul infused choices arise like magic, and create opportunities where humans could not. My own life has been filled with amazing such happenings. I know that soul people heal this world where ever they go. Their actions may be quiet and subtle yet their power great. Power to lift others, to show the way, and to pass beyond the most difficult of circumstances. Making way for truthfulness and the possibilities to love like never before here on earth.

The mystery of deep listening

The mystery of deep listening is that we learn to listen beyond the common voice of current rhetoric, and habitual patterning of anything less than soul based awareness. Learning how to pay attention to the unspoken promptings inside us, around us, and in nature. To listening to each other far beyond our words. The mystery in silence is there is more in the silence than in the words. I have learned to honor the pauses in life, not to fill every moment with chatter, and to hear past what you are saying. There is the sound of your soul, my soul yearning to be heard, seen, and felt. Our triggers lead us deeper so that we may come to these places in ourselves, and with one another.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self-reflection

Dedication to family….Mele Ohana

Every family on earth provides to each person the framework for the soul’s learning. complicated at times, we can have very positive and or very negative life experiences with one another. This is where we start our classroom of learning in the physical incarnation.

No one is limited by these circumstances and each individual may, if willing, grow through the family set up, and pass  beyond it. Knowing from my own soul eyes and heart, the family experience is essential to human life. How we choose through the circumstances we encounter is most important.

That we learn even to transcend our families in certain ways is also important.

Growth and the accumulation of experience all leading us to our greater inner wisdom is the unspoken purpose for it all. The pain we go through is equally as valuable as the happiness and joy.

There is a crossing point where we have learned all that is possible and we rise beyond many issues that are deep inside our family structures. This has happened to me over and over, and even with this i find myself looking back and loving.

For the crossing time does happen when we are filled with such gratitude for all experiences both positive and negative, and these experiences contribute to our personal stories of development, shaping us and the directions of our lives. When this happens we can only express love. It is what is left when all else has been faced, when all else has been dealt with, and we accomplish our own unique understandings leading to personal states of expansive wisdom.

Without the balances of light and dark, love and hate, positive and negative our innermost soul need for balance would not be capable of finding the greater whole in all things. To be whole is also to HEAL.

When one family member has healed their place, they may move on in life, and it is wise to remember that love does not grasp, or hold too tightly… love releases and sets free. Love by nature is wild and cannot be put into a box and kept forever. Thus it is through our families we learn these valuable lessons. We learn to become more than we thought possible, and we then transcend self, transcend circumstance.

To reflect upon the circumstances of each family dynamic with thoughtfulness and equanimity, to distance self so that one can clear out the confusions and misunderstandings is a natural response and yet when this happens we always have the choice to love ourselves, and each other as we pass through the years.

We have families that take us in, and love and accept us when our own birth families do not. There are so many family set ups on this earth, that one can be included and not even been born unto the people. Yet by way of the heart, there becomes the way, the way to include. And continue the soul’s journey of learning.

We have the human family which includes everyone here and all those who have passed on. We are awakening now to the next great leap in our evolutionary growth as we learn to include this greater possibility for all humans everywhere. It is my fervent desire and essential knowing that this is right. It is right to love a stranger, who is not really a stranger…. but a part of our larger, greater human collective.

The heart of our entire human species is opening, and we are feeling all that this means to us. We feel the pain of injustice, of hatreds, of bigotry, of hurtful actions towards one another, and even killings. We also feel the wonders, the universality, and the common ground that we all share. We are reaching out to each other and we are also killing each other. This is the paradox of our times. Both exist.

My core spiritual self has the intent to carry myself, to live my life, and to regard each person whether far or near with and open awareness of our true connection. To regard this with particular attention to conflict and difference, and to hold clearly that what is most important is not only to face and understand conflict, but to also hold understanding and possibility for resolution. Always.

Core spirituality embodies the universal truth of existence active in relationships, that by way of love we exist. To choose to find ways to enact this love within myself whenever i find it lacking, and to go about my day peacefully. And to release with love all those who have yet to be reborn into their greater loving selves. To release any holding on inside me to their actions on this planet, and to continue to cultivate my own loving responses to the horrors and negative actions. There is a very spiritual place we can go always which is the transcendent love of all existence, along with all who are within this place we temporarily call home.

After many incarnations myself, i am clear that the primary question i ask myself, and is asked of me upon leaving my body and finishing my life is not how much money did you make, or how many people did you impress?

Rather it is always the same question. Did you love?

Did you love yourself through out your life no matter what? Did you love others?

core spirituality, my personal journey

What i like to pursue in my spare time…. gardening orchids!

The Transcendence of Hardship…. core spirituality, my personal journey

The Transcendence of Hardship…. core spirituality, my personal journey

It is perhaps the least spoken of and certainly least understood of all human activities our hardships and our unwilling conundrums. Where we find how our transcendence of hardship plays such a vital and important and always contributing spiritual action in this world. The act of transcendence is a universal sub-note or theme to all of our lives and carries a universal purpose. Not limited by any one religion, any nationality, race, any place, or age of person. In fact the act of transcendence is connected to all human activity… directing the future for all of us. So how is it that we have forgotten this deeply moving and important aspect of living?

The facing of the difficult.

The facing of difficulty is so common that we hardly give it a thought, so pervasive in society that we have a vast array of choices we all make which serve to distract us from this very thing! Much of our human activity…. the quest for power, the abuse of drugs, the proliferation of violence as entertainment, the chasing of money, the complete obsession of so many aspects of life and much of the negative psychological problems we share arise out of our resistance, and denial of our need to move forward through circumstance and transcend the conditions we find ourselves.

Transcendence happens on all levels of our lives. Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, social… there is hardly a human arena where we do not have the personal power to exert change and difference in our lives through our transcendence of hardship. There are no limits to gathering what it takes inside us, around us, and through us to take on the task. Often it is not until we have passed through the fires of a painful and difficult time do we even discover the meaning of it all! Yet in hindsight we frequently do arrive at the greater purpose that was unfolding all along in our hardships.

An act of spirit.

As an act of spirit transcendence transports us into realms of mystery, and revelation, where we are able to shape and develop personal qualities, conditions around us, and participate in something larger than ourselves.. that of evolution. The opening to personal revelation and our unknown strengths and weaknesses are almost always revealed. The forces of circumstance drive us all to move beyond ourselves and to taste the sweet waters of humility. Here is where we regain our footing in new vision, new possibility, and new outcomes. Our soul selves quietly lead us forward through these things all to bring to us the larger place of being, where we discover our most important truths, unravel our greatest mysteries, and find the love we were searching all along. Yet… oh how we resist and fight the urge to transcend our own short comings and negativity. Until we reach the place of our deeper wisdom and learn the purposeful unfolding, we suffer. And most often we generate our own suffering through our ignorance ( from the word : “to ignore” ). The act of spirit is heaved forward into our lives as we gain momentum with our transcendence of every single circumstance both within ourselves and outwardly!

The idea of polarity.

What is so vital in all this is polarity, those forces of positive and negative. For as we face hardship and grok our way onward we gain strengths and wisdom’s as we face the tremendous negativity in our lives. It is perhaps the single most powerful teaching that any negative force can show us. The horrific negative scenarios in our world awaken human beings and redirect us in ways it is almost inconceivable to understand. When we gather one to another uniting in our efforts to face the hardships and difficulties of this world we literally change history, alter the future and gain tremendous strength of character. We are able to redefine and transcend these negatives. Within ourselves whenever we face a personal state of our own making, our own negatives, we draw from the very substance of our lives, the spiritual energy needed to move our blocks, shift our minds, release our pains. It is not uncommon to look back after such a growth zone and think of it as a miracle! Yet as humans this is perhaps one of our most powerful and fluid capacities. We can move mountains! We are truly spiritual beings having a human experience and not just humans having a spiritual experience. Never more is this realized than after passing through a difficult hardship and successfully and completely transcending the conditions and limitations that used to over take us.

How we react to the world and why it matters.

How we react to the world is of pure consequence because our reactions have momentum, have energy behind them. Every thought, emotion, action, or lack of … shape the collective conditions of our lives. Building our days with human choices both conscious and unconscious.

Once the realization that our reactions cause more actions with our environment, our human brothers and sisters, and all life on this planet we learn to pause. Pausing allows us the moments we need to learn to consider how and what we choose will affect life around us.

Staying prejudiced, or remaining stubborn, holding on to our viewpoints when another expresses an opposing view, for example, will only cause ourselves to continue to experience the same limiting and painful scenarios over and over.

Unyielding points of view in the face of opposition only add to conflict.

It is a choice to be this way, and learning to just relax and let others have their say, and to act on their notions is sometimes the one act that can bridge the differences. There is a third place where oppositions meet and the possibility for understanding then has a grounding for arising. It is quite possible to say no to injustices, suppression, oppression, and any forms of subservience while not creating any hardship. Learning how to engage difference has its strength in this world as it can show us how we ourselves may make a difference through the willingness to peacefully face such actions in the world. For truly all of these scenarios show us on the most primal level, what not to do to another. And so not to cause such in our personal lives in any degree.

Saying no to injustice, suppression, oppression and all forms of subservience to outside negative forces.

Choosing kindness over hatred

Choosing empathy over defensiveness

Choosing understanding over prejudice

Choosing strength over weakness

Choosing clarity over confusion

Choosing openness over closed-ness and obsessiveness

Choosing cooperation over fighting

Choosing willingness over resistance

Choosing love over… as the final result in all matters on a personal level
These are but a few harmonious conditions we can always grow in our personal lives in the face of hardships.

Transcendence is a core element of spirituality.

Transcendence is an aspect to core spirituality as it is basic to all of life, even on a cellular level. Transcendence is core because whether we like it or not, whether we want to at the time or not, circumstances will eventually lead us beyond ourselves and the limits we place in life. And this transcendence connects into the collective. Our private thoughts, feelings, and actions do affect the public domains of our common ground. As the actions, words of such generate the conditions we live within. How often have I discovered a private and personal act of transcendence brought to me a new door opening, a new friend, new possibilities. Yet on the surface there did not appear to be any connection outside me. The revelation was indeed, we are… and all things and circumstances all connected.

“Going against the grain” when it serves your intent to transcend.

“Going against the grain” is an uncomfortable realization that our personal growth demands of us eventually. There is a time when it becomes right to step away, to step out, and to go another way. Even at the dismay of loved ones. Our deeper urge to transcend does not always align with the timing of the people with whom we love. Thus there is a pain and this pain we are urged to bear as we move forward and learn to not only face our difficulties, but also to transcend them. Resulting in many turn rounds, shifting of circumstance and whole new unexpected directions. Family and friends are not always up to speed with us at the same time this happens. When we choose differently it is helpful to be considerate of our loved ones and to take time to share, if that is possible. When it is not we must go forward anyway and my experience is that in time, more opportunities will show up later where the chance to build understanding will manifest. But until then, “going against the grain” may become the central theme of our lives.

Transcendence as a way of life, the art of always giving self permission to move on.

Clearly one of the most difficult aspects of all this is giving ourselves permission to move forward! Yet it is needed, as no one has the power to do it for us, we have to act on our own life force from within ourselves otherwise the transcendence is not complete. Going it alone, and learning self permission is one of the scariest most important realizations on the path of facing the difficult. When we can muster this with the smaller conditions, we graduate to larger ones. Along the way we learn how transcendence is a way of life and an art to living that is absolutely necessary. Often it is in our loneliest, most alone moments when we discover our own most powerful strengths. Graduating to the art of transcendence where we learn to love and live happily as we make our changes, even when we face our hardships. This is where we encounter the paradox of living. Paradox becomes familiar ground and acceptance is the way through the polarizing opposites in our nature and the world around us. Many times in my own history of transcendence I have been in a state of paradox until I achieved a greater momentum in my direction. I learned to accept this about myself, life in general and this supports me in facing the difficult with much less angst and more layering of negativity.

The evolution of circumstance based on choice.

When in hindsight we reflect upon circumstance it is much easier to see how our evolution and growth through our choice selections generate the circumstance. When we discover how we create reality, (circumstances) we learn how to value what is inherent in facing hardship. It becomes worth it to move onward and go through whatever it will take to transcend our unhappiness, our discords, our pains, and our adversities and adversaries. All such negative situations become the fuels with which we use to propel ourselves out and beyond. We stop fighting them, and we learn to transcend them…. ourselves.

This is most valuable with larger issues where whole groups of people are involved. We may not have unto our individual selves the powers necessary to shift a whole group, yet we do when it comes to one individual. Me! One transformed person will make it possible for another and another, and so on. In case you have never heard of The Hundredth Monkey phenomenon, then investigate that. We learn to be appropriate in the larger context of life and we replace our rant of “change the world” to “change my world” and we get on with the business of living the change ourselves. This is powerful.

Anchoring intention into states of transcendence vs. the struggle.

When we arrive to the natural impulse within ourselves to transcend, and concentrate on our own life, and stop projecting this onto every person, group, nation or whatever that we do not agree …we cease the continuous state of conflict so many humans place their energy.

We then add to the harmonious forces of transformation and transcendence that already exist and are popping up all over the world. There is an appropriate action facing the negative forces around us , and there is the time to do this work internally and make the change within that we want to see outwardly. In other words… “I become the change I want to see in the world”. And thus we become a force for transcendence that is unstoppable.

Through out my entire life I have experienced all these things and I know how new levels of transcendent living actually shift the very life around me.

Forces of negativity that once pulled upon me withdraw their grip and the freedom within is untouchable to those forces.

There is still a lot we all are learning when it comes to sovereignty… and one of the most difficult realizations is no one can give this to you, no one can make you sovereign like you can.

Yet still the masses seek freedom outside themselves, when it is actually within us.

The discovery that we make this ourselves is for all of us.

As more and more individuals begin to live this, the forces of oppression, suppression, injustice, and harm will only continue to diminish. These kind of negative forces can only take hold in individuals that do not live in alignment with transcendence and the self sovereignty of a human life.

Thus for these negatives to go away we all will learn and learn so fully, so collectively that negatives will have no place to anchor in us, in our lives.

This is the deeper more powerful truth of the transcendence of hardship that all negative forces do not want you to learn, for it does mean their end.

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The Old World Borders and the Age of Global Social Reform, core spirituality my personal journey

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The Old World Borders and the Age of Global Social Reform, core spirituality my personal journey

Ideas are not subject to physical boundaries.

The old world borders which kept all our lives separate can no longer contain the wave of global social reform arising in our collective humanity. Ideas have the capacity to move beyond physical barriers and man-made boundaries traveling across the world in light speed.

Our world is passing through a tremendous time of transformation that on the surface appears to be filled with mostly terror, revolt, dissent of all kinds and corruption. The situation is vastly complicated with many layers with which to reflect and understand. A time of great change. Something so big is going on that everyone all over the planet is feeling it in some way. We are in a collective shift of the ages. We have lots to do.

Human consciousness is evolving beyond the old world ways and we are feeling the painful dismantling of centuries old order. Difficulty abounds as leaders in every nation are learning how to come to terms with the ascending awareness of the collective human conditions which seek to know freedom and the exercise of creative impulse. Resistance to allowing these changes to happen is accumulating, and the ways in which people are enacting their notions of control are being exercised in every conceivable manner. The time of our lives is fraught with horrible danger and staggering possibility all at the same time. All the while the push back continues to build everywhere all over the world.

The technological age.

The advancement of technologies have taken us over the edges of thousands of years of doing things a certain way. We are feeling the need to transform this and so new paradigms are emerging, a whole new possibility to communicate.

How we learn to communicate is of vital importance now.

What we communicate is of vital importance now.

Each person’s reactions add to the world-wide arena of ideas.

Positive or negative…. we are seeing ourselves like never before.

The souls of those now on earth.

The souls of those present on earth, the young, and those coming in are poised to question authority, stand up to injustice and inequality, and voice opposition and enact push back to old world forces on a scale such as we have not ever seen on a global level.

World wide “Push Back”

These incarnate beings in every country are living out the needed changes that are part of the larger spiritual shift happening in our world community. We have every position being taken from each end of the polarity of possibility from the most positive to the most negative and many have suffered, been killed, or have elevated and freed themselves and others through daily choices being made.

There are the many growing ideologies of freedom urging forward in the hearts and minds of these new souls. The many old world systems which have served humans for centuries are being questioned and challenged. Political controls … absolute monarchies, democratic monarchies, dictatorships, powerful forces for oppression and suppression through military action, financial take over are all having to contend with the push back now. Our humanity is stirring and it does not look to me as if it can be truly stopped. Evolution has its own truthful components needing to be addressed through out the world-wide landscape, and HUMANITY is feeling all this.

Our collective need for honesty.

No longer satisfied with patronizing words, misleading, misinformation, or deceit the massive movement of a greater truthfulness is seeking expression through the masses demanding real reforms, ending the patriarchal oppressive forces of control. The rising to equality in the woman… the rise of the feminine in us is calling out with each and every voice. Balancing centuries of patriarchal law and rule. The call to true transparency and the deliberate destruction of false propaganda is virtually world-wide now, and growing! The revealing of the secrets, the hidden agendas, and motivations will continue world-wide in all our lives as we learn to live in greater states of personal honesty. This new level of honesty is what transforms what is corrupted, twisted, and hidden to us. The very personal choice to be self honest is where we find our true innate spiritual power.

Secret empires all over the world.

Empires of all kinds, whether familial, political, religious, economical/financial, and hidden to the public are being challenged with the voices of democracy as the voices of deceit are pushed upon. The loss of personal privacy with the global breakdown of the internet via governmental forces all over the world is being questioned through the many speeches, meetings, and lawful challenges against the NSA. The people want to know. Humanity has the idea that we all have the need to be free, sovereign, and creative drivers of our lives. Not dictated by an external authority!

What is not reported in global media.

New service committees, new programs, new areas of collective discussion are finding new possibilities as the madness continues to scream at us. We continue to develop communication formats that would replace the world-wide military actions that are attempting to maintain order. People are realizing that communication is the peaceful and most powerful means to resolve conflicts. The world watches in pain as these forceful actions continue to kill, mame, wound, and injure innocents. Still there is greater possibility now more than ever to develop new platforms for understanding as a way to solve problems, not violence which increases the disenfranchised and displaced actions of millions of people. There is growing all over the world a new voice for ALL people. Fundamentalist, or violent, or suppressive jihads ( not in the true sense of the meaning of the word, but in the fundamentalist war mongering way) , fatwas, along with secret military and political and economic take overs which distribute wealth, and resources in massively disproportionate degrees of inequality are all facing us as we learn how to replace these actions with greater understanding and mutual respect for differences. We are having to all learn in the collective plane of this physical world.

Reforms emerge and grow out of needs.

As we learn to be aware of what is really going on around us we are waking up to how rights, freedoms, and creativity are really being withheld by the few against the many. The growth of new reform is birthed as more and more individuals realize how much we need to make changes. This is a natural response in life, as we all have the innate interior messages within us to protect, and to grow personal freedom and creative living.

When the present circumstances no longer fulfill the purposes of the present day it is a natural response to creatively make new… to re-form what has been.

When this awareness reaches a massive level in whole groups of people we see what is known as revolutions.

What is a revolution?

The word itself comes from the Latin revolutio, meaning “a turn around”. Or in action it becomes a fundamental change in power or structure, and arises as a “revolt” or push back to the current status quo. Major changes in other words.

Major changes on both sides of this equation are all over the world now. Dissent, intimidating, threatening, arresting, torturing, killing are much of what we see now. Anyone who speaks out using justice systems is likely to encounter those who use them to create political agendas by having secret courts, enacting ancient laws, and using financial resources to thwart justice. All to stop this reform from happening. Resulting in people who feel more anger and then more revolt and push back… this is quite natural. There is an innate dignity in each human, there is the need to learn to have tolerance and acceptance now of these difficult problems on a massive global scale. The violence that ensues rises up as a natural response to continued, unending, perpetrating forces that do not meet people’s needs, both political and social, combined with all the deceitful intimidation and suppression. This effects whole regions as shifts in consciousness ripples to neighbors and the younger generations respond versus the older generations.

The right to education.

The right to be self informed via truthful reporting, and media accountability, and transparency is vital to our new global citizens. The right to educate through higher education in grade school, primary and secondary is something people are working on in many countries. When medias are severely controlled, journalists threatened, or arrested for speaking truth to power in their efforts to inform the public these people are acting as educators. Without clear information we are not capable of decisions that will be in our own best interest. As the reality of the corruption is brought to light all over the world the existing powers are having a difficult time maintaining their status quos of limiting personal freedoms. Free speech is not tolerated and seen as a threat. Yet at the same time we cannot stop learning, growing, and becoming better without the truth to make corrections. I am astonished at how free speech is handled by governments, corporate powers, and judicial systems all over the world. Reform is absolutely necessary here.

In core spirituality, the bias I hold is that we are not humans having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human one.

This experience of being human right now entails the understanding that the human condition is in flux, and at times in greater change than others times.

As a spiritual being I have the inherent capability to see clearly, know deeply, and respond as such to my surroundings. All rights come from the one Source. Whether you call that source Allah, God, Lord, whatever your belief, the Source of life is the source.

We have as expressions of this source the innate possibility to arrive at all truth, truth beyond religious or political belief. Truth as the expression of the pure nature of Source.

In this way we can choose to live as expressions of this truth and we can grow this inside ourselves… no matter the physical circumstance. That we have the ability to respond…. responsibility to our lives is how we make choices day-to-day. Our choices are enhanced by our ideas, by our physical surroundings, by our infinite spiritual nature. When I observe the unfolding events here I am reminded how transient and conditional physical life really is, and by nature how unending spiritual life is. What is happening here on earth is a spiritual transformation. As every aspect of our humanness comes under scrutiny. As we question all that we do this is spiritual work of being incarnated. And as such serves both a personal and a collective whole. We learn to be self sovereign. Learning how to become a self sovereign spiritual being alongside all others. Learning how to be a self sovereign spiritual race of humans.

Everyone holds the world in his or her hands.

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Consciousness and Belief… Finding Core Value, core spirituality, my personal journey

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Consciousness and Belief… Finding Core Value, core spirituality, my personal journey

Consciousness here is defined as the totality of my own psychology, emotional nature and feeling of sensations, perceptions ideas, attitudes in both ordinary and non ordinary (dreams, meditations, and altered states) super conscious and subconscious experience.

Belief here is a state or habit of my mind, a conviction of truth in which I place my trust and thru which I view and experience reality.

Core value here is what I have come to understand, experience, learn and remember as central to the experience of being human from the viewpoint of my own spirit, soul self.

My own paradigm shift!
While belief plays a significant component to life here on earth and provides a framework for experiencing our lives it is not actually the most important value as many human beings hold true.

In my experience of passing out of and beyond this physical existence while still in body with my present awareness completely intact, I have learned that how and what I create and cause to evolve within myself holds the central core value of meaningfulness to each physical embodiment or incarnation.

Circulating all over the earthly human environment are voices which do not hold fast to this idea.

Having passed from their original spiritual state into the physical incarnation cycles, many people ( spiritual beings ), the idea of belief has become for the masses the most important value and is the cause of horrific and vast conflict among-st our collective humanity …..
undermining the basic core value of our species reason for living.

My own “wake up” realization!
When what we believe and how we believe it becomes more important than how our beliefs cause us to evolve or hold us back from evolving, we sidestep and avoid the deeper more meaningful purpose with which our beliefs serve us.

What we are actually doing to one another that is based in placing our beliefs over our evolution.
To use belief to oppress, suppress, control, manipulate, hoard, harm and kill others has been a longstanding outcome to many of the religious, political, and personal beliefs of billions of humans adding to the suffering of many and the preventing of global unity and collective prosperity for everyone.

The effect of which causes me to observe…
I find it very telling when groups, nations, military around the world, whole bodies of religious people all involve themselves in hurting of others for the sake of their own beliefs.

In this way we can observe a signal that some aspect of belief is inherently out of sync with the larger picture of our collective experience (especially from the spiritual, not religious perspective). Whether the belief is based in Christianity, Islam, or the Jewish systems the history, or any other religious or non religious systems is noteworthy here of how people of these faiths have allowed their belief to perpetrate harm to others… to children, adults, animals, the environment which supports us is staggering.

The application of religious belief combined with political will to withhold basic human rights, to perpetrate control over whole masses of people and the justification of harm to others is highly questionable to me. I feel myself wanting to understand this about our humanity.

When what we believe becomes more important than how that belief supports us in evolving our awareness and our consciousness shows me how we have personally and collectively lost something central to the experience of being human that together we all share. The underlying spiritual being-ness that we all share! ( for example … the unyielding quest for power in thousands of ways at any cost to others to maintain a status quo !)

Decades of working with healing modalities have shown me…
In my personal work of healing my own pain in this life and those others who have come to me, I have had a lifetime of experiences of moving beyond belief, and into the purely spiritual aspect of my own self and others, my soul to realize what it is I am or am not learning.

The massive astral realms of souls.
It has been my experience that after death of the body many individuals pass into gigantic realms of collective belief far into the astral realm of this planet. Where the mutual thoughts have generated artificial astral realms filled with millions of souls who have gathered together out of their collective beliefs formed while in body. This is true for every religion.

I have visited these astral realms and been shown how the over emphasis in belief causes the staggering of the soul beyond incarnation. Yes! Beyond this lifetime! Like wise I have traveled beyond these realms and witnessed both for myself and others how we eventually come to realize what we have learned as a result of earthly life when we make it beyond the realms of our earthly belief !

The “soul reviews”…
I have witnessed the assessments of evolution that arise from these experiences. I know how the value of evolution, personal and collective growth plays a much greater role in our spiritual selves, far beyond the beliefs we have held while in body. As each soulful aspect, each being, has the opportunity to learn of itself, its experience, and to assess its own evolution while on earth!

While what we believe is all well and important… the actual question of the soul is; “what did I do to evolve my consciousness, how did I grow by learning?”

Once in this realm the appropriate configuration of belief is understood for the true value it holds and we reconnect with the context of our experiences from our purely spiritual selves.

Belief is merely a vehicle for mind, emotion, feeling, and experience which teaches us about our nature as spiritual beings having a human experience.

For truly it is so…. we have a common, yet diverse experience of being human, as spiritual beings we are all on a much larger common ground of spiritual experience.

As soul beings, or expressions of the Source, or “God”, (use the word you feel best expresses this) our souls have much more in common and are all completely connected one to the other. It is quite ordinary while in physical body to use beliefs to substantiate exactly the opposite! And maintain a separateness one towards another while in the body experience. Contrary to the larger reality of the vast larger, true and actual reality of life where this is not even true.

In viewing my brothers and sisters in spirit I have seen the realms where they go based purely in their earthly beliefs, where Christians are still waiting for the coming of their lord, or where Muslims linger in a paradise of their own making. It was a startling experience to watch as I moved through these realms learning to understand how what we believe even directs us after we die our bodies here.

There are realms which exist beyond earthly belief in the universe!
Contrasting thus further with the realms where the actual soul essence is supported to engage in honest self-reflection, self understanding about what we did with our beliefs while on Earth. This engaged a huge wake up call to me as I learned how much farther we go knowing we are not a belief, we are pure spiritual being and this being is far more open, far more larger, and far more connected to something far greater than all these separate beliefs COMBINED! In this place we understand the nature of our consciousness as not just a human having a spiritual experience, we know that we are a spiritual being having a human experience!

The conditional reality of living only within a belief as the very core of the structure of life, and that being in life is seen as that…. conditional. And not the actual full reality of existence. This is why I have learned to shift the emphasis of belief to its more appropriate place and to look to how my or someone else’s beliefs are causing us to evolve. I look to the evolving results, or the learning, while respecting the belief that brings us to our personal evolutionary states.

We as a species have a tremendous leap now as all the beliefs of thousands of years are being stirred. As our world becomes personally closer one to another through technology and the expansive experience of consciousness growth, and we face how what we believe is actually hurting our collective “us”.

We have further to go towards understanding and what we do with our wills.

How we choose to act, towards our belief differences. We have so much more capability here to resolve what has been our history.

As more and more of the darker side of our beliefs is brought out, into the light of how we actually harm one another, or withhold universal rights to all beings we can evolve into a completely diverse yet harmonious humanity. Yet… this will take work.

And this work is for each one of us in our daily lives, in whatever ways we can muster toward greater understanding that beyond what we all believe, how we evolve from our beliefs, what we actually learn is the central value and purpose of our ideas in the gift of living each day.

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Our Human Propensity to Demonize … All Around the World… core spirituality, my personal journey

Our Human Propensity to Demonize … All Around the World… core spirituality, my personal journey

The activity of demonizing individuals, groups and nations is the habit of making wicked or evil someone, or some group of people and promoting facts in a way that generates a climate of being less than the totality of their true identity. By obscuring details, deleting information and leaving out certain facts, and or out and out lying about that individual or individuals in an attempt to persuade ones point of view. (including yourself !)

How many of us have participated in this behavior within our own social groups and families? Especially as a retaliatory response to some hurt, or wound we felt as a result of our perceived threat and injury. Escalating that threat or hurt to levels not truly a part of the actual reality of the situation.

To take the stance that someone is bad, or evil when we ourselves feel slighted, hurt, or the target of hurtful actions (to us) in an effort to make ourselves feel better, justified and right about some form of “perceived” injustice.

This human behavior is highly toxic, especially when left unchecked!

This behavior is practiced by little kids at school, adults of all kinds; moms, dads, teachers, politicians etc. , entire groups of people, and specifically…governments.

The consequences of demonizing is monstrously vast and has tremendous repercussions to healthy balanced and enriched human community.

To me this is appalling and highly injurious to the innate spirituality of any group of living beings, especially ourselves, when we are casting judgmental stands and pointing the finger. The hidden side of this is the righteous stand which perceives itself to be free to distort, malign, and denigrate character by hurling partially true or even completely false accusations aimed at the target… at any person, group, or nation, leaving out the complete body of truthful facts and information.

When the origins of this behavior are held in secret, left unchecked!

This human behavior is so very negative and is intended to be so, even when the source of such behavior is “acting as if” it is not and justifying false or partial information by acting “nice” and smiling all along the way.

This is obvious when looking through the lens of secrecy, deceit, and political bantering which is pervading our world through government activity, so called free media outlets, military stances around the world and the actions with which they are generating for the masses through their “covert-sourced” law rewrites for profiting by the few at the expense of the many. (the mass surveillance of internet activity and elimination of privacy therein without due process of law by governing bodies as exposed by whistle blowers across the world, and TPP, the Trans Pacific Trade Accord for example)

I see this now growing all through the internet media, corporate news sources, all across the world especially by politicians, and various other government representatives along with people in the various military bodies of the world on a daily basis The climate of such negative communication has become the norm and the general population appears to become quite passive and numb in response. Looking away is becoming a common response.

This care less attitude is exactly the climate much of this negativity requires to continue to grow and organize and covertly shape the world with which we live. And it appears to be working as more and more governmental bodies, along with social groups gain access to media outlets in an effort to promote their negative points of view, often in partial truth, distorted truth, obscured details of truth, or pure lack of truth along with eliminating all privacy in the world of internet activity through the secrecy of enacting policies of taking on surveillance and monitoring of any individual.

The effort to eliminate all privacy has devastating repercussions.

Thus undermining the integrity and fabric of honest and forthright community and social interaction among people. Continuously stirring the pot of discontent and maintaining an unending climate of discontent. Thus swaying popular opinion in the masses of people who still would rather follow along and believe such actions without the personal integrity of thinking for ones self. The effect is diminishing creative freedom, free expression, and dumbing down. And still people go along casually and grow to accept this as the norm. This is all very toxic behavior.

I know that within my own family we have such situations where this behavior is active.

I know that our own governing body is participating in this behavior and any voice of which expresses dissent to this prevailing attitude of maligning others without due process, and fair justice continues in our court systems ( more whistle blowers have been indicted in our present time than any other, continuous reports of police injustice within the general population, and the unending maligning of individuals across the world through political talking heads,and politicians without the full benefit of due process, and total fact representation.)

Our very right to free press, free speech, and many other personal rights are being violated on a daily basis and justified via powerful forces which act in secret, behind closed doors, and without full transparency to the masses.

Our collective spending, is subject to all this without due process and full disclosure and our infrastructures, our educational institutions are diminishing while the wages of war continue to be harvested and purposefully grown by small numbers of people in high offices of power. Certainly the collective humanity of this world does not truly want all this and yet to the common individual it appears to continue regardless of who is in office, and whatever vote we have cast in all the free nations of the world. And still people casually look away.

One of many starting points is with demonizing others, and hidden arrogance.

When we allow ourselves to be undermined by not taking the time to be fully informed by all the facts out in the open in our personal lives, we subject ourselves to horrible forces of darkness. Levels of misunderstanding then pervade our daily lives and break down the deeper connections that we all have on a spiritual basis. The end results are we are doing this to ourselves!

What can one person do? Am I truly powerless here?

Our spiritual selves know and sense truth, our personalities may not, so the work of honest self reflection, fact finding on any single issue, and personal responsibility carry tremendous capability to heal our broken selves, our disturbing world and misunderstood relationships. The need to suspend our tendencies to be judgmental along with recognizing hidden arrogance’s goes a long way here.

The natural response to injustice and secrecy. ( Both privately and collectively)

The spiritual component is the rising of conscience (as I have written in the previous essay) and the integrity of genuine disclosure to ourselves of truthfull fact finding where we consider all the details whenever there is a climate of demonizing taking place. And choosing to investigate our life circumstances so as to learn how to get along.

That we also learn to hold accountable those individuals, and or groups of people in non violent and compassionate attitudes of investigation can move us along with tremendous force for correcting our human mistakes, and deepest hurts. Redirecting the forces which attempt to generate powerlessness combined with righteousness over any one person or persons.

By choosing self honesty and holding our own selves to this while holding accountability with others as they learn to process their actual deeply felt hurt, injustice and misunderstanding. We align with our most powerful inner places of spiritual integrity and bring to our human-ness these qualities. Along with the possibility to correct what needs correcting in our world. In this way we each learn to evolve our consciousness and invest in larger capacities our ability to express freely, generate creativity, grow our joy and share this with others.

So if I or you have a chip on our shoulder, if I have an un-investigated accusation pending, if I feel hurt or wounded by another, if I don’t understand something about someone, or some body of people I can always do my own self investigation and my own inner work to fully come to a healthy and just conclusion.

However that work does not get totally complete by pointing fingers alone, calling names, or accusing. It comes from taking personal responsibility for self and starting with the place I live, you live where we may be and the willingness to see information with which I may be personally uncomfortable with and yet must in order to gain the full, wide range of information in any such situation.

We are free as spiritual being to question, to question authority, to question those in power, and to question ourselves. This is an innate spiritual component of living life. Whenever someone is exerting pressure, attempting to intimidate, or to squash your questioning…. question that. And especially if you are feeling overly justified and righteous in your own stand. I could be doing this to myself and not even realize it. Learning to recognize inner arrogance and righteousness is a significant part of the work needed to live freely and with healthy measures around us. Our first place in working on issues of demonizing is always ourselves and the ways with which we passively or actively participate in such activities.

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The Awakening of Conscience… core spirituality, my personal journey

 

The Awakening of Conscience… core spirituality, my personal journey

The human being that realizes….

The stirring and the awakening and the increasing expression of conscience is a signal for our times arising as a natural balance with regard to the dishonesty now prevailing through out our once free thinking human world. Particularly within the climate of mass deceit, deception, and secrecy.

The expression of personal truth in the face of such forces around the world becomes meaningful. As whistle blowers emerge to inform us, their actions arise out of their sense of personal conscience. By bringing truthfulness to overly powerful secretive bodies of individuals involved in corporations, government bodies, schools, militarism, and various other groupings profiting through covert actions.

Considering the consequences…

In our daily lives how we conduct ourselves either tears at the fabric of personal sovereignty or strengthens it. Our daily decisions to participate knowingly and willingly with those systems, those individuals, and or other forms of socialization that undermine the very core of personal sovereignty and honest, creative self expression has consequence in the over all conditions of our lives. We can see this by becoming aware of how laws, banking, military functions, media reporting, government spending, media spin, to name a few are changing all around us. Many are not watching their own consciences.

Fear states, fear proliferation, fear doctrines, fear justifications, and all the fear mongering..

Perhaps the most visible outcome of this behavior is fear mongering. The perpetuation of fear thru secrecy, half truth, and misdirected appropriations of human resources, finances, etc. can have a weakening effect on our social structures, our relationships, our collective dynamic spending, and so on. When we succumb to fear mongering through the alignment and agreement with these forces and bypass our own innate conscience we are allowing our world to be governed not by ourselves, but by those whose intentions may not be in our best interest. The proliferation of poverty, social class-ism, religious intolerance, war mongering, fear mongering and the deliberate avoidance of protecting those weakest in our world becomes the vehicle for further displays of misplaced power plays and profiting of the few for the many. We create how this us for us! Too many of us are just looking the other way.

The dynamic action in which we learn to observe, attend to, and express our very conscience has profound outcome in even the smallest ways for every individual. Thus the path of awakening whereby we learn to know ourselves, the contents of our hearts and feelings lead to creative solutions that not only serve the individual, this also serves the whole body of our humanity.

When we persist in looking away…

The avoidance of our conscience and bypassing the inner signals of our innate voice of right and wrong will allow loss of personal choice and many freedoms we hold dear in many free societies. When fear mongering becomes the norm, as it is now developing in all free nations, as well as third world countries, the danger arises through systems of control. Our world is now filled with millions of examples of this easy to see once we choose to see, and to stop looking away.

Fear mongering generates and lays the groundwork for control mechanisms, and many different control systems to be made, as in the many new laws now being created all over the free world, the militarization of local police authorities, and the daily proliferation of news and media outlets whose voices then support those of the fear mongers ( hiding behind the secrecy of their real actions). Thus generating a non free press, or a free press that is not really free, acts as if it is, but subscribes to the very forces behind all the fear mongering. The suppression of whistle blowers becomes the norm.

When an individual feels that they are not free to be creative and begins to adjust their attention towards decisions made out of fear we create, ourselves, the very thing we fear most.

Our own loss of freedom.

We can look to history to see how previous totalitarian bodies exerted control and fear to gain profit for the few not so far back in history. Loss of freedom leads to control which leads to totalitarianism and this corrupts the very fabric of our human dignity.

When our very core infrastructures, our educational systems, our governing bodies all lean towards these forces and our resources are then placed into militiarizing this world, withholding freedoms such as freedom of the press, freedom to move about, freedom to live without the notion of being watched we are all weakened while a few become strong. Our own collective spending budgets exceed all historical spending towards for example….militarization, away from education, and infrastructures right now.

The injustice grows through the squashing of the right to organize, and express free decision making about those governing bodies we “think” are governing us rightly. The climate of questioning authorities can become unsafe to any one individual and is subject to much much injustice, criminalization and oppression and subverting of free expression . (leading to lack of truth in any situation)

The current state of local courts in all free nations are showing signs of being infiltrated by further corruption, secrecy, and forces which appear to act beyond the agreed system of law which has been voted on by those in free societies. Enacting laws that remove freedoms, subvert true knowledge, and suppress the voices of those who would tell the truth about the secrecy now growing all around us.

The evidences of these actions continue to grow as more alternative forms of reporting spring up so as to bypass the “normal” forms of news currently flooding the medias. Why does this happen? Because these corporate medias are distracting the attention of millions of people by only reporting on the themes that are in the interest of these giants and avoiding at all costs those things they do not want us to know. Something has to give so the voices of the people can continue to express creatively and honestly without subjugation to current themes based in secret agendas for profit to the few.

The inherit human dignity of the individual becomes subject to these forces as the norm and the wave of powerlessness, poverty, victimization, and so on continues to grow. All this without conscience. This is why we choose to act with conscience and to observe and to grow as spiritual beings having this human experience.

There is tremendous spiritual possibility inherent in our current times…

This is a great spiritual learning unfolding for our humanity at this time. Spiritual in that our conscience is directly connected to our spiritual self. How we choose to investigate and learn the spiritual side of physicality, is at hand now. That we begin to investigate the deep and meaningful spiritual questions and find those answers inside our own hearts, our own bellies contributes to the unfolding condition of human behavior all over this planet. Without it, darker forces of fear and control take over the individual and shape the conditions of that individual in victimizing, demoralizing, degrading, limiting, and controlling ways. How we activate and use our sense of conscience to face and process these darker forces will deeply effect all our lives and the lives of future generations thinking they are living in a “free world”.

We are free when we are living within our own conscience decision making and we are not free when we are living in the decision making of those outside of it.

That we learn this is paramount to a bright future surrounded with such dark clouds of fear and oppression. How it is we go about the simplest of activities is shaped by how we invest in our most sincere forms of honest conscience, or lack of…

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Emotional Intelligence… leaning into self awareness to heal, core spirituality

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Emotional Intelligence… leaning into self-awareness to heal, core spirituality

Learn to address every emotion that you have. This is my interior message this year. Learn to identify moods, gut feelings, disconnects, and the interior places that still pull me out of my own joy. Generate the understanding in the world you wish to see for the place you inhabit, your physical body and let the world of madness go by you. Do your inner work and learn to know thyself.

Learn how it is your emotions play into your life as they will be the source of many situations that you still do not comprehend. ( shaping your reality from behind the curtain of your conscious knowing)

Radical self honesty is arriving to your door, so pay attention!

Your sub conscious is becoming conscious as you open yourself to the deepening discovery of radical self honesty. Profound self honesty empowers your personality to gain strength and momentum in the ongoing unfolding course of your life experiences. These experiences are also a large component of your path, your spiritual path. That you come to understand and identify what you feel is the precursor to more significant self-development and capability is starting to gain momentum within humanity now.

Stuck places, repeating mood swings, disharmonious life patterns and lack of joy and personal freedoms are symptoms of your still as of yet, unfinished inner work, and spiritual development.

A big AHAA is upon you!

It is rare that emotional development is tagged as a major component of spirituality, rather we are led to focus on belief alone as our source of spirituality, yet this is still far from the larger truth of existence.

As spiritual beings having human experiences our feeling nature is extensive, multi-layered, mysterious, and complex. When we only focus, as we are led to believe by so many external forces such as religious leaders and many teachings they promote, on belief without integrating all of our feelings and emotions we block from ourselves vast amounts of information that lead to deep understandings and the true interconnection of all life.

External forces of religion that perpetrate belief without emotional sovereignty and deep self honesty for all feelings then have a capacity to box up certain feelings that prevent a human from having full access to the larger innate and very powerful feelings that will guide one through the maze of human life.

Beliefs alone are used as mental ideas and these will not sufficiently embrace the wider spectrum’s of feelings and emotions any human is capable of having. This blocks the natural flow of spiritual feeling and the possibility for knowing something from inside self as a direct experience.

When we are externally focused in this way our emotions will continue to pop up, and cause frictions with our personalities in ways that maintain a continuum of human confusions.

This is a real aspect of the darker forces that have been active on earth for centuries. ( hiding in so-called spiritual places, yet religions)To prevent humanity from knowing the significant truth of self, as a spiritual being, and to direct subservience, and passive acceptance without understanding of how life works. This form of subtle coercion exists all around us in all forms of media control, religious belief, and how our society is informed on a daily basis.

Do you actually believe that all the news that is reported is really “the news”?

We are not being shown the actual truth of our lives, as we are led to believe. We are not really getting all “the news” as is reported by every news media. All of this is selective, and is selective so as to lead us into a very limited perspective about our lives and each other.

The amount of real and relevant information is being omitted is huge!

The ramifications of this are the continual use of power over others through war mongering, political positioning and control, media hype, and religious perversions that cause and perpetrate powerlessness and victimization as long-standing patterns within our human family.

How does one come to really know this?

It is from the deep radical self honesty of self-reflection, and learning to integrate our emotions and feelings on a daily basis which lifts one out of the hypnosis of falseness still being perpetrated across the entire planet. Self knowledge and clarity of emotions inform us directly from within, and in this way we have our own detectors for information. This interior state of feeling and emotional clarity carries significant more information that reveals purpose, direction, and many of the answers our humanity is seeking. It comes from within self. Within each person one at a time, day by day. And our connection to this interior place is our own sovereign life force in us, as us.

It is quite simple.

The big AHAA, is that each of us has this capacity built inside us and we can increase, develop, and maintain this if we so desire. Thus diminishing our sense of victimization and lack of knowledge about any subject.

One has to walk the path of emotional honesty so completely that this becomes obvious, and not until one has cultivated this to a significant degree will it become so obvious and relevant.

To persevere in the face of ignorance, denials, and the habits of being a “follower” and to shift into knowledge, acceptance, and self sovereignty is how we learn to truly grow up. To learn to take the substances of our dally lives and utilize this material as a learning lab for our spiritual selves and to rise through it all.

Our humanity is venturing forward now in larger ways towards a collective wake up, a collective leap into our own larger capacity to hold vastly greater amounts of information which can generate tremendous new self-knowledge. More and more people are becoming aware of the lies that are being perpetrated all over the world, as well as all the corruption. How we feel about all this and what we do about it will depend on our capacity to feel our feelings. Is retaliation really the best way, is power over others, is emotional immaturity really working?

We are learning to discover how emotional maturity really feels, and how this redirects us into better life choices. Our learning curve is huge here as we have so very far we can go. Our future generations of humans will be riding on the decisions we make now. And I can tell you that this is very essential to integrate as another form of emotional maturity… that we realize the actual consequences of our actions without repeating the same victimization and violence over and over and over.

To shift into a better capacity to handle increasing intensities, choose radical self honesty!

Instead of the same emotional denial and reactionary patterns we usually have in our life patterns we can choose radical self honesty. Radical and profound self honesty has the capacity to withstand the intensity. It has the capacity to drive through difficulty, and to align us with much more powerful forces available to us for manifesting reality. This honesty will diminish your ego, tear your “so called” self importance down, it will deconstruct and reconstruct an improved you.

Getting though all the pain.

The transformation of our humanity is passing through this in each of us as we learn to let go and allow for a better way inside our selves. As we learn to release our pain and suffering, our sorrows filter to the surface to be released.

As the tears of our sorrows empty out our eyes begin to fill with new vision.

We birth into ourselves something new, and this requires all the self honesty one can muster at any single moment. It is all worth it.

Personal freedom precedes all other forms of freedom, and cannot be taken away once one has brought self into the frequencies of radical self honesty. It is powerful beyond any politics, any religious teaching, anything external. This is because it is the living essence of truth within as you.

Truth fullness as a self expressed aspect of who and what we are as spiritual beings having a human experience.

The somewhat confusing reality of our lives.

That our humanity is filled with twists and turns is how we re-position our attention.

We shift our possibility as we go along and make many corrections.

This is the remarkable flexibility of our emotions and feelings that empower our species.

Truly astounding.

We are all so much more than we thought ourselves to be, or anyone has told us.

We can discover this without permission, without anyone needing to do this for us. It is a singular experience, one day at a time, one person at a time. This is the dawn of the transformation of our humanity!

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The Paradigm Shift Happening In Our Humanity This Year- 2016… core spirituality, my personal journey

The Paradigm Shift Happening In Our Humanity This year 2016… core spirituality, my personal journey

In these times of great chaos, confusion, violence, and conflict involving global change we are experiencing a shift in our attention, our very way of perceiving that which is coming to pass. This shift in our awareness is personal and impersonal, individual and collective, and is permeating, in some way, through every aspect of life on this planet. This shift is in our thinking, our feeling,our way of perceiving, and our very cellular bodies and is changing everything.

The shift I am referring to is the spiritualization of our humanity and our world …as we know it.

In a recent post I wrote about the choice to love in 2016, and this idea grows from that one. The spirituality of who we are and how we respond to our daily lives is completely up for a rewrite. I see the human scripts changing everywhere.The interior messages growing within people are those of a spiritual realization about life.

The “spirituality of life” is different in that some of the old ways of handling our difficulties, of facing problems and even how we view evil are transforming in that we no longer are able to sustain our separate notions of difference in the same ways, we are no longer able to sustain many old patterns of belief, our very natures are transforming.

A few of the dynamic changes arising from global spirituality.

We are realizing how we are both different as people… and the same.

We are realizing that what ever action we take in the world has a reaction that returns back to the source of that action.(each one of us)

We are realizing that conflict without spiritual perception is totally futile and only leads to more futility. We are recognizing ourselves in each other in ways that provoke our hearts to open towards greater empathy and we want to help one another more.

Disasters, horrendous events of terrorism, sick and morbid pathological, egotistical governmental decisions are becoming less tolerable to the masses. This is the result of the spirituality possible in these times within each of us to rise up and transform our very actions and reactions.

While we have pathological, psychopathic, egocentric people who suffer from these kinds of traits we also have more numbers of people with whom the spirituality of daily life acts as a buffer to the actions of these individuals and the syndicates, and conglomerates they perpetrate onto the sleeping humanity.

Our own consciousness turning away from participation in unhealthy behaviors, relationships, and our inner turning towards our own individual self-healing and personal growth is actually shifting our world slowly one person at a time. We have power, we have the capacity to learn more, evolve further, choose the appropriate actions as we learn to experience our own individual unique spirituality. As we multiply this force in groups this power increases. We can discover that we are all much much more capable this coming year than we thought ourselves to be!

When I refer to spiritual I do not specifically mean a religion, however there are billions of good people in Muslim, Christian, and Hindu, Jewish as well as many other religions that are activating spiritual principles in their daily lives, and much of these principles are universal to all religions.

Spirituality that is universal is one that is inclusive, and infinite and can speak to any individual walking on any different religious pathway. Ultimately the one universal loving source that exists in all religions is being activated, beyond yet including their respective prophets, leaders or originators. As I wrote in a previous essay, love is love, whatever name one calls it, and where one thinks it comes from. It is what it is.

We can see this clearly because all of life responds to it regardless of the name we call it. A child in any culture will respond to love whether it is called Muslim, Jew, Hindu, Christian or whatever name. A pet will respond in like manner, your pet bird, or dog does not know what religion you ascribe, he only feels the love that is present. ( as within your respective pathway of belief)

Particularly demanding is our response to the negative aspects of life here.

We are all touched in some way by the negative actions of others in this world. Whether this is close at hand in our own home, or distantly from across our vast planet. The spiritualization of the negativity is a very large component of our individual lives and our collective world situation. And we are becoming better and better at how we approach the negative situations we all encounter.

However this work is far from over and our task is still at hand demanding an ever-growing vigilance towards the pitfalls, hurt, and pain that results from our own negativity. The single largest piece of learning in this is how we ourselves choose to respond to our own interior negative experiences. How we handle what we feel negative about matters greatly as our response can accelerate, perpetrate, and increase any form of negativity very easily. In other words we create what we are negative about because we are the ones being negative. Thus how we face the negativity this year will have a substantial outcome on our daily lives as we pass through more of the difficult unfinished business of all our lives. A significant aspect of this negativity is our fear.

Fear on this planet is substantial and our lack of awareness to our own negativity will certainly cause this fear to grow even bigger, more powerful, and with further consequence should we avoid our own negativity on a day-to-day basis. For example I am particularly aware of this because of the experiences I have with family members who are participating in the military. While on one hand I am told and shown how very powerful we are, on the other hand there is the overall fear. It is immense, intense, and yes it is scary. It is scary to the point of pure justification on a scale that is almost more than I can actually comprehend in any one setting. However it is a “real” thing for all these people…. this fear. How I choose to react feeling all this when I am totally in the midst of it could either increase it more, or stop with me. Even though I am one small person, I choose not to allow myself to engage in those levels of belief about fear. I do not carry that fear away with me whenever I leave those circumstances, in fact I increase love. Within my own family I also have a dear precious Muslim person and I have been made well aware of the fears that arise when this persons relatives come to visit. Just walking down the streets is quite a spectacle of discomfort at times with the reactions of those we encounter as we walk along. How I choose to face this when we are walking makes a difference, and I know how truly loving these people are on a personal basis. The issue is the fear and how do we face it?

How we choose to process fear inside each of us had much consequence in our lives, and a deeper introspection may be helpful. Small fears, medium fears, then the bigger fears. My intention is to take more time to take apart my own fears and dismantle their hold over my personal life in any way I can muster. I know that how I choose to face fear has consequence… and that there are many probable outcomes to the many choices we each have in conquering that which makes us uneasy.

Evil is another aspect of our lives with which we must face. How we face this also had many pathways. As more and more evil is revealed in this world we are having to face it. Face that which we hate, despise, and usually ignore. This too is subject to spiritualization as I know I can react by hating more, and increasing the disharmony I feel, or I can choose to face evil with the power of a more balanced positive and yes even loving stance. I know this for I have had occasion to personally address evil face to face in my life, I have watched it recoil in the face of my lack of fear to it. And my willingness to address it in my life or to allow myself to become engaged in their evil ways. We have much still to learn about our reactions to evil and what is and what is not appropriate in the way of our reaction.

There is spirituality in conflict.

How we see conflict beyond right or wrong, is apparent once we allow our spirituality to guide us through the opposing points of view. World problems that are conflicting in nature are actually holding many spiritual problems that need to be addressed. When we open ourselves to the idea that problems are spiritual we open ourselves to much richer possibilities for restoring and balancing these situations because we are finally dealing with the real problems… the spiritual ones masked by the conflicts.

For example the levels of powerlessness, oppression, servitude, abuse, and personal violence that ensue from these scenarios are the real spiritual problems for people suffering all over the world.

Lack and privilege mask the spiritual problem of greed and egotism on a very disharmonious level everywhere for so many individuals.

Once we can learn to respond with a more spiritual nature to these world-wide problems we will lower our need to use military solutions of “power over” and might, domination and suppression to alleviate these situations.

Spirituality has such tremendous power in it to overcome because the source of the spiritual nature is infinite, contains the perseverance, the desire to understand more, and willingness to work through the difficulty. Instead of stamping everyone and everything with power alone.

Our ignorance about ourselves and each other is bridged whenever we choose to seek out the spiritual nature of our relationships. Withholding and distancing actually become too uncomfortable whenever we allow ourselves to connect with what really is spiritual in our human dynamics. The fears we place on one another begin to drop and the desire to build bridges of understanding start to form. And though at first this is all very uneasy, and can become even sloppy, when there is a spiritual intent behind any action, that action is received differently. I know this for I have worked with it for a life time. Our capacity to unlearn our preconceived ideas about our differences is softened as we open ourselves to our spiritual nature.

As we practice the letting go of fear and negativity a unique form of spirituality will develop. It may be called by many different names. Whatever those names that level of spirituality in any situation will be felt by those involved and begin to transform any circumstance. One does not truly discover this for themselves until they have actualized this, perhaps several times. It is a remarkable experience and is a deeply satisfying expression of core spirituality.

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When There is a Choice…. Choose Love in 2016….. core spirituality, my personal journey

 

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When There is a Choice…. Choose Love in 2016….. core spirituality, my personal journey

What makes a difference in every outcome, every conflict, every confusion, and all stale mates?

What generates surprising new outcomes, impossible new openings, and brings connection?

What supports, strengthens, and engages in us beyond our “thought-out” possibilities?

What brings calm inside us, and opens the doors of further understandings?

What lifts us out of boredom, mediocrity, selfishness, and self-deception?

What will redirect our lost and angry voices, our deeply sad unfinished business?

What will urge us to seek new solutions, and open our hearts to possibilities beyond every imaginable conundrum, problem, and unanswered question inside our common human condition?

What will sooth the hard edges of our torn and wounded emotions, our painful memories, our childish insistence on suffering?

What will force us to let go when we are holding on for dear life to those we love, those who hurt us, and those whose ideas are no longer fitting to a world filled with so many unanswered questions?

What brings an understanding to the most resistant, the hidden, and lonely ones of this world?

What will bring courage when there has only been fear and cowardice?

What will bring song when there has only been angry bellowing?

What will make a long dark night worth living?

What will sustain you when nothing, absolutely nothing else is left?

What will make an idle soul take action when before there was only lazy idleness?

What will raise a child to honor him or her self, and bring this honor to our world when nothing else will?

What will stretch the impossible short-sighted vision of ignorance and suffering to realize it is time… time to move beyond all the craziness?

What will heal the bloody effects of the violence we throw at one another and begin to seal the wounds of pain and injustices?

What will cause a meek and mild man or woman to rise up, to make their voice heard and to stop submitting, stop being abused?

What will force a hand in life to extend to another instead of grabbing for all he can get?

What will open the way for truthfulness to be seen, heard and felt in the midst of all deception, lies, and subversion?

What will make room in my world for the light of this truthfulness to grow inside us when so many, so much around us succumbs to darkness?

What will turn off the noise of endless television, cell phones, and demented media propaganda’s?

What acts as an anchor when everything is leaving us, changing around us, and the life as we know it is disappearing moment to moment? When systems, and programs crumble right before our very eyes?

What sustains us when we realize our religion no longer holds enough of the truth of our very life experiences?

What is it men in power fear most, women know works, and exists in the very heart of any situation?

What is it that lies within the heart of every man, woman, and child, every flower, every animal, and the entire design of creation that we turn our backs and refuse to see, feel and engage ourselves?

What lies within your enemies, is hidden by their taking sides, and knows only of the absence of your choice to understand?

What is the one choice that every person can make that will bring about the solutions, the answers, the new directions, the power, the possibility, the courage to change, transform, and heal the human circumstance of global suffering, mass injustice, global poverty, global war and mass killing?

It is my friend , the choice in any singular moment of my day,

a realization of my ability to choose,

and the action of choosing to love.

And to bring this choice of love where it is not.

There is no force more powerful, more sustaining or more surprising than love.

Love is a force to reckon with in case you have never tested these waters. Love will turn you around, put you upside down, and rearrange you like nothing in this universe will do. Love will pull you out, expose your darkest secrets, and open your most painful wounds. Love will show you your most horrendous fear, your worst enemy, and your deepest sorrows.

Love will bring your secret tears to flow upon your cheeks, will reveal your innocence like nothing else on earth. Love will make you hope and keep you strung out when you have lost it all and want it all to end.

Love will bring you more possibility than any other quality in this universe and will lead you to your first new steps of discovery.

Love will loose your tightest grasp, your most angry voice, your deepest held secrets so you can learn how to be free.

Love will open the doors, illuminate the darkened halls of your unknowing like nothing ever did before.

Love will answer your calls when absolutely no one on earth will.

Love will give you reason beyond reason, direction when there is none, and purpose when there has been absolutely no purpose.

Love is intelligent beyond the wisest man, the holiest of the holy, and the greatest of any one person.

Love is for everyone and works all sides, so to realize its place in your life will cause you to stop it. To stop taking sides and unify with your brothers and sisters, your fellow creatures, your entire physical world.

Love will produce for you out of nothing, it is unlimited in resources and endless in its insistence in your life.

Love is calling within you, outside you, around you.

Love was beckoning all along, is resounding now, and most likely will call through you in your future.

Love is omnipresent, omniscience, and without beginning or end. It is the way, though in this world it goes by many names besides love. Love is love, never the less!

When you do not recognize love at your door, it will surely knock again, and keep knocking at your heart till you answer, love is relentless beyond your wildest imagination. Love is a real force, a real substance, ask any mother, or any child.

When you least see love, feel love, and know it not…This is your time. It is your time to choose it. To choose love when you least would do so. Love is like this for us all.

Love is known by every heart, yet given in parts and pieces, with conditions and circumstance. For this reason… that it is truly known in each person, that it knocks and beckons without end till you die and go to your grave, love will be there. And after too.

Love is not just the folly of fools, that kind of love is only a taste, love in its purest form is powerful beyond any spoken word. Love has this capacity for it speaks to everyone, no matter their language.

That you forget love is only temporary, your suffering heart will always deliver you back to its door. To learn that love is what your really are, were always meant to be, and is what your being was created out of.

That love exists inside you as you, unique you. Love your self, for you are that.

That love that is connected to all of creation. Let love reveal you to you.

Love is never quite what you imagined, so prepare yourself for love’s presence in you as you.

Love….Do not underestimate the smallest of your choices this year, Remember just as a mighty oak begins with a tiny acorn, so too does the smallest choice to love lead to most mighty of circumstance.

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I NEED To Listen To Myself….. THE GUEST HOUSE…Some Writings BY Rumi and The Buddha for reflection, core spirituality, my personal journey

I NEED To Listen To Myself….. THE GUEST HOUSE…Some Writings BY Rumi and The Buddha for reflection, core spirituality, my personal journey

Rumi, the 13th century Muslim poet from Afghanistan, has deservedly won a place in our hearts for his sublime capacity to nourish the depth of our being with his perceptive insights into love, sensuality, spirituality and intimacy with the immediate world. His poems strike a chord in the depths of our meditative being. More…Not surprisingly, insight meditation teachers delight to read Rumi’s poems to spiritual practitioners. One of his best loved poems is The Guest House. The Buddha used the same metaphor in 2500 AD and gave two talks entitled The Guest House.

THE GUEST HOUSE
by Rumi

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

The Buddha, whose teachings took deep root in Afghanistan, gave two talks called The Guest House. (the Pali Canon of the words of the Buddha were written about three centuries after his death.

THE GUEST HOUSE

By The Buddha

The Buddha often commented that the whole world is found in our body. In one discourse, the Buddha said that suppose there is a guest house and people from the four castes come from all directions, then various feelings arise – pleasant, painful and neither pleasant or painful. He says these feelings may be worldly or spiritual turn up at the guest house.

The Buddha takes our responsibility as the host a step further. In another discourse on The Guest House, the Buddha said we need to:

understand what is to be understood about the guests,

let go of what is to be let go about the guests,

realise what is to be realised

and develop what is to be developed.

Through this means, he said we have direct knowledge of the guests.

The Buddha and Rumi remind us that guests turn up as as different kinds of feelings, welcome and unwelcome.

The Buddha knows we cannot always be grateful for our guests, as Rumi suggests, whether they arrive from within or without. Instead, he encourages us to give the guests our fullest attention to see clearly.

The Connected Discourses of the Buddha.

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How We Give Power to our Emotions Without Being Aware, core spirituality, my personal journey

How We Give Power to our Emotions without being aware, core spirituality, my personal journey

Healing the negatives in our lives.

When we hold back and stuff emotions inside us we carry around these feelings and they are the vibrations that grow and shape our subconscious, our internal health… and the way our cells reproduce.

Contrary to the idea that if we ignore, hide, delude, or “forget”, we give more energy and power to feelings whenever we contain them. They do not go away.

Our physical bodies, and our minds hold on to the feelings and this results from prior intentions of escapism and denial or overwhelm, which are actual forms of energy.

Emotions and feeling as forms of ENERGY.

The energy we produce by resisting our feelings actually gives more power to those feelings.

We often do stuff emotions in different phases of our lives.

And so it goes we can have an inner child that stuffed emotions, an inner teenager, an earlier young adult version, all in our past still stuffing feelings. Even after we have learned not to do that as adults. These emotions linger inside us from previous unconscious growing phases that we have lived out already. This can show up in the form of memories, difficult conflicts that were left unresolved, victimization experiences, and any form of toxic emotional manipulation or mind control by people close to us.

Ways unexpressed emotions, stuffed feelings, and denial take shape in our now-adult lives.

The power our feelings have does not stop because we choose not to look at them, often these unresolved emotions transform into all manner of physical, mental and emotional shielding, defense mechanisms that become habit, mysterious body aches, and many forms of sickness that have all manner of allopathic medical diagnosis. Without emotional depth and maturity, emotional integrity, emotional awareness, and emotional strength our feelings take shape inside us and redirect the course of our lives in surprising ways THAT TAKE AWAY FROM OUR SENSE OF BALANCE AND EQUILIBRIUM AS ADULTS.

As a transpersonal hypnotherapist I learned how all of this is absolutely true. I learned by witnessing clients, and how stuffed emotions, left untended can destroy the full capacity of a human being to live a fruitful, open-minded, healthy existence. And so when I encounter the unhappy state of many body symptoms which are presented to me as a massage therapist I often encounter unexpressed emotions in clients.

One reason we can contain our emotions!

Unexpressed emotions are waiting, held in time, within us as a component of our ability to handle difficult situations, or unacceptable ones until a time that we can process. No one wants to go to the dentist who is horribly angry from a difficult confrontation that occurred earlier that day. So we are able to suspend our feelings in order to deal with them. It is when we habitually deny those feelings, ignore them, and hold on to them that our problems begin to develop. However for children this is a bit different and all of us have the common experience of having grown up through our childhoods.

Children are emotionally important for these reasons.

Children, young teens all feel quite more purely, even if they do not understand what they feel. As children and young adults our little neurological systems, our little physical bodies, and our little minds cannot process many of the adult feelings and emotions that are put upon us. These adult feelings are far to great for a little one. However we live with adults who in their unconscious ways put on us as children, all manner of stories which have elements of emotion and feeling that are completely inappropriate for small humans. The effects of this are felt in the little minds and bodies of children and are a large source of overwhelm, are often not understood, nor are they processed and so they are not even accepted. Adults forget this a lot and lay many overwhelming emotions they are having on young people with the expectations that they can handle this, not so. Overwhelm is the result, and this all plays into the developing person which will all come out later in life in some form of deviation, misunderstanding, brokenness, or physical ailment or all of the above.

It is all too common for a child to grow and never process an overwhelming emotional scenario. When this occurs splits in the emotional body are created that as adults will confuse. Often these emotions seem to be without cause, only in that the conscious grown adult has little or no memory, or past experience in completing the processing of the original situation.

It takes some digging, some self-reflection, and a deepening of self honesty to allow the full expression of past pains, conflicts, and emotional scars to surface so they can heal. For this reason stuffing emotions carries a promise of future inner work that one day will solve the puzzle of the emotional turmoil, and mysterious malingering body aches of the present day adult.

Healing our feelings is not subject to a time line.

In all truthfulness we only have our now moments, and we can access any past incident by bringing up to our now moment. Regardless of the amount of time that has passed from an original emotional incident, my experience has been that the inner child can still feel, still process, and still heal completely as an adult. In my own case l learned to have the mantra….”its never to late to have a happy childhood!” as I learned to allow my inner little boy, my inner teenager, and my inner young adult self to be able to have permission to FEEL MY FEELINGS!

Thus using the power of my present day adult self to give back to my inner child selves all the opportunities to express my feelings and emotions. No matter how painful, horrible, unhappy, unjust, or miserable they were. I found that as I allowed myself to feel, feel more deeply now, many of my own unresolved emotions came bubbling up to the surface of my life to be reexamined and accepted in a new light. I continue to have a happy childhood now, and this is just great. There is no time limit on that either!

Perhaps the reason so many people are reluctant to allow themselves to FEEL DEEPLY, is because of the loaded subconscious memories, or emotions, or an overwhelming single event that still is hidden deep inside.

The fear that originally caused the overwhelming feelings, and the stuffing of emotions is a significant component to being able to allow ourselves access to the emotions.

Those old voices of parents, teachers, coaches, and other authorities that were in our lives are still locked into our emotional bodies and continue to play over and over and over again. The fear that holds us back acts as a container inside us.

Face the fears , we must.

For this reason when we do find that we have elements of fear it is valuable to open the fear in our “now safe” way. For originally there may not have been a “perception” of safety and so the fear surrounded the original experience inside us. Facing that fear around any unacceptable emotion or feeling is the first step in learning to grow out of the limits of a fear based reality into the wide open space of personal freedom and self-expression. This develops immense integrity and opens our feelings to having the possibility of maturity. Maturity of emotions is the soul goal here.

Integrity and emotional maturity is the result of fully processing any unfinished business within ourselves. As the pieces of our broken understanding, our broken self images, our broken story lines begin to come together in new ways of seeing.

Often we will have to engage more heart with ourselves to be able to pass through the dark hall of fear that leads to our emotions.

This self-love that develops brings such a depth of integrity to any past unloved situation that the transformation is remarkable. It is completely true that a person can heal themselves long after any incident of broken heart-ed, miserable pain has occurred. This is another reason why it is so valuable to realize that when we ignore emotions we are actually making them grow stronger, even though we “think” we are doing the opposite.

Deep unresolved difficult emotional patterns that wreak havoc on our lives.

Having done many years of my own personal resolution, healing my feelings, and my work with clients seeking to heal the really difficult emotional patterns, I have come to be aware that as souls we have emotional themes that we are born here to live through and to work out. These soul purposes can have very dark, uncomfortable, painful emotional depth. Often a person will wonder why they have been born into such circumstances that would cause them such pain, or the question “why me” surfaces. For these reasons it is also wise to consider that there may be a soul reason for all this.

Soul growth is real.

That our souls know this earthly domain is a place where we may explore the very depths of emotion is the powerful side to acceptance here for emotional integrity. The soul that we are chooses the time, place, circumstance, and people to be involved in out “growth experience”. We then incarnate into the situations that are most closely aligned with the emotional experiences we are here to encounter. We allow this from our more open soul selves before incarnating where we are vastly more wide open. After we embody here and begin to develop a personality we encounter these emotional situations as part of our individual soul plan. From what I have observed, we do this because our lives are so short in most embodiments here that we are not able to always complete every emotional theme we begin. Thus we incarnate into many lives so that our intention to understand and learn from specific emotions become complete. Which leads me to previous life emotional patterns.

We are born with tendencies of all kinds. Many of which are the tones of feeling we carry into our lives as newly incarnated beings. We continue these emotional themes so that we can continue to learn until such time as the soul self is whole and complete in the understandings of the particular theme. For this reason we change places in our different embodiment’s and play the different roles pertaining to any one emotional theme. In one we are the perpetrator, another we are the victim, in still another we may be the therapist. We can be the husband one time, the wife another, and the friend in still another. As we go around the experience we gather every side of it and the soul is infused with knowledge, understanding and is more as a result. This is why some lives we see people who are the victims, yet without the soul sight, we do not see their purpose in the role they are suffering. The soul self is seeking to balance itself through each experience.

All this is particularly true with the really difficult emotional themes. Our souls are actually not just starting out at the beginning of the this life time. The soul has been working on these emotions for many lives and is still intent on getting the whole picture. So even in victim-hood there is an underlying soul reason unfolding. Because patterns are so strong and so deep inside us we use these many lives to learn how to embrace all the feelings that make up an emotional pattern.

Emotional patterns contain many feelings.

Because emotional patterns have many feelings we will revisit emotions many times. It is pretty common for a person to say… “I thought I already took care of this” when a feeling resurfaces, or a situation reappears.

Not so… for actually there are more feelings in the pattern seeking to be understood and processed. For this reason we repeat, and have many encounters with certain emotional themes. There are layers of feelings inside us that need our attention and we are simply dipping down into another layer of those feelings so we can address what those feelings are and learn to accept and take care of more of what our experiences offer us. In this way we become whole and eventually we heal.

I know this from personal experience because I have arrived at that point when a particular emotional theme is complete and my need to experience it is finished. The feeling of completion is ecstatic, unquestionable and always transforms my entire person in some way. Transforming my life experience so that I attract totally different, new, and better situations. My heart and depth of love, as well as my compassion and self understanding becomes immensely more open. And my knowledge of life becomes something that I cherish, rather than ignore, hide from, or delude myself. I feel a deep gratitude, even though I may have suffered. The gratitude replaces all the suffering.

How we give power to our emotions without knowing it is what happens when we ignore, stuff, or delude our selves, how we give power to our emotions be becoming accepting and willing to process is the other choice. We all go through them all.

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2016…Thoughts For the Coming Year Ahead …Finding Truth… The Inner Domain Beyond Our 5 Senses,…core spirituality … my personal journey

2016  Thoughts For the Coming Year Ahead …Finding Truth… The Inner Domain Beyond Our 5 Senses,…core spirituality … my personal journey

A new kind of human is emerging, and there are new ones being born everyday. This writing addresses the significant evolutionary changes in this new human as we shift into the identity of a spiritual being having a human experience (based upon my own personal history and the changes I have been through).

What kind of truth am I referring to?

Truth which is transcendent and universal, and an all-encompassing octave through which all of life in its infinite expressions, all-inclusive to everyone, and verifiable, repetitive, and everlasting.

Becoming Familiar with my own direct experiences.

The direct internal experiences of truth, not simply the kind I have read about in a book and learned to “think” as a result. I experience a kind of switch within me that I can flip on or off to access more information which has deeper meaning and universal significance. I like to shift from the physical emphasis and my 5 senses alone to include the inner light body and these senses.

The great shift in self identity.

When the shift occurred that I realized that I was not a physical body with internal organs etc, but a light being with a light body that is inside a physical body the awareness of learning to use inner senses became the next step in my own evolution. This is the significant component of the differences of identifying as a human being having a spiritual experience… moving out of “having a soul” to identifying as a spiritual being having a human experience… into “I am the soul” and I have a human self to express into and through. All of the inner senses are activated and begin to integrate through physicality. This is a major paradigm shift in self-identity! This is the turning of the ages for our humanity as we reintegrate our mufti-dimensional capacities into the human self.

I find inside myself an inner sight.

A seeing in the mind. This is a kind of inner sight that I have learned to catch, as it is often very fleeting and almost gets away from my attention. This is completely different from physical eyes, or the common “mental thought “ way we see.

Inner seeing has a 360 degree radius, spans time lines forward and backward, as well as inward and outward. This inner seeing can also see through physical objects, the body for example and sub atomically. There are completely vibrant fields or octaves of light and color that exist here that also contain amazing spectrum’s of geometrical design. I notice this in doing healing work with clients, I see these super brilliant colors everywhere. Truly amazing are the living colors in my orchid collection plants, and nature in general. There are layers of space overlapping our planet with all kinds of sentient beings, spirits, thought forms, feeling clouds, and so on. The field of seeing is significantly larger.

The shift is that instead of everything is separate I have the innate sense of being connected to all of this… “I am the you that is here” as well, for example. I see myself reflected in the most spiritually based ways in everyone and everything. This level of perception simply alerts me to all forms of judgment as I continue to see my own self in all of life. This includes the polarities of negative and positive and far beyond those polarized kinds of perceptions. Thus even in the most negative of human scenarios I can see myself and embrace the experiences as ones of great learning and purpose.

How our memory can teach us how the mind works..

Whenever I am referencing something from memory and I have it recorded as a visual I notice that my attention will pull the “pictures” from my memory. In fact there are times when I couldn’t find a picture and have had to wait and boom… it pops into my inner mind. That we see pictures is something we do everyday yet are not always connected with. I like to really pay attention to the pictures I have in my mind. These pictures outweigh left brain linear logic in that a picture will contain many different levels of information at once. Pictures hold lots of information that can be accessed and taken apart to reveal depth and meaning far beyond mere words. Words are there too, and I often laugh out loud anytime I have lost a word, cannot find it, try to find it, still can’t find it and then hours later after I forgot about it…. the word pops into my mind. Amazing experience we all share. To pay attention to the pictures we are having inside our minds is a way to begin to discern what it is we think, or Intuit, or are receiving from others. Pictures are a way the universal mind informs each one of us. As we develop beyond the intellect alone and integrate mind pictures we can develop our capacity to learn via the discernment process and ultimately to make much better choices about everything and our relationships to everyone.

Another way we see images is fantasy.

For example when thinking about an upcoming trip I have found my mind creating pictures of various outcomes and I choose from those pictures what I would like to act upon, or not act upon. When planning it is common to see a visual image of what the possibilities may look like in our heads as we fantasize about different outcomes and directions. Fantasy as I am referring here is mind generated imagery differentiated from those images pulled from the universal source.

Learning how universal truth is not only words, or beliefs, or thoughts.

However seeing the truth in a situation is a bit more involved as it is always accompanied by a feeling message of some sort which alerts me. This is the reason it is important to process emotions on a daily basis, and maintain a clarity of feelings. In this was I can discern the source of feelings, whether I am creating them from a reaction within myself, or that I am receiving them from a soul place, or I am pulling in psychic information from another person. Learning to have a developed emotional and feeling self is vital in this entire process. For this reason I did years of therapy to clarify my own emotional nature, and the many layers of feelings, thoughts I had built up in my developing childhood, to arrive to the ability to find now-clarity.

Feeling messages that redirect us show us new pictures to process.

When seeing the truth like this I find I literally must suspend all thinking, or my own belief, in order to capture the incoming imagery. Often this will be because I am accessing information that lies beyond my already made ideas or thoughts about someone or something. Suspending just for a moment the critical thinking allows space inside to see something new. Of course whenever we are deeply attached to outcomes, beliefs, and opinions this filters anything the indwelling spiritual self is sending us. And we end up only seeing our own internalized, already shaped ideas formed out of those opinions, outcomes, or beliefs. This is how we become blind sighted and do not see the obvious before us.

How we get blind sighted.

We are unconsciously so attached to outcomes or beliefs we only see our own preconceived thoughts.

This becomes irritating in relationships especially when someone is communicating with us and we don’t see the point of view they are sharing. Often this ends up with a louder, more uncomfortable exchange until we stop seeing only our own pictures and we start to open up. Open up to see something that may not fit into our idea of how things “should” be, in our opinion. When we encounter unresolved conflicts, are stuck, or in a stale mate this is most likely the reason. There is always more information yet to be discerned that exists outside our preconceived ideas.

Intuition and its value in my life.

Intuitive mind flows pretty consistently as I now experience life, and have learned to suspend my own habit of wrapping up every idea, every situation in my own opinions.

Rather I continue to cultivate an opened mind and I have learned to suspend thought and wait to see what pops into my mind. Often I am able to receive valuable insights, clarifications, and even new information that makes larger sense. It is quite often that I am asked how I am able to see things, or know things, and it is that most people asking this question usually are so filled up with their own ideas, beliefs, should’s and should not’s about things they have no openings to get this kind of information. As a spiritual being having a human experience there is no separation from the universal source of life, and we are it, contain it, and live it as who we are. Learning to access this in expanded new ways everyday.

Intuitive mind works in ways for me that solves conflicts, opposing views, or unfinished pictures or ideas. When this happens I find myself amazed at how there is really a larger picture for all things. A greater context … and I learn how to work this into my existing reality. This greater context is not held by beliefs, or mental notions as it arises directly out of the spiritual perception of the soul self. It is not subject to these things when I am able to suspend my opinions. And I love the discovery of this and how I get educated from inside me, instead of externally!

Listening to the subtle cues.

There is also the inner hearing that arises and for some the auditory sense is dominant over visual. I am able to experience tremendous cues through inner listening. This is so unusual to me that I have spent years adjusting my attention to be able to hear inside. Listening to the whispers, or the very light messages has become a real challenge and fulfills many quandaries whenever I am confused. Learning to listen with the mind is different in some ways in that I can actually hear others, inside the mind, like hearing thoughts and communications, yet at other times it is also hearing through my ears yet inside the mind. Both ways work. Quite spontaneously this does happen to me in the grocery store standing in line, or with friends… no matter the distance away. I almost always know when clients from around the world are about to call for a bodywork session, as I get the message directly before they take action. Yet simply thinking of me gets to me. I have found this so totally amazing through the years. Often in nature I will also hear tones and I have found that my own mind translates this immediately into language I can understand. Often I have communicated with people who have passed over the threshold and had to adjust my inner ear to their accent. Extraterrestrials speak in sounds as well, that are very high-pitched tones that catch my attention and then they send pictures. It is all a lot to learn to discern. However discernment is especially important to distinguish the difference between my own inner sounds and those of another. Listening to silence is perhaps the most significant way I have learned discernment. Inside the silence is a vast amount of what appears at first to be nothing, or emptiness, yet it is in this pure silent state where I am able to pick things apart, and learn the discernment tools necessary to integrate the inner sense of hearing and listening.

Empathy and feelings that are not directly connected to the outer world.

Learning to feel feelings of others who are not physically present can take on the very body symptoms of that person or being communicating. For example the passing of a person who was drinking at the time of their passing I actually felt the dizziness, the off balanced feeling of that person inside myself. Feelings of sadness, joy, immense unconditional love are all experiences that can come over the physical body to the point that I have gotten goose bumps, or my heart racing and tears surfacing. The empathy of feeling life around us outside our skin is vital to integrating how it is we are all made of the same substance yet holding different points of view. This is particularly valuable with animals who do not have language as we do, but do have the exact same emotions and feelings.

This has been very revealing with working with clients with whom those emotions are in the subconscious and even they are not aware they are feeling something. This is verifiable. I have shared my empathetic feelings with clients and seen the immediate shift of emotions as I express those feelings that are coming up and out of the body.

I find that empathy is very useful whenever becoming aware of horrific world events, terrible personal disasters, immense injustices. Through the vehicle of empathy the deeper significance can be understood. This kind of empathy and feeling contains huge amounts of historical information that can tell about generations of behavior, or patterns of soul learning.

Empathy shows me how we are really interconnected and the ideas of separation that most humans subscribe really is not the underlying reality of life.

Separation as a belief is an illusion here on earth.

There really is tremendous purpose in all events no matter the degree of our own ideas of injustice and horror.

When lost in my travels in foreign lands I often used my capacity to feel my way in order to get on track and find my way back to where I needed to be!

Feeling others around us in this world without literally speaking to them also greatly assists me in determining safety, motivations, dangers, and all manner of unexpressed issues or hidden agendas. This is fascinating to me as I have learned to pay attention to the feeling signals I get in order to act as a facilitator of deeper understanding, and a smoothing out of difficulty. Emotional messages will almost always precede encounters we have with one another and in this way I am always available to process before I arrive to any situation. This is particularly strong whenever there will either be tons of love or tons of discord. This is the way the spiritual self is connected and informed and able to face and care for just anything that arises. There are literally currents of feeling that are dominant with certain individuals, or families or groups. These currents, because they are strengthened by the individuals running these emotions are very strong and become quite easy to distinguish.

Empathetic relating with others.

Having a developed inner sense of empathy has the capacity to facilitate the closing of distance, misunderstanding and isolation many individuals carry inside themselves around certain emotions, certain difficult life experiences. I have watched many people step out of their isolated feelings and discover their next step and more meaningful purpose simply by my holding an empathetic resonant space with them. Once this occurs a flood gate of information comes forward for discussion, or reevaluation. This generates progress that assists a person to learn and develop better understanding and self-love. This is transformative and freeing. The inner world of our feelings is far richer than all the usual human thoughts of making money, surviving, drama making. Inside the human condition within any suffering is cause. When we em-pathetically interact with one another we can ease much of the confusion and pain in suffering and truly lend a hand so to speak to step out of suffering when a person is ready. My experience of humans is that underneath all the stuff of our daily lives is a real purpose, a real need to love and to be loved, and an undiscovered sense of real unity.

Clairolfactance or clairescence is the inner sense of smell. This is very specific and can take me to the exact place, or person undeniable to someone else. Fragrances, or flowers, for example specific to people are like calling cards to their loved ones on this side. The specific nature of smell is so precise it can connect me completely to someone outside the realm of this earthly plane. Scent acts as a very good identifier and can completely elevate our vibrations. I have had the experience of roses throughout this life time connected to the presence of very highly evolved spiritual beings who want to gain my attentions. When conveying messages to loved ones from those who have passed over the description of specific scents is astoundingly accurate in making a clear and definite discernment about who is seeking to communicate. This is remarkable as scent can permeate through different octaves of life, different time zones and different realities. Certain life forms also have specific scents that one can smell even when they are not physically in the same octave or dimension. I find this amazing. The future can reach backward with scent, the past can come forward with scent, and higher dimensions can overlap with scent.

How did we get so entrenched in so many world wide problems, and so much pain?

When we hold strict, “exclusive” based religious or mental beliefs, when we see our selves as human bodies only with internal organs, when we hide from our emotions and feelings, when we live everyday in this way we cut ourselves off from the broader spectrum of internal information available to us.

Many of these feelings that hold such limiting, righteous, exclusive, polarized, judgmental internalized beliefs were not only shaped in this lifetime. Much of this is historical inside the soul experience of many incarnations. For this reason when we open up to feeling based empathy, we are able to finally break through these thousands of years old patterns. Many, many of us here now, have been born so that we could ultimately bring ourselves beyond these points in our own souls. This is the bigger why and how of all the chaos and social resistance, and breaking down of the old ways we are seeing around us on our televisions everyday. We are collectively reaching new levels of breakthrough… sometimes very messy, sometimes very hurtful, yet the impulses are here to do something to break the chains of our human conditioning that have entrapped us for centuries.

We edit out all this information in our thinking minds and cut ourselves off from the interconnections that underlie all of existence when we persist in holding on to our exclusivity designed belief systems.

When we hold beliefs that “god” is outside us, or our soul is something we “have” instead of who we are we miss the new integration of material that is available to us. And when we are like this we do not even know that we are doing all this. We are perhaps we could say… asleep to the larger spectrum of life.

Some results of the new shift in how we see ourselves.

Learning to integrate and understand the internal world inside ourselves, instead of  depending on the external world to inform us can show us how much more each one of us is actually living in a transcendent, all-encompassing, enriched, and evolving life experience that is totally directed with PURPOSE.

This shift in our consciousness begins to shape and transform the outer world we live, in holistic, inclusive, compassionate new ways. These new ways inform us to our right action, right relationships with one another, with the planet and our choices become more aligned with the spiritual awareness of the living presence of a much more joyful state of being.

These internal senses become aligned to our external physical senses and readjust the perceptual lenses of our day-to-day functions.

When we see, hear, feel, and smell the actuality of life from this broader octave, our most intrinsic nature is revealed and all the questions that need answers start to arise.

We become led out of confusions, and hurtful habits. We are guided by our own deepest knowing into our creative potentials and reasons for being here.

We are shown our need to collectively live together in ways that bring all that we are, all that we have, to one another. Many forms of selfish, one-sided, small-minded forms of behavior open up into wider possibilities that mend the broken heart-ed past, and heal the ever-present moment of our now time.

The realizations that begin to show up link us in the outer world to like-minded, like heart-ed people, and redirect our personal energies into assisting those who have yet to arrive to these same conclusions, capabilities, and clarity of living. In this was our interconnected relationships facilitate the oneness of diversity and the acceptance of something so deep and beautiful many times it cannot be put into words.

What really exists here, yet few see this yet.

I know that I already see the earthly planet filled with harmony, filled with a living light with colors and majesty beyond most people’s view of this world. For me this already exists and I can look through the overlay of current beliefs, present day creations, structure and history….. and all that this has created and see and experience this beautiful earth. Among many remarkable facets of this alive and radiant, balanced and healed earth is a fantastic diversity of such magnitude that we are actually a spectacle of brilliance in the cosmos. This remarkable state of our planet is without the war and poverty and selfishness that has characterized our world for the last thousands of years. The freedom is beyond words as the re balancing of our ecosystems, our people’s, our resources, and our notion of belonging to the cosmos drops into mass consciousness. The living earth, GAIA, is truly a cosmic gem. Time becomes more pure and our experience of time dramatically takes a big shift.

When our ideas of time completely become reshaped!

We arrive into the amazing state of NOW. This experience of shifting out of the past, and future thinking and deeply into the present moment is a most astounding new paradigm shift that completely enriches every moment.

The ordinary becomes infused with such purpose and gratitude when we have pulled our mental thoughts and unresolved emotional states out the past or the future time-lines. Now becomes full of presence, a presence that is with the soul of self and in this way stabilizes the personality in tremendous ways.

This NOW-state of consciousness opens up the value of every moment to us so that we live with a sense of our experience that draws meaning to the most mundane of activities. There grows for each of us a remarkable new information basis for living that pops into our awareness that directs us lovingly and respectfully through each day. Safety and fear take their appropriate places in our daily life. The habits of reacting to the negative aspects of other humans begin to subside as the wisdom’s of the indwelling soul begin to inform and redirect our old habits.

The now moment of living sustains larger elements of truthfulness that a smaller intellect alone is incapable of sustaining.

My entire perception of time in the now-moment has redefined my experience as I have learned to see how it is that the past and future exist in present time. This is a dramatic shift as pieces of time that have little or no connection in my self have begun to be woven into the fabric of how life is at this moment. I am able to see how consequence arises, and how the various stages of development in the human condition completely relate. This has reshaped my sense of psychology from the ordinary intellectual basis to the extraordinary one of the transpersonal psychological model. In this model of psychology the soul self is evident, and present. I learn how to bring the fragmented parts of myself back into my central identity and heal as a multidimensional being with many facets yet a single core self. This includes other lifetimes with their previous failures and successes, patterns and habits.

I see how this has been a driving force in my now lifetime and I can more easily accept how it is that I am actually a spiritual being and not just a physical human. So anytime I have a piece of myself come up that is still held in the past, I have the chance in my now to learn how to let go and to allow the present now to inform me as to better frame my experience. It is somewhat like finding how to fit the best clothes on your person, suddenly these experiences begin to fit and I feel better with this new knowledge. I no longer have to hold out, hold on, to any old thing, person or memory in the same way.

2016… our year ahead.

In this year ahead we will individually and collective continue to integrate many new experiences. As we pass through the loss, the breaking down of our ideas and beliefs we can look further into the deeper significance of transformation our human conditioning is passing.

We can take the opportunities that show up each day and find new meaning, reconnect with our deeper knowing, deeper feeling, and deeper awareness.

We can learn to cultivate a broader spectrum of inner awareness and learn to act from this inner place.

We can redirect the negative situations that arise and find significant purpose.

We can let go of intellectually based judgmental thinking and see ourselves and one another with a heart-felt compassion.

We get on board with the larger collective experience of becoming cosmic beings with galactic histories.

We can expand our way of seeing in every direction.

We can release our painful memories and hurtful habits.

We can learn to extend ourselves to each other like we have never done before here in this world.

Surprising ourselves and learning. Learning finally to allow the joy that is waiting behind every dark corner, every darkened thought, and every unfinished scenario.

Joy is by far the very fabric of the GOD SOURCE, and because of this it is omnipresent. It is merely up to each of us to choose, to be willing, and to allow that which is greater within to take hold and life up our humanity.

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Denial….. Our Own True Greatest Enemy…Breaking Out of Our Shared Agony, core spirituality

Denial….. Our Own True Greatest Enemy…Breaking Out of Our Shared Agony, core spirituality

The media of our times, elements of the religiosity of our times, the political climate of our times is messaging us daily about who and what our enemies truly are with a speed, and tone that overrides the intellect and is so pervasive that the group begins to accept many of the pointers… the talking heads and we lose sight of the genuine enemy that underlies, undermines our core life experiences.

Our own internal denial shapes our innermost intimate and valuable places, beyond any outer person, group, or ideology.

Denial is considered one of the most primitive of the defense mechanisms in human beings psychologically. Denial is one of the pervasive of all human traits and is more common that we think. Denial is both insidious and blatant with a wide spectrum in between. Denial is so common that we usually project it on to others without a single thought.

Our world culture is swimming in it like fish in water. (well worth pondering)

What is denial in its many forms?

Denial is the refusal to, the ignoring of, the looking away from, the hiding of….. truth from ourselves AND OUR LOVED ONES, and the world around us. The truth of our innate, honest, spiritual nature. Our cosmic bearings as spiritual beings having a human experience. A universal truthfulness and all that this contains for us as a species, as individuals.

When denial has become normalized.

Denial is so covert that the manner in which it is passed on from one generation to another is considered normal and healthy. Sanctioned by people in just about every walk of life! Sanctioned and perpetrated by many places in society, education, religion, government,military, science, ad infinitum.

Our churches, schools, parents, our global soldiers, our governments, our politicians, our teachers, our scientists, are exercising massive forms of cover up which prevent the actualization of world peace, global harmony, world understanding, and then perpetrate victimization and violence on a scale of such magnitude that our entire planet is covered in separation, delusion, and mayhem, with massively dangerous weapons and all manner of killing capability.

We now seem to consider this dangerous situation one that is normal?

What we have now is…

Collectively we are a body of individuals gathered together merging our ideas based in all manner of denial and producing a world that is about to get some big wake up calls. We are reaching a zenith in our self-made agony. It is not over yet. There is still more to learn about our human experiences.

The NORMAL ways we are programmed to use denial.

We use denial to refuse each other in so many ways in efforts to control outcomes, to control people and this is covertly done under the guise of every conceivable excuse and reasoning.

We refuse to honor so much so …that it is intrinsically universal about us as a species instead choosing to repeat our mental and emotional habits of separation, differences, creating all manner of classicism, righteousness, superiority in almost every sector of society we literally deny the reality of how we have so much in this world for so many. It is time we stop pretending!

What can I do about this horrendous, insidious, negative, violent situation?

I learn how to accept and process all my own denials in any form I discover and I hold this as a valuable component of freeing my own spiritual self on a day-to-day basis.

Holding beliefs on their own , talking a good talk does not replace the actualization of facing and process denial.

Perhaps the most powerful place to start when choosing to consider denial and its power over us in life is to begin to identify how we use self-deception, self-delusion, and self-denial as normal ways to navigate through the uncomfortable scenarios inside us. There is no greater way to stop the insidious activity of denial… then by cleaning up denial inside myself.

This creates a space of integrity whereby anyone living in denial will not have a willing participant to go along with them and the chain of toxic behavior ceases or go away. I cannot change you…. I CAN CHANGE MYSELF!

The negative feeling we have about the world, what goes on around us? These are actually our own unprocessed emotions, thoughts and feelings. All inside the self…and reflect to us valuable signals about how it is we are, one by one, creating this world.

When we choose to remain present in the face of difference, in the face of opposing points of view and to see clearly where our enemy is we stop the projecting of our denials. ( the real enemy of us… within )We open our capacity to realize how easily my own unspoken and unconsciously held issues are anchored in beliefs of righteous projection and I stop this with my intent. The action of genuine processing of denial increases self honesty, which aligns my person with the core spiritual self in often surprising new ways.

What happens when I let go of self-delusion, denial ?

When denials fall away I am left with pure consciousness of my own spiritual essence and this informs me far beyond man-made rules, obligations, dogmas, religious beliefs, and so on. That we each are made of a substance which is the same is a startling experience when we have long believed we are all separate and limited by the beliefs we have energized through our inherited ancestry, or our socialization process growing out of the parental frameworks.

My experience has been in my own family of pulling away, as I no longer felt the impulses to feed myself into the accepted norms of denial around me. Not playing by the game, by agreements has often created distance between people. As I have learned to stop my own actions of distancing myself because I no longer participate in the agendas, beliefs, and patterns of denial I have learned to hold the space for togetherness even as we are different, when ever I can muster up this within myself I am surprised by the capacity I am able to remain in a state of mutual respect without the agreements that we socially put on one another.

My own capacity to embrace whatever I may not agree with is surrounded by a grace like form of compassion and deeper understanding which drops in to replace the old patterns. This is one of the main reasons for doing the work of clearing out my own self deceptions, delusions.

This heals misunderstandings, pathology of all kinds, and in so doing opens my heart mind to wider spectrum’s of genuine love….. truly an amazing experience. One that a person cannot truly hold inside themselves until they have done this internal work.

This is the process of “waking up”. Waking up to what it is I am investing my thoughts, feelings, and actions that no longer serves the greater whole. Nor does it align with core universal spirituality. I experience both the awful feeling of deflation of ego, and the awesome upliftment of fantastic spiritual AHAA’S. My person goes through transformations that redesign and realign me with much broader spectrum’s of life. And this feels much better to me. Staying “asleep” or unconscious has begun to feel uncomfortable and my life themes are taking on whole new vision and energy. None of this is possible through the action of projecting my beliefs, ideas, or notions of what is right onto anyone else, any group, any family member. It just has to arise from within self to work and to become long-lasting and uplifting.

As a spiritual being having a human experience it is my perception that we take on all these illusions, delusions, deceptions as part of the current human agenda for each lifetime. This is not intrinsically a bad thing.

It is our classroom for learning as we sort out identity, and direction.

To judge others because they are locked into their beliefs, and their stories of pain and suffering does nothing but hold them in those boxes. something I do not want to do to anyone.

Thus I shift the emphasis on changing them, and the world by changing my self, and my world.

This works much, much better and generates real long-lasting transformations.

For this reason I am on vigilant watch inside me, to make sure I catch my own projecting, my own judgmentalness, and my own limiting negativity.

It is really a very arduous task indeed. It is so commonly accepted to blame others, to point the fingers toward another, to malinger in pain and sadness, to stay in a sleepy victim state. For this reason I spend time with myself in silence, in nature, and I take time to meditate. While I grow my own stronger personal spiritual sense of myself beyond the maddening crowds, lost souls, talking heads, medical authorities, political manipulaters, social critics, bigoted religious leaders and so on. It is simply no longer worth my time or my energy to give in to them any longer. It simply is not.

core spirituality, my personal journey

THE BIGGEST CLUE I FOUND TO HEALING ANY FORM OF DENIAL I AM UNCOMFORTABLE ABOUT IN A PERSON, GROUP OR THE WORLD?

When ever i recognize denial in any form around me and think it belongs to some one else, or group or place in the world…. i turn it around and find what it is in myself i am in denial about. Every time i do this and take care of me i lift another piece of madness out and away from the place i exist. The action is always to go inside self using the clues.

Inspired by my visit to ohana in the pacific northwest

Acceptance without agreement leads to a new paradigm of living… core spirituality, my personal journey

Acceptance without agreement leads to a new paradigm of living… core spirituality, my personal journey

Whenever we can hold an open space of acceptance in the face of opposing views with genuine goodness and resist being judgmental we generate a third space between us. The field of space that is generated by opposing views is still very connected and the typical dynamic of separation ceases. We become connected in the awareness of separate visions yet common ground as a dominant dynamic of social behavior.

We are all living out being our human selves. Our shared humanity becomes the next focus of our action. Instead of me versus you, or me versus the world.

When we can embrace opposing views in this way we activate a kind of intelligence which is larger than the polarity of our differences.

This other kind of intelligence arises from the common ground of our shared experience and makes room for the differences while maintaining connection with one another. This intelligence becomes a new place from which to view ourselves and our thinking, beliefs, and what it is that may need to be understood with greater depth and clarity. Without this intelligence we remain in a kind of personal and collective stand-off with one another that locks the differences into their polarities and perpetrates limitation and unresolved feelings. This is futile as it prevents the next octave or level of awareness from rising out of the differences. Stale mates, confusion, aggression, misunderstandings, and violence grow and become the outcome.

When we can psychically, mentally, and with our sense of inner presence allow another who is not the same as ourselves the same respect and honor, as spiritual beings having a human experience we open to new paradigms of intelligence that will find the solutions, understandings, meanings, and significance of our differences. This psychic space which is a third zone of perception maintains continued dialogues in ways that deepen any opposing points of view revealing material, and information previously unknown and certainly unexpected. In this way we ignite intelligence in new ways that bring new discovery. There is almost always more to learn, to understand, and to process in any conflict, opposition, or difference amongst ourselves.

The dangerous habit of shut down, and learning to find this in myself.

I’ve learned about myself that it is simply a mindset, a human behavior to shut down when ever a powerful opposing view is expressed to my own. Shutting down and the hidden feelings of judgment sit just below the surface of my own thinking and acting.

This is a common pattern among us as humans. Turning away our attention because someone may express something so different from ourselves.

I find that I have even diminished my own self expressions as a result of these kinds of interactions. My own human behavior limits me and in this way I stay in self perpetrated separation with others.

Dwelling upon this dynamic is quite enlightening and reveals tons of human behavior patterns that ultimately end up creating negative situations. Negative situations in our own minds and bodies and in the world around us.

This is all self-generated by each of us as we participate unconsciously and habitually to another person or group differences.

We can see this pattern in people practicing many religions,

people from different life styles,

people of different colors,

people with different political views,

people in different social classes,

people from different cultures,

people who eat different foods,

people who adhere to scientific theories,

people who work in different sub categories of life,

people who simply dress differently, have different hair styles, it grows to levels of stupidity…. really.

The universal impulse to belong.

In our culture belonging is socially significant and a primary universal experience encoded within us, so anyone who is of color, has a different culture from ourselves, has a different lifestyle, loves someone of a different gender, or even changes their gender are all subject to the negative effects of separatist, or non inclusive socialization in the larger group. I have lived with this my entire life as a gay identified man and know just exactly what I am speaking about.

The remarkable outcome of directly opposing points of view.

The remarkable possibility that arises from oppositions, especially directly opposite ones is how they actually arise out of the same source thought yet are the polarized differences to the furthest spectrum of the idea. I have found how this literally will show me the many facets of any one situation with detail, as from one end to the other of a spectrum there is the whole picture.From the very positive to the very negative. So all the people who are in separation because of their religious beliefs, really they are all stemming from their ideas of Source, or ultimately God. They have this in common and express the widest possible notions of difference in how to perceive this one thing.

When ever I encounter people expressing their differences I like to say to myself, “just wait” because whenever one person breaks out of their shut down side of opinion, this third level of awareness automatically pops up and suddenly they are able to see another view, while perhaps not agreeing. The next step is to embrace the person or group anyway and hold out for the option to connect anyway. I have practiced this many times in my life.

When I learn to remain open to differences, and even direct oppositions I most likely find myself learning something valuable. I typically learn how to drop my own preconceived ideas based in some form of my own judgments. My place of understanding stretches beyond my previous held convictions. While this does not always lead into agreement it does lead into mutual respect, honor, integrity, understanding, and even love.

We as humans in our society for the most part have all been repeatedly educated in a common way, indoctrinated in similar ways, and we form habits out of these places. When we cultivate acceptance in the face of disagreements and stay open we shorten the gaps between ourselves as people and groups and shift the paradigm of human belonging from the old style of exclusive to inclusive.

This generates a kind of harmony within. Inclusiveness actually feels good the more we learn to enlarge upon this in our lives. The common ground we share becomes highlighted in delightful ways and as socialized beings we receive feelings of goodness in ourselves and for one another. I have reached this many times in difficult situations where I let down my own prejudices, and beliefs which contained hidden messages of … “my ideas are better than yours”. I have found this is not always true, and besides not all people actually are in the same place at the same time in their awareness of anything. Divisiveness becomes something that I no longer want to participate in and I realize how silly I may have been. I stop projecting onto others my own separation. I take responsibility for myself and this responsibility carries weight and substance in this third field. A weight and substance that holds “we” and not just “me”!

Are  problems in our world associated with our differences which can turn into pure oppositions? Yes, and to inwardly continue to live at odds with others from inside myself no longer feels good.

I find how this begins to lighten.

And I don’t find myself having to, or automatically reacting to the news, to the radio, to anyone else in the same way. I find myself accepting that in our world everyone is learning, whether they realize it or not. I do. So I can move on and live my life caring, and compassionate in this world full of so much incredible, awful, awesome, magnificent diversity. Acceptance without agreement is possible.

Mutual respect,

Caring,

universal understanding,

connection,

and intuitive learning all arise as we learn to move to the next level in our human relationships.

Core spirituality… my personal journey of self investigation

shared in the spirit of Aloha

Inspired by my visit to the Pacific Northwest with my ohana

“Holding Space”for Differences…core spirituality, my personal journey

“Holding Space” for Differences…core spirituality, my personal journey

What is “holding space” for differences, and what will this do for me and you?

Holding space refers to the attention I place on withholding judgments while I am in the presence of a person or persons who are expressing a point of view different from my own.

While holding this space I defer expressing my own emotions outwardly in an effort to authentically listen and observe someone else’s point of view, however different from my own with the genuine intention to embrace differences.

The psychic space of holding an active form of attention while in the presence of a completely different point of view allows the inclusive quality I deeply cherish and seek to make room for in this world.

This action, on a deeper level has acceptance as a basis, without agreement.

Yes without agreement.

I have learned how easy it is for me to have complete acceptance of beliefs, ideas, and notions that others may express without my need to do anything except generate authentic acceptance. I do not have to agree! And I love this feeling.

Our mutual futures!

This will be a necessary component of building better relationships based on my desire to align myself with the principle of true compassion, authentic safe expression, and genuine connection even though I may not agree whatsoever with another person or group.

The act of holding space like this allows for the lifting of tensions felt yet not expressed because of holding different points of view. The act of holding space generates a new space,, a third space, where conflicts are allowed to surface, or opposing viewpoints are expressed without negative effects.

While at the same time allowing myself to have my own point of view without having to give up anything except perhaps my own judgmental-ness. Which in fact feels quite good to recognize within myself as I prefer to let that go whenever I discover it within me.

Holding space requires self-determination with another in mind.

The focus intentions become we instead of me. Determination to include differences or even completely opposing standpoints. Determining to focus on what is mutual beyond the differences.

What is mutual when we are in opposition?

What is mutual is many things. For example we are all spiritual beings discovering our human selves, through the living out of our different points of view. We have this in common as most people may share points of view they are rarely identical in 100% of all the factors because we each embody different spaces.

Not everyone holds this point of view, however since I do hold it, this is the way I see us and so I am able to let go of wanting anyone else to agree with me. My own viewpoint is enough for me until I need to embrace you…. with whatever difference you bring to the table.

What is mutual may be the driving force behind our differences, which many times is identical in nature yet completely opposing in form and expression. When two parents act out of their desire to fulfill their roles to their children their love may be quite similar and even identical, yet their form of expression may be totally in opposition. Which place would you rather be? Opposed to one another, or mutual in understanding the driving force behind the actions? This is all a matter of clearing up our perceptions, and learning how to stop projecting, judging, and boxing one another up into our own little ideas. What is the value in not boxing up others into our little opinions of each other?

We are designed in such a way that different points of view actually serve us. These differences stimulate our mutual growth and evolution. And that could also be another way we are similar, yet different, we are all growing, yet in different ways. See?

How we learn to get along here is multiplied by the sheer numbers of human beings inhabiting the surface of this planet. We have a lot of us here now to contend with as we learn about how diverse our humanity actually is right now. At the same time there are new levels of universal understanding arising to assist each of us on this journey. We have options. We have lots of options with which we may choose to live in greater harmony even while we are different.

We do not have to hold the same beliefs or points of view to get along!

Because you believe differently does not diminish my own place here, it does not take away from my own experiences, my own core values. We can get along with our differences!

For those people still exerting their wills on others, filling up the medias with the idea that they have the “right way” the “only way” or the ‘best way” and need agreement to feel safe…. I say grow up.

It is time to allow others the same respect you give yourself, the same rights you give yourself.

Would it be easier if we all thought the same, acted the same, believed the same,looked the same, dressed the same, blah blah blah?

Yes it would if our design was a hive, a hive society like bees, or insects. However this is not the reality we live. There are forces in this world seeking to dominate, control, and manipulate. There are forces that have been actively using covert forms of this and hypnosis to have things their way for many many generations now. These people live in religions, live in governments, live in businesses, live in groups all over our world.

They have a big wake up call coming because it doesn’t work. ( it is only a matter of time passing as more and more humans are awakening)

We are simply too rich in our human gene pool, too rich in our diversity for this to actually have a long-term harmonizing benefit.

If we were a hive species, then yes it would, but that is not the case. We are richly full of such diverse magnitude that we are a stunningly amazing species of beings. Our world culture is so rich with so many interesting, different people with whom our songs are truly magnificent. Our humanity can make such fine music out of the richness of our differences, yet combine through the sound and rhythm . We are a glorious species when we join together in these ways.

I have spent a lifetime enjoying this world through travel. I have been fortunate to have visited at last count over 75 countries, lived in homes all over the world and participated in peaceful sharing of our diversity and I know from personal experiences that which I am speaking. This is no Polly Anna thing! It is my experience. When I was a young man of just 17 years of age I participated in a global experience representing myself in the world. This experience consisted of about 125 people from 23 countries who did not all speak the same languages, eat the same foods, believe the same things. We lived together for a year, traveling all over North America and Europe. We lived with host families wherever we could. This experience was called Up With People! Our cast successfully created a world blending of individuals with mutual understanding and tremendous love for one another, and this world through our intentions to get along and to develop understanding. This was a powerful experience for me in my teens that has grown deeper throughout my entire life. I will never forget this and it’s effects have shaped my entire adult life. I know because I experienced this.

Holding space for each other does take practice.

Well worth any effort any of us give it, as we learn how to enjoy this life and all the diversity. Are you a different color person, are you an elder, are you a foreigner, a christian, a Jew, are you gay, or transgender, are you a republican, a democrat or a nothing at all, a military person, a peace activist? See how many different experiences we have here to learn something. To learn to get along, and to see each others place?

My difference from you will not undermine your place because I exist.

Your difference from me will not undermine my place because you exist.

A new paradigm, acceptance without agreement.

Mutual respect.

Universal understanding in action.

One day at a time, one person at a time, one conversation at a time.

This is my experience.

Core spirituality… my personal journey

Inspired by my visit to the Pacific Northwest visit with my ohana

Realizing the ONE in Daily Living…. core spirituality, my personal journey

Realizing the ONE in Daily Living…. core spirituality, my personal journey

Every person, every path is connected to the Infinite One, all points of view lead eventually to this understanding… core spirituality

One of the most amazing experiences I have had has been the realization that every person, every path, and every atom is connected to the One and to one another. I have had this experience in non ordinary states of awareness where I have moved my attention beyond the finite world of linear logical mind, into the depths of space inside myself. This is a cosmic perspective that shifts everything. Because of this fact I see that it is ridiculous to fight over differences. Wars, religions …. for example. Dogmas perpetrated through out our human history have predominantly separated us from each other, and our awareness of Source.

Every point of consciousness, every person, is connected out of the substance of our own creation, our own structure on the most sub atomic levels of this design inside what I perceive as light matrix. It is like tiny protons or spheres.

Consciousness has weight on the sub atomic level, it has space relationship, and it has constant interaction. The universal plane or design of this structure holds the infinite intelligence of all creation in it….. as itself.

This level or perception is not at all limited by teachings,dogmas of separation, the dominant characteristic is unification.

Unification is expressed in increasing and decreasing octaves of complexity, polarity, form, density, expansion, and contraction. We now have scientifically weighted the consciousness that provides our physical bodies with life.

In the early 20^th century a series of experiments were carried out by Dr. Duncan MacDougall. He weighed dying patients at the moment of death and found that 21 grams was the approx. weight of the soul. Our consciousness is physical on a sub atomic level. We are truly beings of substance, light that has many gradations depending on our levels of perception.

When I contrast the differences of what is perpetrated as truth on this planet and what my senses do show me through my capacity to view the other octaves of life outside the normally visible spectrum of sight, I can see how life is organized and interconnected. In contrast to the dogmatic thought forms of generations of humankind. These ideas are not authentically representing how it is our existence is built. Not until one has opened to the perception and experience of non ordinary awareness beyond commonly held beliefs formed out of dogmatic ideas will one have the experience of how truly radiant, supportive, loving, infinite, and connected all life truly is.

As humans having a spiritual experience we stumble upon mere glimpses of this through the tiny particles of truth that lie beneath the surface of dogmatic belief. As reality does not actually go away just because we believe something to be true. Contrary to this…. reality breaks through in coincidence, synchronicity, and deep awesome feelings that flood the personality and open it up past such notions. These beliefs actually hold the human minds in separations, and limitations, even while the heart is struggling to love beyond these ideas. Who has not had the experience of shared heart feelings reaching beyond belief uniting seeming opposing points of view. The heart mind has this capacity to side step our mental manufactured ideas and interpretations and open for us new vision, new feeling, new awareness which eventually will reeducate the thinking mind of humans held in separation consciousness until such time one is filled with so much of this content that the quantum shift occurs.

We realize life is actually the opposite of what we believed. (and has been this way all along)

We are spiritual beings having a human experience and not just humans having a spiritual one.

This is a total paradigm shift in how one sees life, and effects everything with a quality which blends not only the heart, but also the mind. Reintegrating these two aspects into an authentic expression of unity, and oneness that propels a human beyond the past, beyond mere dogmas, beyond the pains of oppression, suppression, obeying false authority, diminishing fears, and the need to dominate others with rules and controls and powerful weapons.

When we recognize that we are all exact expression of the same source with different points of view we come to know another as our self.

When we conduct our life experience with others as ourselves we take down the tremendous fear based ideologies, strategies to dominate, and systems of control that have been in place in our lives for many generations. We stop projecting these things onto each other and gain a clear view. We move about in the world with kinder, gentler, more open, yet fierce presence to the authentic expression of truthfulness. Truthfulness in self, and in others, and in this world.

We pull our selves away from the tethers and ties of anything that is not freely, inclusively expressed, and move in a way I call grace. This grace is the actualization of the realization of truthfulness in life in its many forms as coming from one infinite source. Every prophet, and most religions all speak of this and point towards it. We release the ideas that we are supposed to obey messages of men who have encountered the prophets, lords, and originators of religion through out history for the very thing they were pointing towards. For some people this is called God, or Source. For the messenger, and even the message are only pointing toward s the direction back to god. These messages are the way back, not the actual thing itself. I have found the direct expression of god within myself, within others, within nature. There is no separation, only mind held belief that does this. Finding authentic expression of “god” inside me, and not some mental idea of god.

Our human experiences are our classrooms where we learn. We bring to our lives all the perfect experiences that will serve our current rate of awareness, and sometimes we break through into broader vision. Our human experiences serve as our basis for our expressions as spiritual beings here. Bringing into human life our spiritual nature, discovering this as human. It is a fine set up. Continually upgrading our consciousness, our ideas, our ideologies, our beliefs. We are not the same person at 20 years of age that we are at 60 years of age because of this evolution of consciousness we all share. This is why laws change, systems are upgraded, fashions change, technologies advance… our lives are truly about the discovery of life, how it works, how it manifests, how far reaching everything truly is. Life in this way is the ultimate journey. We grow ourselves as we live and we adapt our lives accordingly as we gain new awareness.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self discovery.

Inspired by a trip to the pacific northwest visiting my ohana there

The Activation of Our Greater Interiors,Seeing Life from the Eyes of Our Soul… core spirituality

The Activation of Our Greater Interiors,Seeing Life from the Eyes of Our Soul… core spirituality

The following paragraphs are all written from my own soul eyes as I have learned to reinterpret my life experiences.

Each incarnate soul here comes here with some kind of plan for its lifetime. Each soul comes here with some plan of action around experiences that will grow and evolve their consciousness. There is absolutely no limit to what this means, as this spans the wide spectrum of positive and negative life experiences. It is within the context of understanding how we take on a physical embodiment and the circumstances that arise from the birth that I will share my experiences of our greater interior activations of consciousness.

Everything is agreement and this creates the relationship.

First there is agreement outside this life, where we are connected to our soul self that has greater complexity and spiritual awareness. This is not 100% always the case however in my experience, more often than not. So before taking the embodiment we make choices and here are some of the choices we must look at for the incarnation experience. We accept soul agreements for our lives with others on Earth starting with the parents.

Our parents contribute a genetic profile that creates our physical body, and these DNA sequences hold the bias, and direction, momentum of our physical lifetime, serving as the base line of experience. This includes certain environmental, behavioral, social, spiritual, physical characteristics that will be dominant around the genetic family grouping.

Behavioral pods in our families.

These genetic predispositions set up our relationships in patterns. These familial patterns become our first classroom on earth. We learn to develop our person as we grow up from infancy to childhood into our adulthood. All along managing our actions and reactions to the stimulus of those circumstances we either learn a lot, or we may not depending on how well we make choices, how open we are, and the degrees of the positive and negative depths of the family, socialization experience.

Triggers are the continuation of those original patterns.

When we reach the adult stages we typically leave the circumstances of all the previous stages with our families and we self generate our own new life experiences away. (Of course this is a generality as many people linger and or continue to have a need to stay closer to the original family dynamics.) As for myself I was ready to leave at 16 years of age.

The triggers are the surprising and often disrupting situations that continue in our lives. Triggers are usually conflicting situations which will bring to the surface deeper feelings. Triggers may also be filled with tremendous joy as well and these serve to sustain us in times when we are anything but full of joy as we traverse the harder, more negative interior feelings.

These deeper feelings are inside us, still being lived out inside our subconscious away from our outermost attention. We carry these deeper unresolved feelings and emotions because from the soul aspect of who we are we want to feel.

To feel deeply is to be informed and to learn about ourselves.

Frequently on this planet this is negative feeling, hurts, pains, and feelings of being lesser than. Our most authentic selves seek to feel these deep feelings and emotions, not to hide them, compartmentalize them forever, or to deny them. Our authentic genuine soul selves seek to feel all these things as a means to evolve itself.

There arises that momentum in our personal growth and evolution when we have completed the baseline of our original familial dynamics and this no longer serves who we are, or where we are heading. Where the value of those relationships shifts and we no longer hold onto the day-to-day significance of their earlier meaning. We find ourselves disinterested and need to move forward with the discovery of the next time line of personal relationships. (This is not always the case for everyone.) Many families maintain close communication for their entire lifetimes, but not all. This does not in any way diminish the feelings of love for those people it simply means the experiences needed to continue to grow and evolve shift out of the original family. Often this is signaled by some break, or conflict which sets people apart, yet this is still only part of that dynamic.

As each person on each side of the equation has the fundamental need inside themselves to grow their awareness, to feel out the feelings, and learn to recognize the deeper significance of these changes.

Many times people find themselves without the understanding of the deeper meaning behind situations like this because of our inability to recognize our responsibility to self in a holistic way. Meaning that we resolve all issues within ourselves regardless of the other party to the point of letting go with love. Finding a peace within self that is natural without any conflict and remains open toward the possibility that everyone has their own life plan that they need to come to terms with and will do so in their own time. We finally learn to accept the “other” without judgemental-ness.

Timing is unique to each soul incarnate, I often say to myself…”not every flower in the garden blooms at the same time, some never do!”, As a way of learning to accept the differing levels of awareness that exist in any family dynamic. Our souls inherently know before we are born that the classroom of life is filled with many levels of understanding and perception all in the same classroom. Getting back to the triggers… these triggers are strands of the original patterns set in place through the DNA sequences we inherit, then the early development stages / experiences of our childhood. When we still have more from out original soul plan we have yet to understand, process, and release these will be the contents of the triggers inside us. Something occurs as we mature that shifts this entire learning pod about the triggers.

We “seek” to be self responsible. Triggers as gifts!

When we realize that every trigger is a gift to us because it shows us our own deeper unresolved feelings we shift how the perceptual lens we were looking by shifting the emphasis off of the “perpetrator” or the persons who trigger us…. for example : “you did this to me”, “you hurt me”, “you, you, you.” and we give our self permission to own, feel, process, have and let go of any feelings or emotions from those triggers because we realize from our side of the equation these are ours, and not the other person’s. Each person has their own feeling content and emotional patterning. They have their own matching dynamics to me and I have matching dynamics to them. We can literally transform our own side of any human equation with or without the person who is triggering us. We do this by being responsible to ourselves and connecting to the soul level of self which says I wanted to feel this out, I need to feel what this tells me about myself. I accept how I feel, I accept my own emotions and I release you (the person who triggers us) to your own feelings and emotions to resolve in your own way in your own time. Transcendence!

The end of the cycle. Transformation of consciousness and transcendence of circumstance.

When we ourselves complete all these steps we are left with only an original greater sense of self-love, and compassion that becomes actualized and this transforms our consciousness. Eventually leading to loving without any of the attachments to outcomes, the “perpetrator” or the person who was the subject of the triggering. We understand what we did not about what the trigger was all about. In this way we have been activated to our greater interior self.

Enough of these processes add up to an unflinching view from the aspect of the soul within us. The soul self does have tremendous capacity to live in us as us. Yet when our soul is limited to dramas, conflicts and hurt and pain and until we learn to go further into it all and open the soul self is very limited. The doorway, often enough is the stuff of our conflicts and dilemmas. These hardships which are an aspect of the purpose of those circumstances being in our lives so we may become connected to our greater interior self while we are in physical forms. Not just when we go to heaven! Right here, right now. The exact same holds true through our experiences of joy and happiness as this will also open our greater interior self and allow the soul in us as us to be active!

Multiply the actions of one person by every person and then look around.

Our human species is collectively in this learning as we reach the zenith points in all our social structures, lens of perception, and how we set our lives up. And it is time we utilize this greater interior self to manage and readjust how we are co creating life on planet earth. Individually every person is in some way contributing either positively or negatively. The more we choose to learn to transcend by using everything we have inside ourselves the more our outer world will reflect this back to us with greater systems of inclusion, self-sustaining principle, abundance and so on. This is core spirituality!

Thank you to my sister Ann, who triggered this writing today.

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Flower of Life, Crop Circle Meanings, and learning to receive the messages, core spirituality

Flower of Life Symbol, Crop Circle Meanings, and learning to receive the messages, core spirituality my personal journey

Symbols have meaning with which we communicate.

We use symbols everywhere in society. We all understand street signs in our different countries, we all have seen mathematical symbols in geometry. We use symbols on our cell phones. Symbols are another form of communication which reach directly into our right brain – hemisphere and then get translated into the language we use by our left brain hemisphere.

We can communicate tremendous amounts of information very easily whenever we substitute a symbol for words.

Symbols have been used to communicate for thousands of years as evidenced through ancient archaeology. Every continent on earth has these symbols located on it. Some of these symbols are unique to the location and time, yet other symbols are universal and are found everywhere on earth predating known human history, one such symbol is the Flower of Life symbol. Burned or laser fashioned into ancient temples, rocks, and caves all over the world.

Dropping the grip of left hemisphere dominance in our perceptions.

As our awareness deepens and our grip is let go from the constant chattering of the intellect, when we attend to the silence and stillness within ….symbols rise up in new and fascinating ways. Symbols begin to take on relevance.

Curiosity develops and the decoding begins.

This is a natural component of freeing the dominant left hemisphere control factor over our human perception. We activate the other hemisphere of our brains and start to integrate more information coming in from our right hemisphere.

The more complex thoughts are readily brought forward by way of the symbolic languages that are universal. Particularly those thoughts that express concepts of reality, how reality is constructed, how it is expressed, how it can be understood in finer detail. Thus when we have opened our minds to symbols we are accessing deeper, more meaningful, complex levels and octaves of understanding. This has been referred to as “higher understanding” by master teachers for centuries.

Symbols can be distorted, reversed and mixed up in ways that confuse the information or redirect/reverse the information that is originally inherent in the appropriate balance. For this reason it is wise to pay attention to symbols around us and how we allow them to inform our awareness.

A question I ask myself is….

Perhaps it might be interesting to ask self, do I even pay attention to symbols? Beyond driving and such if the answer is no, then perhaps I might be spending the majority of my thinking, processing mind in left hemisphere logical thought and missing the other half of what my brain could actually communicate to me. I find symbols expressed in the design of nature, in flowers for example and because I have a hobby of growing orchids I look into their faces all the time and this connects me with the designs inherent in nature. However if you do not spend time in nature then you would be missing an enriching aspect of your mind by remaining in linear logical thought processing all the time. Boo hoo…. this means you miss out on the marvelous designs all around you. Architecture by shape in our world contains tremendous design all of which reflect basic shapes that are the foundations of physical reality. I marvel at the squares, rectangles, triangular shapes and all their intersecting lines when I view architecture around me.

As the conscious awareness opens up and begins to integrate more of the balance of both the right and left hemisphere perceptions, symbolic representations take on greater significance and they begin to grab out attention because of what they communicate. This is a signal that we are developing our holistic thinking, or as some have called it higher mind.

It is with the development of the integration of our whole brain that more and more of life makes sense.

Which is also a signal because if you do not find yourself making sense of chaos, opposites, contrary-ness, and difference then you know that you are not using your whole brain and you are stuck in left brain, linear, logical perceptions most of the time. And you will not be able to break out of the limitations of this style of thinking until you open further into using your right hemisphere.

Reality cannot be embraced in totality through linear logical thought alone.

Read that last sentence again, reality cannot be embraced in totality through linear logical thought alone truly keeps me in an honest level of self understanding and assists me in moving out of linear boxes of my own perceptions.

Perceptions that I have taken on through my own socialization process as a human being.

I know that I am capable of more and so I remind myself of these things. As a result how I perceive has a component of wonder. This wonder is the element of “non-thought” where I suspend my left brain tendency to think long enough to see, deepen, and to feel. This brings in the rest of the data or information relevant to inform me. Then my left hemisphere can translate this in ways that make sense.

This is the opposite way of the world in which scientists, teachers, university programs all teach us to learn. To think our way through life, to deduct and reason our way through problems, challenges conundrums.

This will never work, does not work and is a very limiting way to exist.

We can see the results of this dominant style of perception all around us in that so many systems we have in place do not actually take care of the problems. We have been using only half of our brain capacity. With only half of the results and the multiplication of problems as the result, not the solutions that self sustain and generate genuine solutions. Interesting to ponder, is it not?

For all these reasons I have found a curiosity about this Flower of Life symbol. It is the most ancient symbol found all over the world and our scientists have completely ignored its significance because they are stuck in their left brain perceptions and this just does not fit into their “half brain” (literally) concepts. This symbol is the mathematical representation for the basis of all life on a sub atomic level, and the unification of ONENESS of all life from the sub fractal expression of dynamic space-time inside the proton! MAGNIFICENT!

The same holds true for crop circles. I am intrigued with them. The call out to me. I found myself gazing at them wondering what do they mean since the eighties? Obviously the genuine ones are communications from off planet beings speaking to us in the least aggressive way possible. Symbols in wheat? Pretty safe I’d say.

These images of the crop circles have illustrated the most advanced mathematical principles we currently know. There is even one crop circle that is a response to a binary coded message our scientists sent out into space decades ago. This is remarkable to decode as it directly corresponds with the one we sent out using the same system to communicate their own place and their own information just as we have. Again….MAGNIFICENT!

To open up the mind and start to crack the linear logical dominant thinking I will post several videos here that will discuss these ideas.

The real purpose of wonder.

 

The world of wonder is accessed when we use all of our brains. That means learning to integrate our right hemisphere with our left one.

Wonder is open awareness of what is before you when you suspend thinking and simply take in what is before you.

Wonder is the state of consciousness that brings together the capacity to learn, to learn through that which is initially larger than the thinking mind, and then expanding that thinking mind to greater and greater levels of comprehension and perception by way of accessing the right hemisphere data together with the left.

It is the discovery of existence of a Lady bug and her life in the garden to the stars and their constellations in the heavens.

Perhaps this is what the master teacher Jesus was saying when it is recorded he spoke of being like a little child in order to enter heaven.

To actually see heaven here on earth we must use wonder.

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Deep Silence, Stillness and the Infinite Nature of What Lies Within…core spirituality, my personal journey

Deep Silence, Stillness and the Infinite Nature of What Lies Within…core spirituality, my personal journey

 

Today it is easy to come across the word meditation as more humans are becoming drawn to the subject. There are many paths of meditation to learn, many videos on YouTube to follow and lots of material that is free and online to read. However the single most simple technique I have found is to pay close attention to the deep silent, the stillness around me and inside myself.

Teaching myself to disengage from “NOISE”.

This requires the desire to disengage somewhat from the “noise” of our social and work environments, television, and constant technological interaction. I notice the gaps between thoughts, between moments and I touch this deep silence, it touches me, and I return to the stillness there. In these places instead of there being nothing, I find the infinite nature of what lies within this silent stillness.

Teaching myself to be present in the gaps and hesitations. Gaps in the thoughts, the conversations, the waiting in traffic, the walk to the door. We have an untold amount of these moments of stillness and silence to absorb. This is both an internal place and an external one. I am learning to stay connected here and to absorb the place between say… Point A to Point B instead of disconnecting my attention and only staying focused on where I am and where I am going. These are the silent and still places in all our lives.

This world around us can inform us in endless ways when we are open.

In the external place of silence and stillness I am looking outward into the world where ever I may be. I am noticing inside what appears to be empty space between objects there is this amazing other level of reality. There is so much more going on in the stillness than I ever imagined or realized. I have been watching this since I was a little boy. I have learned to stop thinking. To stop paying attention to my thoughts long enough to suspend the chatter that is so easy to distract me from what is before me. In learning how to disengage from mental chatter while I am observing life externally. In this practice I notice that I am in “a simple state of being”. This simple state of being is how I find myself connecting to the outer world in a way that traverses through and into the silent place of being that exists around me. The vacuum in which places, things exist. This is the place of the presence of life.

Our world is filled with Presence.

The presence of life contains not only the surface of whatever we are observing it also contains the components inside, around and connecting it all that make up our observations.

There is presence in all physical reality.

This is the thought of something as it is made manifest into physicality. The thought of an object contains the organization, the design, the origin, the materials within it and behind it…. that make it so. I have a daughter who is an architect who has shared with me the principles of geometry, design, intention and purpose by observing how a building is constructed. I have seen blue prints of the thoughts that created those structures.

As an artist I learned to focus my attention on a subject to perceive it and then to duplicate it in a painting, an etching, a photograph, or a piece of sculpture. In my youth I spent years learning to see as an artist would by noticing every detail that exists on the surface of an object and the light as it interacts with the subject. Learning to be in a pure state of observation is a fantastic challenge and quality that easily can deepen into more which leads the awareness into the deep, the deep silence and stillness that exists in objects, places, people, plants, animals and all of physical creation.

This is the matrix of design that our physical reality becomes a thing, a person or a place.

There is more to what we see than the mere physical surface of all things.

The deeper my internal stillness and silence the more I observe there is to see in ordinary reality.

Inside my own deep silence and stillness is conscious awareness that is a form of presence. The part of me that is watching me when I am watching life. Read that one again… the part of me that is watching me when I am watching….life. This state of presence continues to grow and deepen as we learn to stay present in the moment without thinking. As the state of conscious presence becomes anchored into our daily life more and more the deepening effect to our human self is multiplied in ways that allow our attention to bring in more detail. Thus I become informed on many more levels of perception. It has been my experience that as I learn to integrate silence and stillness more and more and then to learn from the information this brings me, my capacity to integrate more complicated data, or information in many levels increases. Here is an example.

Communion with a tree.

One day decades long past, I was sitting on my front door step in a wooded section of Georgia where I lived at the time looking across the property gazing onto a large tree. I was looking at how tall it was, the breadth of its branches, the place where it was growing out of the ground, It’s roots. I was simply watching it without thought, only noticing it with increasing attention. Suddenly after several moments of enjoying this tree I noticed a glow. I then had a thought, what is that? Quickly I returned back to just watching and I saw it again. There was a beautiful soft bluish white glow inside and all around the tree extending, as I then noticed some more, far beyond the parameters of the branches. I resisted my own tendency to think about it, and chose rather to simply watch. As I did there was an instant within me where I suddenly felt the life force of the tree within myself. As if it had jumped into me or sent me a message. I began to feel the life history of the tree as it had grown to that point. I felt it had joy and it had purpose and I felt how it interacted with the light coming from the sun, and I felt how it’s roots pulled moisture and organic nourishment out of the ground.

I realized after several moments of what I would call communion with this tree that it was an alive being. I knew it had a living presence with intelligence and purpose and that it was interacting with the sky, the light, the ground, and the space around it. It was a single tree and so it had plenty of room to grow, and I knew that it knew that. I observed in that moment of silence and stillness all those things I wrote about in the above paragraphs. I can honestly say I have never been the same.
The new awareness that I learned showed me so much new information that my idea of what a tree is was transformed to a completely new level. I realized a deep respect inside me that transformed into a reverence with all growing things that continues to this day. I even learned that in its own way this tree had a sentience all its own as I had the experience of its communication with me. I was passing through one of the most painful times in my life and suffering the agony of some of life’s most difficult lessons.

When I had this experience I learned from this tree.

I saw from it and felt within myself , as I had this communion experience, the seasons and changes, the reaching and striving, and the fitting place of this life form in a unique personal way… as only this tree could be. This brought my attention out of my pain and refocused me. I experienced this urge to keep going by learning to allow myself to let go, to see the larger picture, and to reconnect with Source. For this tree literally was filled with the ingredients of its source self. This was all together amazing to me. Infinity really does exist within each of us.

When I lifted myself up off that step I was never, ever the same again. I have had untold repeats of this experience since that time as I learned how to engage my awareness to those levels of stillness and silence again and again so as to learn more and more from the environment around me. This might be called active meditation, as I have often wondered. Because my outer world shifted some time long ago and that shift in perception was so like the internal conditions of my meditations that there did not appear to be any separation from the inner and the outer world. Perhaps this is a kind of active meditation, yet really it just feels like another level of conscious awareness that is always integrating and growing with increases of more data leading to more octaves or levels of more awareness.

There is a grounding that occurs… that feels stabilizing and centering that is inside silent stillness.

I know in this place I have both the experience of my physical world and simultaneously the cosmic.

I can see and feel beyond the molecules of physicality, I know that my little human body sitting on this tiny planet is suspended in an infinite cosmic universe inside to my mind , unfathomable space because that space reaches out from infinity far beyond the stars all the way inside my own body and there is no real separation what so ever.

My own world view, and my view of myself has been shifted out of a kind of separation mentality into a connected one as I have felt/observed this way for years. To literally know and experience self as just one more aspect inside all of creation as an integral part of it, like everything else is highly uplifting and normalizing.

This is how and why I call this blog core spirituality, and I identify as a spiritual being having a human experience, and not a human being having a spiritual one. Although it is essentially true either way…. my human self is being spiritually transformed on a daily basis.

Learning form opposites.

Ignore what appears to be empty, ignore the hesitations, ignore the silence, ignore the stillness and what you get is a form of imprisoned human. Fearful and easily lead by forces all around. Without the internal connection to all of life through the infinite doorway of creation inside each one of us. Lost and confused, lingering and malingering in the past hurts of generations of unconscious behaviors. Ignore the silence and stillness and concentrate only on the chattering of your mind, of all the minds around you and see what this gets you. Ignore the possibility of life and focus on your cell phone, the television messages of fear, control, and mindless human behavior. Focus on over working, bringing your self to physical and mental exhaustion day after day… for what? If you have not found the infinite within you what then do you truly have?

Focus on all the distractions calling you and pulling you away from your center, still, silent inner place. And then do you wonder why it is you have not found joy? This is something to truly consider.

And finally is it not true that to see the world thru the eyes of a child is to look with wonder?

And in wonder realize that in this way we  find that all along we were actually all connected.

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Infinity is within me….Cosmic Awareness is arriving… core spirituality, my personal journey

Infinity is within me….Cosmic Awareness is arriving… core spirituality, my personal journey

“In the stillness of the core place inside me, there resides the singularity of creation from which all complexities arise…” is how I describe my own experience.

(and this exists inside every atom everywhere )

This means that inside the core of myself in the center of me, there resides the place of creation.

We constantly create. For indeed we are self-generating millions of cells on a daily basis within our physical bodies. We are rearranging the substance of these cells and their contents without even knowing it. The atoms that make up these cells are in a continual state of dynamic spin, dynamic relationship one to the other including the actual space around our bodies. This space that we “think” is empty is not, for it is all filled with atoms which compose our reality and together there is existence that is in constant dynamic relationship, that is actively learning. The very inside and outside of my perception edge is communicating as each one of us and adding to the larger picture of the greater cosmic place. The core self where in lies stillness and singularity gives expression to multiplicity, complexity. Each individual holding a slightly different place in totality. Every atom holding a different place in totality.

( if that is too much to take in… well please take time to reread it.)

This place where everything that is about you or me springs forth as a dynamic expression of Source.

Inside this place we have the capacity to connect with our totality.

From here we can investigate more deeply and not be limited to the outer 5 senses or the mere boundary of our skin. We have inside us the very stuff of creation and here we can access beyond time into the infinite now.

Drawing from many time-lines and many aspects of our personal history as a spiritual being, (an infinite expression of aware self that seeks to have experience so as to know itself). From inside here originates the polarities of Yin/Yang, of male/female, of old / young, of inside and outside and all the dynamic properties of existence. All science, all knowledge, all mathematics, all understanding is “in” this inside place. I know this as I have witnessed many lifetimes in different time-lines and places of my own soul experience, I have seen and understood knowledge that is outside my physical locale. I have moved out of time and into no – time where upon my return I was gone but moments, yet within I was gone for hours. No one can deny me my own personal experiences of this type. This is real and becomes a part of my dynamic lens of perception adding to my sense of the possible, the probable, and the truthfulness of how life is designed and can be checked and rechecked to substantiate and verify anything that I discover along the way of my deepening explorations.

From one there becomes two, into infinity… and so complexity, or creation is birthed.

Consciousness itself has organized until it becomes self-aware, as a duality or “other” in relation to itself or Source. First there being the singular aspect of Source that then created itself again out of itself. This dynamic polarity is at the basis of all life, all physicality, all of the dynamic properties of life share this basis and build upon it into infinite forms of complexity. We can understand this through mathematics and learn how to substantiate and verify our own ideas. We can check and recheck our notions through the balances of how life is designed by understanding life by seeing it in its totality, or wholeness.

The transmutation of self view.

When we learn to recognize that we are THAT … then the paradigm of the self becomes transformed and by transforming our view we transmute our sense of self-identity… we become something all together new. Through the attention to the actuality of self, the truthfulness, the dynamics of creation, math, science, as well as consciousness we pop out of the limited mindsets of our habitual ways of seeing and advance beyond the duality and into the complexity of the inner universe and we do this most easily by remaining very simple.

KEEPING THINGS SIMPLE.

Simple by way of holding awareness open and just perceiving, without so much of the intellectual mind thoughts we can observe life as is. WE DO THIS WHENEVER WE SEE LIFE WITH THE EYES OF WONDER… OF A CHILD. Many spiritual masters have spoken of this for centuries, relating in different ways that we must “go within”, or that the “heaven is within”. The message has been repeated now for many generations and springs forth out of the basis of all the world religions.

Our need is to get a grip on how it is we look at life and notice the lenses we are looking through.

We are learning to see “how” we are seeing and this affects the outcome of our perception. When we move our attentions beyond linear logical thinking alone we gain access to much more information. Transformed out of the notion of the limited physical plane and three-dimensional, left – right brain model and the separate self model,contained in the physical body (that is perceived as disconnected to all other bodies). Transforming the lens of perception through which we learn to see ourselves.

Once this perceptual lens, or bias is penetrated we can observe how what we are made of and who we are is far more than any of us have been taught through the socialization process of being human.

In truth we are consciousness made of the stuff of the ALL THAT IS, or the SOURCE.

We learn to see how what is both inside us and outside us shapes the information that informs our awareness.

So when I look out into the vastness of the glimmering night sky and I face the infinite quality of space I know that this exists inside me just as it does outside me.

There is a continuous verification to my understanding.

There is a continuous loop of information.

There is not only vastness, infinity, and endless possibility in our night sky, it also exists inside each of us.

The outer world confirms the inner one, and the inner one confirms the outer.

In this way truthfulness is verified again and again as creation repeats itself by design.

I am reminded of the quote “As above, so below, as within, so without, as the universe, so the soul…” Hermes Trismegistus

Hermetic law comes from Hermes.

The Seven Principles taught by Hermes Trismegistus

These are the seven principles taught by Hermes Trismegistus, also known as Hermes, the Greek God of travelers/thieves/commerce and the messenger of the Gods. He was also known as the great priest Thoth to the Egyptians.

“….it is understood that these ideas were passed from Master to Initiate for generations, for the purpose of personal growth and with the intention of achieving a greater and deeper understanding of the self, the world and beyond. For the student of religion, philosophy and science, the Hermetic teachings act as the key to tying all of the different schools of thought into one cohesive body of knowledge.”

The Seven Principles of the Universe:

1. Principle of Mentalism: “All is Mind”

2. Principle of Correspondence: “As is above, so is below.  As is below, so is above.”

3. Principle of Vibration: “Nothing rests; everything moves; everything vibrates.”

4. Principle of Polarity: “Everything is dual; everything has an opposite, and opposites are identical in nature but different in degree.”

5. Principle of Rhythm: “Everything flows, out and in; the pendulum-swing manifests in everything; the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left- rhythm compensates.”

6. Principle of Cause and Effect: “Every cause has its effect; every effect has its cause.”

7. Principle of Gender: “Everything has its masculine and feminine principles.”

I give myself permission to redefine as I learn!

As we redefine our human experiences through daily life, through our AHAA’S, through our inner attention, through our physical world, we can see how easy it is to verify, and substantiate any new discovery. The magnificent design of life is such. The design of life from the spin of the galaxies to the spin of the water going down the drain repeats and verifies itself. We begin to see how the designs of life are everywhere. How they are repeated in simplistic design out into complexities.

Still it is what it is and so there is tremendous force in all this.

Tremendous intelligence, organization.

Physical science reflects inner science.

There is a place where there really is no separation… only the continuous expression of the ALL THAT IS.

Infinity is within me…. yes, just as infinity is outside me. We exist inside an infinite multidimensional reality. The wonder of our child like eyes will show us these things as we allow ourselves to return to simplicity. From the standpoint of this simplicity all complexity unravels and we transform our ways of seeing, and when we transform how we see, we transmute the old self. We learn to grow.

When we learn to grow in these ways we multiply our capacity to generate better outcomes. When we generate better outcomes our individual lives do improve significantly.

Yes we may be a tiny little dot of a person here, however we hold a place that is equal to and relative to all other dots. Every dot of a person is informing the vastness that is. The evolution of a single person really is the evolution of a species. The evolution of a species is really the evolution of a world, and the evolution of a world is the evolution of the universe.

Every person matters.

Every new revelation counts.

All learning contributes to the whole.

The whole of life supports every person, every aspect of life.

We are really expressions of the infinite…. too.

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Signs,Symbols and Synchronicity…. core spirituality, my personal journey

Signs,Symbols and Synchronicity…. core spirituality, my personal journey

Finding meaning in everyday normal life.

Symbols and synchronicity took on significant more meaning as my consciousness deepened and I had learned to untangle my own mind from the programming of my youth. Unlearning old patterns and relearning to see in this new way has led me from disconnected, separate perceptions to connecting the thoughts, feelings, events inside and around me. Connected perceptions happen when we “connect the dots” and begin to recognize how events, people, emotions, situations are really all arising out of one another in an unfolding pattern of brilliant interconnection. As the awareness of our attention shifts from belief systems that tell us we are separate… separate from god, separate from one another, separate from happenings, I have learned that none of this is factually truthful, it is ALL connected.

Everything and everyone has a connection in life to everyone and everything else.

How opposites can teach us.

For example I learned in geography class as a boy child that the oceans on the map separate all the continents of the world. This left me with the feeling of distance and separateness between places all over the world. When I moved to Hawaii I learned from local people in my ocean outrigger paddling that the oceans connect us from one place to another. That the ocean is the “highway” where we are able to meet one another and connect. This was the exact opposite idea I had lived with for over 40 years and I was astonished as I felt the energetic shift inside myself when I saw how oceans connect us all instead of separating us. The design of life is paradoxical in that we may appear separate, yet we are not. These are matters of perception and the energetic shifts that follow as a result shape future contact with new experiences.

Going past the surface and living deeply.

Symbols take on more meaning as we learn to connect the dots of our awareness and observe how symbols everywhere are placed in such a way so as to inform the conscious mind and more importantly the subconscious mind. These symbols are massively used in advertising medias, sciences, mathematics, communications, and many other areas of our society. We use symbols to convey a meaning without the use of a word, a meaning which may have many words to describe the significance of the symbol. In other words one symbol could relate the context of an entire book, or period of history. The use of the symbol of the cross pulls up such info to many people in this way. Bringing loads of information far beyond the symbol script itself.

These symbols speak both to the left and to the right hemispheres of the human brain. The left hemisphere being one of language and the visual recognition , the right brain brings context and meaning and depth of feeling to any one symbol. Our brains store this information both ways inside us.

How we become lost in the soup of our humanity.

When we lose sight of the significance of symbols in our lives we may not realize what is being communicated by way of these symbols and thus disconnect our conscious awareness from the information that is flowing thru to our right hemisphere. We may unconsciously be influenced on an energetic level.

Why developing our awareness has so much value, or in other words… living deeply.

As thoughts are things, and do have the substantive quality of energetic information, and movement as in vibration and thus causal effects. How we use symbols then becomes valuable in that we connect our attention to the energetic levels of these symbols when we attach meaning, and relationship to any symbol. This is the beginning of developing vibrational awareness , and the integration of right hemisphere information.

Vibrational awareness is the attention to, and translation of meaning and of the quality of movement of a message within a symbol as it translates into and through our brain as information. This is easy to understand as it relates to signs.

Signs along the roads and highways, signs in the airports and terminals of travel. Every child learns early on how to recognize signs so as to navigate life easily, and many signs are taught early in life so that we understand our mutual agreements about direction and information. This is the purely physical side of symbolic interpretation. The very mechanical and logical level. Interpretation can get confusing when we cross over from one culture to another as signs take on different meaning depending on the context of the culture in which we observe them.

Examples of signs in my life.

As my own awareness developed and I was free from the old style thinking I began to see through what ever I was seeing. By this I mean I began to see how seemingly random events were actually connected. More and more I began to recognize this is how life most genuinely expresses. I learned to catch the signs of meaning in the most simplest of ways. For example just a few days ago I was digging deep into my self to find an answer relating to my next steps. When I got into my car and stopped at the first street light there in front of me was a bumper sticker I had never seen before. It said.. YOUR SOUL PURPOSE IS TO LOVE in big capital letters.

Gut feelings lead the way toward intimate connection with subtle information.

Many other signs appear and in less obvious ways, in my old thinking I would say coincidence, now I say synchronicity. Many times I will be requesting understanding of something and every time I go out into my garden a butterfly will flit and fly around me, for up to an hour! Then there is the gut sensation of rightness, that goes beyond logical deductions. Many times I will have a gut feeling that I will not ignore that tells me some direction is right when everything around me appears to be the opposite. Then a person will appear and unknowingly say words that speak directly to my situation, and I feel it without question in my gut…. that “right feeling”. That was not merely a coincidence that you said that . I always marvel when this happens.

Many years ago I learned to pay attention to these gut feelings as I learned that the physical body acts like an antennae and is connected beyond my thinking mind to everything that is. Distance has no bearing, nor time. As signs often appear before something to encourage us to go forward no matter what, or to stop no matter what. Signs which have significance, or symbols or things that have meaning will appear in my path or attention that cause me to immediately think of a particular person. I know these are signs and I then redirect my attention to that person from within myself to see what it is I need to pay attention. This has happened many times with my children, family and friends and even places.

Indigenous people always have this very connected kind of radar and use it to maneuver through their lives. I have read many accounts and talked with many indigenous people in my lifetime sharing stories on the subject of signs, and this has reinforced this experience for me many, many times. For these people this is very natural and I have learned to adapt myself also to the thinking of this being natural.

Why feeling separate is important to notice.

It is only when we live in separateness that life appears to be coincidental, or miraculous when there are signs and synchronicity. This is our own unconscious making when we refuse to live in the greater truth that life herself is totally supportive, connective, and reaches into all of creation. I remember far back in the eighties when I realized how profound a shift this was. For me to finally see and feel how life is not truly separate but connected and only I had been living outside of it….. this dramatically impacted every component of my life and how I would move through the obstacles, joys, and challenges that proceeded . I learned that I even felt tested on this as I learned to deepen and trust, to wait before acting so as to see the signs and synchronicity. I know that many times I went so far out on a limb beyond my comfort levels that I depended on these events. Finally I accepted the fact that once I was running my awareness as a form of interconnection with life these occurrences were natural. Living in separation felt less and less like the genuine reality. I observed that anytime I encountered myself in thinking, or feelings of separation that I would become super sensitized to this and I would be drawn into a deeper observation. This has led to my letting go of many paradigms that we all take for granted as normal. I am astounded at how complex the ideas are I have uncovered within myself based in notions of separation. Through out my complete socialization in many incarnations I have taken these ideas on and learned how to live with them, finally now, to let them go. The polarity of connection and separation is a fascinating one to take apart and to truly inquire within the self.

When there are no signs or synchronicity I know that I must make more effort on my part with whatever subject I am seeking to understand. Often I have learned that I need to not know exactly what I “think” I need to know and I make mistakes and learn to move forward using my own decision making process before I am lifted out of my separateness and illusion. Thus I continue to grow myself and be in willingness to be guided by life. Balancing and re-balancing the polarity of separation / connection. It is essential for me to have learned to accept that this embodiment is one where experience is vital. The experience of living here provides enriching material that passes through the lens of continuous discovery and deep remembering of a soul level of existence. I find it humorous how my interior core spirituality knows stuff, while my human physical self is always tripping up and discovering out of my not knowing. Once I establish enough of a basis of new information on any reality subject I find myself shifting out of discovery to remembering.

Learning to let go by editing. Releasing unconscious ties to dark forces.

Editing out symbols that do not carry the energetic messages I want to have in my life is crucial. Learning to become “symbol aware”, I have learned to cut out any deeply anti-life, or dark symbols from my physical world. These dark symbols carry the energetic links to astral states, other dimensional places outside our perceptual line of sight. Dark forces of control, upheaval, reverse messaging, that manipulate the truthfulness of life do not have the subtle doorway into my life field as they once did. Learning to detect the vibrational messages to symbols and how these open doorways to life forms and forces that have less than my complete and ultimate pure expression of divinity are not acceptable any longer. For example I have seen many tattoos on the bodies of people I have massaged that carry a link into astral realms, of which I have no desire to open to myself. I do not wear clothing with logos or symbols that I do not have clear and specific knowledge. I do not post, hang, or adorn my home with symbols that carry the darker, lower astral, reverse messaging that is prevalent in our world society today. In this way I do not create the energetic, vibrational pathways into myself that this opens up.

Editing out in a conscious way signs and symbols can take on an uplifting effect in the energetic designs of our lives as we learn to become aware. Opening up to learn about them in new ways acts on a positive level to do the same. For this reason I became attracted to crop circles and the mysterious nature of their creation, to the messages contained in their design. Truly amazing.

Signs, symbols, and synchronicity contribute fantastic new bits of information to my human experience and learning to cultivate this as natural on a daily basis has become a lifestyle. The astounding way this has enhanced my relationship in nature, with animals, and deepened my intuition recharges my life on a daily basis. To feel connected to life is an amazing, life energizing experience that arises out of the simplest of mundane moments.

Synchronicity, to me, is the dance of living. It is the level of vibration that confirms either positively or negatively any direction or thought I am having. As well as showing me how everything is actually connected. Relationship is most deeply felt in all of life through the synchronicity, and this adds the element of wonder to my average, normal everyday life.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Consciousness Does Rewrite Programming… core spirituality, my personal journey

Consciousness Does Rewrite Programming… core spirituality, my personal journey

When our habits of mind and body are no longer useful our consciousness has the capacity to shift the programming inside us and rewrite the scripts we live by.

Consciousness has the capacity to deepen to the point of overcoming that which is inside us by re-informing the self.

Body, mind, and emotions. Spiritually our consciousness is perhaps the most potent aspect of our make up.

Consciousness as it grows within us on any subject reshapes and redirects the experiential basis of our reality by bringing in a stronger capacity to fix our attention combined with our knowing along with intuitive feeling states. Our consciousness is a major working component of our totality here on earth!

When we keep going.

When we reach a quantum degree and form of consciousness this will begin to shift the existing state within us. For this reason we develop our consciousness positively by choosing to open our heart and mind in any direction that is arising for our continued sense of personal development. By cultivating the attention to our consciousness we are generating experiences that connect the knowing part of ourselves and this knowing gains a stronger place in our overall attention by shifting what it is we focus upon. We can do this in either polarity… positive or negative.

What is consciousness?

Consciousness is a state of being-ness or IS-NESS that exists in the ALL THAT IS, and whenever we are allowing our own consciousness to open and develop we are activating something that is universal and larger than the self for which this is streaming through.

We activate a state of attention and knowledge that is not limited by a physical boundary or person.

Many people share consciousness states and gravitate toward or away from one another based on the polarity and subject matter that they are currently engaged.

Consciousness exists as a field of presence, or state of being that connects. This connection within us of ever-expanding consciousness can grow to such degrees that it replaces generational, very old, and even stuck programming. The connections we make thru our consciousness leap beyond physical boundaries, time and space. Consciousness is an infinite field of presence.

Our own experiences in this way cause the developing changes in our programming that open to us more and more of our potential capacity to know ourselves and to know the genuine truthfulness of reality.

As our developing consciousness translates into our lives our intellect becomes informed by the new information that arises creating new pathways inside our brains and thus our intelligence gains a precision that can grow in massive leaps of quantum understanding. (versus the old model which is to cultivate the intellect to obtain new information without much of the consciousness or knowing behind it. )

A major paradigm shift.

The field of consciousness develops as a basis for the intellect providing a framework, or direction for which our thoughts organize and put together meaningful interpretations of experience. We come to redefining reality in this way. The intellect becomes the interpreter of our consciousness rather than the source of our experience alone. This placement of the intellect then becomes a valuable component without overriding the more expansive and connected aspect that is our innate consciousness.

The habits of which we seem to be imprisoned are subject to our consciousness as the pure state of attention and combined presence have the capacity to increase in substantial energy that then becomes a force that grows stronger than the habit.

As new experiences are gathered the new information informing our attention re-informs the existing programming until a shift occurs. This is the dynamic state of growth and evolution of consciousness in us as spiritual beings having this human experience. The cumulative effects of increased awareness and consciousness onto any subject can cause much of our programming to literally fall away as we trade meaningful knowing for the mindlessness of programming with which we have been subjected. The mindlessness or lack of consciousness around any programming becomes translated into our physical body in such a way so as to become quite uncomfortable and without a basis of inwardly felt truthfulness. When programming like this begins to break down we are subject to crisis of all kinds.

The purposefulness of Crisis.

Crisis, when viewed from the perspective of an intact well grounded consciousness looks like opportunity as the levels of information inside our biology, begin to come undone. This can feel very uncomfortable, especially when we have developed an attachment to our programming, or we have invested tremendous feeling, emotion and patterning into programs inside us. This affects the relationship of our consciousness to our sense of identification as we already have an unconscious identification with the programming and at first do not realize this. This is where consciousness steps in to redefine. We then process levels of attachments we have to the programming and unravel it. The increase of consciousness in this way steps in to take the place of the old style and transforms the components of identity within us in brand new ways, as we grow in this process. Crisis is the start of the opening to new probabilities, new possibilities, that would have been blocked under the previous thinking.

Identity crisis… who am I?

“What am I? where am I? who are you? what are you?”naturally shifts as the new consciousness filters through the old styles and conflicts come up. These conflicts need the continued consciousness expansion to show our attention how to keep going successfully.

My experience is the deeper we develop consciousness the more information is available to us. All this new information can re-frame the old, or it can cause it to drop away and completely transform. As consciousness moves through us this becomes a metamorphosis of the self, which in turn transform the directions we are on and ultimately generates completely new possibilities. This is why we say we cannot fix the old problems with the same thinking that created them. We need more consciousness to develop as we traverse the pathways of our existing situations. When we reach a quantum level of transforming consciousness our sense of who and what we are moves like the caterpillar to the butterfly, almost unrecognizable… or simply the very best of who we already were becoming. Now the world that we see around us becomes transformed as we view it through a different lens of perception.

Cycles of repeating.

Consciousness that has shifted does not go backwards. Although it might appear so, in truth, it is simply reaching deeper into more of the old programming to transform more completely the whole body of material we were previously invested. Dipping down into old stuff eventually becomes natural and we stop losing sight of the forward progression we are making. Although our intellect thinks we are repeating, our consciousness knows that we are simply clearing out more of the same old stuff, often hidden from our awareness because of our lack of consciousness around any one subject.

The consciousness of a whole species.

As consciousness moves through more individuals we gain a collective wave of mass shifting in our attention, our capacity to understand, and our potentialities. This is happening now to our species. We are on a giant wave of collective consciousness expansion and all our previously held ideas are subject to scrutiny and updating everywhere we look.

The entire human species is in a dynamic state of break down and redefining what we all thought was real and truthful.

Our world, outwardly reflects what is actually going on internally for the vast number of many of us. Yet still there are those who insist on digging their heads into the sand, ignoring the changes, resisting those changes and there results much confusion, suffering and pain as these humans do not want the changes.

We are free to choose to grow our consciousness or to keep our programming.

We are not stuck, even though the feeling may feel like it. This is because we need to develop beyond the programming and open more to consciousness. Thinking our way out, or by intellectually trying to make changes does not work. Remembering that we cannot change a problem with the same thinking that created it. Thinking alone is not enough to rewrite hundreds of years of familial, genetic, patterning. These programs need consciousness to get the job done.

Consciousness is what is transforming each of us, and along the way we are losing our old programming. These programs are deeply entrenched without any consciousness and so take huge amounts of consciousness expansion to release. Patience, and forgiveness, along with doses of quietude and self-care go along way to healing any condition we are seeking to change. Programs inside us are only patterns without consciousness, this is why and how our attention to developing consciousness becomes paramount in today’s world. We did not realize how unconscious we were.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Consciousness and the Intellect… Learning the differences…….core spirituality, my personal journey

Consciousness and the Intellect… Learning the differences…….core spirituality, my personal journey

Exploring my “Lens of Perception”.

Here I will explore some of the major differences I have found developing the intellect and developing the consciousness and how this has brought me to view my understanding of life ( revealing my perceptual lens).

Childhood “education”…programming.

Early in my life I began to seek answers that I could not find from the world around me through the practice and development of meditation. Like everyone else, as a child, I found myself surrounded by adults who seemed to have an idea of what was best for me and so I was educated, indoctrinated…… taught in all manner of political,social, religious, emotional, intellectual basics.

Much of it very useful in learning how to get along, how to pass and fit in with others, how to “think” I had a connection to something larger than myself. Things like reading, writing…. how to use my mind were all good things that are valuable in today’s society. Like everyone around me I learned all these things and yet by the time I was 15-16 years of age I still had a deep stirring in my gut that was very uncomfortable and would not let me rest with what I had learned. I seemed to have a greater sense-ability which I could feel that would urge me beyond the realities I was told exist and that I had to abide by. None of it actually true. However the case, I look back now and I see how I had one very discernible difference within myself from the majority around me.

This was the relentless development of my consciousness, over the intense training of my intellect.

Maintaining a vigilant awareness of internal freedoms.

I simply felt the need to protect freedom within myself, without the controls, that to me seemed unnecessary. The primary feeling deep within myself of this difference I noticed is the capacity to find more meaningful answers to life that went beyond what always appeared on the surface of how and what the world in general was teaching me. I need to be free inside to be the real me.

I can see now how the development of consciousness has served me in living a prosperous, generous, lively, evolving, inwardly personal responsible life regardless of how much money I have had or how I looked. Where as when I see a majority of my contemporaries who have followed the more common path of developing their intellects along the lines of traditional thinking there is a sizable difference. I see so many zombie like people believing everything in the mainstream medias which fill the air with fear and powerlessness, believing dogmas and doctrines of religions without personal experiences, people numbed out from use of pharmaceuticals and social drugs, and a general level of life frustration that never leaves. There are way too many followers needing someone to tell them what to do. Externally dependent individuals are everywhere.

The result is a significant difference, the many forms of internal, social suppression of all kinds which limit the perception of embracing what is actually possible in life. There is a sever limiting of the human potential, or the genuine expression of the spiritual being in the masses of our humanity.

Hidden forms of social and spiritual suppression.

Upon reflection I can see a wide spectrum of diverse forms of suppression. Suppression of genuine inner knowledge, and a connection to the universal realms of life beyond the visible spectrum of light.

( If I cannot see it, it does not exist… mentality) Not learning to observe outside the dogmas and doctrines of our organized society leading to the subversion of genuine self-awareness and genuine alignments to internal freedom of self-will.

The ways that an externally based education can subvert inner learning about the truthfulness of self is remarkable as it covers over self-awareness or deeply knowing self and our relationship to the greater whole of existence. I find this fact remarkable and I see how this leads to many covert forms of social, group and individual forms of spiritual control.

For example I know now that the doctrine of Original Sin programmed into me as a child that lead me to believe I had to be baptized and submit to rules of the catholic church are all bogus. None of this is truth! Even though I was taught this everyday in school for my entire childhood. Eventually I was able to experience many direct moments of clear connection to what I would call is my soul, and none of those ideas actually exist there. They were as I discovered… all man-made. I was educated to believe that all homosexuals were perverted, sinful, and abominations. As I grew to investigate the truth of my self and my connection to my soul I learned again that none of this was true, it was all man-made up.

All manner of controls through perception have been created that subvert the genuine self-knowledge that are directly within us all. Very interesting. What is generally referred to as education is actually a kind of perceptual suppression which tells a person how to see and think in the world which limits how we perceive what is possible.

Life is all vibrational.

This is most evident to me through my own development of the awareness of vibration. As I have become more vibrationally aware I have learned to recognize life beyond the visible light spectrum of what we are taught is reality. And this perceptual level holds a vast wider range of life, and a genuine existence extending far beyond the programmed one I was taught to see and live accordingly. The astounding truth of how life is vibrational in nature is so much more filled with so much more information that it is staggering to learn how to integrate. Yet this is never taught in our schools when it is actually a main component of what reality is in all truthfulness.

This obvious omitting of vibrational awareness allows a kind of dumbing down, or thought control because we do not see beyond our lens of perception and thus our potentialities are blocked. (if I cant see it, it doesn’t exist… mentality)

I will never forget the early days of my introduction into vibrational awareness as a young teenager. I learned to see how color and sound were but the same expression though expressed differently depending on how we perceive it, seeing the auric fields of people, plants and the earth showed me how the actuality of life is in a state of inter-connected-ness based on the frequencies of its origins. The idea that everything is separate is simply not a truth. That we are not separate invalidates millions of laws on this planet, millions of political actions etc.

I remember the first couple of times I went inside a bar, a place I had never been before as a child, where I could see the vibrational component of activity there.

To my astonishment I was able to watch how individuals who were intoxicated were actually being vampire- by entities who were not physical at all. I could see all kinds of unconscious activity being downloaded into and through people under the influences of the alcohol and drugs in ways that were not actually genuine to those people. As entities would “piggy back” on people and fill them with all kinds of negative energies, behaviors and experiences. I was horrified to observe the airspace around people and above them as this was all going on. This was awful to see yet powerful to realize. Losing self composure, I learned was a way for non physical life forms to grab hold of people and influence them when they were not looking.

Later in my work world I could see how the vibration of an individual is clearly evident regardless of what picture they were telling me, or showing me. Our field of vibration is truthful and reveals any kind of self-deception, any kind of self-imposed limitation, any forms of denial, in any way that a person may be trying to lie, or deceive. It is easy to see the walls, the darkness, and the sludge inside the electronic field of a person. This would alert me to the genuine nature of a problem the person would be expressing and I could see the origins. We carry people, memories, unexpressed emotions of all kinds inside our electric field of vibration and it appears most people are not aware of this. Inside the physical body are all the channels of energy flow in which the electric vital forces of the body are distributed. I began to have an interest in acupuncture as I was seeing these channels and could observe the high or low flow of energies in the body. This is all real and became a way for me to learn to assist those who came to me in need of re-balancing. I observed how I could direct this vital force from myself to another to influence it in a corrective way thus restoring balance. I did not need anything, no needles or implements simply the conscious awareness and intention to heal and balance. Each session I would be shown through the lens of perception… the perception of vibration.

By choosing a profession for days and weeks and months and years and now decades of time in stillness, silence, and quietude I have learned to be much more aware of how people feel, how places feel, and in this way to develop a vibrational awareness. Including the capacity to expand on what healing really means to me, and how to participate in a healing process without interfering with another. I have learned how not to believe what much of what religions, social systems, society, authorities of every kind are perpetrating all over the world.

Distortions of perception

When our perceptions are severely limited, shortened, and distorted our capacity to experience truthfulness directly by way of personal experience is completely high jacked.

We do not know this because of the collective agreements we share through our perceptual lenses. Our agreements about how we see one another effect our behaviors and this in turn generates our collective experience of reality.

A reality that we create out of our ideas of perception. Even though this may actually be a distortion.

This pattern has repeated for generations upon generations in our humanity. We can see this as we finally learn to see ourselves beyond what we thought was true. When enough people see something differently we seem to be able to shift our reality and then things change. We can see this quite easily in our law systems. Laws evolve out of our growing need to maintain a level of safety and well-being. Yet even this can remain distorted as in the present day laws enacted out of the crisis of 9/11. We can see now how our very constitutional rights are being eliminated for more covert forms of social control. There is a delicate balance between real and not real everywhere that we are learning to detect.

Suppression of what is possible

The most significant outcome of developing our intellects far beyond our consciousness is how we are suppressing the possible in our lives. Firstly many of us are deeply entrenched in thoughts that control us and limit us is hard to see and break through because we do not see beyond our own beliefs based in thinking that is purely intellectual and self-made. We become prisoners of our own making and yet know it not. The immense, gargantuan tide of human denial is mind-blowing. Denial prevents us from our most intrinsic inner freedom of expression and self knowing. Thus we do not recognize how so many of us are being controlled by forces outside us. Forces that we have all internalized as real. This is clear in millions of ways in our global society.

The flip side of this is not seeing, not knowing that we can…. we can do ….. we can get along, we can find ways to feed everyone, we can heal violence, we can heal the hurts and on and on and on. We believe ourselves to be separated by all these thoughts that distance us from each other and the reality of this is none of it is actually truthful. It is all man-made. I know from personal experience. I have traveled to over 75 countries, worked in many different cultures with many different people, I have encountered my own self everywhere in all people. We are not that different as a species, we think differently…. but we are not innately that different as beings.

We are all learning

As a spiritual being having a human experience I have had to look deeply into my own way of seeing life. I have had to identify my own perceptual lenses. I have had to learn how to see again, how to see inside what I see and see more. I have learned that what I see around me is a result of my lens. I understand how valuable developing a healthy mind can be, and learning to use my intellect. However I have moved the intellect over so that it is not my dominant means of perceiving. I have allowed my consciousness to expand and to inform my intellect. Which up to now seems to be a more appropriate place for it to be. I continue to see how an overly developed intellect can separate and divide, how it can generate fear, and be used to control people.

The word Consciousness is originally derived from the Latin con (with) and scire (to know).

The difference in thinking something and knowing it is our conscious experience.

Consciousness is well worth developing.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

The Evolving Realization of the Self… core spirituality, my personal journey

The Evolving Realization of the Self… core spirituality, my personal journey

Their comes a time on the path of self awareness when we realize how our experiences are here to remind us of some deep inner knowing, something we have forgotten. Pointing us in a direction which holds a better way for each one of us.

This activation of our attention starts out in sporadic ways as the dawning light of our soul’s true essence breaks through the massive litanies of our human history. We begin the lengthy process of unlearning.

Recognizing the great charade, unlearning what we thought was real.

How important unlearning is becomes evident as genuine remembering of the natural reality of the spiritual self arises inside us as we go through our AHAA’S. These AHAA’S are a wake up signal that we can learn to cultivate. We begin to recognize that there really is within us a familiarity and a knowledge of life that fits with our sense of personal harmony.

First we learn how to face ourselves and take off the blinding actions of shame and blame.

However, the long process of facing what is real within us first becomes the work of the evolving realization of self. As we learn to accept and face our feelings which are hurtful, harmful, painful, agonizing, and self limiting. The honesty of self reflection at this stage does not always reveal the greater awareness which lies just below the surface of our attention.

We are too invested in our drama, drama, drama at the early stages of waking up.

The choice to honestly face both our deepest most uncomfortable feelings as well as our most precious unexpressed longings are the initial steps to awakening our active participation in self realization. By self realization I am implying becoming our most REAL SELF.

Grappling with what we do not want to see, face, or feel.

The difficulty with this stage is the tremendous amount of mental and emotional energy we have used to build our walls of protection against our ills, our pains, and our illusions of reality. And also the people we have surrounded ourselves with who have contributed to our needs for agreement so we can sustain these dramas.

We sustain our points of view with our personal attention by repeating scenarios in our minds to make sure we are still where we think ourselves to be in drama, where we believe we have been victim, or to perpetrate the drama we want to run with people around us or the world dramas in general.

We then surround ourselves with others who will reinforce our notions and we gain agreements to solidify our pains. To learn to give these dramas up to something that feels more harmonious takes effort. Our thinking and the emotional patterns which arise from this are deeply set inside our attention and are habits to break and require a vigilant effort to learn to release.

Refusal to see ourselves, facing our denials.

Learning to face what is real contains the notion that we are creating through our own feelings and thoughts. We learn to see what we are really doing by way of these self made feelings and thoughts and up to this time this is all very real. This can bring to the surface of our person many feelings which up to this point have been denied expression. These are the unacceptable feelings that the self has stored away and hidden with justifications, defenses, and painful histories which provide a basis for staying in our limited selves. We grow ourselves up here at this point by choosing willingly to take full responsibility for whatever it is we are feeling and thinking and start to heal the hurt, and the victim self.

Choosing the path of self responsibility

The result of facing these kinds of emotions and thinking is the development of emotional awareness, a more refined identification of our emotions. As we develop our emotional awareness and learn to identify our feelings, name them, and learn to feel them completely through we learn how these states actually transport our awareness into a more clear development of our mental, emotional nature.

The inner work leads to new forms of personal clarity.

When we develop our emotional nature with greater depth and clarity this leads to the greater realizations of spirituality that are waiting to be felt and expressed which exist beyond the limiting boundaries of our lesser selves. These larger spiritual places of which there is greater personal freedom lead us into our more honest places of true free will. At this point we have learned to go beyond what we thought was the limit and found inner resources which provide additional self understanding, strength, and now VISION.

New pictures begin to form inside our heads.

Vision, as in seeing who we really are as spiritually identified beings… Vision as in the soul based, spiritually energized access to our own inner purposes and plan for this embodiment. Here we contact the universal substance of co creation within us and then use this new awareness to continue on our path. And while many scenarios of discord, confusion, and incongruity may drop away there is still more to tackle.

What is shifted is our capacity to resolve our personal dilemmas and to make better choices which will transmute the negative life scenarios still active around us. With this new spiritual fuel of a more highly developed emotional awareness, and the clearing of our own negativity we hold a larger space of possibility for our own further development and greater access to authentic true free will.

This is much like the transformation of the caterpillar to the butterfly. Personal metamorphosis arises and lifts us out of many damaging life situations and redirects our attention to the new directions inherent in our life plans. Healing on all levels is activated as our physical cells now have access to greater life forces, our minds are opened beyond our old thinking, and our emotions are not squashed into our loaded subconscious and we have clear access to feeling that now includes intuition.

Intuition is simply the essence of the self now activated into and through the personality. It is a natural component of the self. And it is something that now becomes a new tool to learn, to respect, to develop.

Intuition is amazing.

Intuition is amazing in that it connects us to the larger picture of life, and connects our attention beyond the limiting ego self. The ego self is merely the organizer that makes sure we have our keys before we go out the door, or makes certain we know how to get where we are going. The ego self is actually a wonderful component which helps us stay connected into the time-line and daily activity. It no longer is the main driver of our life. As intuition develops more and more we learn how capable we are of holding a larger version of reality, of how not to hurt others, and how to navigate through difficult situations with finesse and a real sense of deeper cooperation with life. We learn to use the ego self in proportion to the other parts of ourselves with a much better balance. We learn too that we are much much more capable at this point as there are so many coincidences, serendipitous happenings, and amazing circumstances that show up and we observe how purpose is behind whatever is now currently happening around us. We learn to embrace mystery as a safe passage into opening ourselves to being able to hold greater and greater truthfulness about life. We then realize we are part of the cosmos.

Taking away the fear of mystery and not knowing.

When we learn to embrace mystery and not knowing with an opened mind, a receptive heart, and a clearer sense of feeling we start to actualize potentials. Our potentials were not available before to us in our limited, judgmental, self loathing, unloved state. However at this point these qualities have become so refined that our discernment is much more refined and we are stronger and more able to explore our own mysterious not knowing. We learn to live with paradox as we walk fine lines between different realities around us and people running all kinds of dramas. I have felt many times the fine balance of real knowing simultaneously beside not knowing and moved forward anyway. We learn the difference between real fear, which is signaling danger is ahead with self created fear, fear of not knowing. The discernment of fear and its origins becomes another valuable tool that we add to our awareness as we move through our own personal paths of mystery.

The creative urge is mysterious.

As we encompass larger components of our creative urge we connect with our deepest longings and our intuitive nature combining our resources to cultivate discovery in ever more fascinating ways. The act of creation is not all filled with instant knowing of what lies ahead but does hold a kind of promise. We learn what I call “right direction”. Right direction is the meaningful way our own daily life unfolds from one moment to another with a sense of purpose that speaks directly to each one of us. This right direction has its own boundaries and movement, along with stasis and set back. All of it meaningful as we continue through our journey of life.

Learning to open ourselves to even more.

When we can live each day with a pure sense of self, connection to the ALL THAT IS or source, when we can be strong enough to face our own self loathing, self created miseries, and let go of our painful histories, when we can sustain an open heart, and open mind, and then embrace our own personal life mysteries, we have begun the path of self realization towards co creation. We learn to embody joy as natural to us without the need for circumstance. We learn to hold possibility for those around us as they too struggle with the pitfalls of self realization. We learn to walk away from the damaging aspects of our human past and we align with something much greater than all of us. This is core spirituality.

Core spirituality, my personal journey of self investigation

Reality Selection…core spirituality, my personal journey

Reality Selection…core spirituality, my personal journey

Reality selection is the choice to live with what is real.

Reality selection is something all humans are participating and whether we do this in a conscious way by selecting truthfully…. or unconsciously, by selecting only those versions which fit our perceptions regardless of natural truth is all a matter of our growing self awareness and evolution.

We may choose moment by moment by way of examining our free will choices. We may choose unconsciously out of habit, comfort, familiarity,or inheritance through our family of origin and social systems. Without the questioning of what is real, or that which we consider reality we are subject to what it is we place our attention and our personal life energy. From this we develop our experiences which arise from these places. (this is happening whether we recognize it or not because this is the nature of reality.)

The ever present experience of powerlessness and the victim.

The idea I encounter in the world most frequently, especially as a therapist is victim thinking. So frequently even highly effective people have hidden pockets of this inside them without realizing this; I find individuals stuck,or in a stasis of non progress with their situations not realizing that the subtle feeling of not knowing what to do next, or not realizing that one must press further in a personal search for solutions, rather than allowing self to submit to another person’s idea of action.

I find this with people who go to doctors. Physical therapists, and therapists of all kinds. I listen to people express this through their political opinions. Seeking answers, guidance, support, and treatment for whatever their particular ailments might be. Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual. I often encounter a lack of awareness of the “self development” required to address issues with others so as to cultivate one’s own interior self design for what is to come next. This is all about the inner voice we all have that is guiding us and ultimately choosing to act upon the final decision in the matter based on what our inner voice, or conscience, heart mind, or spiritual self is seeking.

Human beings and our evolution.

Humans are like babies in this way as so much of our socialization is externally based and the inner self has been subverted for outward forms of authority that provide solutions for inner places within us.

Read that last sentence again.

This is beginning to change in larger and larger ways now. There is a gigantic shift happening. We are learning to turn inward to find the authority to learn to see, feel, and design life more from the interior place of free will choice and the realization that our possibilities do arise actually from within self.

The process of growing ourselves up.

When we accumulate enough of these kinds of experiences we learn that reality as we select it, is truly something that evolves from within us and the outer world falls into a kind of order from this place that is actually within. The world becomes the outer manifestation of our inner selves.

With enough of this kind of reality we build into the self the authenticity of inner sovereignty.

Still we can see all over the world many people still seeking this authentic authority outside of themselves and how this is slightly out of alignment with natural order. For natural order is by nature something that we are all born of , made of, are immersed within, and learn to recognize as our own mastery through the experiences of having a physical embodiment and recognizing that when we identify as spiritual beings having a human experience, and not the other way around… physical beings having a spiritual experience. We are free to select any version of reality as we go through the life experiences we are having regardless of our circumstance, our nation of birth, our color of skin, our family history, or even our previous life experiences. We can choose to shift our experiences by way of making new choices that lead differently into our future time-lines.

Learning to transmute our experience into something better.

As we accumulate experiences into ourselves which come truthfully from within us and not outside of us we realize the power we have to transmute whatever it is that is unsatisfactory. This is quite natural and places us into a wider spectrum of choices because we have moved off the limiting game board of generations before us onto the the one of CO-CREATIVITY.

Co-creativity is the most natural place for a human being to see themselves develop and this inner place of awareness nurtures the entire purpose for physical embodiment.

All of life around us is already in this dynamic state of co-creativity, all the different aspects of life thrive on this kind of order. Animals, plants. The planet, and the cosmos.

It is the most present, everlasting, largest most consistent form of reality. Co-creation !

However for the majority of life forms the one component that is most different from our is the matter of personal, free will and how we use free will to make choices about all of this. Each representative of our species )that is each person) has this single component to learn to activate. Yet in the other species this is more of a collective choice or group mind choice. For us this is individual.

By way of transmuting the incongruity in our lives, by transmuting the negatives into positives we shift the reality we live and widen our choices further. Because when we do this we are placing ourselves into the natural order of the cosmos, of life herself. By taking ourselves out of a man made ideology, or an intellectually based notion of reality we free up the life force that is us and we join with others who are already learning how to do this. This is called reality selection!

Belief systems

ideologies

socialization

past histories

social and family rules

political standings

self identity

are but a few of the very important places inside us with which we each have the power, the possibility to change through our free will choices.

Learning that all we thought was and is not real but actually made up by man, is a big step to unravel as so many of our perceptions were learned from these kinds of thinking. Agreement by others reinforce these man made ideas. To step away and discover what is truthfully inherent and what is not within us is a task that comes along as we mature with our choices and develop our self identities. Nothing is written in stone so we have total inner free will to decide for ourselves all along the way.

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ATMAN… My Encounter While Watching TV, core spirituality my personal journey

 

ATMAN… My Encounter While Watching TV, core spirituality my personal journey

Here is my story. I was tired after a long day of sessions of bodywork and eager to relax for an hour before bed by having a bite to eat and watching a favorite show on my dvr, I needed to just shift gears. As I was watching TV I kept feeling a radiance or tingling , tickling sensation pouring onto the right side of my head. At first I thought it was my hair, then I thought there was something on me, I ignored it. However it increased in intensity until I was feeling a steady hot streaming of electrical impulses that were very fine and completely focused on the right hemisphere of my brain.

Ultimately I just lay back with my head on a pillow as I felt this tingling electrical sensation going through my head. As I lay there with my eyes closed I began to wonder what this was that I was feeling, and where it was coming from? I looked up above me as I could feel the streaming direction to my left and just behind me.

I saw a translucent being sitting in a lotus position that was male. I wondered if this was a Bodhisattva, and just as I asked I realized this being was in direct telepathic rapport with me as I immediately heard a response that said “NO”. I wondered if this was an ET and again it said “NO”.

Hmmm ….. I began to see more as I was beginning to visualize a clear radiant pattern of electric like light pouring down into my head. And the figure said, ATMAN in a deep resonate kind of way, like we were in a long gigantic tunnel. I heard this repeated several times. ATMAN……ATMAN.

And I did not know this word.

Surrounding this figure and within it I also could see a beautiful golden sphere of light and another white sphere of light around that from which this figure emerged. I took it all in and then returned to continue to watch my TV show without much thought.

 

However again it spoke to me, “I am the original you, from which all your incarnations arise”. At this point I began to see a long holographic movie that spanned millions o f years of time in which I could see many many embodiments in which I had the distinct understanding and feeling that were all part of my own experience. This surrounded me in a semi circular way. These images flashed rapidly and appeared to be dimensional as they looked alive as in real life. I could see the vast range of history through these images and this included other planets, other lives as non human as well as lives in pure energy form in a kind of no-space place.

I was sort of suspended in “no- thought” as I watched the scenes unfold all around me. And again I heard ATMAN repeated several times in a clear and distinct resonance that felt as if it was moving thru long halls of time and space. As I was quite tired and eager to watch my show I simply listened and watched this unfold and then I returned to watch TV. (I was really tired )

When it was time for me to go to sleep I got up and turned all the electrical things off in my living room and the last thing was my computer. As I walked over to my desk I had the idea that I must google that word, ATMAN. To learn if this was a real word, and how it was defined.

When I googled the word I found the many ancient references through the various religions of the world and older writings. I saw that this referred to the original self, the deepest aspect of self within the soul. I was astounded.

This was a spontaneous non ordinary experience that I learned has specific meaning to me. I went to bed in a state of awe as I realized the entire experience I had just gone through. When I awoke the next morning my attention immediately returned to the ATMAN.

I went into my day with a different sense of clarity in seeing everything around me. Most noticeable was my feeling of order and beauty in the natural world. I felt a sense of cosmic order and a deep remembering of the soul. I found my inner thoughts through out the day returning to this deep place of understanding how it is we choose and take on embodiment and how we as spiritual beings live our embodiments as a means of knowing ourselves as aspects of creation learning many many things along the way. I began to have many thoughts about birth and death and life and the magnificent unfolding way with which we create our existence as souls. I kept reflecting on the immense opportunity of wide ranges of both positive and negative experiences we are able to have. This heightened state of attention lasted for almost a week and then it gradually lessened. Yet I was infused in a new personal inner experience that had opened up to me the nature of my life and the world around me. I could feel that I had another level of understanding of soul from the direct heightened experiences that started with those first few moments on the couch.

Non ordinary states of consciousness are naturally integrated in the journey of each one of us as we open and learn and let go along the way of each life we live. These states of awareness that join with our common day serve as backgrounds of substantial substance adding to our place here. In this way we learn to integrate more of who we truly are as spiritual being having a human experience. Not that this ever need be shared with others, the resulting effects are such that the vibratory nature of our awareness is shifted and enhanced and this shift leads to a widening of the perceptual lens with which we view reality. Most often this new vibrational level is enough and I find no reason to share these heightened experiences with others.

As this is a very personal experience I find myself referencing it like any other memory I have had. As each of our experiences imprint us and shift us as we go along in our day. This one had the effect of releasing thoughts and ideas that are not born of the INTELLECT, but of SOURCE AS SOUL. This release of thinking in me opened me up to more possibility of soul recognition in my work, and in my own ordinary day time activities.

The new imprints available that arise from within us are here to update us as we evolve and grow and truly assist us in navigating more harmoniously and more peacefully in the world. Lessening our reactions to what is happening because we see how soul is behind the activities and the differences in soul activity and human intellectual, egotistical activities are expressed here in our society. The differences become more clear.

When we have direct experience of our source self from within us we also shift the interior self image and thus relate from this new place with its added understandings.

I know that the days after wards I noticed a subtle lightness about me with less density in my own body and mind. And I know from within myself that this lightness of being is more closely related to the vibrational nature of the spiritual self, or soul self I experienced when I encountered the ATMAN.

I have since felt an ever deepening love and compassion in my chest, my heart. I have found myself viewing life and the horrid things going on here with this sort of objectivity which continues to grow each day. This loving compassion lifts the judge-mental weight of the human intellect out of the heart and replaces it with a detached love of which it is hard for me to describe in words. Although I know this is a direct feeling experience that helps me and those I serve through my work and my daily interactions. It is not something that could easily be taken away from me now. I am impressed with sharing this experience in light of my previous post to demonstrate the differences between how we generate beliefs through our points of view versus reality and the direct path of inner knowing that arises as we evolve our awareness out of intellectually based thinking. There is more to all of us to discover….

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How Do We Humans Get Ourselves Into So Many Problems ?… core spirituality, my personal journey

How Do We Humans Get Ourselves Into So Many Problems ?… core spirituality, my personal journey

I have had to ask myself how did I get myself into so many problems in life, issues, and conflicts and what about the rest of the world and the human problems I see all around us?

I came to see how I was born into a specific set of circumstances loaded already with many issues the people in my family, my society, all had running when I was born. I took it on

I began to question and I started to sort through the layers of experiences and the beliefs behind these experiences to find my own answers to life’s challenges. Without the active pursuit of an open minded questioning I would still be stuck in myriads of situations that presently some members of my family are still suffering, and also many in the larger human family struggle continuously now for many generations. It is a difficult situation that we as a human family share. I determined to look through the lens of us as a species to gain a larger context for the conflicts and problems associated with daily living.

Developing sincerity along the way.

Developing a sincere attitude towards willing introspection along with raw honesty I have been looking within for my answers for many years now. Quiet reflection and solitude I have surrounded myself as I have learned how to disengage from the habitual business of human life and constant drama, drama, drama.

I have learned to recognize characteristics with which I have learned are very much subconscious to many people, these aspects of human habit are right under the surface of our normal attentions.

We collectively agree through our actions and the thinking behind those actions and perpetrate specific human behaviors merely out of habit.

This is a genuine form of unconscious living. A kind of zombie like behavior that millions of individuals participate every single day.

These are some of the ideas with which I have come to ask myself.

How do I form my point of view, my lens of perception?

When we base our point of view on our perceptions alone, those born of our point of view without stark reality we form and perpetrate many illusions. Generations upon generations of people have specific beliefs which are born of a point of view that does not come from reality.

This generates a conflict.

Without questioning our perceptions and how and where they come from, while disregarding stark reality we form our mindsets and these become beliefs that we live and die by. (a good reality check is look around you at the current state of suffering and injustice still prevalent globally)

Regardless of reality. I find this astounding.

Am I really who I “think” myself to be?

We form these ideas, mindsets, and beliefs without the clarity of reality as easily as we pick up a book off the table. No thought about it with a kind of automatic agreement to those around us. And because we have this silent agreement we perpetrate false realities, false ideas, false beliefs that have no basis in reality. We believe our mind’s ideas are reality and carry on. We feel supported by like minded others and so we think ourselves to “right”.

I have adjusted my attitude in the following new way…(I’d rather be real than “right”, I’d rather be good than “right”)

So the question arises who do I think I am, and what am I?

Looking around this planet we can see many conflicting differences to this one question. Without the stark reality of life there is little to organize and connect it all. Purely subjective, and separate individuals create their notions of self with little regard to the larger perspective of reality.

The illusions perpetrate lifestyles, politics, religions, businesses, military actions, dangerous businesses, that continue to undermine the possibility of a general consensus of reality that is interconnected, interdependent, co creative, and win/win in it’s outcomes. The small minded notions of self as separate, in a kind of constant race with others simply does not work in the long run for everyone. The blind acceptance of mindsets generated by television, by religious leaders, by military factions, by political voices, by scientific zombies, to name a few are a dangerous path leading to more of the same thinking that created all the problems in the first place. I made a shift here, we can make more shifts in our thinking.

We cannot solve problems with the same thinking that created those problems.

An open minded approach to self understanding and the willingness to define ourselves from within, versus from outside us is a significant leap in human evolution.

We are starting to realize we must redefine who we are, what we are. And stop taking the answers to these questions from authorities outside of ourselves. We can be our own authority. We rewrite the script that generations before us have paid a dear price for and recreate a better way.

Truth tellers, whistle blowers, and those who have learned to face and embrace reality, stark real true reality, and not the “reality of some man’s thinking” are coming forward now all over the world. Individuals gathering into masses are coming forward to express their genuine truths and the status quo that has held things in place does not like it.

All manner of social systems, politics, and other factions are beginning to break down now as we watch the unraveling of the world we thought was real, and is not.

The falseness of our ideas and the systems we put into place are crumbling all around us. As those who hold tight to these outgoing ways strive to exert their last attempts at control, fear, submission on the larger collective or our human family. The result is tremendous fear building and much bloodshed and mayhem along the way.

The effects of false ideas perpetrated as reality

We are not merely a result of cellular division, as science has told us. We are light beings, souls incarnate with weight that can be measured. We are not originally sinners who must submit to blind beliefs as many religions tell us. We are actually spiritual beings having a human experience and the spiritual being that is us is an expression of divinity of which all life is made. We are not all separated from one another by countries as military and politics tell us, all those boundaries are man made and made up. We are a single human species with much diversity living together on one, one planet! We do not have to find our answers to life from those outside ourselves as many leaders from all factions of life are telling us who we are and what we are, we may find those answers for ourselves inside our selves. The experts are each one of us collectively helping one another to be our best as we ourselves each decide this!

Deception

The level of human deception and the betrayals that follow this is beyond present understanding on this planet. The result of the deceptions of thousands of years of human activity are upon us as we wake up to the gargantuan problems we have created for ourselves and we learn to go within to find better answers to life. This is a difficult task for our humanity. We find ourselves having to let go and to move on to new thinking.

Everyone is impacted and everyone is making choices.

Consciously or unconsciously we are creating what we are living through every day of our lives. It behooves us to awaken to this and learn to humbly release ourselves from all forms of outward submission, blind belief, and choose to stop our suffering. We can and we are doing this already.

I define myself many ways as I have come to know myself, and my primary identification is as a spiritual being having a human experience. I have very vivid memories of my life here, my childhood, and even my own conception. I have clear memories of incarnations in other times as other people. I have clear memories of lives in other worlds and outside this world and physicality. My own spiritual essence has shown me and connected within me these pieces of information as a result of my own intent to be honest and clear with self, and find my way out of the problems I have had to encounter. I know we humans are much much more than we have previously held ourselves to be. I know that I am not the only one!

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